What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Little milk dog episode

——Children, your parents, we have tried our best, please be sorry.

——Your younger brother died on the spot after the emergency rescue failed. Please feel sorry for him.

He didn't know how he left the hospital. He only knew that the wind was very strong when he walked out of the hospital. It was obviously early autumn, and the wind hit his body with pain and cold.And at this moment, his brain seemed to be pulled out of his soul, leaving this world with Su Liyang.

"Oh my brother, don't just run around, it will be bad if you bump into someone later!"

Before he could react, he was bumped head-on by a child. He staggered two steps, his eyes fell not far away, and he froze on the spot.

The little boy's mother hurriedly apologized to Su Lixu: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, the child is too naughty, are you okay?" She didn't get an answer from the young man in front of her, but found that the young man's face became paler, as if he was about to blend in In today's bright sunlight, seeing someone shaking, she was so frightened that she immediately supported her: "You, are you uncomfortable?"

After a while, the little boy's mother got a response. She looked at the young man in front of her and suddenly smiled. She was good-looking, but this smile was so bitter that people felt uncomfortable, as if giving people a feeling of being pushed down. Fragile.

"I'm fine, thank you." Su Lixu eased the trance, he lowered his eyes, looked at the little boy standing beside his legs, bent down and patted the little boy's head lightly, his eyes gradually turned red: "Be careful , don’t get hurt, luckily it was me who hit me.”

Anyway, he wasn't afraid of the pain anymore.

After speaking, he stood up and walked out of the hospital.

The little boy hugged his mother's thigh tightly, stretched out his little finger and pointed at the big brother who left: "Mom, that brother seems to be crying, did he hurt from being bumped by me?"

The little boy's mother looked at the young man who had left, and the thin back seemed to be swallowed by the sun.

"Maybe."

The collapse of adults may be just a moment.

The bus to the skyscrapers in the city center was running smoothly in the busy traffic. The bright light fell on the window, covering the young man leaning against the window and closing his eyes, outlining this extremely pale face.

hum-

Su Lixu felt the cell phone in his pocket vibrate constantly, but he didn't care about it, he leaned against the car window in a daze, only thinking about getting to the skyscraper as soon as possible, he didn't want to shake the determination he made at this moment.

There is no need to even think about what will he needs to write.

Because he was the only one left in this world, so why would he need a will.

He doesn't want anything anymore.

"The skyscraper station is here, please get off the passengers in advance..."

When Su Lixu heard the announcement of his destination, he forcefully opened his eyelids. He took a deep breath, propped himself up on the back of his chair, and stood up, but his body swayed when the bus braked.

"Be careful."

I don't know which kind-hearted person helped him, but he didn't pay attention to look at it. He said thank you in a low voice and got out of the car.

Skyscrapers are one of the landmarks of the city, towering into the sky.

Su Lixu stood at the entrance of the building and looked up at the building. He felt a little dazed when he raised his head, but he was looking forward to a moment of relief. He didn't try to block the glare of the sun, but let the light cover his face .

"so high."

Jumping off is the end with a bang.

Just get over it, he can't stand it.

Move your legs and walk inside.

The elevator floor gradually went up, and finally stopped at the [-]th floor. As for why it didn't go up to the [-]th floor, the highest floor, it was because the measures on the top floor were too good, and there was no place to jump down.But the twentieth floor is a restaurant in the sky, and some places allow him to jump down amidst people's exclamations.

hurry up.

He quickened his pace.

At three o'clock in the afternoon, there was no one in the restaurant. He specifically asked the waiter if he felt uncomfortable and could he take a seat. The waiter here had a very good attitude and even poured him a glass of warm water for him to sit at will.

Su Lixu walked into the restaurant with a glass filled with warm water. Although the road was short, a lot came to his mind.Why suddenly, he felt that the people he passed by were all so kind to him, as if they were persuading him to stay in the world again.

But no, he didn't want to take a souvenir.

