What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Little milk dog 33

The annual WPA Huaxia Psychiatry Conference was held in the capital.

On the podium, Su Lixu, who was wearing a black suit, delivered a report as a representative of their group. He introduced the research on candidate genes and environmental factors, genetic factors and their interactions in patients with borderline personality, and introduced his team's research on borderline personality disorder. (BPD) research results, and social impact.

"Borderline personality disorder, which is characterized by high impulsivity, emotional instability, tense and unstable interpersonal relationships, identity disturbance, self-injurious behavior, persistent feelings of emptiness and boredom, and is prone to transient psychotic episodes. Abroad It is the most studied personality disorder except antisocial personality disorder, but it is still a relatively unfamiliar concept in our country."

"Through analyzing the clinical characteristics and defense methods of borderline personality disorder, and exploring the related environmental factors, genetic factors and their interactions in the formation of BPD, the team interviewed 376 clinical patients with symptoms of borderline personality disorder..."

An exceptionally young man on the stage was as gentle as jade and calm as bamboo, reporting the research results of borderline personality disorder, which is currently relatively weak in personality disorder research in China.

"My introduction is over." Su Lixu looked at the professor in the audience, and nodded slightly as a signal.

"Thank you very much for Dr. Su's report. I know that your team has done PTSD research on environmental factors and various stressors related to the formation of BPD. BPD and PTSD have similar stressors. Have you done any comparison between groups? , what is the result?"

He Shi in the audience had a subtle expression when he heard this question. This is the most difficult thing to deal with in foreign cooperation.

Su Lixu thought for a moment when he heard this question, and then replied with a smile: "Professor Guo's question is very good, our team has not had time to make these comparisons. But I believe that in the near future, I will definitely give Professor Guo A satisfying answer."

Since he was a graduate student, he has been doing research in this area with his supervisor. Comparisons between groups will definitely be done, but it is not yet time to announce the progress and results.One of the precautions for external cooperation is that research ideas and discoveries must be fully shared within the group, and kept confidential outside the group, so he cannot speak at such an international conference.

Thanks to nothing wrong, the report was safe and sound.

After the report, their team admired the art works of some recovered mental patients in the venue, as well as the paintings provided by some artists for this meeting.

"Isn't there a news before that I was looking for Van Gogh in a mental hospital." Professor Mo looked at these paintings and said with emotion: "Although these are drawn by patients who have recovered, if they can have such paintings during the attack period, Will it be more exciting, their paintings may have more content."

Su Lixu looked at one of the oil paintings on the wall, and saw a sunflower field shrouded in dark clouds, and there was a window above the flower field, but the sky was clear in the window.

--"fallacy"

is the name of the painting.

He felt a little familiar, as if he had seen such a painting somewhere.

He Jian heard his tutor say this, and subconsciously glanced at Su Lixu: "Hey, speaking of this, professor, you don't know, there is such a "Van Gogh" beside Li Xu."

Su Lixu's back stiffened, and he glanced at He Shi speechlessly, it was true that there was no pot to open and no pot to lift.

"Oh?" Professor Mo asked with interest, "How do you say it?"

When Su Lixu was asked by his tutor, he couldn't help but say, "He was the first patient I took when I was in a mental hospital. He is now a student of the Department of Architecture, Academy of Fine Arts, Peking University."

Old Professor Mo was thoughtful: "Is that the little boy who rolled around in order to eat candy?"

Hearing this description, Su Lixu couldn't help laughing: "Well, it's him."

"Oh, how is your recovery now? It must be very good to be in the Academy of Fine Arts of Peking University."

Speaking of this, Su Lixu was silent for a while, he hesitated for a moment: "Since he was discharged from the hospital four years ago, he has not received any psychological or medical treatment."

Now Fu Xingran looks fine, but in his heart, Fu Xingran's borderline personality disorder is still like a timed bomb, and he doesn't know when it will explode.

"Didn't receive any treatment?" Professor Mo's expression was a little dignified: "What's going on? Is it because of family problems? No, I remember his father..."

"Because of me." Su Lixu lowered his eyes and said softly, "After I went abroad, he didn't accept treatment from other doctors except me."

Old Professor Mo suddenly thought that Su Lixu said four years ago that he wanted to go out for further studies, but he was unwilling to work in the front line after returning to China. Could there be something in it: "Then... you and him now?"

Su Lixu's eyes fell on the oil painting of sunflowers, and his thoughts drifted away: "I'm also wondering if I haven't dealt with it well."

