Ji Guang

In the second half of the journey, Xiang Huai was awake all the time. He didn't speak, but just held Lin Ji's waist. The two hugged each other quietly in the dark back seat. Song Lingran and Xiang Qi's occasional conversations by their ears made their cuddling more frequent. There was a taste of taboo, perhaps because this cuddling did not contain any erotic meaning, and the hearts of the two were very peaceful.

It was already nine o'clock when we got home, Song Lingran asked Lin Ji to go back to his room to pack his things, and went into the kitchen with Xiang Qi to cook.A lot of cooked food is ready-made, and cooking is very convenient and fast. In less than half an hour, three steaming dishes and one soup are already on the table.

After more than a week, the dining table was finally filled with four more people. The vacancy in the past few days was filled, and life seemed to be complete.

After a day of running around, several people were very tired. Song Lingran and Xiang Qi cleaned up the dining table, and returned to the room to rest after a while, and told Lin Ji and Xiang Huai to go to bed earlier.

Lin Ji agreed, took a change of clothes and went to the bathroom to take a shower. He took off the sweater and stuffed it into the bag next to him, planning to take it down with the down jacket and throw it away tomorrow.He no longer wants to wear these clothes after they have touched those people and things.

The slightly hot water flowed down from the top of the head, and white mist soon evaporated in the bathroom. Lin Ji leaned against the tile wall and did not move for a long time. He didn't want to involve those bad things in his current life at all, but they did. Refusing to let him go, invading his life with various gestures.

Being seen by Xiang Huai was more unbearable for Lin Ji than anyone else.At the very beginning, he prodded Xiang Huai to win against Xiang Huai in every way to satisfy his perverted pride. Later, he was not attached to this pride, and only wanted to maintain his dignity on an equal footing with Xiang Huai. Now, he The only decency left was almost torn apart.

Coming out of the bathroom, Lin Ji saw Xiang Huai sitting at the door of the bathroom with a small bench waiting for him.The moment he met Xiang Huai's eyes, his overwhelming anxiety and annoyance disappeared a lot in an instant.

"What are you doing sitting here?" Lin Ji asked as he walked into the room.

Xiang Huai followed him into the room, Lin Ji opened the curtains, the night sky outside the window was quiet, it was a clear winter night.In the past two years, fireworks have been banned in the city. Without the crackling, the taste of the New Year has faded a lot. On the second day of the Lunar New Year, the New Year has not yet passed. Looking at the city outside the window at this moment, it seems that there is not much difference from the usual day.

Lin Ji turned around and found that Xiang Huai was lying on his bed, counting money.

He was holding a handful of coins in his hand, and they were neatly arranging them on the bed sheet, looking very serious.Lin Ji walked over, and Xiang Huai happened to be the last one in line, with a total of nineteen coins.

"What are these?" Lin Ji casually picked up a coin, only to realize that it was not an ordinary coin, but a commemorative coin of the Chinese zodiac. The nineteen listed by Xiang Huai were from the year Lin Ji was born until just now. Started the year with two days.

"A New Year's gift for you." Xiang Huai smiled at him while holding his chin.

"Where did you get it?"

"You just keep it, what do you care where you got it from?" Xiang Huai picked up the coin and stuffed it heavily into Lin Ji's hand, "So the past years are in your hands. "

He pulled Lin Ji's other hand again, put the coin of the latest year in Lin Ji's palm, and held it tightly: "This year is also in your hands."

"Touch no one but you."

Lin Ji's facial muscles clenched tightly, and in an instant, a soreness surged in his nasal cavity, which came so strangely and violently that he almost lost his composure.

Xiang Huai let go of him, yawned and buried his head into the quilt, humming: "I'm sleepy, I can't go back to my room, I fell asleep."

He remained silent for a while, as if he had fallen asleep under the quilt. Lin Ji closed his eyes, suppressed the sour emotions, and carefully looked at the nineteen coins in his hand one by one, and cherished them very much. Put it in a box and tuck it in a drawer.

He turned off the light, and a few seconds later, the light from outside the window came in, dispelling the darkness. In the hazy darkness, Lin Ji said softly, "Do you want to hear a story?"

Xiang Huai, who hadn't moved for a long time, slowly pulled his head out of the bed, his hair was messed up, but the expression on his face was very solemn.

The story of Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue is not a secret in that small town. For many years in the past, it has been the stuff of gossip among the neighbors and villagers.

20 years ago, both Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue were still very young at that time, Jiang Yue in particular, had just graduated from university and had never been in a relationship. It was Lin Duanyi who fell in love for the first time.

