Nunnally the Rebel

Lu Luxiu just held the thought that he might not let it go, but he didn't expect to find Nunnali here. Before he could exhale, his breath got stuck in his throat like that. Looking at the dead woman lying on the ground Even her heart almost stopped beating when she saw Nunnally.

It seems that because he didn't expect him to appear, he didn't stop him from approaching for a while, even the devil took two steps back to get out of the way, and let Lu Luxiu see more clearly that his sister was covered in blood appearance.

At that moment, all the sights in Lu Luxiu's eyes disappeared, only Nunnally was left, and all the sounds disappeared, only the sound of heartbeat and breathing remained.

He couldn't express how he felt at the moment, he just felt his head was blank, he dragged his heavy steps, and walked forward slowly, he didn't dare to imagine what would happen to him if Nunnally died, he couldn't imagine that there would be no more Nunnally in his life. The scene of Nali, who has always been fearless, now feels real fear of losing her.

"Nuna Li, brother will take you home, take you home..." Lu Luxiu said tremblingly, then picked up Nun Nali, who was bleeding, and turned to leave without looking at the people behind him, as if there was no one at all. aware of their presence.

Although a lot of blood was shed, and the consciousness was already withdrawn, but because he held on to that breath, he did not die immediately. He was surrounded by a familiar embrace in a haze, and tears flowed down, "Brother, brother... ...I'm sorry...brother...I'm not...not your sister..."

"Nunaly...?" Lu Luxiu didn't care about the content of Nunaly's words, but Nunaly's weak voice aroused a glimmer of hope in his heart, and when he lowered his head, he found that Nunaly was not awake. Like someone who is immersed in a dream and talking in sleep, this fact makes Lu Luxiu's heart feel cold, "Nuna Li, don't sleep, Nuna Li wakes up..."

"You can't save her, she will definitely die." The demon who had been watching coldly said suddenly, "Because this is her choice, she could have killed you and kept you by her side forever, but she chose to die by herself, you How stupid to say."

"Nuna Li, brother will definitely save you, definitely." Lu Luxiu seemed not to have heard his words, and kept calling Nuna Li's name.

"Brother..." Frantum beside the devil suddenly said.

"I'm not your brother." Lu Luxiu didn't stop, let alone look back.

"I'm sorry...brother..." She stood there motionless, but stubbornly looked at Lu Luxiu's back, tears kept gushing from those hollow and deep eyes, exuding strong despair, "I'm sorry... ...I am no longer the Nunali that my brother loves, and I can no longer return the gentle Nunali I remember to my brother, I'm sorry..."

"Why do you have to apologize?" Lu Luxiu stopped, but still didn't look back, "You should know better than me, I'm not your brother, and you... are not my sister." The calm voice seemed indifferent and decisive , without waiting for a response from the people behind him, he hugged Nunnally in his arms and walked straight out of the church.

All the words she wanted to say were choked in her throat, and she couldn't speak any more. She could only watch Lu Luxiu leave until the door closed, completely blocking her sight and separating them into two worlds.

When people are blinded by desires, they will gradually lose their original self, and eventually they will find that they have gained nothing and everything is empty.

……

Lu Luxiu hugged Nunnally and walked towards home, as if he didn't feel cold or tired.

The wet blood kept flowing, forming long and winding traces on the ground along the path they walked.

"Nuna Li, we can go home soon."

His words went unanswered.Nunnally, who was leaning on his shoulder, had already closed her eyes, with a slight smile on her lips, as if she was having a sweet dream.

In the dream, she returned to Lu Luxiu's side, they will live together like this, no one can separate them.Nunnally's face was serene and quiet, and the blood stains on her cheeks couldn't affect her in the slightest.

The pain, sorrow and loneliness of reality have gone away from her, and no one can disturb her happiness anymore. In Lu Luxiu's warm embrace, she fell into a deep sleep and would never wake up again.

Lu Luxiu felt the weight on his shoulders gradually slipping down, and the hands around his neck gradually dropped weakly, and his heart also fell, sinking into the cold abyss.

"Nuna Li, you're just tired, aren't you?" He pretended not to notice the abnormality of the person in his arms, folded his trembling arms, and hugged Nana Li tightly.

People kept passing by him, coming and going, but no one stayed.

