Ji Guang

The next morning, Lin Ji heard movement outside the door, went out from Xiang Huai's room, and saw Song Lingran was already cooking in the kitchen.

He walked to the kitchen door with some hesitation and called, "Aunt Ran."

Song Lingran hummed, lowered her head and said, "I put the toiletries in the bathroom for you, change your clothes in your room, and make the bed. If you are sleepy, you can go to sleep for a while."

Lin Ji didn't know what it was like, after a few seconds of silence, he said, "I'm sorry."

Song Lingran shook her head.

Lin Ji didn't go back to the room, but walked into the kitchen, silently helping Song Lingran make breakfast.

Before breakfast was ready, there was a sudden movement outside, and Xiang Huai's panicked voice sounded: "Lin Ji!"

He didn't see Lin Ji when he woke up, he thought Lin Ji was gone, he didn't even put on his shoes, he jumped off the bed and ran out barefoot.

"I'm here." Lin Ji quickly put down his things and went out.

Seeing Lin Ji, Xiang Huai breathed a sigh of relief. He was barefoot and looked embarrassed, and the panic on his face had not completely dissipated.

"I thought..." Xiang Huai said in a low voice before stopping, holding Lin Ji's hand extremely hard, as if he was afraid that he would run away.

"Don't be afraid," Lin Ji shook him reassuringly, and whispered, "It's okay."

Xiang Huai hummed, but he didn't let go of his hand, and still grabbed Lin Ji forcefully.

Lin Ji glanced back at Song Lingran, who lowered her head and stared at the porridge cooking in the pot without saying anything.

While eating breakfast, Lin Ji saw that Song Lingran's eye circles were a little red, and she must have cried secretly.He felt a little uncomfortable, and lowered his head. For a while, there was only the sound of bowls and chopsticks on the dining table of the four of them.

After a brief silence, Song Lingran suddenly said, "If you have time, please stay a few more days. Xiang Huai took the 513 exam last time, and I can't understand those wrong questions. You can teach him."

Lin Ji suddenly raised his head, Xiang Huai also stopped eating, and looked at Song Lingran in astonishment.Xiang Qi ate two more bites, and when he saw that there were four people on the table, he was the only one moving his chopsticks, so he stopped in embarrassment.

"Won't you waste your time?" In the eyes of the three, Song Lingran was very calm, just asking Lin Ji.

"No," Lin Ji stammered for the first time, "No delay."

After he finished speaking, he lowered his head and didn't raise it again for a long time.

"Mom." Xiang Huai called out in a low voice.

Song Lingran glared at him, and said, "Listen to Lin Ji's lecture, don't lose your temper casually."

"I know." Xiang Huai said, and after a few seconds, he suddenly reached out and grabbed Song Lingran's hand, and said with a smile, "Thank you."

Song Lingran's eyes were red again.

"Thank me for what..." She mumbled, stood up, and went to the kitchen with the bowl.

Lin Ji stayed at Xiang Huai's house for three days. During the three days, he and Xiang Huai didn't do anything out of bounds. They even seldom kissed. Most of the time they were really studying.

Lin Ji went through all the test papers of Xiang Huai last semester, roughly grasped his weak points, and then concentrated on those key points to explain to him.

Xiang Huai also listened very carefully, and he didn't feel tired even if he didn't make noises. He did whatever Lin Ji asked him to do, but he almost stuck to Lin Ji's side, and he followed Lin Ji whenever he went to the restroom. Standing outside the door waiting for him.

Song Lingran and Xiang Qi didn't mention their affairs again, those embarrassing disputes and differences were shelved and faded away, and getting along gradually became more natural, sometimes it was as if there were still four people in a complete family.

The night before Lin Ji left, he and Xiang Huai lay side by side on the bed and stayed awake all night.

When it was almost dawn, Xiang Huai got up, rummaged through the table for a while, and took out something.He broke Lin Ji's hand, and put it into Lin Ji's palm with a serious expression.

"This year is also in your hands." Xiang Huai said.

Lin Ji spread out his hands, and in his palm lay the latest year's zodiac coins.

