beautiful him

Pingliang sent a lot of text messages.All are apologies, and the content is all wrong.

Perhaps Pingliang would never have thought that he dumped Kiyoju.Forget it, so be it.Let him be like this, stop paying attention to the Qingju in reality, and continue to blindly pursue the ideal Qingju he shaped without authorization.

Even though he thought so, at the same time Qing Ju had another thought in his heart.

Even if he was teased almost like bullying, even if he was ordered to run errands, Hirao kept focusing on himself like a fool.Unlike those superficially flattering Kiyojus, who would adapt to the situation as soon as they encountered a situation, when Kiyoju fell into a humiliating situation, only Pingliang remained unchanged.

If we spend a little more time, will there be any changes between them?

Is it because I am too anxious.

As long as you are free, such timid thoughts will inadvertently appear in your mind.No, no, in order to forget about that disgusting man, Qingju kept himself as busy as possible.Study hard, work hard.Fortunately for Kiyoju, he can devote himself to rehearsing almost every day of the premiere of the stage play.

However, once I got back to the apartment where I lived alone, I couldn't do it.Whether it's when taking a bath or eating, Hirara's figure always suddenly appears in Kiyoju's thoughts, causing Kiyoju to fall into unspeakable emotions.Qingju suddenly wanted to call his hometown for some reason, and his mother was very surprised when he received the call.

"Did something happen? Kanade actually took the initiative to call back"

"Nothing"

"I'm back—" a rough voice came from the other end of the phone.Qing Ju asked who it was, but he didn't expect it to be his younger brother.Recently, my younger brother has entered a period of changing his voice, and Kiyoju gradually began to feel irritable when he heard his mother's voice happily talking about these things.Interrupting her mother's words halfway, Qingju who hung up the phone became more and more depressed.

——Qingju is my favorite person in the whole world.

——This is a home prepared for Qingju.I put Qingju first.

Thinking back to Hirashi's words, I don't know what he is doing right now.Maybe brother Xiaoshan went to look for him.Thinking of the intimacy of the two of them, Qingju felt irritable, and pulled off the quilt and wrapped himself in the quilt to sleep.

The stage play was very successful.On the last performance of the fourth day, the audience even gave a standing ovation, and the small theater that could only accommodate a hundred people was filled with applause.Kiyomi also managed to overcome the increased amount of lines, and the president of the office, who happened to be free, was also surprised after seeing it.

"The movements on the stage are very good, and the voice is also very powerful. It can be seen that you have spent a lot of time rehearsing. Ah, I didn't expect you to be so devoted to the stage play. It seems that I can add some work to you in this area."

"Really"

Qingju hurriedly asked, the president folded his arms and glanced at Qingju.

"But it's hard work. Compared with models, the performance fee is lower and time-consuming, and the seniority relationship is very strict, so you have to pay more attention to etiquette than now."

"Ah—isn't that what I'm worst at?"

"Let me just say it. Qingju has always been natural and high-spirited."

Unable to deny the president's words, Kiyoi could only fool around with a smile.But he will play nice. "I'm sorry for the trouble, President," Qing Ju bowed his head and said.

"Then give it a try." The president finally nodded.

Coupled with the excitement after the stage play, Kiyoju felt at ease after a long absence.Although work is a lifetime thing, there is no need to worry too much.But at this moment, Qingju felt that he had taken a step forward.Although I've been depressed recently because of Hirara's incident, my work is going well and I'm definitely moving forward.It doesn't matter.

After finishing the greetings with the others and dismantling the stage set, Qingju, who was about to go to the celebration party, walked through the exit and stopped suddenly.Hirara was standing by the exit.Qingju quickly looked away.Going to ignore Hirara completely, pretending to talk to other people passing by.

"Clear, clear, clear, clear, clear—"

Everyone turned around in shock.

"Qingju, is that your friend?"

Qing Ju was speechless.But there is no other way.Let the others go first, only Qingju and Heliang were left in the passage, and Pingliang handed over a paper bag tremblingly.

"……luggage"

Kiyoi's shirt, toothbrush and other things were contained in the paper bag.They sent these things here on purpose.It's too nerve-wracking.In order not to let the other party notice his discomfort, Qingju grabbed the luggage.

"Thanks. Goodbye"

Qingju immediately turned around and prepared to leave.

"and many more……"

"Anything else?"

Kiyoi looked back at Hirara with eyes like looking at trash.

"I apologize for what I did to upset you"

"Don't apologize, don't pester me anymore. Get in the way, disgusting"

Hirara lowered his head with a face that looked like he was about to cry.Just when Qingju thought it was over between them

"...I want to do the same. But"

Hirao raised his head.

"When I graduated from high school, I obviously did it once. I also wanted to give up Qingju and forget Qingju just like that time. But I just couldn't do it. Eat together, chat together, Qingju used to be so close to me, now Say goodbye to me suddenly, I want to forget but I can’t forget.”

This is what I want to say, Qingju held back the words that came to his throat.

"But I don't want to have anything to do with you anymore. Don't text me, don't call me. Don't wait for me. Don't come to my stage play. I don't want to see you in my field of vision "

Obviously I want to forget you, but you keep appearing by my side like this, what should I do.

"Goodbye. Don't appear by my side again"

Just as Kiyoju was about to leave, Hirao grabbed Kiyoju's wrist.

"At least tell me why you are so angry. I will change it. I will change all the things that Qingju hates according to Qingju's request."

