You and I can't lean on jade and snuggle incense

Get off and transfer, the last bus on this line.Jiang Ran stood in front of the car window, keeping the box with one hand in his pocket to prevent it from being stolen, and the other hand went to support the horizontal railing.The wind from the car window is crazy, sometimes calm and sometimes fluctuating with each other, street lights bustling city trains shuttle through different streets, bright or dark.

Open more than half of the car window, and you can roughly see the reflection of your face when you turn to the left. Jiang Ran squinted his eyes as he watched the wind blowing in, and imagined that Chi Dongshang was standing behind him and also looking at the car window. Jiang Ran looked ahead, while he was staring at himself. Jiang Ran saw him looking at him through the car window.

The bus turned around sharply, the people in the car shook, and Jiang Ran finally realized that Chi Dongshang had already gone back from the beginning to the end, and only his own face was reflected in the windows of the car besides other people's backs.He also moved to the right to fully enjoy the wind blowing, stronger and weaker.

The phone rang, and Jiang Ran's mother wished Jiang Ran a happy [-]th birthday through the phone. She also said that she was sorry that her son could not cook a table of your favorite meals for you by your side. How are you celebrating your birthday? Did you go out to play...

Jiang Ran said, Mom, thank you. I had a very happy birthday. I don’t have many friends but I have a deep relationship with them. They are all very interesting.Mom, did you just come home?Don't leave work so late all the time, apply to the above to reflect the situation.I don't want you to always go home alone in the dark, I don't worry......

On the other end of the phone, the mother was opening the door with the sound of a key opening, and the sound of closing the door was also obvious. Li Fang pretended to be relaxed and said to her son: I am strong!Mom runs and works out every day. Jiang Ran doesn’t have to worry too much about me. The people who go out to control are basically young men or middle-aged gay men. The mom in the institute is mainly doing support and logistics. It’s not dangerous and the younger generation is also very caring. I.Mom will pay attention to safety!Mom still wants to watch you from working to having a lover and starting a family.Don't worry.

Jiang Ran sighed, gradually hearing nothing to say, Li Fang heard his son's sigh and also pulled back the chair in the living room to sit down and meditate.Fearing that her son would feel sloppy like so many young people, she reluctantly took the initiative to end the call: Jiang Ran's mother stopped talking, you have done well in your studies and life, so I don't need to say more. I hope you're bright and young and it's a good time to do something if you really want to do it!If you like someone to the extent that you like them very much, then go after them!Mom supports you all the time.Bye-Bye.

Well, go to bed early.Bye-Bye.Jiang Ran didn't hang up until his mother hung up.He also felt that such a mother must have some kind of story, and the calm and forbearing part of his personality was somewhat similar to his breath.This is what it means when a son looks like a mother.Jiang Ran thought about the relationship between his father Jiang Zhiqing and another person.What is the current relationship between those two men and a mother? Is his mother Yanran an outsider?

Why didn't his mother find a new love and find another man for company? Jiang Ran thought that it was not only because he also felt that his mother didn't want to find another man.It is unfair to say that the mother still has marital feelings for the father who has a lover who has someone else's shoulder as a pillow, and abandons the details of the marriage between the two that have been dim before.What is love? There are always people who are lonely and others who are sad. Mother Jiang Lifang's strange way of handling emotions over the years and her talent for concealment can be regarded as hereditary to Jiang Ran.

In this regard, Jiang Ran is also very strict with his own judgment and requirements. If the matter is not mentioned, almost no one will know it. If he hides it and outsiders have no intention to understand it in depth, he can completely divide the inner world from the outer world. .

When answering the phone on the way, there was an empty parking space for nearby passengers, so Jiang Ran sat down, covering the pocket with the box in one hand and flipping over the phone contacts with the other.Jiang Ran called his father, Xu Zhiqing, and the voice program on the phone automatically replied in Chinese and English alternately, and after several repetitions, only the blind tone remained.Jiang Ran pressed the call button and held the phone up to his chin. His gaze returned to the road outside the car and he imagined floating into outer space.

I have imagined a lot, from the old marriage certificate, the man in my memory, and the appearance of Xu Zhiqing, who started the company and started a business with his colleagues, has hardly changed. On the contrary, the uncle looks older than his father some.The atmosphere and the smell of their breath in the space they had been together had affected him since that nightmare all those years ago.

The scene that Jiang Ran saw was hidden from anyone until now. It was like the door to a different world opened to enlighten the hazy consciousness of Jiang Ran's adolescent body.There is always something different from ordinary people between the boy who develops from that day and the classmates who also become boys and girls.That thing took root and sprouted in high school. Even if Jiang Ran wanted to pretend he didn't know, he had to doubt himself. Immediately, he did an experiment and tested it selfishly. He really found that it was different from ordinary people.

At the beginning, Jiang Ran often frowned deeply. He didn't let boys and girls touch easily, and used many things, many books and interests to numb himself.Rather than avoiding it, it is better to say it is simply denying it.At that time, Jiang Ran was ashamed of the relationship between his father and that person, and he was stimulated by burdening himself with a dark thorn that was not as good as a human being. Otherwise, he would not have changed so many characters and conduct suddenly in that year. Changes, superficial sensibility and maturity are due to doubts about human nature, until he is immersed in the life of youthful love in the crowd, cautious like a hedgehog.