"It just came out of my dad's storage cabinet yesterday, don't lose it." Xiang Huai said with a smile.

Lin Ji raised his eyebrows, and also smiled: "So that's how the old ones came from?"

"Hey," Xiang Huai waved his hand indifferently, "If it's his, it's mine, if it's mine, it's yours, the same."

Lin Ji suddenly grabbed Xiang Huai's hand, and kissed him gently on the palm of his hand.

The warm breath and the warmth of his lips were burned in his palms, and Xiang Huai blushed a little.

"See you later," Lin Ji said, "boyfriend in a few months."

"Don't make a fuss," Xiang Huai said sternly, "Maybe it will be when the time comes."

"Really?" Lin Ji asked, staring into his eyes.

Xiang Huai stubbornly refused to talk to him, Lin Ji turned his face away, and asked again: "Is it?"

"Yes, yes, yes!" Xiang Huai couldn't hold it anymore, hugged Lin Ji, and said viciously, "It must be fucking!"

That morning, when Xiang Huai lay on the window sill and watched Lin Ji leave on the snow, he thought in his heart that he must become good enough so that the future is in his own hands, and he can like whoever he wants , with whoever he wants to be with, so good that he can also protect the person he likes.

A few days later, school started again and entered the second semester of the third year of high school. The atmosphere in the whole classroom was a bit like a fight to the death.

The time it takes for Xiang Huai to get up in the morning to clean up and wash up is getting shorter and shorter. Sometimes it takes less than 10 minutes from opening his eyes to going out. There are many times at night when he lies on the bed with his clothes on and falls asleep. The alarm clock rings in the morning. When he got angry, he wanted to throw the alarm clock out of the window and sleep in the dark, but no matter how he thought about it, he never stayed in bed again, and he gritted his teeth and got up to go to class every day.

After scoring [-], his grades seem to have entered a bottleneck. It seems that it is much more difficult to increase from [-] to [-] than from [-] to [-]. His grades in the two small exams at the beginning of the school year are all low. Spin around five hundred and one.

Xiang Huai was not convinced, and compressed the already pitifully short sleep time even more. He read the materials that Lin Ji sent him over and over again, and sometimes he was doing problems in his dreams.

He never knew that one day he would be able to devote so much energy to his studies. Song Lingran was frightened. He used to scold him all day long to make him learn a few more words, but now he is worried every day and wants him to rest a little longer. meeting.

But with Lin Ji at the front, Xiang Huai had never felt that the goal was so clear. He didn't want to retreat, he just wanted to go further.

In fact, he was no different from Lin Ji when he was stubborn.

On the 523th and [-]th of March, one model test, Xianghuai scored [-] points.

He took a photo of the wrong question and sent it to Lin Ji, and the two of them analyzed it until two o'clock in the middle of the night. In the end, it was Lin Ji who urged him to go to bed again and again, and Xiang Huai hung up the phone reluctantly and climbed onto the bed. Lost consciousness in seconds.

On April 539th and [-]th, the second model exam, Xianghuai scored [-] points.

Xiang Huai was annoyed for half a minute, then collected what was there, and continued to see what went wrong.After the second model exam, the atmosphere in the class was a bit gloomy. The second round of review was over, and the college entrance examination was only [-] days away. Some things were basically a foregone conclusion.Xiang Huai had bumped into someone who couldn't bear the pressure and cried outside a few times, but he had never felt this way before. He just wanted to get better, so it didn't matter a little bit.

Zheng Zaoqiao asked whether he was in a daze, or was suddenly possessed by some god of learning, so he only wanted to study.

Xiang Huai retorted him: "You are the one who only focuses on studying, and I am only focusing on studying."

In fact, he didn't do much with the partner. After the Chinese New Year, he and Lin Ji hadn't seen each other again, except for a few video calls at the beginning, and then they were all on the phone.

Xiang Huai actually misses Lin Ji very much, but if Lin Ji doesn't mention the video, Xiang Huai doesn't mention it. Moreover, he is also afraid that if he looks at Lin Ji a few more times, he might dare to throw away the book and let the study go to hell. A plane ticket to fly to find a partner.