Such breathless days had broken his nerves, his persistence was meaningless, and he could no longer muster up the courage to continue living.

Su Lixu put the glass on a dining table, and walked not far away.

But at this moment, he saw a little boy about thirteen or fourteen years old sitting on the railing, shaking his legs on the railing without any protective measures, his hair was messed up by the wind, as if he was about to blow away with the wind go.

In the next moment, his movements were faster than his thoughts, even a few seconds faster than the little boy's next movements.

Su Lixu rushed to the railing and grabbed the little boy who was about to jump off. One hand was not strong enough to hold the boy who weighed [-] pounds, his hand, and the waist stuck on the railing for strength As if I really felt the pain of the ligament being torn.

But this kind of pain rushed to his head fiercely, making him yell out that sentence with all his might:

"Grab me and don't let go!!!!"

But he felt the little boy's struggle. He stuck his legs into the gap under the railing, and tried his best to hold the little boy with both hands.

The wind was so strong that it almost messed up my hair.

Su Lixu's eyes were red, and he lowered his head and stared at the little boy who was caught by him and was about to break free. At that moment, as if grabbing his last life-saving straw, he gritted his teeth and choked out:

"...Please, hold me and don't let go."

"……please."

Soon, many people gathered around, and some even shouted something about Fu Shao, but he couldn't hear him because of the exhaustion, and he just felt pain all over his body, very painful.But I felt that there seemed to be something more in my heart, it was sustenance, and I felt a little relieved.

Finally, before losing consciousness, a thought flashed through his mind.

he……

Came alive.

Four years later--

A city second mental hospital.

"Doctor Su, the professor asked you to come over."

Su Lixu came out of a certain ward wearing a white coat and holding a ward round medical record. He happened to see his medical assistant head-on. He nodded: "Okay, I'll go over now."

"I heard that a patient with borderline personality disorder was admitted." The medical assistant followed, and she looked sideways at Dr. Su, who was beside him with a calm face. The white coat on this man was like someone from a mental hospital. The scenery is eye-catching: "It seems to be given to you, Dr. Su."

Su Lixu's footsteps stagnated for a moment, he concealed the strangeness in his eyes without any trace, and smiled softly: "According to the arrangement, go and get busy."

Let's go one step ahead.

The medical assistant looked at the man walking towards the end of the corridor. The tall and thin back under the white coat always gave people an indescribable sense of atmosphere and story.

Hey, so hard to follow.

Su Lixu knocked on the professor's office: "Professor, it's me, Li Xu."

"come in."

He opened the door and went in, and found not only the professor, but also a boy about sixteen or seventeen years old, dressed in black, with outstanding looks, but exuding an unapproachable gloom.

In the next second, he saw the boy who was sitting on the seat suddenly stand up and stare at him closely.

His eyes as deep as ink were filled with an almost intense aggressiveness, as if he was like a lamb being favored by a hungry wolf.

For a moment, I was shocked by the boy's eyes, but I also felt a little confused, why did I look at him like that.

Do they know each other?

Do not know it.

"Xing Ran, is this the doctor you want?"

When Su Lixu was wondering what it meant, he heard the boy answer:

"Yes, I want him."

Su Lixu was startled, he looked at the professor: "This is..."

Then he saw the boy walking in front of him, maybe the boy was still in the developmental stage, and his height was about as high as his eyebrows, but the strength of his body and the emotion he couldn't understand in his eyes seemed to be overwhelming for him, covering him on him.

"Doctor Su, I want you."

Su Lixu's heart trembled when he met the boy's determined and clear eyes: "...what?"

This boy looks like Li Yang.

"I want you to save me, just you."

On this day, he had his first real patient, a patient who matched his specialty. It was a 17-year-old boy named Fu Xingran with borderline personality disorder.

Knowing about Fu Xingran's family and past encounters, I also know that Fu Xingran's hobby is painting and eating sweets.

As a clinician in a mental hospital, in the face of all kinds of mental patients, it is easier to get along with patients with borderline personality. After all, borderline personality disorder is different from mental illness, especially high-functioning borderline personality disorder.