Lin Duanyi was already married at that time, and his wife was his distant cousin. He worked in a bank in the town and lived a calm life.No one knows how Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue fell in love in the first place. Later, there were many versions circulated in the town, but because they were not personally acknowledged by the parties, they could only be uncertain rumors.

People didn't know about the improper relationship between the two until Lin Duanyi started to divorce.

In the summer of that year, Lin Duanyi's family and Jiang Yue's family were very uneasy. Everyone was screaming, crying, throwing things and beating people at the top of their lungs.

Lin Duanyi's wife refused to divorce, Lin Duanyi's parents vowed never to accept Jiang Yue, Jiang Yue's father threatened to sever ties with Jiang Yue, and the stalemate lasted for a whole summer. Still insist on divorce.

During the noisy period, Lin Duanyi's wife happened to find out that she was pregnant. Lin's father and Lin's mother begged her to keep the child and continue to live at home. As for Lin Duanyi, if he insisted on staying with Jiang Yue Together, they no longer recognize him as a member of the family.Jiang Yue's parents were naturally not to be outdone, fearing that they would not be decisive enough to be more decisive than the other family, so they resolutely severed the relationship after beating and scolding.

Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue left the small town that autumn and became wanderers in a foreign land with no relatives or past.Since then, for many years, people in the small town have never heard of them again.

For a year after that, Jiang Yue's father basically never went out, nor did he go to work. The two of them still had to live, and Jiang Yue's mother had to go out to buy things occasionally. Going to people and not chatting with them, I always feel that others see me as a joke, and then sneak back home in a hurry despite the crying and insulting of the Lin family.

Lin Duanyi's family scolded them continuously for more than a year. His ex-wife sat on the ground in front of Jiang Yue's house every day, crying and cursing. Yi's mother often came, and the two women scolded loudly, attracting many spectators.

Jiang Yue's parents are people who value face very much. They feel that they have no face. They just hide in humiliation and let others scold them. Later, Jiang Yue's father couldn't bear it anymore and cursed back through the wall, but you didn't control you My son, it's not my daughter's fault alone, what shame do you have to scold me!

It doesn't matter if he was angry for a while, the small flame that had been gradually extinguished over there was fueled again, and it became even worse when he had an opponent. It was also that time, Lin Duanyi's ex-wife was too excited and gave birth prematurely. Fortunately, it was nothing serious.

There were more reasons for insulting there. From then on, Jiang Yue's parents kept their tails between their legs and never dared to refute. Until more than a year later, their minds gradually focused on the two newborn children. The grievances were almost out, and the two families gradually returned to their lives. As time passed, this matter was gradually overshadowed by other weirder and fresher things.

Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue were ignorant of what happened in the small town. They settled down in a city far, far away, took root, bought a house and settled down in their home. With Lin Ji, they lived a life beyond the reach of most people. affluent life.They are no different from thousands of ordinary families, except that they have no past.

Lin Ji didn't know anything about his parents. Not long after he was born, Lin Duanyi's business was very big. His journey went smoothly and his family was extremely wealthy. He never thought that he would be with thousands of people. What does a small town mile away matter.He grew up like every child in the city, receiving a good education and enjoying sufficient material conditions. The grievances and grievances of his parents were too far away from him and too illusory.

When he was young, he also wondered why other people have all kinds of relatives, grandparents, grandparents, grandparents, and grandparents, but he didn't.Both Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue were vague, and Jiang Yue would ask him softly: "Is it not enough to have parents?"

Lin Ji was very intelligent at an early age, he was quiet and thoughtful, and amidst the adult's evasive words, he realized that this was probably a question that shouldn't be asked.He was not a very curious person, and he didn't want any relatives. After asking twice, he didn't ask again.

Lin Ji lived his 12 years of life in peace, proud as a little peacock, with a beautiful little face, becoming the most dazzling focus among the crowd.

He was too proud, so when one day he was pulled off the clouds, the blow to him was also devastating.

When Lin Ji was 12 years old, he overheard a conversation between Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue by chance. At that time, he knew that he had grandparents, grandparents, and various relatives. Only then did he know that he was not a genius. He Jiaozi, he is just secretive and shameless.

The very foundations of his pride were corroded, disintegrated, and utterly crumbled.He looked down on Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue, as well as himself.

From then on, until the accident four years later, when Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue died, his relationship with his parents was always estranged.

At first Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue restrained themselves because they wanted to hide these things from Lin Ji, but after being exposed to Lin Ji, after a short period of panic and silence, they became more intense and unabashed. quarrel.

Having experienced being dependent on each other, having nothing, no worries about food and clothing, and wealth and prosperity, the relationship between Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue has long been no longer what it was before, full of contradictions.

