What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Argument 7

Su Lixu came out of the bathroom wiping his hair, and found that Fu Xingran on the bed had fallen asleep with the quilt tightly hugged in his arms. This was a very insecure posture.

Walking to the side of the bed, he rubbed Fu Xingran's forehead with the back of his hand, and after finding out that the temperature was normal, he carefully pulled the quilt out of Fu Xingran's arms. As a result, his hand was hugged with the quilt, and his center of gravity was unstable. sat on the edge of the bed.

"……elder brother."

Su Lixu was about to pull out his hand, but Fu Xingran's inadvertent murmur in his sleep stopped his hand, and he lowered his eyes to stare at Fu Xingran's sleeping face.

Compared with four years ago, this face between a teenager and a young man has almost changed like a metamorphosis, and it has grown longer.His eyebrows were raised slightly rebelliously, showing a bit of heroism, and the end of his eyes seemed a little red because of crying.

Maybe it was a bad dream. Her thin lips were tightly pursed, looking stubborn and childish.

"Brother, don't go... I will be good."

Fu Xingran put his cheek on the back of his hand, and the moment he was gently rubbed, this coquettish action softened his heart, and Su Lixu felt his heart softened uncontrollably.

By accident, his eyes fell on Fu Xingran's tightly pursed lips, and that day came to mind.

That evening when he was about to leave, it suddenly rained heavily. Because of the thunderstorm, Fu Xingran hugged him and refused to let him go. His thin body shook violently, and he kept asking him to hug him.

——Brother, hug me, I’m scared, just hug me...

Fu Xingran, who was still young, hadn't yet reached the period of changing his voice, his voice was soft, and there were pitiful begging in his crying voice, which made people reluctant to part with it.

But he never thought that Fu Xingran would bite him.

Sucking/biting frantically, as if trying to bite it off, his white shirt was stained with blood, and he was so painful that he was unconscious.Afterwards, as long as Fu Xingran saw him, he would always beg him for a hug, for a bite, and it would be no surprise to act coquettishly and cry.

——Doctor Su, I always want to bite you here, do you think I am a pervert?

He naturally knew that Fu Xingran was just sick, and he would try his best to guide him and lead him to judge whether this matter was right or wrong.

As a doctor in a mental hospital back then, Fu Xingran was his patient, so he couldn't scold him.

And now...

He is softhearted.

Su Lixu carefully pulled out his hand, twisted the corner of the quilt to cover him, raised his hand to smooth the messy hair on Fu Xingran's forehead: "Go to sleep."

At this moment, he heard the phone ringing, subconsciously glanced at the bathroom, he got up and walked to the bathroom.Then he found that the voice came from the laundry basket, bent down and picked up Fu Xingran's pants and took out the phone. The caller ID that caught his eyes was only one word:

--pay

Fu Xingran has no siblings, only his father, so this should be Mr. Fu's call.

Could it be that there is something urgent to find Fu Xingran?

He helped answer the phone, but before he had time to introduce himself, he heard Mr. Fu's stern voice coming from the other end of the phone.

"Fu Xingran, where did you go? Didn't I tell you that I would pick you up after school today?! We made an appointment to see Dr. Zhang. If you can't talk to me again this time, it's really true." There is no doctor who can help you! I am waiting for you at the school gate now, come back to me immediately!"

Need to see a doctor?

Su Lixu frowned when he heard this word, it turned out that Fu Xingran was still seeing a doctor, he replied: "Mr. A little uncomfortable sleeping."

Mr. Fu on the other end of the phone fell silent for a moment, and answered after a few seconds: "Dr. Su? You...you're back?"

"En." Su Lixu responded.

"So Xing Ran is with you now?"

"Well, I felt a little uncomfortable in the rain just now and rested."

Mr. Fu on the other end of the phone fell silent again, and said after a while: "Doctor Su, is it convenient to meet up? I want to talk to you about Xing Ran's matter."

When Su Lixu heard it, he smiled silently: "Mr. Fu, I think I can refuse your request. Now I am not Xing Ran's attending doctor. And now I am not a psychiatrist, so I may not be able to help you."

There was another silence on the phone.

"Doctor Su, I know that the things that happened back then may not respect you very much, but I have my own reasons. I hope you can give me a chance to explain and apologize. And Xing Ran's current situation, because he has already met with you, Then it is even more necessary for me to tell you about Xing Ran's current situation, I don't want Xing Ran to cause trouble to Dr. Su."

Perhaps Mr. Fu's tone was too serious, Su Lixu could also realize that the situation might be more serious than what he saw.

After a moment of silence, he responded, "Okay."

"Then where can I find you?" Mr. Fu asked.