Then, regarding the substantive relationship between the two people, in dreams and unconscious fugues, something similar to longing and imagination arises.This kind of inner consciousness contrast between positive and negative, ice and fire, made Jiang Ran feel ashamed and panicked.

The original self-torture cools down after reaching a certain level, and life is treated with caution, and nothing happens.Gradually a new balance was maintained, Jiang Ran used his new face to survive the trembling college entrance examination storm in his student life, and went to a university that was neither controversial, famous nor obscure, not too far from his mother's house, the one in front of him The city remains for now.

When the bus arrives, Jiang Ran gets off.After walking a short distance, I felt that I entered through the open door before the gate control.Walking into the campus, Jiang Ran adjusted his breathing.He was attached to take out the box again, he is not stupid, he can probably guess which kinds of possible objects it is, and rational denial tells him maybe not necessarily.He took it to his ear and shook it a few times, but there was no sound.Hold the box in front of your eyes and try to open the lid with your right hand to see what is inside.After hesitating and trying a few times, Jiang Ran gave up and let out a long sigh. This feeling of entanglement was too depressing. Even if Chi Dong hadn't told him to open it at a specific time but told him to open it immediately, he guessed that he would Can't do it.

He doesn't have the courage to open it now.Putting the box back into his pocket, he raised his head to look at the night sky. The stars tonight are densely packed, very small and unclear, but they do exist.

Jiang Ran returned to the dormitory and quietly collected the box and put it away carefully.Immediately began to play the role of the dormitory head to count the return of the people in the dormitory. Wang Ping had already returned when Jiang Ran entered the door. Haozi and Daren were bragging to him.Daren complained to Haozi about Jiang Ran's disloyalty, Jiang Ran waved his hand to show his innocence, and said that you couldn't blame me if you weren't in the dormitory at that time, and he couldn't be too casual when it was someone else's treat.

Wang Ping reminded, "Gift! Gift!" Jiang Ran understood and stretched out a hand in front of Haozi and Daren: "Where are the gifts from the two of you? If you are not prepared, let's cancel each other out." Let's forget about it.The two of them started to think about the beef jerky under Wang Ping's pillow, and Wang Ping's desire for exclusivity came into play again, so he leaned on it and said, "This is what my sister brought to me to eat. You pigs have eaten supper." Don't let go of my stuff!"

Jiang Ran didn't intend to expose the truth and embarrass Wang Ping.Started to contact the monkey and the cannon fodder who has a very weak sense of existence in this dormitory.In an instant, the monkey ran all the way up the corridor and rushed to the dormitory, wearing a new outfit and sweating profusely on his forehead.Jiang Ran stepped aside in time.The monkey also braked the brakes and did not hit the table as everyone expected.

The five of them were all there, and Jiang Ran and Haozi, who finally got a handful of beef jerky in a candy package through flattery, went to the back of the bathroom door to find Mr. Cannon Fodder with a sense of low pressure while eating.

Haozi: "Mr. Mysterious? Who is that? Jiang Ran, do you remember his name..."

Jiang Ran: "Maybe it's Yu Xing?"

The monkey went directly to snatch Wang Ping's beef jerky, and Wang Ping yelled at them for taking away his sister's love for his brother!Daren: "Sister, shut up."

The monkey turned back and said to Jiang Ran: "Why are you looking for him? He's not our major. He doesn't stay with us and doesn't come to sleep. It's not uncommon for him to sleep. Isn't there a number of special circumstances for the school director? It's the same with the deputy. The squad leader's report is over!"

Haozi muttered while chewing the beef jerky in his mouth: "This is to do things according to the eating (process) to (order)..."

The balcony door squeaked, and Mr. Cannon Fodder walked back to his bed in a black T-shirt with long bangs during the day.He replied to Jiang Ran in the dormitory: "It's Yu Xian, not Yu Xing." Then he climbed into Wang Ping's upper bunk.

Jiang Ran was the first to react: "It's all done."

Haozi sat with Daren and chatted. Monkey opened his notebook and hurriedly went to the webpage to write sweet words before the notebook ran out of battery. Enai died quickly, the monkey grabbed it with one hand and peeled off the wrapper and replied, "Do you have any more?"

After one bite, I still feel disgusted and wonder why it is sweet corn on the cob.Wang Ping replied that his eyes had grown into his nostrils, why didn't he look at it before eating.Then go up to the upper bunk of Mr. Cannon Fodder in the dormitory and lightly lift up a bag of shredded squid and a bowl of jelly.Mr. Cannon Fodder said thank you very politely, then returned the shredded squid, and only charged the jelly to eat.

After the shower it was the same as usual.The dormitory at night is still harmonious. Mr. Cannon Fodder has no sense of existence after turning off the lights. Everyone has forgotten that he is there.Houzi turned his back to play with his mobile phone, and Daren and Haozi chatted for a few words before turning over and closing their eyes.Wang Ping went to bed face to face and fell asleep.

And Jiang Ran lay on his back on the upper bunk, blinking silently, taking in the night light from the faint balcony, and fell into a dream in a daze.

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