beautiful him

Hearing Xiao Shan's sigh, Qing Ju also deeply agreed in his heart.

If it is someone else's matter, you may be able to calmly listen to it, but most people will feel overwhelmed once they hear that their relatives are gay.Moreover, there are differences among people in different circles. Qingju never hides her sexual orientation at work, but she pays great attention not to reveal her sexual orientation at university and at home.

Qingju has been vaguely aware of it since junior high school.When watching TV, he is more attracted to male entertainers than female entertainers.Because of his appearance, Qingju is very popular with girls, and because of this, he is more aware of his orientation.

What about Pingliang?

He said: only Qingju is special, other men and women are the same to him.At that time, he was still a high school student, and it was the first time Kiyoi met a boy of his own kind, and it was also the first time he met a boy who regarded him as a romantic partner.He was still taken aback when he heard that Hirara used to masturbate with his pictures.

- Does that guy want to have sex with me?

Kiyoi imagined it for a while, and also felt the excitement that a teenage boy should have.

It was probably out of curiosity.Kiyoi tried to give Hirara his hand, and Hirara knelt down on one knee and kissed Kiyoi's hand obsessively.That appearance really made Qingju "feel good".The Overlooker and the Overlooked.Although their positions were different, they were indeed caught in similar feelings at that time.

That's why Qingju was so relieved.He believed that Ping Liang was obsessed with himself and would chase him like a loyal dog.Kiyoju doesn't consider himself a narcissist.But if people keep chasing and saying they like it, who wouldn't feel comfortable?

The result turned out to be a shameful misunderstanding of his own, and this incident still affects Qingju to this day.

Now Qingju's love is also stagnant.Because he is in the entertainment industry, not only women but also many men want to chase him.There are also quite a few well-known actors and models among them, but even if Qingju meets alone with these men he thinks he has a crush on, when things are getting better, for some reason he will think of Hirashi's eyes.He would unconsciously compare the man in front of him with Liang Liang's eyes.Then there will be no interest, and there will be no exchange of kisses, and it will end without a problem.

Why is it so.

That man was too scary.

If things go on like this, I will be unable to fall in love, and I will not even be able to renew Hepingliang's kiss, so I will enter adulthood like this.Why should I encounter this kind of thing.Terrible.Thinking that all of these are Pingliang's fault, Qingju will only get more and more angry when he talks about calming down.

"My boyfriend seems to be called Hirashi. He's a classmate in college and has the same stuttering problem as me."

The name that suddenly came to his ears pulled Qingju out of his depression.

Kiyoi couldn't help looking over there, Koyama and Sato stopped talking.

"Ah, I'm sorry. Kiyoi doesn't like these topics, does he?"

"No, it's not—"

Pingliang?Stutter?Is it the Pingliang I know?

"I'm that kind of person too, so I kind of care"

"That kind?"

"Ah..., I can't date girls either"

The two opened their eyes.

"Ah, that's what it is. I'm sorry, but we're too nerdy to talk about this kind of thing here."

"Please don't care. I haven't told my family members, so I also care about what relatives generally think about this kind of thing. Your brother, who are you dating?"

Qingju asked casually, and the two of them came to Qingju's side.

"Qingju, how old are you?"

"19 years old"

"As big as my brother"

Xiaoshan looked at Qingju as if he had found someone to confide in.

"The other party is also a 19-year-old boy. Sure enough, a 19-year-old is obsessed with love?"

"Well, I think it's also a matter of object."

"It seems to be the first time for both of them. Although my brother said that the other person is very good, I am still worried."

"You're overprotective. Isn't that boy pretty handsome? Don't worry about it too much"

handsome?That's not Pingliang.

"Are there any photos to look at?"

Qingju said the same thing, Xiaoshan immediately said yes and took out his mobile phone.