Su Lixu thought of the coffee shop downstairs: "I live in Apartment No. [-] in Yunshang·Romantic Lane, and there is a coffee shop here, which is relatively quiet."

Mr. Fu responded: "Then we'll see you later. By the way, Dr. Su, don't let Xing Ran know that I've seen you."

After hanging up the phone, Su Lixu put down the phone, and inadvertently saw the lock screen wallpaper of the phone, his eyes were slightly surprised.

This is a picture of him in class.

how……

There were not many people in the coffee shop, and the two men sitting opposite the table by the window were particularly eye-catching.

Su Lixu looked at Mr. Fu who was wearing a silver-gray suit, and nodded politely: "Long time no see, Mr. Fu."

"I haven't seen Dr. Su for a long time. I was surprised that you came back." Mr. Fu said in a low voice, "I didn't expect you to meet Xing Ran. He contacted you?"

"No, I just met by chance. I'm currently working as a psychological counselor at Peking University, because this semester there is a new mental health class, and I happen to teach Xing Ran's class." Su Lixu said, and then he noticed that Mr. Fu's expression was a bit strange Complicated: "What's wrong?"

"Did Xing Ran tell you anything?"

This unreasonable question made Su Lixu a little confused: "What is he going to tell me?"

Mr. Fu frowned: "What was his reaction when he saw you? He didn't ask you anything? Did he lose his temper with you?"

Su Lixu listened to Mr. Fu's description of his son: "Mr. Fu, you don't have to be too nervous. I saw that he also gets along well with his classmates. He has a much more cheerful personality and is also very enthusiastic. He has helped me a lot."

After he finished speaking, he found that Mr. Fu's expression became more subtle, as if he was questioning the authenticity of what he said.

Mr. Fu took a sip of his coffee, and after a moment of silence, he said: "I didn't expect you, Doctor Su, to come back so soon, and I didn't expect you to meet Xing Ran when you came back. Since you met, I think I must go with you." Tell me about the situation of Xing Ran in the past few years. I don’t want to burden you, Dr. Su, and I also know that you are not working in the hospital now, but I think I must say it for your safety.”

The coffee cup was gently placed back on the countertop, and the cups and spoons made a crisp crashing sound.

"After you left and Xing Ran was discharged from the hospital, he began to refuse all medical treatment and psychological counseling. Unlike the past when he knew he was sick, he began to firmly believe that he had no problems and no longer needed any treatment."

The sound of the cup and spoon hitting the wall hits my heart together with this sentence, and a silent sourness permeates my heart.

Su Lixu gently stopped his hand stirring the coffee: "He didn't continue the treatment?"

"No, he refuses to see a doctor or take medicine. Doctor Su, do you remember when I told you to stop your treatment because your treatment didn't work, and said that I would take Xing Ran abroad for treatment?"

Speaking of this matter, Su Lixu slowly raised his eyes to look at Mr. Fu. His words seemed to hit him once again. He was frustrated by being questioned by the patient's family about his professionalism. This also made him decide to continue his doctoral studies. one of the reasons.

No matter how you look at this handsome man, Mr. Fu is too gentle. He doesn't know how to resist being bullied by his son.

"Xing Ran bit you that night, I saw it."

With a bang, the spoon fell back into the cup, and the coffee spilled a little.

Su Lixu's eyelashes trembled slightly, and he looked at Mr. Fu in astonishment.

Suddenly, he seemed to understand something.

"After you fainted, I beat Xing Ran severely." Mr. Fu said, "I told him that Dr. Su is your savior. Now that you have learned to control your emotions, you should not bully Dr. Su. Now you are sick and do whatever you want. Doctor Su will be angry, he will leave you because you bit people."

Su Lixu looked at Mr. Fu and hesitated to speak.

So this is why Fu Xingran said why he left?

Mr. Fu seemed to see what Su Lixu wanted to say: "This is one of the reasons why I don't want him to continue to contact you. His state is wrong. Even if he is discharged from the hospital, he only needs to accept the weekly psychological Counseling and drugs, but he still can't reduce his dependence on you, this is an emotion beyond the doctor-patient relationship, he is attached to you, I have to stop it."

Su Lixu suddenly felt a little funny: "So you still think I have problems too, don't you?"

Mr. Fu seemed to feel the sullenness in Su Lixu's tone, he was silent for a few seconds, wondering if he didn't make it clear, obviously he was just afraid that his son would bully other doctors.

"Xing Ran is my son, I know his temper very well, I'm sorry that I lied to you. Here I want to say sorry to you, your treatment is effective, but I don't want effective treatment to be based on you being hurt This is not my original intention to find a doctor for him. I didn't belittle your professional ability, on the contrary, I think your ability is very strong, but I didn't want Xing Ran to do extreme harm back then."

