[Comprehensive] Light and Shadow

I don't know if it's an illusion, but since the first petals start to fall, there seems to be a clear dividing line.

From that day on, the child's physical condition became worse and worse, his face became paler and paler, and the speed at which the petals withered was visible to the naked eye. He dared not open the window, dared not touch it, and even dared not take the child out again. .

Even so, the petals are still falling.

Piece by piece, they fell off silently, and the purple petals that had been stained with withering reflected the shadow of a sad and helpless summer, and then fell lifelessly in the air and fell on the soil.

How could this be?

Kise Ryota once asked the child this question in a panic. The blond boy knelt on the edge of the pot of flowers, holding the fallen petals with trembling hands, and his eyes were full of fear and anxiety.

And how did the child answer?

Remember, that child just kept his head down and kept silent, when Kise thought he wouldn't make a sound, that child spoke.

"I'm just...a flower."

That kind of voice is too fragile, it seems that it will break when it touches the air, and it is so soft that it hurts.

That child is just a flower.

It was a normal thing for flowers to bloom and fall, but the child's life was also disappearing rapidly.

"Will you leave me?" Kise Ryota's eyes were red, and his voice trembled extremely.

"Not now." The child pursed his lips, his pupils shrouded in water mist slowly looked at the pot of flowers that were about to wither, then the child slowly reached out and touched Huang Lai's hand carefully, and finally squeezed Hold on tight.

"I think I should be the same as the heroine in the TV series. I knew that I would leave sooner or later, so I shouldn't meet you, I shouldn't live with you, and I should leave early. It's best to disappear one day with a flowerpot in my arms. It's gone." The child said softly, staring closely at the hands he and Kise held, "But, I just don't want to leave Ryota."

The child's words were straightforward, but tears were streaming from the child's eyes.

"I just want to be with Liangta, and I want to live every day as my last day. I want to treat every day with Liangta as a lifetime. In that way, in that way, I have spent many lives with Liangtai."

The child's soft voice was extremely firm at this moment, and his crying red eyes were fixed on Kise Ryota.There is no escaping complexity that belongs to adults, no unnecessary indecision, that child is just thinking, doing, and wanting to be with Ryota Kise.

Days passed, the petals withered one by one, and finally there was only the last withered petal left, precariously as if it would fall if the wind blows, and the child would disappear immediately.

It should be the last time. To meet the child's wish, I went out to watch the lantern festival at night.

On the lake at night, the wind is calm, even in the dark night, it is still radiant, the lanterns floating on the lake, there is a gorgeous and dreamy beauty, the light is still shining, shining brightly, even the lake , this street is extraordinarily dazzling, both dazzling and warm, just like the gentle light at that time.

"Can I make a wish?" In a quiet corner, the child looked round at the lanterns on the lake and slowly turned his head. On his pale and bloodless face, only the pair of purple pupils were shining brightly, and his soft voice It seems that one mouth will be blown away by the wind.

"Of course." Kise nodded with a smile, and then looked at the scattered lanterns on the lake, which were extraordinarily dazzling in the dark.

Please let the child's time bearing stop spinning, keep the time he locked in this moment, and never leave.

I would like to let that child stay with me forever.

"What did you wish for?"

"It doesn't work to say it."

"Tell me, I really want to know."

"I want to be able to reincarnate earlier."

Kise Ryo was too stunned, and then her eyes gradually turned red.

This child seems to be able to understand better than anyone else - it is impossible to see each other again.

Remember that first encounter that morning, and today, the starry night, is coming to an end?

It's here - a final farewell?

"That's it," Kise's face was a little mournful, a little disappointed with this wish, Kise pointed to his face, and brought his face close to the child, from the child's purple pupils he could see Kise's magnified face, Kise Seto frowned and said emphatically, "But even if you reincarnated early, you still have to grow up from a baby. When you grow up, I will become a grandfather who needs someone to support you!"

And, more importantly...

Kise hugged the child tightly, as if with the strength of his hands, he would never let go again.

More importantly - Huang Lai, she doesn't want Xiao An to leave at all.

"Even if Ryota is a grandfather, he's super handsome!" The child slowly stretched out his hand to grab Kise's clothes, leaned his head on Kise's shoulder, stared at the night sky with wide eyes, but felt a little wet Feeling, and that voice also brought a bit of trembling.

"That's not okay. If you are reincarnated, you will be separated from me for a few lifetimes, or if you continue to be separated, won't you never see each other again? I don't want to be like this!" Kise hugged the boy even harder, obviously It's a relaxed tone, like Kise's coquettish style in normal times, but the child didn't see Kise's expression, didn't see the dim expression on the face that always smiled brightly at this time, and didn't see it either. Those pupils, which are always bright and bright, are also full of fear and uneasiness, and they don't see the fragility that seems to be broken in one blow.