Everyone was indifferent, doing their own things without changing their faces, walking their own way, as if they couldn't see such a boy holding a girl covered in blood in the middle of the road at all.

Heavy snow falls continuously from the sky, and the world is about to be overwhelmed by pure white tones.

All the sounds in the ears disappeared and became silent. Their existence seemed to be forgotten, gradually disappearing from this world.But is it this world that disappeared, or them?

He remembered that Nunnally always stood alone at the periphery of the crowd, with a distant and sad look on her face.

She has said more than once that this blissful scene makes her uneasy, as if all this is just a dream, as soon as she wakes up, it will immediately turn into nothingness.

"Sleep when you're tired, brother will always be by your side, always, forever."

Lu Luxiu stopped in his tracks, pressed his lips together and raised his head, feeling the gradually melting cold of snowflakes falling on his face.

In fact, he also had the same feelings as Nunnali, and he always felt that he shouldn't be so happy. More than once he dreamed of his death scene, and more than once he saw Nunnali hugging him and crying hoarsely.

Those pains were so real, as if they had happened in person, so real that he couldn't tell what was a dream and what was reality.

What is a dream and what is reality?What is true and what is false?

If everything in the dream is the real reality, then what is all this in front of him, the current him?What is it for?

The sound of Nunnali crying and apologizing at the end kept echoing in her ears.

"...Brother...I'm sorry...I lied to my brother, I'm not my brother's sister..."

"I've been hiding it from you... because I'm so happy to live with my brother... I'm not willing to let go... I'm sorry..."

If you are not willing to let go, then don't let go, if you don't want to leave, then don't leave, stay forever, stay by my side!

But before the words were spoken, the opportunity was lost forever, and she would never be able to let her know, his thoughts, his heart.

Regret and sadness were the last things she left for herself.

It was also at that time that he discovered that what he thought he was holding was the truth, but it was just a nasty lie.

They cared too much about each other's feelings and paid too much attention to each other, which caused them to stand in a situation of lies weaving without knowing it, just like a blindfolded blind man deceiving himself.

It wasn't until the end that he truly understood his own existence and the so-called reality.

"Fool, my sister has only you from the beginning to the end."

"We, including this world, may all be her dream, but I am real and exist only for you."

Even knowing Nunnally would never hear again, she didn't want to stop.

I want to tell her all my heart and all the emotions contained in it.

"You are my one and only, Nunnally."

"You know, the moment I heard your confession, I was so happy that my heart seemed to burst with joy."

"So, at this moment, I also want to tell you, I love you, Nunnally."

"Love more than anyone else."

In the past, he always felt that Nunnally might leave at any time, disappear into this world at any time, and disappear in places he couldn't see.

In order to avoid this kind of thing from happening, I realized that she was hiding something and didn't ask too much. I didn't want to give her more pressure and anxiety, but just waited, waiting for the day when she was willing to believe in herself and tell herself.

If I had figured it out earlier and cared more about Nunnally, wouldn't it have turned into such a result?

Even if I know that regret is useless, I can't stop myself from thinking otherwise. I am immersed in this kind of emotion in my heart haunted by despair, and I can't extricate myself.

"Sorry, Nunnally..."

"If I put you under my eyelids when I noticed that you were uneasy, and held your hand tightly and never let go, wouldn't all of this happen?"

"It's not too late, is it?"

"As long as I stay by your side from now on, no one can separate you and me."

Everyone had forgotten that Nunnally was his imaginary sister, and he was the only one who remembered it.

He didn't doubt that if Nunnally was not found, the part of his memory about Nunnally would disappear like the others, it was only the difference of time.Fortunately, he found it, and he can still hold her tightly in his arms like now.

Lu Luxiu smiled, but tears fell with the melting snow.Compared to the future where there is no Nunnally and only he lives alone, he is more willing to hug Nunnally and go to destruction together with her memory.

"Lelouchu..." Suzaku came behind him at some point, gasping for breath while holding his knees, and found no trace of Nunnally in many places. Seeing the sky getting darker and the snow getting heavier, his heart ached. He was even more anxious, but seeing Lu Luxiu holding Nunnally's back at this moment, Suzaku couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, it's great that both of them are fine.

"Lelouchu, you have found Nunnali, you are safe and sound..." Great...

