Ji Guang

After Song Lingran woke up, she didn't speak a word to Xiang Huai again, and the quarrel that day also came to an abrupt end because of Song Lingran's fainting, and no one brought it up after shelving it.

In the past few days, Xiang Huai was unusually well-behaved, hovering around Song Lingran's bed, and softly calling her mother whenever she had the chance.

In the past, when the two of them quarreled, Song Lingran would usually compromise and admit her mistakes. After a day or two of cold war, Song Lingran's temper was completely worn out, but Xiang Huai also took the initiative to play and roll. One of the ways to please is to change names. He shouted "Mom" at the top of his voice, and called "Mom" softly when he was seeking reconciliation. These two words seemed to have magical powers. He sweetly called Song Lingran a few times and his anger was gone.

This time Song Lingran didn't buy it at all, more often she ignored no one, just leaned silently on the head of the bed in a daze.She was so pale and weak, so weak that Xiang Huai felt scared.

Xiang Huai looked at Huntian Hundi without fear, but in fact he was more afraid of losing than anyone else.

A few years ago when Song Lingran was ill and had an operation, Xiang Huai didn't speak for more than a week, sticking tightly to Song Lingran. After Song Lingran's operation, his temper has consciously restrained a lot, and he has a sense of proportion to lose his temper when doing stupid things. Especially when facing Song Lingran.

Half a year after Song Lingran's operation, he would occasionally have nightmares, the themes in the dreams were very similar, and they were all related to Song Lingran and death.It's just that he felt ashamed and never told anyone.

But now because of him, Song Lingran brushed against death again, and Xiang Huai felt regretful and even more afraid. These emotions mixed with self-blame and confusion completely obliterated him.

In the middle of the night, Xiang Huai was awakened by a nightmare. He closed his eyes for a long time and did not open them. The scene in the dream floated vaguely in the darkness, and the panic about death chased him into reality.

In the dream, he didn't know he was sad, he just felt bewildered, and when he woke up, the bewilderment faded away, and the fear surfaced belatedly.

He lay quietly for a long time before he moved his fingers tentatively. Those emotions were disturbed, and Xiang Huai curled up like a child.

He lay down for a while, then got up and got out of bed.

The curtains in Lin Ji's room were drawn open, and there was a thin layer of moonlight beside the window, casting a silvery white at the end of the bed.

Xiang Huai walked on the bed lightly, lay down beside Lin Ji, and hugged one of his arms.

He originally thought that Lin Ji was asleep, but who knew that Lin Ji suddenly turned sideways, stretched out his other arm to wrap him in his arms, and asked in a low voice, "What's wrong?"

In the middle of the night, his voice was dyed with a layer of tranquility and deep-rooted tenderness, and Xiang Huai suddenly felt that they had never been so close as they were now, as if they were the only reliance on each other.

"Lin Ji," Xiang Huai said softly, "Will my mother die?"

"No way," Lin Ji hugged him tighter, "The doctor said it's all right, don't think about it."

"I dreamed that my mother died." Perhaps it was the darkness that made Xiang Huai feel safe. He stripped off the hard armor, revealing his useless weakness and fear for the first time, "I'm a little scared..."

Lin Ji lowered his head and kissed his sweaty forehead. The delicate kisses fell from his forehead to the tip of his eyes and nose, and then he pressed his forehead against Xiang Huai's, looking at him quietly and seriously.

Xiang Huai realized what he had said indiscriminately just now, and felt a little embarrassed. He was about to look away, but was stopped by Lin Ji's hand behind his head.

"That was a dream, not real. However, Auntie is fine in the hospital. We will go early tomorrow morning, and you can see her when you arrive at the hospital. She will be discharged home in two days, and there will be no problems. some."

Xiang Huai's nose suddenly turned sour, he didn't want to worry about the embarrassment, it was none other than Lin Ji.

Xiang Huai also held Lin Ji's face with his hands, his tone was uncertain: "Then will you go?"

"Are we going to separate?"

This is the first time he asked this kind of question. In the past period of time, no matter what he faced, Xiang Huai never doubted the relationship between them. He felt that everything was temporary. Song Lingran and Xiang Qi always It is conceivable that the discussions around them will disappear one day, and their future is bright.

But now, he began to doubt, began to fear.

Lin Ji's calm eyes flickered suddenly, he closed his eyes, and his breathing became chaotic, but soon he adjusted to a normal appearance, he opened his eyes, and met Xiang Huai's heavy eyes.

"Huaibao..."

"You won't leave," Xiang Huai said, with irrefutable stubbornness in his voice, "We won't separate either."

"you listen to me……"

Xiang Huai seemed to know what he wanted to say, refused to let him speak, and said forcefully: "Only those who are wrong need to compromise. We are not wrong, they are wrong, and it is they who should correct it, not us, so no matter what I will I won't back down, not at all."

"You can't either."

Xiang Huai didn't get Lin Ji's response, so he pinched his face in dissatisfaction, and said seriously, "Did you hear that?"

"Did you hear that?" His voice softened by the second sentence.

All of Lin Ji's words disappeared in Xiang Huai's sight. He clenched his hand behind Xiang Huai's back into a fist, but the kiss on Xiang Huai's lips was very gentle, as if a miser was holding his only treasure in his arms. .

Lin Ji thought, why would he doubt it?Why would he doubt whether Xiang Huai's liking is deep, and whether his own liking will last long?Why doubt that they will part in five, six, or seven years?

They have clearly become each other's life.

Early the next morning, Lin Ji and Xiang Huai went to the hospital.

Although Lin Ji was in the hospital every day, he spent most of the time alone in the rest area. He knew that Song Lingran and Xiang Qi didn't want to see him, so he didn't go close to them.