April 23 is Xiang Huai's birthday, and Xiang Huai had completely forgotten about it. He only remembered it when he saw the birthday noodles Song Lingran made for him during dinner in the morning.

That day, when he was in class, he was absent-minded for a long time. The later the time, the more irritable he became. any movement.

Xiang Huai felt a little sad. Although the two of them have nothing to do with each other now, after all, they are also ex-boyfriends and prospective boyfriends in a few months. He takes care of both the new and the old, and he can't hear the old cry. You should also coax the newcomers to laugh, right?

As usual, it was almost ten o'clock when Xiang Huai packed his schoolbag and left the school. It was already late, but many windows in the teaching building were still lit.

Xiang Huai was walking towards the school gate while looking at his phone. It was ten o'clock the fucking day, and Lin Ji's grandson hadn't contacted him yet, so he forgot, right?

Gritting his teeth, he raised his head and saw Lin Ji who was waiting for him at the school gate.Before Xiang Huai's irritability could be withdrawn, he switched to surprise, and his expression looked a little hideous for a while.

Xiang Huai took two steps forward and stopped.A white lamp hangs above the school gate, shining brightly. Lin Ji is standing under the lamp. His dark blue casual jacket is open, revealing a clean white T-shirt, black sweatpants, and a schoolbag on one shoulder. He was leaning leisurely against the doorpost on one side, looking at him with a faint smile.

The lights sprinkled around Lin Ji's body became a foil, and Xiang Huai couldn't move his eyes when he watched him, his heart beat violently.

The two girls walked past Xiang Huai and kept peeking at Lin Ji. They walked abruptly for half a minute, which usually took a few seconds, and turned around to take a few more glances when they got out of the school gate.

Xiang Huai's vinegar jar was overturned, and he walked over quickly, saying in a vicious voice: "Who will show the screen at night! Don't laugh!"

Lin Ji said, "Let me show you."

Before Xiang Huai was satisfied, another person passed by, stared at Lin Ji for half a minute, and was about to come over. Before she could speak, Xiang Huai simply said: "It's over, the owner is here!"

Lin Ji chuckled, said "Sorry" to the girl, and held Xiang Huai's hand generously.

Xiang Huai was so angry that he felt that the school gate was a wrong place and he couldn't stay any longer, so he dragged Lin Ji and walked towards the small side road where there was no one. After coveting, he is still stupidly doing math problems upstairs, what a fart!

He dragged Lin Ji angrily and walked forward with his head muffled. At this time, there was no one around. Lin Ji held him back, and Xiang Huai was hugged by Lin Ji before Xiang Huai could react.

Lin Ji's voice blew past Xiang Huai's ears accompanied by the warm wind in late spring: "I miss you, let me hug you for a while."

"I don't believe it," Xiang Huai retorted without arrogance, "You haven't videotaped me for two months, how about coaxing ghosts?"

"I want to give you a surprise." Lin Ji rubbed his hair with nostalgia, and a hint of disappointment suddenly appeared in his tone, "But you don't seem to have any reaction."

Xiang Huai didn't understand: "What?"

Lin Ji let go of him, didn't speak, just looked at him quietly.Xiang Huai also frowned and looked at Lin Ji. As he watched, his eyes suddenly changed. He opened his eyes wide and reached out to touch Lin Ji's left cheek in disbelief. The uneven scars on it disappeared. up.

"What, what's going on?" Xiang Huai stammered.He actually understood what happened in his heart, but because it was too sudden, he still blurted out in shock in a stupid way.

"Isn't it obvious?" Lin Ji frowned slightly.

"Fuck!" Xiang Huai reacted from the shock, "No wonder you are so damn recruiting today!"

He sat down on the flower stand next to him, and said worriedly: "Why don't we get back together again, what's the use of being so beautiful except flirting with flowers?"

"Really?" Lin Ji asked.

"Fake." Xiang Huai said.

The street lights on this small road were aging, and the lights were dim and not very clear. Xiang Huai sat on the flower bed and looked up at Lin Ji. This was the first time he saw Lin Ji's original appearance without scars.