The moment he clearly saw the other party, the half of his breath and the unfinished words were suddenly stuck in his throat, and his pupils shrank suddenly.Suzaku couldn't believe what he saw, and looked at Lu Luxiu in a daze, thankful that their peace of mind disappeared, even their lungs seemed to be frozen, and their fingertips were icy cold, "Lu, Lu Luxiu?"

"It's Suzaku." Lu Luxiu noticed Suzaku's gaze, turned around slowly, and smiled without any abnormality.

"Lelouchu, what's wrong with you?" From Suzaku's perspective, you can see that Luluxiu is holding Nunally covered in blood, and you can even see the tears on Luluxiu's face that are flowing down endlessly. The sadness and desolation that is completely opposite to the smile brought him a strong sense of disobedience that he could not describe.

"Huh? I'm fine, and Nunnally is fine too." Lu Luxiu didn't notice that he was crying at all. He smiled and whispered to Nunnally in his arms, "You know, your The disappearance made us very worried, and Suzaku and I were looking for you everywhere...but fortunately, I was the one who found you first this time."

"Lelouchu..." Facing Luluxiu's seemingly normal appearance, even the words he wanted to say became awkward, "Nuna Li..."

"She just fell asleep." As if sensing what Suzaku was going to say, Lu Luxiu took his words.

At this moment, the corners of Nunnally's blood-stained skirt began to disintegrate, as if being eaten away by an unknown biological force, and spread continuously. Suzaku was shocked when she saw it, and wanted to rush over to pull Lu Lu who was holding Nunnally away. Lu Xiu's hand was avoided by Lu Xiu, who had been on guard for a long time.

"Lelouchi! Let her go!" Suzaku recalled the scene he saw not long ago, the world gradually collapsed and disappeared, just like the scene of computer data, starting to shatter and disintegrate bit by bit from the other side of the sky.At first he thought this weird scene was just an illusion, but the facts proved that what he saw was real, and even people who got close would disintegrate and disappear, just like Nunnally at this moment.

What's more frightening is that some people disappear in front of countless people, but other than him, it seems that no one else has seen such a scene. The disappeared person, whether they are friends or relatives, don't remember that person. As if that person never existed.

So when he heard that Nunnally was missing, he immediately split up with Lu Luxiu to look for it. He was afraid that Nunnally, who was forgotten by everyone, would disappear like that person, but he never thought that she might be dead. If Luluxiu didn't Letting go will inevitably be implicated and end up in the same disappearance.

"...I will never let go again, never." Hearing Suzaku's words, instead of letting go, Lu Luxiu took Nunally back two steps.

"Lu Luxiu!" Suzaku couldn't help shouting, "Although I don't know what happened, Nunnally is dead, she won't wake up again! If you don't let go, you will disappear together!"

"Nunaly just fell asleep." Lu Luxiu repeated stubbornly, looking at Nunnally in his arms tenderly, "It doesn't matter if she doesn't wake up, I will always stay by her side and be with her. "

"Lelouchi, you..." Suzaku was dumbfounded.

"If we can be together, it doesn't matter if we disappear..." Lu Luxiu looked into the distance, as if answering or talking to himself.

In his eyes, there is only the dead silence of nothingness, as if the colors of everything in the world have faded away, leaving only barrenness.

Nunnally was the center of his world, and he was the center of the world.

When he wants to die with Nunnally, the world will collapse and everything will disappear.

"Heh, disappear, so... no one will be able to separate you from me..."

The cold wind blows in the face, and the sky shatters with a bang, and the fine fragments are mixed with the never-ending snow.

Fearless of the doomed ending, Lu Luxiu raised his head and greeted with a smile the end of the world, which only belonged to him.

Suzaku suddenly didn't want to say anything, and couldn't say anything.

Originally, he wanted to take Lu Luxiu and Nunnally away, but now he doesn't care.

Nunnally is dead, Lu Luxiu is crazy, what about him?

He stood there, the three of them under the collapsing sky, as if they had traveled through time and space.

The three good friends, as before, have never been separated.

There is nothing left in the real world, only tragic pain.

In retrospect, a happy life is just a perfect dream with no regrets.

Why wake up when you know everything is just a dream?

Instead of letting happiness come to an end in the reality of nothing, it is better to let happiness continue in dreams.

until destruction.