"I kept asking my brother and got tired of him and finally sent me a photo of him. Ah, this is it"

Qingju restrained the ups and downs in his heart and looked at the phone screen.It can't be Pingliang.There can't be such a coincidence...However, the person in the photo was indeed Hirashi, and Kiyoju froze there.Next to Hirara is a boy who looks very similar to Koyama.

"This is my brother, next to his boyfriend"

Qingju stared at the screen.The photo was taken in an ordinary izakaya. In the photo, Hirara and Brother Koyama are sitting together affectionately.Hirao was smiling.This made Qing Ju unbelievable.In high school, although Hirara once showed a slight smile to Kiyoi, but other than that, he has always been a gloomy person with no expression.

What's up with that dirty boy next to him.Although it matches well with the disgusting and annoying Pingliang, but thinking that Pingliang cut off contact with him because of this man, Qingju can't accept it.I can't compare to this man.

"Well, at this age, you really look very good."

After Xiaoshan said that, Qingju said "Huh?" and looked at him in disbelief.

"This boy. Although he is not the handsome guy that is popular now, he has a unique aura. This is called an actor's face. Although it is usually nothing, once it is serious, it will change completely."

What do you know about Hirara?Qingju hurriedly suppressed the anger surging in his heart.

"Are you exaggerating?"

Qingju finally didn't show any displeasure on his face, and pretended to be calm and said.

"Really?" Xiao Shan picked up his phone and asked the leading actress diagonally opposite: "Hey, what do you think of the boy on the left?"

"Ah, the expression looks good. Although the clothes and hairstyle are very rustic, but the eyes are very powerful. Once this kind of person enters the role, he will immediately become different. What, is this planning to join our troupe?"

"Which one? Ah——really. It's not bad. Even though it's dirt, it feels so dirt."

Listening to everyone's words, Qingju tried his best to restrain the anger surging in his heart.Because the people sitting here are all people related to stage plays, so the perspective is different from that of ordinary people.That guy is just a disgusting annoying guy.

"Are you worried about your brother or showing off your brother's boyfriend?"

After listening to Sato's complaints, Koyama finally came to his senses. "As a big brother, it's really complicated."

Listening to Xiao Shan's complaint, Qing Ju said something that he didn't expect.

"Why don't we meet once?"

"Eh?"

"Isn't there a trainee stage play next month? Wouldn't it be good to call your brother and that boy together. Rather than sitting here and worrying about it, wouldn't it be clear if we met directly?"

It's like talking to yourself.

I want to see Pingliang again.

Never want to see Pingliang again.

Qingju has been irritated by the troubles of these two emotions.But tonight, the emotional pendulum is definitely tilting towards the side I want to see.I want to see Pingliang.When I saw it, I wanted to humiliate him severely.It's different from the previous emotion with a little expectation.This time, Qing Ju had clear malice in his heart.

On the day of the performance, Hirao was surprised to see himself.The rusty boy sitting at the same table as Hepingliang is probably Xiaoshan's younger brother.In the photo, he looks like a very rustic boy, but after meeting him in reality, his impression is different.Although it is still very earthy, it has a cuteness like a small animal, and it is completely different from Qingju.

After the stage play ended, Kiyoi was unconsciously observing Hirao while chatting with the staff, and Hirao never looked at Kiyoi.It seems very embarrassing.That's natural, Qingju complained in his heart while waiting for Hirara to talk to him.

However, Hirao didn't seem to intend to come over, and gradually Qingju felt anxious.Is Pingliang planning to go back like this?no.Why do you think I called you here on purpose?Are you going to take the initiative to talk to him?No, that would be a loss.Just when Qingju was anxious, someone finally called him over.That's great, Qingju walked over with the momentum of almost quarreling, but Hirao kept his head down and didn't look at him.

"Qingju, this kid is your fan"

Kiyoi was startled when he heard Sato's words.Did Hirao talk about the matter with him?The low-key word "fan" is used.But Qingju doesn't "feel good" anymore.Brother Koyama standing next to Hirara looked like he was protecting Hirara, acting like a couple, which made Qingju very unhappy.As if he knew everything about Hirara——.

