both you and me

From then on, we lived in our own dormitories when we were in class, and we stayed in our own little home on weekends. I cook and do laundry, and you do housework. It's good to say that, feelings are a long flow rather than a momentary passion.

"Yunxi, how do you plan to spend New Year's Day?"

That day after class, I stood outside your classroom and waited for you to finish class, and then we went to the cafeteria to eat together. I really want to spend New Year’s Day with you. I can celebrate Christmas or other holidays, but New Year’s Day and Spring Festival are my most important things. I wish I could have you by my side.

"I'm going back to City X on New Year's Day this year"

You put the vegetables in my bowl that I don't like to eat into your mouth with a blank face. After hearing this, I felt very sad and bowed my head.

"what happened?"

You noticed something was wrong with me, put down your chopsticks and looked at me.

"Can't I not go back?"

I know my request is too much, and I didn't expect you to agree, but you refused me without even thinking about it, do you know how uncomfortable I feel?But I didn't force it, you don't belong to me alone, you still have your own home.

"Unhappy?"

"No, just a little lost"

I lied to you, I just don't want you to think I'm a clingy and naive girl.Time flies, I walked alone on the noisy street on New Year's Eve, it seems that besides me, I have a partner by my side, or a sweet couple, or a group of buddies, I seem to be out of tune with this atmosphere , There is still the bank card you left me in the wallet, you said that I can swipe whatever I like, but I don't want to use your penny, because what I love is you, not your money.

Although I am incompatible with this atmosphere, I still don’t want to go back, whether it’s the dormitory or our home, there is a three-day holiday on New Year’s Day, and everyone in the dormitory goes home and I’m the only one who goes back. Our home makes me even more I feel lonely, so I would rather walk alone on the street.

When I was hungry, I went to a food stall and asked for a bowl of beef noodles. While eating, I felt wronged, and tears flowed down my eyes, mixed with noodles and ate them in my stomach.

In the end, I went home. When I walked into the room, I didn't turn on the light. I stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows and watched the fireworks outside. I don't know what she is doing at this moment?

Just when I was feeling bitter, the light in the living room suddenly turned on, I subconsciously looked at the door, you stood there with a tired face pulling the suitcase, my mind had no time to react and my body rushed towards you tightly hug you, feel your breath.

"Idiot, what are you doing?"

Although you still call me an idiot, I can feel the gentleness of your hand holding me. At this time, a furry thing is arching my leg. I let go of you and looked down at the ground. It turned out to be a small Rab Lado puppy, I crouched down and held the little guy in my arms.

"It's so cute, is this your gift for New Year's Day?"

"Um"

That Labrador was the first gift you gave me, and I later found out that the reason why you came back to X City No. [-] was because of this Labrador.

"Then what do you want to give me?"

You approached me and spoke ambiguously, and the hot air from your mouth hit my ears.

"I'm not prepared. Didn't you say you won't come back today?"

I took a step back subconsciously, you reached out and put the puppy in my arms on the ground and kissed it directly.

"Since you are not prepared, then promise yourself with your body!"

In the blink of an eye, it was winter vacation, I told my mother that I would stay in city B to work, my mother naturally didn’t think much of it, she just told me to go home during Chinese New Year, and you don’t need to lie to stay in city B, because you want to stay in city B I originally thought that we could spend more time together during the winter vacation, but the fact is that you are getting busier and I stay at home with nothing to do.

I suddenly realized that I must have my own business to do, otherwise this will definitely be the portrayal of us in the future, no, I don’t want to be a rice bug at home and slowly become a yellow-faced woman, I must have my own job.

After making up my mind, I started looking for a job. Obviously, I couldn’t find a very easy job while I was still studying. Later, I worked as a cashier in a convenience store. Although I didn’t make much money, my life was very fulfilling. There is still time to buy food and cook when I get home.

In fact, we didn't spend much time together from the beginning of the winter vacation to when I went home. I also had a fight with you, but then I found that I couldn't even quarrel with you, because you don't know how to fight with me at all. Noisy, when you think I am making trouble for no reason, you will ignore it, and when you think you are really wrong, you will apologize, how can you quarrel like this?

"I send you!"

You took my arm and said calmly but firmly, in fact, we were in a cold war at that time, and I can’t remember why it was a cold war.

"Need not"

I rejected you coldly, actually all I want is a little more concern from you, I am not the kind of person who needs a girlfriend to be around me 24 hours a day, but at least can you please take time out of your busy schedule It would be nice to have a little time with me for dinner or even supper, but you didn't even have a little time for me.

"Stop it"

You are very helpless, as if in your eyes, everything I do is capricious and vexatious.

"I'm not making trouble, Wang Yunxi, I've come back from the Lantern Festival at home, and we've been thinking about each other for more than half a month."

"Are you going to break up?"

You took my arm and asked, I never thought of breaking up with you.

"If you think it is, then it is."

I don't know what happened to me at the time, maybe the two of us rushed to talk, then you left me with nowhere to go, so I had to bite the bullet and say things against my will.

You didn't say anything, just let go of my arm, I closed my eyes, took a deep breath and left with the suitcase, and you didn't catch up until the moment I got on the train, I still hoped that I could see it from the window You, but I didn't see it, so I wept silently until I got home.

Standing at the door of the house, I wiped away the tears on my face and adjusted my emotions before taking out the key to open the door.

"Mom, I'm back."

The response to me was the same as I thought, and it was also the coldness of the room. I sneered and threw the keys in my hand on the shoe cabinet in the entrance, changed into my slippers and walked into the living room.

I sit on the couch and look around, this is my home, but it’s so foreign to me, since I was very young, my mother left me alone at home and dated different men, even once in a while She would bring the man back for the night. She didn't dare to bring a man home until I was almost raped by a man once, but she still didn't change her flirtatious personality.

My mother didn't come back until I finished dinner. The moment she saw me, she was obviously surprised. What was more obvious was that she forgot about my return. I wondered why you didn't bring me back Why do you have to come back if you take things to heart?

"Let's eat"

I put the last dish on the table and said to my mother lukewarmly, my mother opened and closed her mouth, then went to wash her hands and eat.

"Mingming, why didn't you tell me when you came back today?"

At the dinner table, she still couldn't help asking me a question, and I raised my head and glanced at her.

"I said, you forgot."

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