Clever and cunning.

It's crazy when it's crazy, but it's just for other doctors and nurses, but it always restrains all the edges in front of him, maybe because he thinks he's easy to talk to.

"Doctor Su, I want to eat candy."

Every day, the first sentence he said when he met Fu Xingran was this opening line.

"No." Su Lixu sat next to Fu Xingran who was painting, and met his aggrieved eyes: "I said, you have to behave well this week before you can eat sweets, but just now Nurse Zhou told me You lost your temper again."

This is the rule established between them. If you want to get something, you must abide by the treatment rules.

One of them is controlling emotions.

This is also a very important treatment in dialectical behavior therapy.

But this guy is very cunning, he vents his temper unscrupulously in front of others, but behaves like a lamb in front of him.If he hadn't seen Fu Xingran lose his temper, he would have really been deceived by this guy.

With a "snap", he saw Fu Xingran throw the brush aside.

Paint stained the clean white sheets.

"I just want to eat." Fu Xingran turned around and sat in front of him, with his knees against his knees, and his hands also touched his legs, his body approached him, and his eyes stared at him: "I want to eat, no If I eat it, I will smash something."

Su Lixu noticed that this guy especially liked to talk to him so close, as if he wanted to put pressure on him secretly.He didn't take it seriously, and raised his hand to block them with the board with the case:

"You smashed it."

Fu Xingran frowned tightly, and stretched out his hand to pull down the extremely obstructive thing between them: "Doctor Su, why don't you coax me today, I'm going to smash something."

"Listen, the next door is the same as you." Su Lixu pointed to the wall next door.

There was a loud sound of throwing things and cursing from the next door.

Fu Xingran seemed to understand something, and stared at Su Lixu with a bulging face: "You scolded me."

Su Lixu smiled, put the medical records aside, and then pointed to the sunflower that Fu Xingran was painting: "I think your color can be brighter, what do you think?"

"I think..." Fu Xingran was taken away in an instant, and he began to observe the color of the sunflower he painted: "I think this color is pretty good."

"Then I think it's pretty good too." Su Lixu bent down to pick up the brush for him.

He didn't notice how hot the gaze fell on his waist at all.

When Su Lixu straightened up, he put away his greedy eyes.

"Doctor Su, can I ask you a question?" Fu Xingran took the paintbrush handed over by Su Lixu, dipped the paint on the palette and continued to paint on the canvas.

"go ahead."

"Doctor Su, are you wearing black underwear today?"

Su Lixu: "..." Picking up the medical records beside him, he patted Fu Xingran's head as punishment: "What are you talking about?"

Fu Xingran wrote faster and faster, as if he was pouring some emotion into the pen, and then poured it onto the canvas, only to see the corners of his lips sunken slightly, and the color of his eyes gradually darkened: "I guess, I just think that Dr. Su is suitable for you." black."

"what?"

"Because you are very white, Doctor Su." Fu Xingran met Su Lixu's gaze with sideways eyes: "It makes people want...to be black."

As he spoke, he shook the paintbrush in his hand and smiled innocently.

So for a while, Su Lixu was dazzled by such innocence, and felt that this boy was not a borderline personality disorder as diagnosed abroad.

But his professional judgment told him that borderline personality disorder, especially high-functioning patients, is extremely confusing and hidden.

Sure enough, Fu Xingran "lied" to him in the third dialectical behavior therapy treatment in order to be discharged from the hospital.

One day after he was discharged from the hospital, on a thunderstorm night, he received a call from Fu Xingran.

On the phone, the boy broke down in tears and said that no one at home was very scared and begged him to save him.

Out of a sense of responsibility, he braved the rain and drove all night to find Fu Xingran.When I went to Fu Xingran's house, the huge house was cold and cold, and the sound of thunder and rain echoed clearly in such a space. The barefoot boy with red eyes from crying stood pitifully at the entrance, looking at him.