Just hugging like this, it seems that they have been hugging for a long time, and no one has let go.

On such a warm night, it seemed extraordinarily cold.

The warm breath of each other and the body temperature through the heavy clothes seem to be the only remaining warmth in the world, but this temperature alone seems to be able to illuminate the whole world.

"Kose, do you still remember the actor's lines from before?" The child slowly pushed Kise away, then took a step back with a calm smile on his face.

"Huh?" Huang Lai smiled, not paying much attention to the child's sudden topic, holding the child's cold hands with both hands, then exhaling warmly, rubbing the child's little hands, clearly knowing the child's body temperature The temperature has been freezing cold, but still stubbornly wants to pass the temperature to the child.

"He said that the reason for the quietness in the classroom is that some people may say 5 seconds and stop for 1 second, and some people may say 6 seconds and stop for 0.5 seconds. In this way, after a relatively long period in the whole class, the pause period of many people overlaps. Many people are silent at the same time, and the classroom is quiet." The child briefly repeated the line he said before, and the line was obviously memorized deliberately.

"So, after that, I kept thinking—" The child stopped when he said this, then pulled his right hand out of Kise's hand, touched Kise's cheeks with both hands, and then asked Kise to look at him seriously s face.

"I was reborn in my womb, Ryota, just return to the life before I existed. Then, maybe sometimes when I was a baby, you have become a grandfather; maybe sometimes, I am alive Sometimes, you are still waiting in line to be reincarnated; maybe sometimes we are all alive, but we just don’t meet at all on different planets. But..."

The child put his hands down, took a deep breath, and his voice was a little choked.

"However, after a long period of time, the pause periods of the two of us will eventually coincide."

——No matter how long I have to wait, no matter how many times I have to miss, I will always see you again.

"So, when that time comes, we can meet again."

——So, now we have to separate.

The child took two steps back. Under the starlight, those beautiful purple pupils seemed to be dyed with the brilliant colors of the lanterns, but the outline of the blond boy in those pupils was already blurred.

The child's body gradually became blurred, like a broken three-dimensional projector, and at that moment, the whole body was blurred like a phantom.

The time for that flower is finally coming.

Kise Ryota opened his eyes wide and looked at the child's figure, and stretched out his hand to grab it, but the moment he reached out to touch it, it passed through the child's hand, as if it was transparent and never existed. Fear and loss made my breath seem to be tightly choked for an instant.

"What should I do?" Huang Lai's hands trembled, and the young man's eyes fell on him with trepidation, "What should I do, I can't hold your hand anymore."

How to do?

Can't hold your hand anymore?

Really, can't I keep you?

Really, never see you again?

The child was stunned, his lips moved slightly, he looked down at Huang Lai's hand, his purple pupils trembled, and tears gathered in his eyes at that moment, as if he was about to cry in the next second.

"I, I assure you." The child lowered his head and took another step back, his voice hoarse with a strong nasal voice, "Wait, when we meet again——"

"I, I must still be Xiaoan, I will definitely meet Liangta again, I will definitely like Liangtai, I will definitely..."

The child finally began to cry, and the tears condensed in his eyes fell down at this moment, flowing down his cheeks one drop at a time, and the sound of panting and crying hindered the child's next words.The child didn't wipe away the tears, but looked up at the sky, widening his eyes, as if thinking that the tears would stop falling.

At least I don't want each other at the last moment in memory to have such a sad expression.Obviously, how happy I am to be with Ryota for such a long time, I shouldn't be so sad.

"Wait, at that time, whether you or Kise Ryota, I will definitely not be separated from you."

Huang Lailiang stood firmly in place, watching the figure of the child not far away getting more and more blurred, but he couldn't say a word, all the words were choked in his throat, that share The feeling of sadness and pain suppressed in the bottom of my heart could not be gushed out at this moment.

So sad.

Never felt so bad.

Whether it's after a loss in any match, whether it's after knowing that the generations of miracles are scattered, or even after the infinite future, it seems that there will never be a more uncomfortable time than the present.

really uncomfortable...

The black hole of pain and depression in his heart was tearing apart frantically at this moment, as if he was going to swallow his whole self in the next moment.

Kise Ryota's body trembled, looking at the child whose body was about to disappear, his lips moved slightly but did not speak, but at this moment, looking at the smile that the purple-haired child forced to pull away, Kise Ryota's Tears also fell.

"Don't go." Kise Ryota's voice was so soft that he was drowned in the surrounding noise as soon as he spoke.