"Yo, long time no see"

After talking to him, Hirao finally raised his head cautiously.

The moment the eyes finally touched each other, Hirara's eyes immediately warmed up, which made Kiyoi very confused.The reddish corners of the eyes stared at Ping Liang, who was as hot as before.Qing Ju's mind was in chaos.Hirashi clearly looked at him with such eyes, but he has a lover.

It cannot end like this.So Qingju invited Pingliang to the celebration banquet, and Pingliang agreed.Brother Xiaoshan next to him looked at Pingliang in surprise, but Pingliang's eyes were always firmly fixed on Qingju.At that moment, Qingju felt that he had won.

Maybe many things have happened, but Pingliang still likes himself.

Although I am a little sorry for Brother Xiaoshan, I can only let him give up.

How can you bully Hirao at the celebration banquet?Although Heping Liang talked to him, but he made himself so anxious, Qingju didn't want to forgive him so soon.And brother Xiaoshan may also come, in that case, we can only exchange contact information tonight.When I go to the bathroom, I pretend to be—.

Just when Qingju was thinking about this in a good mood, Hirara came over and said that he still couldn't attend the celebration party.If you go back like this, aren't we back to the time when we didn't even have contact information?But Qingju couldn't say these words, he could only pretend to be indifferent, and then a regret that was almost angry came to Qingju's heart.

Afterwards, hearing from Koyama that day was his younger brother's birthday, Kiyoi felt a strong sense of frustration.Compared to re-encounter with himself, Hirao chose the earth turtle man's birthday first.

"Qingju, you said earlier that you were classmates. Really."

Xiao Shan complained to him at the celebration banquet.

"I'm sorry. I wanted to tease you because I saw you worried too much."

Not wanting to admit that he was hurt, Kiyoi replied with a smile.

"Forgive me---. By the way, what was it like in Hirara's high school days?"

"What does it look like?"

"That's right. For example, you're good at taking care of people, you're smart, or you have a lot of friends."

"Not smart. After all, I went to that kind of university."

Sato interjected. "Don't diss with my brother." Koyama knocked Sato on the head.

"Then let's not talk about studying. For example, you are good at taking care of people or have many friends. Are there such advantages?"

"no"

Qingju didn't lie.Facing the truth, Xiaoshan tensed his face.

"Has he ever had a boyfriend?"

"I seem to have had a crush on someone"

It's me, it's me.Qingju added in his heart.

"Is your crush a man? If it's a woman, then my brother is too pitiful."

Koyama asked worriedly.

"It's a man. It is said that he really likes the other party and often follows the other party"

"... Chasing after you?"

"Follow the other party, always chasing the other party, saying that you are so beautiful, and always staring at the other party"

"Wait, that's too scary... Ah, forget it, does he have any friends? What kind of friends does he have?"

"He doesn't seem to have any friends"

"Huh? What do you mean? Is he a guy with no friends?"

"Well, well, almost."

"hey hey hey"

Xiaoshan fell down on the table with his head in his arms.

"In this way, Hirara is a guy who has no friends, and will chase after the person he likes and secretly stare at each other like a stalker?"

"No, it's not that bad..."

But Xiaoshan couldn't listen at all.Just let your own imagination, and then hold your head in distress.Qingju felt that Xiaoshan was a person who was easy to imagine, but he gave up explaining.Anyway, there was basically nothing wrong, and Kiyomi didn't want to talk about Hirara anymore.

Because of that disgusting and annoying guy, there is absolutely something wrong with me now.It's all Pingliang's fault.Just looking into that guy's eyes makes me feel weird.That guy really is a disgusting guy.

——Anyway, never get involved with Heliang again.

But Pingliang came to see his stage play again.He even changed his phone number and fled when he wanted to see him, but he appeared when he didn't want to see him again.