It is difficult for a doctor to heal himself, the closer he is, the more he worries.

To bear such full-hearted enthusiasm, whole-hearted dependence, and unwavering determination, the question is, can he do it?Can he like him to like Fu Xingran like Fu Xingran?

These days, because he was busy with this report, he didn't let that guy come to the house, and that guy seemed to be busy with something. The two of them became busy after getting drunk that day. They didn't have time to think when they were busy, but they stopped Down to start thinking again.

Even seeing the painting on the wall made him think of Fu Xingran involuntarily.

"Li Xu."

Su Lixu felt his mentor pat him on the shoulder, and he turned his head.

"There is a saying that the best psychiatrist in the world is a patient lover." Professor Mo said with a kind smile, "You are Taixiu. He doesn't see a psychiatrist because the best The doctor is far away and right in front of you, he can control well in front of you, and his mood is stable, this is the best treatment. Of course, it does not mean that there is no need for further diagnosis, which is naturally necessary."

"However, the preliminary diagnosis has already been obtained from you. You should have the result in your heart, right? After all, you were a professional psychiatrist before taking on the role of lover, and you should be able to judge his current state in your heart."

Su Lixu thought, Fu Xingran is naturally in good shape now, much better than when we first met, at least after he discovers the secret, he doesn't need to pretend, and he is simply letting himself go in front of him.

So what worries him the most is that he doesn't know Fu Xingran well enough, and he is not sure whether he can be steadfast.Because he can't stop once he starts, Fu Xingran won't let him stop, he will hand over all the switches to him, if he backs up one after another, Fu Xingran will collapse.

"And what are you afraid of? You can't be his doctor, why not He Shi? He is the most suitable." Old Professor Mo patted He Shi's arm with a smile: "Right, Dr. He."

He Shi: "..." Why did he have something to do after going around.

Su Lixu looked at He Shi. Naturally, he wanted to ask He Shi for help in this matter before, but he was not sure whether Fu Xingran could accept He Shi, and he was not sure whether he wanted to continue like this.

Seeing Su Lixu looking at him, He Shi immediately understood what it meant, he helplessly raised his forehead: "It's not that I won't help, it's only if that guy is willing, as long as he is willing, I don't care, it's considered a good deed."

When Su Lixu heard what He Shi said, his brows and eyes gradually relaxed: "Really? Are you willing to help him?"

"Actually, help, the focus is not on me, but on you." He Shi said: "All his uneasiness, feeling of being abandoned, and vigilance against me all come from his concern about your gains and losses. Whether he can make further progress depends on you. Others will not be the most important, and my treatment is also a supporting role. Whether he will come out completely depends on you."

When Su Lixu thought that he would have such an urge to kiss and hug Xing Ran that night, he felt unreasonable.

But that day he drank, maybe he wasn't completely drunk, but he impulsively did something that he said he couldn't do normally.

He himself is a psychology student, how could he not know that, from the theory of psychoanalysis, the consciousness is weak, the subconscious will enter the mind, and thus the instinctive impulse will be expressed more than when awake.

maybe really...

He fell in love with Fu Xingran.

But can he really walk with Fu Xingran unswervingly?

If he gives up halfway, it means that he will abandon Fu Xingran who is passionate about him, and he can't even imagine what will happen to Fu Xingran at that time.

"How about trying the law of Romeo and Juliet?" He Shi put Su Lixu on the shoulder, raised his hand and pressed his head: "When love faces external tests, external obstacles will deepen the relationship between the two."

Su Lixu turned his head away: "I don't like—"

"Hey, I got it." He Shi knew that this person didn't like people touching his hands, so he said, "Don't you want to see how much Fu Xingran will do just because I'm close to you? Based on his performance, we can analyze his current situation and how to guide him is more appropriate. The other one is you."

"Me?" Su Lixu asked.

"Aren't you not sure if you can be with him?" He Shi said with a smile: "Go skiing on weekends, you and him, and then take me."

Su Lixu: "...I don't know how to ski."

"I think Fu Xingran will definitely be able to skate, let him teach you." He Shi moved closer, raised his eyebrows and smiled: "I'll observe by the way, and the bystanders will know. It's also helping you get out of the order. It's almost thirty, don't stay Sorry."

Su Lixu was silent for a moment after listening, and he asked hesitantly, "Then what should I do?"

"It's fine for me to play at that time. Remember to ask him out this weekend. Don't say that I will go too. Give him a surprise then."