"Don't go." Kise Ryota's tears kept falling, and he took a few steps forward, but he didn't reach out to touch the child again, but just fixed his eyes on the boy, his voice was pleading and trembling.

Even if you don't open your eyes, you can hear each other's voice.

That child's voice was always by his side, so much so that he had the illusion that he would stay by his side forever.

"Don't leave me!" Kise Ryota said loudly, as if she was shouting at the child with all her strength.

The blond boy staggered close to the child, but when he got very close, he stretched out his hand but didn't dare to touch it.

Scared, really scared.

I was afraid that the moment I reached out, everything would fall apart.

Kise Ryota slowly lowered his hands, then knelt down limply on the ground as if his whole body had lost strength, lowered his head, tears slid down his cheeks and fell on the ground, the dark brown soil couldn't be reflected at this moment The transparent dark color, even the tears full of emotions, can only disappear into the land without leaving a trace.

Just like the figure of a child, no matter how hard you try, it can only disappear into the air without a sound.

The child slowly stretched out his right hand, wanting to touch Kise's short blond hair as usual, but he couldn't touch it even when he reached out, just caressing over nothing like that, all he touched was the air.

Ann's hands trembled, and then slowly clenched his fists.

"Kise Ryota..."

The purple-haired boy squatted down and softly called Kise's name.The blond boy raised his head slowly, his outstanding and handsome face was covered with tears, and what he saw in those golden pupils was a paler figure of the child.

The purple-haired child seemed to want to say something, but at this moment he couldn't say anything.

All the voices were choked up, and he knew that if he didn't speak, he would never be able to speak again, but he didn't know what to say.

"like."

"I like you the most, Kise."

Tears filled the eyes, and the whole world was blurred.

It's not because I'm trying to be brave to show a smiling face, I just don't want to shed tears again;

But why, until now, the tears have been unable to stop.

"I like the way you are nervous and looking forward to taking care of me, the way you read the book seriously, the way you touch the leaves and say you want to take care of me, the way you pick me up from the pond in a hurry, and the way you concentrate on listening to my singing , I like that you said yes, you said, you said you wanted to grow up with me..."

In the end, the child couldn't speak at all, and couldn't cry. Following this sentence, Kise Ryota seemed to be caught in the vortex of memories, and every sentence could recall every small but brilliant and warm time fragment in the past.

It was so dazzling that even now, as long as you close your eyes, you can immediately see a period of time in front of you.

Every day, we live together, chat together, and play together.

Watch boring TV dramas together on the sofa; feed the children with all the delicious food on the dining table; want to take the children to all the fun places during the holidays.On the small road, as long as you speak, you can hear the other party's answer; at home, you can hold the other party as long as you reach out, and on the field, you can see the other party's existence as long as you turn around.

"Thank you, Ryota."

"I just want you to know that every day after I met you is brilliant."

"So, no matter what reason I came to you, I am very grateful."

"And today, I think, is the happiest day of my death."

At this moment, all the fireworks are blooming gorgeously in the sky at this moment, and there are deafening fireworks and people's cheers, with all the good wishes and longings.

And that child had a bright smile on his face, and the light in his water-colored purple pupils seemed more brilliant than fireworks.

The child slowly took off his hat, and the last petals fell slowly from his hair.

And now-

It is clearly a distance that can be touched by reaching out, but it seems to be separated by a world.

The body of the smiling child with tears streaming down his face glowed a faint fluorescent green, and then the body disappeared bit by bit. The light and shadow that could not be retained became eternity that was about to pass away at this moment.

"Nice fireworks."

The child froze for a moment, then looked at the fireworks in the sky, then turned to look at Kise Ryota with a smile.

"Well, it's beautiful."

Kise Ryota nodded, her voice was hoarse, tears kept gushing from her eyes, but a bright smile was still forced on the corner of her mouth.

"I am a little flower~ a cute little purple flower, I want to grow a big little flower~"

The child's choked voice broke into the air, and the translucent body became more and more hazy, but the child was still singing that song tremblingly.

"La~ I'm a cute little flower~ la la~ It's just, just Ryota's little flower."

Quietly watching the body of the purple-haired child disappear little by little, the light that made up the child seemed to be blown away by the wind, and then blown into the night.However, there is no way to find the light that belongs to children in the gorgeous fireworks here.

The little flower that wanted to grow up and only belonged to Ryota had disappeared.

I met you in the early morning sunlight, but separated from you under the gorgeous fireworks.

The last song, also because of the helpless wind, dissipated.

Even at the last moment, reaching out to hug with all my might,

It can only touch the light of the last star point, and then fall to the ground,

In the end, the only one who can hug you is yourself...