What bad thoughts does the little milk dog have?

Little milk dog 19

It was almost night, and the light outside the window was gradually swallowed by darkness.The light in the room was orange, and was covered by heavy curtains, leaving only one wall lamp to illuminate it, but it could clearly illuminate the entire room.

The photos on the wall show the expressions of the same person in different scenes.The hanging oil painting, the man in the white coat with his arms half folded, his neck tensed when he leaned back, and the thin sweat from which he was sweating, was so delicate that every drop of sweat seemed to be able to feel the emotion contained in the pen with every stroke.

The emotions conveyed and the visual impact of the scene are superimposed enough to make Su Lixu unable to think at the moment.

Even the moment I saw it was not fear, nor thinking that danger was approaching behind me, but why.

"……why?"

The moment Su Lixu asked, he only felt a warm body sticking to his back, with the gentle fragrance of just after bathing, but the moment an arm wrapped around his waist, it was very invasive and dangerous.

"Because I like you, I like you so much that I'm going crazy."

Between the voice of a teenager and a young man, the warm breath mixed with this strong emotional expression fell on his ears, Su Lixu couldn't help trembling, he frowned, and unbelievable ripples appeared in the bottom of his eyes, and looked sideways To Fu Xingyan behind him.

"you……"

His eyes directly met Fu Xingran's deep and hot eyes, just like the words just now, made his thoughts confused, and also made Fu Xingran's actions towards him during this period become obvious. follow.

Obviously they met less than two months.

He never thought that the person Fu Xingran was talking about during this time would be himself.

how can that be.

Su Lixu felt the pressure of Fu Xingran's approaching, and the hand hanging by his side subconsciously grabbed the edge of the apron, his throat tightened, so is Fu Xingran trying to take revenge on himself?

I really thought that I didn't treat him back then, and felt that he was abandoned by the middle school.

Fu Xingran lowered his eyes to look at the man who could meet his eyebrows, and carefully studied Su Lixu's appearance after he knew the secret at this moment.Looking down inch by inch, the light outlines this slightly pale face with tightly pursed lips, obviously frightened but still pretending to be calm.

Finally, his eyes fell on Su Lixu's hand clutching the corner of the apron, the knuckles were slightly bruised and white because of the strain.

So lovely.

"Do you know what you are doing?" Su Lixu took a deep breath, then raised his eyes to Fu Xingran: "Are you going to take revenge on me?"

Fu Xingran heard Su Lixu's voice trembling, and he took a panoramic view of his expression calmly.

At this moment, Su Lixu has been completely separated from the role of Doctor Su in his mind.

"I like you, I want you. During this time, I was talking about you, but you didn't seem to realize that you are so smart." Fu Xingran once again showed Su Lixu the tattoo openly: "It's so obvious, Isn't it?"

The pure black tattoo of SLX is engraved on the left heart. The deep color carries the precipitation of the years, and it is carved into the flesh together with the emotion.

This is definitely not a new tattoo.

Su Lixu still felt incredible.

"……why?"

Four years ago, it was obvious that they had a pure doctor-patient relationship. As Fu Xingran's attending doctor, he treated Fu Xingran the same as other patients during Fu Xingran's hospitalization. At most, he cared more because Fu Xingran was the youngest patient. , he didn't even dare to substitute his personal emotions casually, he just wanted to help Fu Xingran get out of the predicament with all his strength.

Fu Xingran walked around behind Su Lixu, folded his arms, put his chin on his shoulder, looked past Bai Nen's earlobe, which was close at hand, and landed on the painting on the wall, and smelled Su Lixu's body in his nose. The obsessive perfume fills both body and mind.

He chuckled and said: "Because you saved me, only you are willing to listen to me, only you are patient to wait for me, only you are willing to accompany me, except for you, no one in this world has patience with me, they don't understand me, Think I'm hypocritical."

"Do you still remember the month when I was in the hospital, I couldn't help myself wanting to eat candy and kept getting angry, but you didn't get angry at all, just kept coaxing me by the side. No one has ever coaxed me, I only think that a boy is like this Really too bad."

"You are still willing to accompany me to draw. You say that my paintings are beautiful. I am so happy."

"When I see you every day, you are always smiling, I am so happy."

"You encourage me and praise me for everything I do. I'm so happy."

