beautiful him

After officially entering the rainy season, the club activity classroom has been full of humidity.I don’t know who ate half of the bread that was left there and it was moldy. This is because there are no girls in the club. The seniors began to propose to recruit some girls into the club, but no one dared to put it into practice.

"There are girls everywhere in the university, why is there not even a girl here?"

"Isn't it because there are no handsome guys in our club?"

Facing the calm analysis of the first year, the senior poked his head.

"Ah, if only you were girls."

"Do you want to pursue the female version of us?"

"Refuse"

People keep talking about these silly things.

"Our club is really casual"

Xiao Shan, who was flipping through a photography magazine beside him, said with a smile.

"That's what I love about our community"

"Indeed. By the way, Hirashi, are you coming to my house today? I'll make dinner today"

"Have you received another attack from your hometown?"

With a troubled look on Hirara's face, Koyama clasped his hands together and begged.Xiaoshan grows vegetables at home, and often sends vegetables to his only son who lives alone in Tokyo.Pingliang will also help to consume these vegetables together.

"It's okay to go. But I don't want to eat hot pot full of vegetables. It's so hot today"

"Then make teppanyaki and add some chicken. I have chicken breast at home"

"I don't want dry chicken breast. It's better than sausage"

"Then go to the supermarket with me when you go back."

While they were chatting about this as usual, someone behind them tapped their heads with a rolled up magazine.

Turning around, only to see the senior looking at them angrily.

"You guys! Don't talk about boys' self-sufficiency when we lament that there are no girls in the club. And 'chicken breast is dry, not as good as sausage. Come with me to the supermarket when I go back'? What are you guys? Newlyweds? We're not envious, it's like we're envious! Have a little self-respect!"

Hirara and Koyama were knocked on the head like a wooden fish.It's too much to take it out on other people.

"Seniors are dissatisfied with their desires"

"It's just looking for faults"

After the two complained quietly, Xiao Shan couldn't help laughing.Seemingly very happy, Pingliang suddenly felt restless.As if trying to fool the past, Hirara hastily turned on the old TV that someone brought to the club activity classroom.

The relationship with Xiaoshan is the same as before, no, it can be said that it has become closer than before.Although the two never talked about love-related topics again, Koyama's attitude and words always conveyed his ambiguous affection for Hirara, and sometimes Hirara couldn't help thinking, "Can we continue like this?"

This kind of communication is very comfortable for Pingliang, but it must be uncomfortable for Xiaoshan.Ping Liang knew that he was just escaping, but he still maintained a friendship with the other party, which is really a bit cunning.But having said that, the other party didn't say anything, and if I voluntarily refuse the other party and keep a distance from him, I seem to be very narcissistic.While feeling sorry for Koyama, Hirao also felt a suffocating feeling of being cut off from retreat.

As if being suspended in the air, I don't know what to do.When he was watching the TV absently, the advertisement suddenly started playing on the TV, and Hirara's thoughts suddenly switched over.That's an ad for a refreshing drink.Four young men and women of Hepingliang's age were running along the beach.

The second from the left is Qingju.

The first time Hirao saw this ad, his heart almost stopped beating.

He was lying on his sofa playing games that day, as if he was suddenly stabbed by a passing murderer in his peaceful daily life.I don't know what happened, I can only stare at the TV screen with my mouth open like a fool, and the game has already been gameover.

"Hirara likes this ad very much"

"yes"

Hirao stared at the screen closely, and replied absently.The commercial had finished broadcasting long ago, but the figure of Qingju was still shining in his pupils and in his heart, just like a firework stick waved by a child in summer.

"Do you like Qing Juzao?"

Hirara turned sharply and looked at Koyama.

"Eh? Why did you mention Kiyoi all of a sudden—"

Why did Xiaoshan know about Qingju?

"Isn't it the actor who appeared in the advertisement just now?"

"Actor? Not a model?"

"I remember it was written by an actor?"

Xiao Shan took out a thin magazine from his bag.

"This is a free magazine issued by the troupe that my brother helped. I remember that there are... ah, here. It doesn't seem to be particularly famous, but it's slowly becoming popular."

The page that Koyama pointed to had a picture of Kiyoju on it, with the word "actor" written next to his name.

——Really, it’s amazing....