……

Lu Luxiu just held the thought that he might not let it go, but he didn't expect to find Nunnali here. Before he could exhale, his breath got stuck in his throat like that. Looking at the dead woman lying on the ground Even her heart almost stopped beating when she saw Nunnally.

It seems that because he didn't expect him to appear, he didn't stop him from approaching for a while, even the devil took two steps back to get out of the way, and let Lu Luxiu see more clearly that his sister was covered in blood appearance.

At that moment, all the sights in Lu Luxiu's eyes disappeared, only Nunnally was left, and all the sounds disappeared, only the sound of heartbeat and breathing remained.

He couldn't express how he felt at the moment, he just felt his head was blank, he dragged his heavy steps, and walked forward slowly, he didn't dare to imagine what would happen to him if Nunnally died, he couldn't imagine that there would be no more Nunnally in his life. The scene of Nali, who has always been fearless, now feels real fear of losing her.

"Nuna Li, brother will take you home, take you home..." Lu Luxiu said tremblingly, then picked up Nun Nali, who was bleeding, and turned to leave without looking at the people behind him, as if there was no one at all. aware of their presence.

Although a lot of blood was shed, and the consciousness was already withdrawn, but because he held on to that breath, he did not die immediately. He was surrounded by a familiar embrace in a haze, and tears flowed down, "Brother, brother... ...I'm sorry...brother...I'm not...not your sister..."

"Nunaly...?" Lu Luxiu didn't care about the content of Nunaly's words, but Nunaly's weak voice aroused a glimmer of hope in his heart, and when he lowered his head, he found that Nunaly was not awake. Like someone who is immersed in a dream and talking in sleep, this fact makes Lu Luxiu's heart feel cold, "Nuna Li, don't sleep, Nuna Li wakes up..."

"You can't save her, she will definitely die." The demon who had been watching coldly said suddenly, "Because this is her choice, she could have killed you and kept you by her side forever, but she chose to die by herself, you How stupid to say."

"Nuna Li, brother will definitely save you, definitely." Lu Luxiu seemed not to have heard his words, and kept calling Nuna Li's name.

"Brother..." Frantum beside the devil suddenly said.

"I'm not your brother." Lu Luxiu didn't stop, let alone look back.

"I'm sorry...brother..." She stood there motionless, but stubbornly looked at Lu Luxiu's back, tears kept gushing from those hollow and deep eyes, exuding strong despair, "I'm sorry... ...I am no longer the Nunali that my brother loves, and I can no longer return the gentle Nunali I remember to my brother, I'm sorry..."

"Why do you have to apologize?" Lu Luxiu stopped, but still didn't look back, "You should know better than me, I'm not your brother, and you... are not my sister." The calm voice seemed indifferent and decisive , without waiting for a response from the people behind him, he hugged Nunnally in his arms and walked straight out of the church.

All the words she wanted to say were choked in her throat, and she couldn't speak any more. She could only watch Lu Luxiu leave until the door closed, completely blocking her sight and separating them into two worlds.

When people are blinded by desires, they will gradually lose their original self, and eventually they will find that they have gained nothing and everything is empty.

……

Lu Luxiu hugged Nunnally and walked towards home, as if he didn't feel cold or tired.

The wet blood kept flowing, forming long and winding traces on the ground along the path they walked.

"Nuna Li, we can go home soon."

His words went unanswered.Nunnally, who was leaning on his shoulder, had already closed her eyes, with a slight smile on her lips, as if she was having a sweet dream.

In the dream, she returned to Lu Luxiu's side, they will live together like this, no one can separate them.Nunnally's face was serene and quiet, and the blood stains on her cheeks couldn't affect her in the slightest.

The pain, sorrow and loneliness of reality have gone away from her, and no one can disturb her happiness anymore. In Lu Luxiu's warm embrace, she fell into a deep sleep and would never wake up again.

Lu Luxiu felt the weight on his shoulders gradually slipping down, and the hands around his neck gradually dropped weakly, and his heart also fell, sinking into the cold abyss.

"Nuna Li, you're just tired, aren't you?" He pretended not to notice the abnormality of the person in his arms, folded his trembling arms, and hugged Nana Li tightly.

People kept passing by him, coming and going, but no one stayed.