The room echoed with the young man's choked sobs with a smile, "I'm so happy" over and over again, his tone of joy was filled with endless sadness, looking at the room full of things that couldn't be peeped at, seemed to have overturned the buried deep in his heart. secret feelings.

The little lamb has completely exposed its true colors, but it is a wolf that loves to cry.

Su Lixu felt the coolness dripping from his neck, and his body froze immediately.

Is this guy crying?

...It really is the villain who complains first.

"So why don't you want me? I'm really... so sad, I'm so sad that I'm dying." Fu Xingran pressed against Su Lixu's cheek, and lowered his hands around his shoulders, holding Su Lixu's cool hands: "Doctor Su, you are so cruel."

A grievance and choked accusation came from beside his ear, Su Lixu looked down at his hands that Fu Xingran's ten fingers had firmly grasped, he felt a bit of a headache, he was really innocent if Fu Xingran cared so much about this matter .

It seems that Mr. Fu hasn't said anything yet.

"Besides, you haven't recognized me yet. You recognized me after I took the initiative to say hello. I'm even more sad." Fu Xingran said.

Su Lixu was about to speak, but Fu Xingran said again:

"There are other men around me, I'm so jealous, what should I do? So I can't bear it anymore, I want to tell you. Although I hate you for leaving me, I like you more, so I want to like you, I won't hate you I will not protect you, I want to love you."

Different from the feeling of grievance just now, the low and hoarse words whispered in the ears with a smile, with paranoid emotions, like the words of a devil, tinged with danger.

The temperature of the large chest was hot, and Su Lixu felt Fu Xingran's joyful heartbeat hitting his back, as well as his rapid breathing, which made him clearly capture the excitement of the young man behind him.

Excited by expressing real emotion.

Excited because he knew the secret.

It is difficult for normal people to have such strong emotional fluctuations, but borderline personality disorder has strong emotions, just like Fu Xingran who is now in love, even if he finds the photos and paintings on this wall, even if it is a mistake His actions are also eager to express his love, which cannot be stopped.

Paranoid, sick, but as strong as a blooming red rose, with impact.

If he denounced harshly now, he knew what would happen.

Although he is no longer a clinician, he used to be, and the young man in front of him was also his former patient. He knew exactly what would happen.Once Fu Xingran's emotions are close to the threshold, he will inevitably lose control, and the performance of loss of control is not to hurt others but to hurt himself.

"If I get angry, I'll go crazy, don't you know that?" Fu Xingran put his hand on Su Lixu's left heart, as if he was looking for some traces: "Just like back then, you said no, I want to, you say to let go, but I don't."

When Su Lixu was touched, he suddenly grabbed Fu Xingran's restless hand, and the severity that had just risen in his throat was suppressed by reason in the next moment.

Don't be angry, don't rush, stay calm.

He took a deep breath and pulled Fu Xingran's hand: "I think we need to talk."

It was Mr. Fu's white lie that exacerbated Fu Xingran's feelings towards him, and it is very likely that this point prompted Fu Xingran to have other feelings for him.

How dare he ignite this timing/bomb/bomb casually.

"Yes, we should have a chat, like the fact that I like you." Fu Xingran let go of Su Lixu's hand, gently held his cheeks behind him, and made him look at the oil painting on the wall : "How about this painting, isn't it beautiful?"

Su Lixu silently lowered his eyelids, his Adam's apple rolling.

It's so beautiful, it's hard to look straight at it.

"Want to try?" Fu Xingran asked with a smile.

Su Lixu raised his eyes to look at him in surprise, with the look of 'are you crazy', and then saw Fu Xingran laughing, his smile was extremely bright and bright, but he looked like a vicious little devil.

"Come." Fu Xingran let go of his embrace, walked to Su Lixu's side, took Su Lixu's hand, and led him to a chair beside him: "Sit down."

Su Lixu looked at the chair next to the oil painting, his head buzzed, and in an instant, he heard his heartbeat suddenly speeding up, hitting his eardrums strongly.Catching the smile in Fu Xingran's eyes, he analyzed the guy's thoughts, and his throat tightened:

"...Fu Xingran, stop making trouble."

"I didn't make trouble." Fu Xingran supported Su Lixu's shoulder: "Brother, you gave up on me four years ago, didn't you? If I died because of you back then, you would feel guilty. That's why I'm still alive now , I want to ask you for a name, that's all."