Su Lixu looked at He Shi and suddenly had a bad feeling.But He Shi is right, he needs an opportunity now to make him willing to make up his mind.

He is no longer a 20-year-old youth. He can't do it with emotion, or just for fun.

If he starts, he won't give up.

"it is good."

After that, he talked with several authoritative experts in the clubhouse for a while, and before leaving, Su Lixu went to the bathroom.

In front of the sink, Su Lixu let the cold water wash his hands.

His little problem of not liking other people's hands still couldn't hold back until he left, so he could only go to the bathroom to wash his hands to relieve his psychological obsessive-compulsive disorder.

"Brother, why don't you wash it when it's all red?"

Suddenly a warm and generous body was attached to his back. Su Lixu tightened his waist, and he saw a pair of hands passing through his waist, holding his hand that was washing under the running water, stained with the hand sanitizer on his hand .

It was almost his hand, slender and fair, with a slightly rough palm, perhaps because he was an art student and often touched tools with his hands.But such roughness kneaded his knuckles, stained them with foam, and even turned his palm up and rubbed it with the pulp of his thumb.

The uncontrollable numbness in my heart directly covered up the obsessive-compulsive disorder that I had shaken hands with many people just now.

Finally, the water washes away the foam, which is an intimate gesture of clasping fingers.

He slowly raised his eyes, and his heart trembled when he saw Fu Xingran smirking at him with pursed lips in the photo.

...How can this guy be so sloppy even after washing his hands.

It suddenly reminded him that the first time he met Fu Xingran in University A, he was also in the bathroom, washing his hands, and then wiped his hands.

"It's finished." Fu Xingran pulled the paper towels aside to wipe Su Lixu's hands, and finally stuffed Su Lixu's cold hands directly into his clothes, sticking them to his waist, and smiled with downcast eyes: "Brother brand dryer."

Su Lixu felt the texture of his abdominal muscles under his palm, like a hot potato, his eyes rippled, and he wanted to take his hand back: "...Why are you here?"

But rationality told him that this hand needs to be dried again before it can dry.

At this moment, a few people were talking outside the bathroom door, as if they were about to enter the bathroom.

Before Su Lixu could react, he was caught off guard by Fu Xingran and pulled him into a cubicle beside him.

With a bang, the door locked.

The space in the toilet is small, and two grown men appear crowded and ambiguous in the same space.

"Shh, there's someone outside." Fu Xingran put his hand next to Su Lixu's ear.

The warm breath fell on his ear, Su Lixu felt a little itchy, he tilted his head, his Adam's apple rolled: "...Why are you here?"

Fu Xingran saw Su Lixu's earlobes gradually turning red, and his heart was itching slightly. He bowed his head and put his cheek against Su Lixu's ear, feeling the shy temperature from the man's ear, and then laughed softly:

"I miss you so much, I want to see you."

Su Lixu felt that the distance was not good, so he turned sideways: "...Didn't you say that you are busy drawing recently?"

"No matter how busy you are, I still have time to miss you." Seeing that Su Lixu was not looking at him, Fu Xingran lowered his head and tilted his head to look closer at him: "Brother, don't you think we are stealing///love now?"

Su Lixu: "..." He couldn't say a word and looked up: "I don't have a date, how can I steal///love."

"Oh? So what are we now?" Fu Xingran's smile deepened: "Brother Gong in the toilet?"

Su Lixu suddenly felt that He Shi's method was good, he had to try it, otherwise this guy would be too embarrassing.

It's like unscrupulously testing his limits.

"I found that you really have no special features." Su Lixu felt that Fu Xingran had completely released his true nature, and every word, every word, every move was full of indescribable sensuality.

Fu Xingran seemed to hear something, he put his arms around Su Lixu, and said with a low voice and deep smile: "The only characteristic of me is characteristic, only for you, characteristic."

Su Lixu couldn't bear it anymore: "Fu Xingran, let's go skiing tomorrow."

Fu Xingran was a little surprised. He just came to the venue to give a painting, and he happened to see Su Lixu, and he just happened to pull him into the toilet. How could there be such a good thing, that Dr. Su offered to ask him out in the toilet cubicle?

For the first time, take the initiative and ask him out.

Su Lixu cupped Fu Xingran's cheeks, making people look at him, he said seriously: "I must come tomorrow, I have to come, if you don't come, you will regret it for the rest of your life."

After speaking, he pushed open the toilet door and went out.

If nothing happens, he will regret it.