"Doctor Su, can you hug me? I'm so scared."

His heart softened, and he stepped forward and hugged the boy into his arms: "It's okay, it's just thunder, you are very strong."

"Doctor Su, can you sleep with me? I dare not sleep alone."

Facing Fu Xingran's frightened and pleading eyes, he nodded without thinking deeply, "Okay, then take me to your room, and I'll leave after you fall asleep."

He completely didn't notice the sunken smile on the boy's lips.

Like the devil.

Su Lixu knew that Fu Xingran was afraid of thunder, but he didn't know that this guy would be so sensitive and afraid of thunder, even to the point where he couldn't relieve his emotions, and desperately burrowed into his arms.

And he also felt that Fu Xingran's strength was getting stronger and stronger, making it difficult for him to parry and resist.

He didn't feel the danger approaching until the hot hand violently pulled/opened the jacket/front.

The moment he was bitten on the left heart, he let out a muffled sound of pain.

"……release."

"Doctor Su, am I crazy?"

The young man's timid and trembling voice rang in his ears, but the more harmless this voice was, the more ruthless his mouth was, almost to the point of biting off the top red.But I know that I will know how to let go, I will know how to appease the pain, but the next second I will force my teeth again, as if I want to bite off the red top and swallow it.

"Xing Ran, you are just sick, I will save you, but you can't—" Su Lixu was swallowed up by the pain again, trembling with pain.

why?

If you are afraid, you are afraid. Why did you bite him? Did he stimulate Fu Xingran?

no?

"Doctor Su, I'm so scared. I can't control myself. What should I do? But I don't want to be hospitalized anymore. I was finally discharged."

Su Lixu wanted to resist such force, but he didn't wait until Fu Xingran let go.Anyone who is bitten hard on this position will feel uncomfortable, not to mention for sensitive people, besides pain, there are other troubles.

And he was completely unaware that the blurred look fell into the young man's eyes at this moment. The trembling appearance and the crimson eye corners were completely different from the gentleness and tenderness when he was usually wearing a white coat, and he pleasing the young man fiercely.

"Xing Ran, you let go, I—" Su Lixu's pupils shrank suddenly, and he was swept away by pain as he finished speaking.

It's not just the pain, it's the reaction that forces his sanity to fail.

"Can you just let me bite for a while? Hold me, I'm so scared."

The boy's cowardly and cowardly pleading for help, his unspeakable attachment, his voice reverberated in this dim room, like a nightmare, piercing through the man's spirit.

day to day.

Eight years later—

The young man who used to brand his left heart to penetrate Su Lixu's spirit has grown into a tall and handsome young man. The hidden possessiveness of borderline personality disorder is still at work every day, but it also turns this possessiveness into romance.

It runs through Su Lixu in another way.

Sky restaurant on the [-]th floor of a skyscraper.

Su Lixu rested his chin and stared at Fu Xingran who was sitting opposite him and was helping him cut the steak: "Baby, do you think it's weird for us to go on a date somewhere, but why come here for the first anniversary."

Fu Xingran handed the cut steak to Su Lixu's mouth: "It's not surprising, it's very romantic."

Su Lixu bit the steak that Fu Xingran handed over: "How should I say it?"

"If you survive a catastrophe, there will be future blessings." Fu Xingran put down the knife and fork, picked up the goblet, and raised his eyebrows to signal him to clink the glasses.

Su Lixu laughed out loud, quite approving, he picked up his cup and touched Fu Xingran: "Mr. Fu, it's good to be alive."

"Mr. Su, it's good to be alive."

The autumn wind is blowing, the sun is shining brightly, the sound of clinking glasses is clear, and the two look at each other and smile.

The beginning of love, maybe with ulterior motives, maybe with desire and greed, both greedy and hesitant, that is, vanity and panic, clamoring in the day, growing wildly in the night.

And as long as there is a response to this kind of love, it will last forever.

They are Su Lixu and Fu Xingran,

they,

Will continue to love vigorously.

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