There is no one who knows better than him.

The transparent glass separated the rest area from the corridor, Xiang Huai stood outside the glass and looked at Lin Ji's back.

Lin Ji was lying on the window sill, he was the only one in the rest area, outside the window was the wind from the seventeenth floor, and there was nothing else.Xiang Huai suddenly felt an indescribable loneliness, maybe it belonged to Lin Ji, or maybe it was given to Lin Ji by himself.

Xiang Huai stood outside the rest area for a long time, then turned back to the ward.

Song Lingran lived in a single ward with all the facilities in it, and the corridor was very quiet, with only a few family members and nurses passing by occasionally.

Suddenly, the silence was broken by an angry curse and the door slamming. Lin Ji frowned, looked away from the window, and looked outside the rest area.

Xiang Huai and Xiang Qi were standing at the door of the ward, confronting each other. Xiang Qi stood inside and wanted to close the door. Xiang Huai held the door with his arms and refused to let him close, staring at him stubbornly: "I just want a precise sentence. .”

"Are you stunned?" Xiang Qi lowered his voice and said angrily, "Get out."

Xiang Huai said: "You first promise not to let Lin Ji move away."

Standing a few steps away, Lin Ji looked at Xiang Huai's resolute side face with his lips pursed, and heard Xiang Qi's suppressed anger voice: "You want to force your mother into the emergency room again, don't you?"

Xiang Huai's hands trembled slightly, he knew that now was not the time to talk about this matter, but he was too scared, he always felt that he was about to lose control of Lin Ji.

He just wants a guarantee.

"Xiang Huai," Xiang Qi said in a deep voice, "We raised you up so much, not to mention that everything is right, but we have a clear conscience, especially your mother, who hugged you every day when you were a little older. In your arms, you have been annoying since you were a child. You have to be hugged when you sleep at night. Your mother hasn't slept a full night in the past few years. She is more anxious than anyone else when you are sick, and she is more angry than anyone else when you are bullied. You know how much thought you have spent on yourself, and it was because of you that she recovered from her illness and did not go to work in the past two years."

Xiang Qi's voice lowered: "I don't ask you to be filial to her in the future, please don't be angry with her, you don't love her, I do."

Xiang Huai raised his hand and wiped his eyes vigorously, but the tears didn't seem to be wiped clean. He gritted his teeth, his red eyes were about to speak, but his hand was grabbed by someone.

Xiang Huai raised his eyes in astonishment, only seeing Lin Ji's slightly indifferent side face.

"Uncle Xiang," Lin Ji said, "I hope we can talk."

Xiang Qigang was about to refuse, but Song Lingran's voice came from the room: "Come in."

Xiang Qi was silent for a moment, and let the door open.

Song Lingran was sitting on the edge of the hospital bed with needles on the back of her hand. She stayed in the hospital for a few days, and her body improved a lot, but her spirit didn't improve. Instead, she became more and more haggard and tired.

Xiang Huai had a sore nose, gritted his teeth and moved his eyes away. He was clearly his closest relative, but now he looked like an opposing enemy.

"Aunt Ran," Lin Ji said calmly, "I think none of us want to see it like this now, and it will only make things worse if we drag it on. Why don't we make a compromise, what do you think?"

The eyes of the three people fell on him, Song Lingran asked: "How to compromise?"

Lin Ji was silent for a moment, Xiang Huai stared at him relentlessly, time stopped briefly, Xiang Huai could only feel his own violent heartbeat, and the great uneasiness roaring from him.

Lin Ji forced himself not to look at him, and said slowly and clearly: "I have been separated from Xiang Huai for a year..."

Xiang Huai let go of his hand suddenly, and he looked at Lin Ji in disbelief.

On the contrary, Lin Ji grasped it even tighter. His heart was empty, but his face was calm and even a little indifferent: "After the college entrance examination, it is up to us to decide whether to divide or not, and you will not interfere any more."

Deathly silence.

Xiang Huai shook off Lin Ji's hand, stared at Lin Ji, and asked word by word, "Why did you promise me last night?"

For the first time, Lin Ji was afraid to look into Huai's eyes.

Xiang Huai was in a rage, but his voice was hoarse: "What did we say!"

"I promise." Song Lingran said.

They are all betting.

Song Lingran gambled that the love between the two was just a short-lived adolescent love, and now the hot-blooded ones don't care about it, and they can't break it apart, but after a period of separation, the world around them is full of excitement, and the fragile relationship between the seventeen and eighteen years old will be easily forgotten and forgotten. Instead, at that time, without any objection from other people, the two people will wake up, or don't like it, or finally understand the absurdity of their behavior, and consciously separate.

Lin Ji bet that their love is not for fun, whether it is him or Xiang Huai, they maintain this relationship with a lifelong attitude.

"I don't agree," Xiang Huai said, "Why? I don't agree even for a day, let alone a year."

"Lin Ji, count for yourself how many times I asked you not to leave these days, how many times you promised me..." He stared at Lin Ji, his eyes were red and his whole body was trembling, but his voice was cold, "You take back the words you just said. Those words."

"Xiang Huai..." Lin Ji tried to shake his hand, but Xiang Huai threw it away viciously.

"Take it back!" Xiang Huai shouted.

Lin Ji didn't say a word, Song Lingran and Xiang Qi were also silent, Xiang Huai's eyes flicked over the three of them one by one, he suddenly smiled and took a step back.

"Okay," he said, "there is still a year apart, don't set a deadline, so be it."

Lin Ji raised his eyes suddenly, turned around and left Xiang Huai from the ward.