"We will never meet again, so what if we know"

"Even if we don't see each other again, I don't want to do things that Kiyomi hates"

Hirao looked at Kiyoi and begged desperately.Like a dog abandoned by its owner.I just lost to these eyes.That's how it got to where it is today.Never want to do this again.

"let me go!"

Kiyomi shook off Hirara's hand.

"Pretend to be desperate, but you don't even know how to look at me in reality. I'm tired of playing idol role-playing games with you"

"Idol play game?"

"Is not it!"

Kiyoi threw the bag at Hirara with all his strength.The hairdresser toothbrush T-shirts inside were scattered all over the floor.Fortunately, this is the path by the back door, and no one passes by.

"What you like is just the ideal me that you molded on your own. What kind of king. Don't be kidding. I am not like that at all. I am just an ordinary person. I want to associate with the person I like, I want to touch the person I like, I also want to be touched by the person I like, and I also want to date the person I like, I am such an ordinary man."

"...Does Qingju have someone he likes?"

Hirao looked shocked, and Kiyoi wanted to cry.

"It's you! What are you asking now!"

Kiyoi probably will never forget the expression that Hirara showed at that moment.

A stupid idiot, it's almost like a comedy at this point.

"……is that a lie?"

"Why would I lie to you about this?"

"Are you kidding me?"

In an instant, Qingju wanted to beat him up.

"I'm not free enough to tease a troublesome guy like you"

"But……"

"Didn't I kiss you on the day of the graduation ceremony? I didn't realize it myself, but I already liked you at that time. That's why I've been waiting for you to contact me, you know when I knew you changed your number What kind of mood is it? You have been chasing after me and said what you like, it is simply incomprehensible. Later, I found out through Mr. Xiaoshan that you were dating Xiaoshan brother. At that time, I was so angry that I wanted to beat you up. I designed it for you to watch the stage play I starred in."

This is really miserable from my own words.But Qing Ju couldn't stop himself.

"...Why does Qingju like people like me?"

"I want to know too!"

Really want to know.Why do I like such a disgusting guy.I really want to warn myself back in high school that I must never have anything to do with Pingliang.

"I really don't understand. At the beginning, it was you who said you liked me, why did you become like this now. Knowing that you have a good relationship with Xiaoshan brother, you will be irritable, and reflect on whether your attitude is too bad, and you put on a picture that is not suitable for you. Treat you as gently as possible with a disgusting smile, and take the initiative to approach you"

Lowering his head, the land at the tip of his toes gradually became blurred.

"Obviously we kissed, and we did something more in-depth. In the end, you said that we can't be lovers. Can you understand my feelings. Just Hira, don't be joking. You are going to die!"

"... Qingju"

Hirao stretched out his hand tremblingly, and Kiyoi waved it away.

"Don't pester me anymore. You can pursue your ideal me as you like. But don't pester me in reality anymore. Really, let me go. You obviously want to forget you, but you keep appearing in the world like this In my sight, I want to forget but I can’t forget.”

Finally couldn't take it anymore, tears dripping down my feet.I didn't expect that one day I would cry and beg Ping Liang.However, I surrendered.Count yourself as a loser, I hope you don't touch me again.

"...Yeah, people like me don't understand Qingju's mood at all"

Hirao murmured.What are you talking about, when Kiyoi raised his head and glared at this insane guy, he was surprised to find that Hirara was angry.

"But Qingju doesn't know how I feel either."

The corners of Hirara's eyes slightly lifted as he said that.It was the first time Kiyoi saw Hirara like this.

"I was ridiculed because of my stuttering as soon as I opened my mouth, and was stepped on the bottom of the pyramid. When the family eats together, as long as they see the news of suicide due to bullying, they will resonate. Qingju doesn't know my feelings."

Qing Ju didn't know what to say for a while.He remembered what he had done to Hirara in high school, and bitterness overflowed in his chest.Ping Hao seemed to feel the same pain, and grabbed his chest.

"For me, Qingju is all my longing. Mingming Qingju is not gentle at all, nor is he a good person, so willful, but everything about Qingju saved me"

"……save?"

"Do you remember when I beat Shirota? I was always at the bottom, but I escaped reality by laughing at myself every time. Like Captain Rubber Duck who let himself drift no matter how dirty he was thrown.... The time I beat Shirota was the first time I resisted. I felt like I finally saved myself at that time. And it was all because of Kiyoi."

Kiyomi didn't quite understand what Hirashi was talking about.Qingju has always been doing what he wanted to do, and never felt that he had done something as great as 'saving others'. 'Saving others' must have been done with kindness and tenderness.But the world of Pingliang does not seem to revolve around these easy-to-understand rules.

"I like everything about Qingju. I like it very much. For me, Qingju is like a god. How can I feel that I can touch such a person?"

Ahhh, I understand now.I don't think I can become friends with Jesus and Buddha.That's probably what this guy meant.

"...But, I'm not some kind of god"

Hearing this, Hirao nodded slowly.Um.Um.Hirara nodded, with a complex expression as if he was savoring something and enduring something.

"...Can I touch Qingju?"

Hirao asked anxiously.

"If it's the same as before, I don't want it"

After saying that, Hirao's expression slowly relaxed.

"If Qingju can, I want to touch you like a lover"

Qingju had a sore nose.The tears that had just stopped were about to fall again.

"That can……"

Qingju tried his best to say.Not wanting Hirato to see his crying face, Kiyoi kept his head down.He could feel Pingliang's hand reaching out tremblingly.The trembling fingertips touched Qingju's shirt, and then slowly hugged Qingju tightly.This was the first time Hirara took the initiative to hug him, and Kiyomi already felt so happy that he lacked oxygen.