Xiang Huai's voice softened, and he asked, "Does it hurt?"

Lin Ji shook his head and sat down beside Xiang Huai.

"In the past, I thought I was the one who killed my parents," Lin Ji said softly, "You're right, I cared about those scars a lot, and it was because I cared that I wanted to keep them."

Xiang Huai held Lin Ji's hand firmly, and Lin Ji looked at him with tenderness in his eyes: "Later, my boyfriend told me that it wasn't my fault and asked me to remove the scar. Think, next time you see him, don’t bring those things with you.”

Xiang Huai's eyes were sour, he leaned over, and kissed the skin on Lin Ji's face lightly. If you look carefully, you will find that there are not any traces on it, but there are still two inconspicuous vertical lines, which will take a while to fully recover.

Lin Ji hugged him with one arm, rubbed the hair on the back of Xiang Huai's head with the other hand, and said with a smile, "Baby Huai, happy birthday."

Xiang Huai closed his eyes, suppressed the sour feeling, then opened them, grinning, and reached out his hand to Lin Ji unceremoniously: "Is there a gift?"

Lin Ji said, "Can I do it?"

Xiang Huai protested dissatisfied: "Give me my own things?"

Lin Ji took his hand: "Then I will give you my light."

He took out a drawing book from his schoolbag, and Xiang Huai was startled when he saw it. There was a similar book in his bedside table, and Xiang Huai flipped through it countless times.

The surroundings were quiet, only the sound of the wind blowing the leaves, Xiang Huai looked down at the words on the cover, it was still "light".

He opened it, and there were familiar strokes, familiar people and unfamiliar scenes inside.Strange classrooms, strange playgrounds, strange plants, strange scenery.

Xiang Huai looked at himself on the paper who was wearing a blue and white school uniform and was listening to the class with his chin resting on his hands, and asked in a low voice, "Is this your current classroom?"

Lin Ji said, "Yes."

Xiang Huai didn't speak anymore, he looked slowly and seriously one by one, it was Lin Ji's life inside, he put Xiang Huai in it.

"Sometimes I think about it," Lin Ji said, "What would happen if you were here? I think about it many times, so I simply drew it."

Xiang Huai pursed his lips tightly, feeling very sad, the pain and longing were never just his own, Lin Ji was the same, and even more so.

Xiang Huai turned his red eyes one by one, feeling moved, sad and sour, and before he could recover, the last one immediately knocked out his complicated emotions.

On the last one, Xiang Huai was climbing the blackboard on an unfamiliar podium in an unfamiliar classroom.

Lin Ji explained with a smile: "I want to see how you climb the blackboard in our classroom..."

Xiang Huai put the album on the flower bed next to him, threw Lin Ji down on the grass behind him viciously, and cursed: "Why don't you climb yourself when you fucking miss yourself so much!"

Lin Ji was teased by him and laughed, Xiang Huai softened when he saw it, he lowered his head and kissed Lin Ji's lips, Lin Ji catered to him very obediently, with one hand still protecting his body, worried He turned down from the flower bed.

After a long time, Xiang Huai withdrew his body a little, looked down at Lin Ji, and suddenly whispered to himself, "Actually, I'm a little scared."

"Afraid of what?" Lin Ji looked into his eyes and asked.

Xiang Huai pursed his lips tightly, as if those words were hard to say, Lin Ji patted his back lightly, and after a while, Xiang Huai lowered his head and buried his head into Lin Ji's neck.

Lin Ji couldn't see his face, but only heard his low voice: "I can't tell, maybe it's because... it hurt so much at that time, very painful."

It hurts so much to like it, it hurts so much that the bastard who has no heart, no lungs and no long memory is scared.Like a rose that he loved dearly, he held it tightly in his hand without reservation, but countless thorns suddenly emerged from the rhizome of the rose, piercing his palm with blood, without an inch of good flesh.Later, the rose's thorns were withdrawn. Because he loved the rose so much, he still couldn't help reaching out to hold it, but he didn't dare to hold it so tightly again.