Everyone was indifferent, doing their own things without changing their faces, walking their own way, as if they couldn't see such a boy holding a girl covered in blood in the middle of the road at all.

Heavy snow falls continuously from the sky, and the world is about to be overwhelmed by pure white tones.

All the sounds in the ears disappeared and became silent. Their existence seemed to be forgotten, gradually disappearing from this world.But is it this world that disappeared, or them?

He remembered that Nunnally always stood alone at the periphery of the crowd, with a distant and sad look on her face.

She has said more than once that this blissful scene makes her uneasy, as if all this is just a dream, as soon as she wakes up, it will immediately turn into nothingness.

"Sleep when you're tired, brother will always be by your side, always, forever."

Lu Luxiu stopped in his tracks, pressed his lips together and raised his head, feeling the gradually melting cold of snowflakes falling on his face.

In fact, he also had the same feelings as Nunnali, and he always felt that he shouldn't be so happy. More than once he dreamed of his death scene, and more than once he saw Nunnali hugging him and crying hoarsely.

Those pains were so real, as if they had happened in person, so real that he couldn't tell what was a dream and what was reality.

What is a dream and what is reality?What is true and what is false?

If everything in the dream is the real reality, then what is all this in front of him, the current him?What is it for?

The sound of Nunnali crying and apologizing at the end kept echoing in her ears.

"...Brother...I'm sorry...I lied to my brother, I'm not my brother's sister..."

"I've been hiding it from you... because I'm so happy to live with my brother... I'm not willing to let go... I'm sorry..."

If you are not willing to let go, then don't let go, if you don't want to leave, then don't leave, stay forever, stay by my side!

But before the words were spoken, the opportunity was lost forever, and she would never be able to let her know, his thoughts, his heart.

Regret and sadness were the last things she left for herself.

It was also at that time that he discovered that what he thought he was holding was the truth, but it was just a nasty lie.

They cared too much about each other's feelings and paid too much attention to each other, which caused them to stand in a situation of lies weaving without knowing it, just like a blindfolded blind man deceiving himself.

It wasn't until the end that he truly understood his own existence and the so-called reality.

"Fool, my sister has only you from the beginning to the end."

"We, including this world, may all be her dream, but I am real and exist only for you."

Even knowing Nunnally would never hear again, she didn't want to stop.

I want to tell her all my heart and all the emotions contained in it.

"You are my one and only, Nunnally."

"You know, the moment I heard your confession, I was so happy that my heart seemed to burst with joy."

"So, at this moment, I also want to tell you, I love you, Nunnally."

"Love more than anyone else."

In the past, he always felt that Nunnally might leave at any time, disappear into this world at any time, and disappear in places he couldn't see.

In order to avoid this kind of thing from happening, I realized that she was hiding something and didn't ask too much. I didn't want to give her more pressure and anxiety, but just waited, waiting for the day when she was willing to believe in herself and tell herself.

If I had figured it out earlier and cared more about Nunnally, wouldn't it have turned into such a result?

Even if I know that regret is useless, I can't stop myself from thinking otherwise. I am immersed in this kind of emotion in my heart haunted by despair, and I can't extricate myself.

"Sorry, Nunnally..."

"If I put you under my eyelids when I noticed that you were uneasy, and held your hand tightly and never let go, wouldn't all of this happen?"

"It's not too late, is it?"

"As long as I stay by your side from now on, no one can separate you and me."

Everyone had forgotten that Nunnally was his imaginary sister, and he was the only one who remembered it.

He didn't doubt that if Nunnally was not found, the part of his memory about Nunnally would disappear like the others, it was only the difference of time.Fortunately, he found it, and he can still hold her tightly in his arms like now.

Lu Luxiu smiled, but tears fell with the melting snow.Compared to the future where there is no Nunnally and only he lives alone, he is more willing to hug Nunnally and go to destruction together with her memory.

"Lelouchu..." Suzaku came behind him at some point, gasping for breath while holding his knees, and found no trace of Nunnally in many places. Seeing the sky getting darker and the snow getting heavier, his heart ached. He was even more anxious, but seeing Lu Luxiu holding Nunnally's back at this moment, Suzaku couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief, it's great that both of them are fine.

"Lelouchu, you have found Nunnali, you are safe and sound..." Great...