A few years ago, Lin Duanyi had gradually restored contact with his hometown. Every year, he sent a huge sum of money to buy houses for his parents, ex-wife and children, and even his daughter had already admitted him. The identity of his father, he called him "Dad" on the phone.

Jiang Yue felt it was unfair, but she had nothing to do. She could prevent Lin Duanyi from meeting her ex-wife, but she could not prevent Lin Duanyi from being nice to his children.

"You feel guilty about your former wife and children, but you don't feel guilty about me and my son?"

"What are you talking about!"

"My parents severed ties with me. My family can never go back. Everyone called me a shameless third party. At that time, I thought it was okay. I had you, but are you worthy of me?" !"

"You are so unreasonable!"

They quarreled more and more frequently, and the quarrel became more and more severe. At this time, Lin Ji never said a word, just sat on the stairs, listening and watching quietly.

No matter how violent the noise downstairs was, he was always calm and indifferent.He sat there, watching them calmly, condescending, like a cold judge.

He was just a child at that time, but his eyes made Jiang Yue and Lin Duanyi feel scared.

Beneath the calm was deep-seated disgust and hatred.

Lin Ji's temperament was a bit cold at first, and then he was even more cold and unapproachable. Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue tried to curry favor with him, but to no avail.For many years after that, he never called his parents even once.

After trying to please her many times to no avail, Jiang Yue broke out once.She shouted at Lin Ji: "Anyone can look down on me, only you can't. No matter how many people I am sorry to, I have never, ever sorry to you. You have no right to look down on me!"

When Lin Ji was born, their life was still very difficult. At that time, Lin Duanyi had just started a business, and the capital turnover was not enough. The two of them only had 1000 yuan in total.Jiang Yue was in labor, and the two of them held on to the 1000 yuan. They didn't even have the courage to go to the hospital. They borrowed another [-] yuan from a friend to make up the surgery fee.On the second day after Lin Ji was born, Jiang Yue was discharged from the hospital. Lin Duanyi hugged her and shed tears, vowing to let their mother and son live a good life. The whole world came together, and those were the years when they were most loving.

However, most of the good things in the world are not firm, and the colorful clouds are easy to disperse and the glass is brittle.So is love.

In recent years, Lin Duanyi has had a lot of women outside. He is very rich and looks very good. When a 40-year-old man is very charming, too many people throw themselves into his arms.

Jiang Yue knew these things a long time ago, but she was powerless. She even thought to herself, at least I was the only one who started a family with him, and I was his only legal wife.After thinking about it like this, I will feel that I am so cheap.

At that time, Lin Ji dismissed Jiang Yue's outburst, and replied coldly: "I didn't let you give birth to me."

It hurt people, he knew it, but at that time he just thought it wasn't enough to hurt those two people enough.

Jiang Yue cried all night, and since then she has given up on Lin Ji.The three people in a family live their own lives, occasionally sit together for a meal, and don't talk much, the silence is suffocating.

Later, as Lin Ji got older, those sharp hatreds were honed over time and gradually settled down.

When he thought about Jiang Yue's words again, he felt that it was not unreasonable. He was attached to Jiang Yue and Lin Duanyi, and he had no right to criticize them than anyone else.

At that time, Lin Duanyi was quite blatant in raising women outside, Jiang Yue just watched with cold eyes, she would quarrel with him in the past few years, but in the past few years she didn't even quarrel.

Lin Ji asked Jiang Yue: "Do you regret it?"

Jiang Yue didn't expect him to ask such a question, and was a little dazed for a moment.She didn't answer, but Lin Ji felt that she should have regretted it, but Jiang Yue, who is in her 20s, didn't know what the future would be like. If she was given a chance to choose again, she would still walk on this road, for what she thought Can stick to the love of a lifetime regardless of oneself.

Lin Ji thought she was stupid. He thought, if a man can abandon his wife and children for a woman, how can he guarantee that he will not abandon this woman for another woman in the future?In other words, feelings are inherently an extremely unstable thing.When you love, it's true love, when you don't love, you really can't love.

Later, a car accident took away 20 years of deep love, hatred, resentment, and involvement. Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue completely got rid of the past and threw them to the only surviving Lin Ji.

After the car accident, Lin Ji was in a coma for many days. After he woke up, he heard the news of Lin Duanyi and Jiang Yue's death. A dream fell asleep.

When he hated them, he wished they would die soon. When they really died, he was as dazed as if he had returned to his mother's womb, back to the original primordial chaos. .

In the chaos of that moment when the world turned upside down, he saw Lin Duanyi trying to stand in front of Jiang Yue, and Jiang Yue yelled "Xiao Ji!"

Maybe, maybe...