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Wen Xu's expression didn't change at all, as if he had talked about what his mother would say, but his expression was cold, and there seemed to be a smile on the corner of his mouth, and he asked softly: "Mom, am I making trouble? After so many years, I Have you ever made a fuss? Or, you and my dad always thought I was making a fuss?"

Mother Wen is annoyed by Wen Xu's attitude, but Wen Xu is a stickler. For so many years, Wen Xu is like a cotton person who can't get angry. Unable to speak.

"Then why did you bring that person home! Why didn't you go home for so long, why didn't you take the money that your mother transferred to you, why... even your brother is alienated?" Mother Wen said that she was sad, and stared Both big eyes turned red.

Her son, she was the one who didn't know him the least.

She only thinks that she is gentle and has a good temper. Even if she is ignored by herself and his father, she can still thrive. She has her own plans and goals. She has been raised to this day, and she can still look like they like.

It's as if he's never been a person, not even a dog, but just a tree, a potted plant, soaking up the rainwater and taking root, unpruned and thriving.Now the plant is lush and lush, and the seeds it produces want to float far away, but she is unwilling.

Wen Xu thought it was a little funny, "You must think I'm ignorant, right? You don't like children who lose their temper, so I haven't lost my temper outside once since I was a child. After elementary school, I haven't gotten angry even once. I'm almost forgetting what it's like to be angry. I don't cry, I don't fight, I don't even need your care, your love anymore."

Wen Xu shook his head, watching the expression on Mother Wen's face become unbelievable.

There was no wave in his heart, but he continued: "I am good to Xiaoshu not only because he is my younger brother, but also because I don't want him to be like me. I want him to lose his temper as he likes and do what he likes." Not being restrained, not being planned, really like a spoiled child, that is the happiest look I can think of, a look that I don't have, and I can't have."

"I gave birth to you! I gave birth to you with all my might. I went to hell for you. Your father and I went out to earn money and work. Isn't it all for you? You talk like this now, it makes me chill. You It’s my own fault, but I still have to involve your brother.”

"Then what you said won't make me chill?" Wen Xu still smiled, looking at the gradually distorted face of Wen's mother, he felt very strange, "I actually envy Xiao Shu, but I don't envy him , I am very grateful to him. I am good to him, and you are also good to him, but in turn, I can only feel his love for me. He is very clumsy and likes to make a mess of things, but he is working hard Tell me I am his kin and he loves me."

Wen Xu paused, his sharp eyes softened.

"He was a huge part of what kept me going through such a difficult time."

Mother Wen felt a little unreasonable. For so many years, a thick wall seemed to be built between her and Wen Xu invisible. No one could see the other's heart, and everyone was complaining about each other.She leaned against the edge of the pool, took a sip of water from the cup, and said: "We are not partial to him. You have been obedient since you were a child, but Xiaoshu, his grades are not stable, and he has a big temper. He gets angry and makes trouble at every turn. have to……"

Afterwards, Wen Xu didn't pay attention to those clichés. He naturally knew about them. He knew that crying children had candy. The countless days and nights left behind were slowly handed over to Wen Shu.

He hoped that his younger brother could live a different life.

It's just that he didn't expect that even so, Wen Shu would still be taught by them to be what he is now, which he didn't expect.

"Mom, have you ever thought about why you guys are afraid sooner or later, and why Xiaoshu is in such pain now." Wen Xu interrupted Mother Wen's chatter, and suddenly brought the topic to Chiqir.

Without waiting for Wen's mother to organize her words, Wen Xu said directly: "You taught me that love is incompetent, and that you taught Wen Shu to harm others and benefit oneself. You make us feel that we are evading innocence. The way to deal with problems is to pin them on others. You hope that sooner or later this big guy will never show up, right? When you are taken away and locked up sooner or later, dare you say that you never expected him to be sentenced to life without term?"

Mother Wen was stunned, her eyes were full of tears, it was the first time she heard "resentment" and "anger" in Wen Xu's tone, every word was like a knife, piercing her heart , unable to move.This is her child, and she raised him. She doesn't understand why Wen Xu has become like this now, and why he doesn't develop into what she expects according to the direction of pruning.

After Wen Shu was taken over by his parents to take care of him, he was not happy.If Wen Xu is expected to become a big brother who will not get angry, is always gentle, has stable grades, has a stable life, and manages the Wen family, then he is expected to become a rebel who smoothes his bones and cleanses the simple concept of right and wrong in his heart. , Turning the useless empathy ability into a tool for his own profit, he was required to make up lessons, was restricted from making friends, and was almost suffocated by the impenetrable love.

They are all being kidnapped by love.

"No, Xiao Xu, how can you miss Mom and Dad so much." Mother Wen kept shaking her head, she could barely stand still by holding on to the edge of the pool, she explained over and over again: "We know sorry sooner or later, But... But Xiaoshu's future is not a child's play. If Xiaoshu is implicated in jail and has a criminal record, what do you ask him to do! Our old Wen family is sorry for him sooner or later, and your father and I will find a way to compensate him ,us……"

"Then let me make it up to him, okay?" Wen Xu was so angry that he laughed out loud, he pressed on every step of the way, there was no hint of a joke in his eyes.

Mother Wen instantly understood what Wen Xu meant, her mouth grew wide, and she almost slapped Wen Xu on the face.Her whole body was trembling, her voice was raised high in an instant, and her sharp voice wanted to press these words into Wen Xu's eardrums: "You and him have been in trouble for a long time, right! You have been speaking for him, five years ago Like this! Don’t you think about your brother! Well, it’s still for him now! Let me tell you! You are a pervert if you have a partner with him! A pair of perverts!”

Wen Xu still smiled, listening to these vicious words from the mouths of the people he was closest to once, vaguely remembered the past in his mind.

At that time, Wen Xu was still very young, and Wen Shu hadn't emerged from his mother's womb.Mother Wen, with her big belly, held his hand and walked on the golden path covered with privet leaves.Mother Wen has not been tortured by the days when she can see her head at a glance, and she is still sensitive and irritable. The future is still full of temptations for her. She squeezed Xiao Wenxu's soft little hand and said: "No matter what you become in the future, mother will love you , as long as you can be happy, mom will also be happy, happy and satisfied."

It's just that a row of luxuriant privet trees on the side of the road have been cut down, and the sticky privet sap that squeezes out black-purple juice is gone. The country road has become a bustling commercial area, and his childhood has long since ended .

The privet juice will temporarily turn his fingers purple, but after washing with water, it will disappear slowly.So is the love and anticipation of the past.

"Yes, Mom, I'm more perverted. I chased him. I love him."

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"Both of you, please keep your voice down!" Father Wen came in at some point, pressed Mother Wen's hand, and scolded in a low voice.

He and Chihir were watching TV outside, chatting without saying a word, when they heard a sharp voice suddenly coming from the kitchen.Sooner or later he is not deaf, if he can hear, sooner or later he will be able to.He hurriedly put down the remote control, and used the excuse that he would come to the kitchen to cut apples for him, just to calm down the dispute between the two of them.

Wen Xu stood there, the light fell on the top of his head, illuminating his hair very brightly, quiet and gentle.He listened to his mother's soft weeping, and the smell of oily smoke lingering around him was still strong, and he only heard him say word by word: "Dad, Mom, I have liked him for seven years. During these seven years, he made me gradually become a whole person."

One who cries, laughs, gets angry, loves, and is whole.

The author says:

Both parents and children have unspeakable sufferings. Self-righteous love is kidnapping, not love.