As he spoke, he made Su Lixu sit on the chair with a little force.

The thin clothes were pressed against the chair behind him, and the cool metal shook his reason.

The chair was facing this oil painting. Maybe it was because the painting was too powerful. Su Lixu felt that he would become the him in the painting in the next second, restrained by the stethoscope, the red-faced atmosphere, and the little boy behind him. Demon bound.

No.

"Xing Ran, just like you said, you just thought I gave up on you, you just didn't want to be reconciled and didn't understand why I left. This is obsession, not liking."

Fu Xingran bent down, he supported Su Lixu's shoulders with both hands, and stared at the painting on the wall in the same line of sight as Su Lixu: "I know very well that I like you, didn't I say so?"

——I want to hurt him.

These words popped up in Su Lixu's mind, and he was dumbfounded.

"I'm sick but I'm not a fool. I can clearly distinguish what liking is." Fu Xingran felt the tight body under his palm, and he smiled: "If I don't like you, I won't think about getting close to you, no I want to hug you, I don't want to kiss you, and I don't want to hurt you, I only love you."

Another blunt words blocked Su Lixu's ability to answer. He underestimated Fu Xingran's ability to express emotions and overestimated his own ability to solve them.

This painting, this chair drove him crazy.

How to do?

Fu Xingran gently turned the chair, took Su Lixu's hand and placed it on his left heart, staring devoutly: "Did you feel it? My heartbeat, I'm still alive, because of you, in order to find you, I gritted my teeth survived."

Su Lixu felt the powerful beating of the heart under his palm, and raised his eyes slightly. His fiery gaze on Fu Xingran was a powerful gaze that was hard to escape.

Now such a close distance has completely changed, and the thin and weak boy back then is no longer thin and small, but has grown extraordinarily tall and powerful.All the fragility and pity he thought were the nets laid by Fu Xingran. His emotions may be true or false, but the purpose is the same, to get him.

Because it is clear, he knows that the obsession and possessiveness of the borderline personality cannot be understood and explained in a short while.

At least now the hand holding him is so strong that he can't break free.

But now he is no longer Fu Xingran's doctor, their current relationship can barely be regarded as a teacher-student relationship, apart from this they may be friends, or brothers.

"You saved this, if you don't want it, I'll smash it." Fu Xingran didn't hear Su Lixu's answer, his eyes became deeper and panicked.

Su Lixu listened to the almost paranoid words echoing in his ears, just like on a thunderstorm night, a young boy who was afraid of cowardly and coquettishly begged for help, and had an unspeakable attachment habit.But now, the irresistible force and the sense of oppression are frantically testing his reason.

——Doctor Su, I always want to bite you, am I crazy?

——Can you just let me bite for a while?You hold me, I'm so scared.

——Doctor Su, you must save me, okay?

"Do you want me?" Fu Xingran asked again.

"Fu Xingran."

"I'm here."

Fu Xingran's heart tightened when he heard Su Lixu calling his name, and then he realized that Su Lixu was no longer as gentle as usual, his face was as cold as frost and snow, and his eyes were cold. Makes him very nervous.

Su Lixu raised his eyelids slightly, he looked at Fu Xingran: "What if I say no?"

The tone was very light, but it clearly made people feel the displeasure in the tone.

This sentence is undoubtedly like the fire that ignited the fuse.

The emotions in Fu Xingran's eyes were like ink, he put his hand on the bathrobe strap, stared at Su Lixu, and pulled out the soft bathrobe strap.As if being slowed down, the room was overwhelmingly suppressed by a dangerous atmosphere.

Su Lixu looked at this movement, and subconsciously glanced at the stethoscope on the oil painting.

His eyelashes fluttered slightly, and he raised his eyes to meet Fu Xingran's eyes, his eyes were gloomy, as if thick fog was surging, and the invisible emotions seemed to swallow him alive, and he subconsciously held his breath.

But he continued to stand by his position.

Fu Xingran stared at the man in front of him, taking in all the expressions, as if he was not satisfied yet, he turned his face away and chuckled.Straightening up on both sides of the chair, he turned and walked towards the door.

Su Lixu watched Fu Xingran's hand close to the door,

The door was gently pushed, the light outside gradually narrowed, and the shadow falling on Fu Xingran covered his face.

"Then don't cry for a while."

With a "bang", the sound hit Su Lixu's heart heavily.

The door closed completely.