sickness

"So it's me in your nightmare." In the darkness, Zang Bai chuckled, "What did you dream about me?"

Lin Bochuan swallowed his saliva, as if he still had lingering fear.

"You made me kill myself..."

"So did you kill yourself?"

"……Soon."

In the dream, Zang Bai was standing on the balcony outside the living room. He had long hair and no clothes on. He grabbed the railing with both hands and leaned down. The wind was so strong that he was about to float up.

Lin Bochuan let him in, trying to reach out and grab him.When Zang Bai dodged his hand, he let go of the railing with both hands, and Lin Bochuan's heartbeat almost stopped at that moment.He begged him to come up quickly, but Zang Bai just laughed at him like he was going crazy.

I don't know where he got a dagger and threw it to Lin Bochuan, telling him to kill himself, otherwise he would jump from here and give him ten seconds to count down.

At the end of the countdown, before Lin Bochuan stabbed himself in the chest with a knife, Zang Bai woke him up.

"Don't be afraid, it's just a dream. I won't let you commit suicide or do anything to hurt yourself." Zang Bai patted him on the back as a sign of comfort.

Both of them were silent for a while, Zang Bai suddenly turned his back.

Self-analysis is always difficult, and being honest with others is even more humbling.But he has confessed Lin Bochuan to this extent just now, and he doesn't want any misunderstandings between them, especially these misunderstandings will make Lin Bochuan hurt himself.

"I was angry that night, not because you... made trouble with me. I don't dislike intimate contact with you..." Having said this, Zang Bai turned around again, facing Lin Bochuan.At least in the dark, you can still say these words to his face, "But I hate that I'm the only one like that."

"...What kind of look?"

"...It's in your hands...it's become ugly..." As he spoke, he thought of that scene again, and in the darkness, he couldn't help but feel hot all over.

Lin Bochuan swallowed hard, and the sound of swallowing was particularly obvious between the two.His throat was so tight that he couldn't open it: "But I think you have been satisfied...I can only satisfy you in this way."

"No, I'm not satisfied."

Zang Bai breathed lightly: "Perhaps I am physically satisfied, but I feel ashamed in my heart."

"It's nothing to be ashamed of, you're still young, I can't let you stay with me like this."

Zang Bai raised his voice: "It's just shameful, under your calm gaze, I feel like a plaything."

"...I didn't think about it that way," he could also hear his depression from his deep voice.He didn't expect Zang Bai to look at it this way, he was disappointed in himself, "I think you are very beautiful," he reached out to touch Zang Bai's shoulder, trying to pull him into his arms, "I have seen you Prettiest O."

囡丯

"That's why you don't see many people without clothes." Lin Bochuan's words hit his anger point somewhere, and he couldn't help but sarcastically.

"Lin Bochuan...don't get the injection."

Silence, a long silence, and a long negation.

"You see that you have a fever every day and faint every now and then. Are you really going to kill yourself?" Zang Bai pressed his eyes, "Enough is enough."

"The only side effect is fever, which has no effect on the body. Don't worry."

Hearing this, Zang Bai became angry again. He sat up and faced Lin Bochuan in the dark: "I'm not worried, I'm just fucking bored watching it."

"It's annoying that you are dying when you have a fever, and you are fainting again and again in front of me. Do you think it's fun to take care of you? Have you ever thought that I saw you What does it feel like to be dead?" Zang Bai became angrier as he spoke, and felt his eyes and nose start to sore, "And your few that can't be hardened, they are limp, disgusting to death."

"...I'm sorry, but I don't want an injection, I'm afraid..."

"What are you afraid of? Are you afraid that you will rape me again? Or do you really think that you are a rapist, and you will not be able to have sex in this life if you don't use coercion?" Zang Bai was so angry that his brain ached, "Why do you So stupid? Do you know who the medicine was given to in the first place?"

"Repeat pedophiles. They hurt kids over and over again because they can't control themselves. Do you think you're like that?"

"Sorry……"

Zang Bai sniffed, only to realize that he was crying again.

He lifted up the hem of his clothes and wiped his eyes. He couldn't see anything. He touched Lin Bochuan's chest in the pitch blackness. He moved along and touched Lin Bochuan's face. It was warm and moist. Tears flowed down his face.

Zang Bai held his face, buried it in his shoulder, choked up, "Stop getting the injection, I forgive you, isn't that okay?"

"Let's not continue the nightmare of the past, let's forget about it, okay? Enough is enough, enough is enough..."

"……it is good."

Zang Bai broke down and leaned on Lin Bochuan presumptuously, crying loudly.He couldn't remember when he cried like this, as if his soul was out of his body, he watched him coldly and asked him why he cried like this.