When I was still happy because of such a small thing as making friends, Qingju had already reached a higher place.The same excitement as in high school filled Hirara's chest.Ads, magazines.Pingliang has been restraining himself not to look at it, but once he sees these Pingliang is already dead.Like a poured water bottle, my emotions poured out instantly.

"Here is this magazine for you"

Hirao raised his head in surprise.

"No. Is this your brother's?"

"Free magazines are fine. You seem to like Kiyoi very much."

Koyama said it jokingly, it was difficult for Hirara to tell him that Qingju was "that person".He could only foolishly return to "no such thing".Then the other first graders asked.

"We are going to have a barbecue buffet together, do you want to come together?"

"Ah, we're going to have vegetable teppanyaki today"

Koyama replied. "Are you herbivorous men!" Everyone complained.

"Remember to lock the door. See you tomorrow"

"Understood—see you tomorrow—"

Koyama waved his hand.

"Goodbye" Ping Liang replied.

After seeing everyone off, Koyama tilted his head and looked at Hirara.

"what happened?"

"I used to think that Hirara's greetings are very interesting. Most people seldom say 'goodbye'. 'Goodbye' and 'goodbye' are used more often, but you never use these two words."

Do you care about these two words?After Koyama asked, Hirara thought of Kiyoi reflexively.

——Then, goodbye.

Words that seem to push themselves away, kisses that seem to end.Just thinking about it makes me feel very painful, so Hirao subconsciously avoids these two words.

(The original sentences Qingju said are じゃあ, またな, じゃあ and またな both mean goodbye in Japanese, and they are commonly used farewell words in daily life. Farewell language. I don’t know how to translate it to be more appropriate...)

"No particular reason, I just feel that 'bye' and 'goodbye' are too lonely like saying goodbye"

Hirao replied with common sense in the world, and Koyama said it incomprehensibly.

"If you want to talk about loneliness, the word 'goodbye' is even more lonely. 'Bye bye' and 'goodbye' are abbreviations of 'see you tomorrow' or 'see you someday'. They are greetings that we can meet again."

This time it was Hirashi's turn to be stunned. 'Goodbye' and 'goodbye' are omissions of 'see you tomorrow' or 'see you another day'.Indeed, when Koyama said it, Hirao immediately realized it.I originally understood these two words in this way.However, he failed to understand Qingju's 'goodbye' in this way.

It was impossible for Kiyoi to say 'see you next time' to a guy like himself.

But Hirao couldn't help but have doubts.Hirao subconsciously took out his cell phone from his pocket, only then did he realize that he had lost Qingju's contact information for a long time.And he changed his number himself, even if Qingju had contacted him, he didn't know.what to do.An unspeakable anxiety rose in Pingliang's heart.

"Hirara, let's go back too. It seems to be raining heavily"

Hearing Koyama's words, Hirao came back to his senses.

"I still have to go to the supermarket, do you want to buy some Likyu wine and beer?"

"Yeah..." Hirao replied casually, putting the phone back in his pocket.It's too embarrassing to still have such unrealistic dreams.

"Ah - no, it's already a big deal"

At the entrance of the teaching building, Xiao Shan stretched out his hand towards the air.Koyama's hands are very thin for a boy.

Kiyoju's hands are also very thin.Moreover, there is an indescribable beauty.With a slight movement, the joints will emerge in the shape of a round bone.Hirao had restrained himself countless times not to think about the skin under Kiyoi's sleeves.

Hirao stepped into the puddle with one step and splashed water.

Small puddles accumulated everywhere on the road, Hirao couldn't help but think of the small puddles Kiyomi stepped on that day, and the fact of losing Kiyomi hit his chest again.

Enduring the pain in his heart, Hirashi pretended to be fine and chatted with Koyama while walking.I am happy every day now.Compared with the lonely high school days, my life now is so stable and happy.But why.

Memories with Kiyoju always pop up.

Every day when he was continuously washed downstream by the sewage, he met Qingju.Qingju looked at himself with cold eyes, and said to himself such excessive words as 'disgusting' and 'annoying'.Occasionally smile to yourself.Let yourself be touched.Qingju is not gentle.But everything in Qingju is so bright and brilliant.

Qingju is still entrenched in Pingliang's heart, in a sanctuary that Pingliang himself cannot touch.