The moment he clearly saw the other party, the half of his breath and the unfinished words were suddenly stuck in his throat, and his pupils shrank suddenly.Suzaku couldn't believe what he saw, and looked at Lu Luxiu in a daze, thankful that their peace of mind disappeared, even their lungs seemed to be frozen, and their fingertips were icy cold, "Lu, Lu Luxiu?"

"It's Suzaku." Lu Luxiu noticed Suzaku's gaze, turned around slowly, and smiled without any abnormality.

"Lelouchu, what's wrong with you?" From Suzaku's perspective, you can see that Luluxiu is holding Nunally covered in blood, and you can even see the tears on Luluxiu's face that are flowing down endlessly. The sadness and desolation that is completely opposite to the smile brought him a strong sense of disobedience that he could not describe.

"Huh? I'm fine, and Nunnally is fine too." Lu Luxiu didn't notice that he was crying at all. He smiled and whispered to Nunnally in his arms, "You know, your The disappearance made us very worried, and Suzaku and I were looking for you everywhere...but fortunately, I was the one who found you first this time."

"Lelouchu..." Facing Luluxiu's seemingly normal appearance, even the words he wanted to say became awkward, "Nuna Li..."

"She just fell asleep." As if sensing what Suzaku was going to say, Lu Luxiu took his words.

At this moment, the corners of Nunnally's blood-stained skirt began to disintegrate, as if being eaten away by an unknown biological force, and spread continuously. Suzaku was shocked when she saw it, and wanted to rush over to pull Lu Lu who was holding Nunnally away. Lu Xiu's hand was avoided by Lu Xiu, who had been on guard for a long time.

"Lelouchi! Let her go!" Suzaku recalled the scene he saw not long ago, the world gradually collapsed and disappeared, just like the scene of computer data, starting to shatter and disintegrate bit by bit from the other side of the sky.At first he thought this weird scene was just an illusion, but the facts proved that what he saw was real, and even people who got close would disintegrate and disappear, just like Nunnally at this moment.

What's more frightening is that some people disappear in front of countless people, but other than him, it seems that no one else has seen such a scene. The disappeared person, whether they are friends or relatives, don't remember that person. As if that person never existed.

So when he heard that Nunnally was missing, he immediately split up with Lu Luxiu to look for it. He was afraid that Nunnally, who was forgotten by everyone, would disappear like that person, but he never thought that she might be dead. If Luluxiu didn't Letting go will inevitably be implicated and end up in the same disappearance.

"...I will never let go again, never." Hearing Suzaku's words, instead of letting go, Lu Luxiu took Nunally back two steps.

"Lu Luxiu!" Suzaku couldn't help shouting, "Although I don't know what happened, Nunnally is dead, she won't wake up again! If you don't let go, you will disappear together!"

"Nunaly just fell asleep." Lu Luxiu repeated stubbornly, looking at Nunnally in his arms tenderly, "It doesn't matter if she doesn't wake up, I will always stay by her side and be with her. "

"Lelouchi, you..." Suzaku was dumbfounded.

"If we can be together, it doesn't matter if we disappear..." Lu Luxiu looked into the distance, as if answering or talking to himself.

In his eyes, there is only the dead silence of nothingness, as if the colors of everything in the world have faded away, leaving only barrenness.

Nunnally was the center of his world, and he was the center of the world.

When he wants to die with Nunnally, the world will collapse and everything will disappear.

"Heh, disappear, so... no one will be able to separate you from me..."

The cold wind blows in the face, and the sky shatters with a bang, and the fine fragments are mixed with the never-ending snow.

Fearless of the doomed ending, Lu Luxiu raised his head and greeted with a smile the end of the world, which only belonged to him.

Suzaku suddenly didn't want to say anything, and couldn't say anything.

Originally, he wanted to take Lu Luxiu and Nunnally away, but now he doesn't care.

Nunnally is dead, Lu Luxiu is crazy, what about him?

He stood there, the three of them under the collapsing sky, as if they had traveled through time and space.

The three good friends, as before, have never been separated.

There is nothing left in the real world, only tragic pain.

In retrospect, a happy life is just a perfect dream with no regrets.

Why wake up when you know everything is just a dream?

Instead of letting happiness come to an end in the reality of nothing, it is better to let happiness continue in dreams.

until destruction.

……

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