Lin Bochuan's arms tightened, his breathing trembled, and he cried: "I listen to you, don't cry..."

"Zang Bai...Rui Rui...don't cry, you make me feel so uncomfortable..."

Lin Bochuan choked up.He didn't want to be so ugly, especially at this time, he shouldn't let his emotions break down.But he couldn't help it. It seemed that the guilt he had accumulated for ten years turned into tears when he was forgiven by the other party.

Zang Bai fumbled to kiss him, Lin Bochuan overturned him, pressed him into the pillow, and kissed him back more intensely.Because of the blocked nose from crying, this kiss seemed to be suffocated at any time, but no one wanted to withdraw.

Tears and saliva mixed together and turned into a salty and bitter taste, but as it flowed down the throat and into the heart, it became hot.Those hard stones accumulated by conflicts and pains also slowly melted in such hot kisses.

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In the blink of an eye, it was mid-October, and a continuous autumn rain completely washed away the heat in the tea city.

Zang Bai also returned to work, just in time for the refund process to begin.Since he was the one who discussed this matter at the beginning, he is also in charge now.

"Are there many people who come to get refunds?" Lin Bochuan asked.

"There were twelve people yesterday, which is not too many. It feels like a lot of people are arguing a lot, but they are actually watching."

Both of them were at the desk, Lin Bochuan was sitting, and Zang Bai was leaning against the desk.

If the partnership is also a work partner, the distance is really difficult to define.Now the two are in a position where they are too close to talk about business affairs, but too far away to talk about private affairs.

"Then let them wait and see." Lin Bochuan went to grab Zang Bai's waist, then hugged and pulled him to sit on his lap.

"Let's find a way to get them to retreat quickly, back to our red line early, and finish the job early." Zang Bai struggled, trying to escape from the confinement of his two arms, "This is in the company, restrain yourself, Mr. Lin."

"No need, they all know about our relationship, besides, everyone is outside."

"...Then this is also a company, not at home."

"I know, but I've been too busy recently, you've been asleep when I go home." Lin Bochuan buried his face in his back, a little resentful, and then asked in a low voice, "Why don't you come to sleep in my room at night?"

Zang Bai didn't speak, Lin Bochuan waited for a while, knowing that he meant to refuse.

After talking that night, the two seemed to have untied their knots, at least Lin Bochuan untied.Zang Bai also took the initiative a lot in expressing intimacy, but they still seemed to be a little bit away from a real partner, at least Zang Bai did not agree to sleep with him in the same bed.

"I'll go home and cook dinner tonight, and we'll eat together when you come back." After refusing, he backed down a little. When he said this, he was a little shy, "What do you want to eat?"

"I like everything you do." Lin Bochuan held his arms tighter, and said close to Zang Bai's ear, and kissed him smoothly after speaking.

"One more thing. I'm going to Yancheng to attend an art exhibition in two days."

"How many days?"

"Maybe four or five days."

"Do you want me to accompany you back?"

"No need, it's so busy here."

"What art exhibition, have you never heard of it before?"

Zang Bai was a little embarrassed: "It's organized by a collector I know, I'll make up the number."

In fact, Zang Bai has painted New Year pictures for so many years, and he is still well-known in the circle.

However, he has never used his real name, and has never met anyone in the circle offline, so no one else knows his real identity.Because of this sense of mystery, it made him very popular in the small circle.

This collector is also an "old customer" who has been taking care of his business for many years. He was invited to participate in the exhibition two years ago, but at that time he was still in Zang's house and it was inconvenient to show up, so he refused.

This time, the other party tried his best to invite, and after exhausting good words, Zang Baicai reluctantly agreed, promising to bring three paintings, including the latest one he came to the tea city.

He didn't really want to tell Lin Bochuan about these things. Painting has always been his hobby, and he had to make a living for a period of time before. Now that his life is stable, he has retreated to the position of hobby.But his main energy should still be on this project, fighting for the real cause together with Lin Bochuan.

"You go, I'll let Xiaoyu accompany you."

Xiaoyu refers to Yu Youxing, and Zang Bai feels that he can't occupy a manpower and delay the work here.

"Let Xiaoyu stay with you, I feel relieved if there is one more person, and I will come back as soon as possible."

"it is good……"

Before the words were finished, the office door was suddenly pushed open.

People in the general manager's office come to report work at any time, so the door is simply not locked, but there will be no such ignorant people who don't even knock when entering the boss's office.

Zang Bai stood up from Lin Bochuan's lap in a panic, and the visitor had already stepped in.

An unfamiliar face, he was wondering which new employee was so unruly, when he saw the newcomer walking straight to Lin Bochuan's desk, and placed the notebook in his hand on the table.

"Chuan'er, here's my new data, take a look."