The reason Qingju spoke to him again was because Brother Koyama was not with Heira this time.After Qingju tried a few words, Hirao said that brother Xiaoshan was not his boyfriend.What is going on.Although he has made up his mind that he doesn't want to have anything to do with Pingliang anymore, but in order to know the truth, Qingju invites Pingliang to the celebration party again.

Pingliang followed with a happy face, because Qingju didn't dare to be careless because of the past.In order to vent his anger, Kiyoi showed Hirara a show of intimacy with other men on purpose before finally talking to Herao.

Although we chatted a lot in the coffee shop, Hirao's ambiguous attitude made Kiyoi more anxious.Pingliang himself said that brother Xiaoshan is not his boyfriend.But he is very serious about protecting brother Xiaoshan, saying that he is a good person and a gentle person.Also shut up about changing the mobile phone number without contact.But when Kiyoi said that he was troubled because he didn't have a rehearsal venue, Hirao offered to provide a rehearsal venue.Same as that time, Hirao gave himself the contact information again with eyes that seemed to give everything.Qing Ju no longer knew what was going on.

After leaving the store, Kiyoi thought to at least clarify this matter, so he asked Hirao what he and Koyama brother were going to do after this.Although it looks ugly as if they are spying on other people's private affairs, in fact, they are indeed spying on themselves.And he wanted to hear a clear denial from Hirao.

"I do not know"

Ping Liang did not deny it.

And also said, "Why does Qingju care about such things?"

don't you know ——The words almost rushed out of my throat.

If there is a possibility of dating, it means that you like him.Why bother to meet me if you already have that guy.Why provide me with a rehearsal space?Are you comparing me and Brother Xiaoshan on the scale?

"That guy and me, who do you really like?"

After letting go of anger and saying this sentence, Qingju was swallowed by endless shame.

What, such a sad question.But it's too late to regret.Now that things are up to now, Pingliang can only say "Of course it's Qingju", only in this way can he be freed.talk.Say it.Then I'll kiss you one more time.If that's the case, I'll start over with you——.

"what?"

With his mouth open, Hirashi showed a silly look.

It was the look of being asked an unexpected question.

--what are you talking about?The matter between me and Xiaoshan has nothing to do with Qingju, right?

Heiliang seemed to be saying this, and Qingju's ears turned red all of a sudden.What an idiot who could make mistakes, all Kiyoi could do was kick Hirao hard and run away.

While striding towards the station. "No, absolutely not" while constantly denying the feelings welling up in my heart.The only reason why I became so strange was because I couldn't forgive the rebellion of the man who was my servant.

It's like liking, but it's not like liking.How could I like that kind of disgusting and annoying guy, and I was being doubled by that kind of ignorant man, there would be no more shameful thing than this.

"Add lines?"

After the rehearsal of the troupe, the sponsor came up with a new script.It was originally a line by another actor, but that actor had a polyp in his throat.I will have surgery at the end of the year, and try not to use my throat too much before the surgery, so I split his lines with other actors.

"This can no longer be regarded as the amount of lines played by the guests, is it okay?"

"Hmm...it doesn't matter what the amount is."

Qingju flipped through the script roughly.

"I'm so scared that your agency will ask you to pay the performance fee later."

"If that's the case, please pay generously."

"How can a poor troupe like ours have that kind of money. Ah, the aunts are here."

The aunts of the choir came in busily, and the members hurriedly packed up their things and left the civic classroom.While waiting for the train on the platform of the station, Kiyoi flipped through the script.All assigned lines are drawn with red lines.Although he said it was fine just now, but this amount has to increase the amount of practice.

The problem is the practice area.The stage play did not go through the office, and it was impossible for the office to arrange a rehearsal venue for itself.The troupe's rehearsal spaces are cheap places to rent by the time.Nor do apartments.The river beaches and parks are not empty either. They were almost called to the police before.The final solution can only be karaoke.

——I will prepare first, and I hope you can contact me when necessary.