Su Lixu frowned.

"Doctor Su, what I want to tell you is that in the few years since you left, the frequency of Xing Ran's suicide has become higher. He is no longer satisfied with expressing his emotions by losing his temper. He vents by hurting himself. .On the day you left, he injured himself all over his body and almost lost too much blood to save him."

After Su Lixu listened, he thought of the wound on Fu Xingran's chest that he had accidentally glimpsed just now...

He was right.

"I think what I did was selfish to Xing Ran back then, but I had to do it. Xing Ran is my son, and it is impossible for me to watch him let another innocent person fall into unnecessary harm. But now I have no choice, you are back, I can only ask you to save Xing Ran, he only listens to you." Mr. Fu begged sincerely.

In Su Lixu's deep and steady eyes on Mr. Shangfu, he finally felt that this man was begging him as a father.

But in the end it was still wrong.

This white lie hurt Fu Xingran even more, and in Fu Xingran's heart he was a bad guy who didn't keep his promise.

It also hurt him.

"I can assure you that as long as Xing Ran bullies you, you tell me and I will deal with it. At the same time, I can promise that in addition to paying for the treatment, I will give you three conditions within my ability. Of course, I want this world Apart from life and death, I can't control it, and I can do more or less the rest."

After Mr. Fu finished speaking, he didn't get any answer. He met Su Lixu's calm eyes, and felt for a moment that he was talking to himself.

Su Lixu was silent for a while, and then chuckled a little later: "Mr. Fu, you still don't understand. Xing Ran's problem can't be solved with money, and now it can't be solved with my help."

"I told you back then that Xing Ran has entered the mid-term treatment, and his effect is obvious. But you insist that Xing Ran's hospitalization has not improved, and you think I am not qualified. Even if your real intention is to worry that I will be threatened, I was afraid that he would hurt me, that's not what you said at the beginning. The harm caused by Xing Ran has already been done to me."

"Even if Xing Ran will hurt me, I am a doctor and I have to be responsible for my patients. These situations are what we expected when we became psychiatrists. So Mr. Fu, when you said that you want to interrupt the treatment, I said that even if it is I changed to a more authoritative and professional doctor than me, but for patients with borderline personality disorder, it is more difficult to establish a stable relationship and trust the doctor than treatment."

Mr. Fu didn't expect Su Lixu to say that, this chuckle seemed to be mocking him, and for a moment he felt face-smeared.

"As far as the matter is concerned, I thank Mr. Fu for telling this white lie for my sake, but the second injury you caused to Xing Ran and the injury to me, I hope you will be clear in your heart, and please explain it clearly to him yourself. say clearly."

Mr. Fu looked at the eyes of the man in front of him, his light amber-like pupils were cool and determined, and under this handsome and beautiful skin, he was not as vulnerable as he thought.

Su Lixu withdrew his hand from rubbing the cup wall, and said with a faint smile: "And I am no longer a psychiatrist, and I have no right to diagnose and prescribe Xing Ran. Now I am just a psychological counselor in a university."

"Also, unless Xing Ran asks for help on his own initiative and needs me to help him, I will no longer treat him as a patient."

Mr. Fu looked at Su Lixu's smiling face, his eyes were full of coldness, and every sentence with a smile contained criticisms against him.

He couldn't help but think of Su Lixu's firm attitude when he was still very young when he persuaded him not to change doctors casually. He stood in front of him with reason and evidence, neither humble nor overbearing without the slightest timidity, told him the consequences, and was not afraid of him at all.

Su Lixu said: "I hope you can give him more patience and companionship, less blame, and don't regret it later." After saying that, he nodded and said goodbye.

Don't be like him, it's too late to regret.

With a "beep" the fingerprint was unlocked, Su Lixu pushed open the door, and when he was taking off his shoes at the entrance, he saw Fu Xingran walking out, looking at him with red eyes.

Su Lixu supported the cabinet and looked at Fu Xingran in surprise: "Why are you crying?"

Fu Xingran walked up to Su Lixu, put his arms on Su Lixu's side, wrapped him in his arms, and hugged him tightly: "I thought you disappeared again, I can't find you, don't you want me?" me."

Standing in front of this big boy, he could feel the pressure from his tall body, which was in stark contrast to the feeling of grievance that he was afraid of being abandoned.

Su Lixu couldn't laugh or cry: "I just went out to take out the trash."

"I don't care, you left me even in a second." Fu Xingran buried his head in Su Lixu's shoulder and neck, and said in a muffled voice, "You have to hug me, or I will get angry."