Qingju remembered Hirashi's words, and then snorted coldly.Although he said that he would borrow his uncle's house, it has been a month since he separated from Hirao at the station at dawn that day, and Hirao has not called him.And Qingju definitely didn't want to call him.Having been cut off by Pingliang once, Qingju would never take the initiative to contact Pingliang again.

Besides, he had already decided not to have anything to do with He Liang in the future.However, every day, every day, he would be disappointed because Pingliang didn't contact him.In the casual moments of daily life, Hirara comes to mind.

Now he and brother Xiaoshan are going well.Did he look at that rusty man with the same fiery eyes when he looked at himself?

Think about these unnecessary things, and then get angry for no reason.Too stupid.Stop obsessing over Pingliang.On a good day, you can simply change your thinking, but on a bad day, you will always be entangled in these things.I don't know when Qingju had such a standard of measurement.

"Hey"

While Kiyoi was waiting for the tram, the young woman standing next to him pulled out her phone.

"Aren't you at work? Why are you calling?"

It was probably from my boyfriend.Answer the phone with such a sweet voice.

"Eh? Phone? I didn't call you....Ah, maybe I accidentally dialed the wrong number when I called Miki-chan just now. I pressed it too urgently."

Qingju, who was standing beside him, widened his eyes.

——There is another way...

Just pretend to be a typo.It's fine if you call back.If you don't call back, you can completely cut it off this time.Kiyoi took out his cell phone and called up Hirara's cell phone number.It happened that the tram was coming, and in order to pay attention to Qingju, he left the line waiting for the train and sat on the bench on the platform.

Must hang up at the moment of dialing.If it is too late, Hirao will pick up, and then Kiyoi will call Hirara.It was just a wrong call.Kiyoi's heart pounded as soon as he called out Hirara's cell phone number.It's really annoying that it's just a flat.

Carefully press the dial button, and hang up the moment the electronic sound sounds.Will he call back.If you don't call back, you can give up.But Qingju also had a premonition that he would suffer great harm in that case.

At this moment, the phone in his hand vibrated, and Qingju was startled.

Hirara's name was displayed on the screen. Called back within 30 seconds.While letting go, Qingju also felt a surge of joy in his heart.But he didn't pick it up right away, but after a little bit of pretentiousness, he picked it up.

"Hey"

He managed to put on a casual and indifferent voice.

"Qi, Qing, Qingju? It's me, ah, that Hirara....It's me Hirara Kazun."

--I got it

The man who stammered and gave his full name was too clumsy, which made Qing Ju calm down.

"Ah, long time no contact. What's the matter?"

"Did you call me just now? I thought there was something wrong"

"... phone? Did I call you? Ah, maybe I made a mistake when I called my friend."

"Ah, that's right."

Hirara's voice sounded very disappointed.

"I have nothing to ask for you"

"...Really. Well, it's okay. I'm happy to hear your voice."

Hearing Hirata's straightforward words, Kiyoi's heart was filled with joy and a sense of superiority.The self who has been low recently has gradually become proud.

"I haven't seen you for a month. How is Qingju?"

"It's okay. How about you?"

"I'm fine too. I've been moving a bit in a mess lately"

"move place?"

"Moving to my uncle's house"

"Eh?"

"I can come here at any time in order to live in peace. I contacted my aunt immediately after I went back that day. I don't need to prepare the furniture anyway, but the house is too big and a bit lonely."

Wait a moment.etc.etc.If you've made it this far, why not contact me right away?Kiyoi, who didn't understand Hirara's intentions at all, listened blankly, Hirara said.

"Anytime is fine, when Qingju wants to come—"

"Where is the location?"

Kiyoi immediately asked, and Hirara was taken aback but immediately gave the address.How do I know where it is?Having said that, Hirara said the name of the nearest station.

"I'll go over now and you go over there to pick me up," Qing Ju ordered, taking advantage of the momentum.