You and I can't lean on jade and snuggle incense

Zhiqing held a small bowl of porridge off the fire, and walked over from the kitchen with the bowl in hand, holding the bottom of the bowl in one hand and gently shaking the porridge in the bowl with a spoon in the other, to keep it warm.Jiang Ran dragged the quilt down from the bed, looked for a strange man in the living room, but found no one, and stood barefoot in the middle of the living room in a daze.It's not that he doesn't understand everything, he can judge some things and roughly what it means.

"Jiang Ran, you will have to take medicine when you enter the house to eat porridge and so on. If the fever subsides, you will not be late for class tomorrow." The son's height has exceeded his chest and is close to his shoulders.Except for some simple instructions and greetings, he found that he was completely ignorant of his son's favorite habits.It is only through his wife that he knows that his son is naughty in school and his grades are dropping fast. He is very popular and loves to play and move.He really doesn't know what else his son likes besides that.For a moment, seeing his son becoming indifferent to him, he didn't know what to say.

Jiang Ran went back to the house and put on his slippers and coat.He didn't pick up the bowl that his father handed over.I went to the kitchen to serve the food by myself, and said to my confused and embarrassed father: "I use wooden bowls with my mother, and you also have yours at home. The other bowls are spare bowls. You forgot what my mother said on her birthday. The Zen wood obtained from the temple Is the bowl safe?"

Zhiqing stared blankly at the Zen wooden bowl that he had basically never used in the disinfection cabinet, and then looked at his son obediently sitting at the dining table drinking porridge.Unexpectedly, the son who was speechless for a moment seemed to be saying to him, you don't care about my mother's words that I don't remember.After thinking about it, I will say with guilt, "I'm sorry. Jiang Ran, Dad cares less about you, and Dad will talk to you more in the future. You should be good at school, too. Communicate with Mom more when Dad is away. communicate......."

Jiang Ran bowed his head: "Yes."

Maybe it was his son's sudden indifference that made him at a loss, or maybe it was the fact that he had just met Ganlu after a long absence that made him a little scared, even though his son was only 12 years old and hadn't graduated from primary school; It means interrogation.Making him a little guilty, he took three pills and put them on the napkin and put them together with the bowl that had dropped to refill the hot water when the other bowl cooled down.Indicate that Jiang Ran will bring medicine after eating.

He went back to the room and locked the bedroom door, took off the bed sheet and quilt cover and crumpled it up, and cleaned the room he felt was unsafe from the bedroom's own bathroom with a rag dampened with water.The last step was to deal with the sheets. The man opened the bedroom door and saw his son Jiang Ran was about to go out with his schoolbag on his back. Jiang Ran put on his shoes and turned his head and smiled at his father: "I don't have a fever anymore. I'm going to school at 1 p.m. Don't worry mom will cook for me tonight. Dad...bye!"

Zhiqing saw that Jiang Ran's face, which had been cleaned by himself, had a boyish and innocent smile on it.Clenched fingers holding the sheet in hand.The eyes are a little red.Only then did he utter a few words abruptly: "En. Be careful on the road, and call Dad at school. Don't play in the water."

Then he watched the figure of his son leave the room, and the moment the door was closed, the sheet in the man's hand fell to the ground, and the man squatted down, pressing his brows and raising his eyebrows silently.A man's cry is always low and unwilling to raise his head.At this moment, Zhiqing felt so heartbroken, regretful and guilty when he saw the face similar to his own when his son left and overlapped with his wife's faint expression.I can't help but think about whether I can take full responsibility and accept the day when the future that may be turned upside down will come.As soon as I lowered my head, the future turned out to be two pitch black...

The father named Zhiqing may never know that his son already knew some things about him before he confessed to his wife at home.It's just that Jiang Ran wouldn't say it, even his mother was never willing to mention it to her. He knew that scandals should not be spread.How could the father's lover be a man?It's just that he has behaved in school since then, unlike the past, and his grades have stabilized.My relationship with my mother grew stronger.That memory was his nightmare, and he never intended to talk about it.

Zhiqing has never brought that man home since then.But sometimes they stay out at night.After Jiang Ran's mother called him in the house to ask if he would come back, she only cooked their mother and son's meals.Mom didn't tell, and Jiang Ran didn't ask.Mom said that Dad would come back later if he didn't go home for dinner tonight, Jiang Ran nodded and said he knew.Jiang Ran would tell his mother a lot about things in school, on TV, about classmates, and so on.Mother would tell Jiang Ran the folk things he likes to inquire about, and tell stories about her and Jiang Ran's grandfather when she was a child.

Almost no one mentioned Zhiqing.When his mother mentioned it, Jiang Ran echoed it without saying a word.When Jiang Ran talked about it by chance, his mother would first smile lightly and say that Jiang Ran would work hard to build his own business like his father when he grew up, and then dimmed down to add vegetables to Jiang Ran and serve another bowl of rice to end the topic.

At the age of 15, Jiang Ran held a parent-teacher meeting and was ranked in the top 10 in grades. Jiang Ran's mother happily came to hold a parent-teacher meeting for Jiang Ran. Behind her mother was her father.It was rare for the two of them to appear at the parent meeting together. Jiang Ran smiled and squatted aside because there was not enough space.But the look of pride on his parents' encouragement made Jiang Ran, who was indifferent in his adolescence, smile sweetly to his heart.

He just hoped that the two of them could hold hands and be happy as a family of three.Jiang Ran's wishful thinking just thought that the man would only belong to him and his mother forever if his father didn't show up.After returning home that day, he hugged his mother, took his father's hand, and then tightly attached the left and right hands of the two.His mother's face rested on his head, and his father's other hand lovingly patted Jiang Ran's back.The family was happy at that moment.

For Jiang Ran, who had a hoarse voice after the voice change, no amount of applause and love letters from girls was far more than the happiness and touch he gained on this day.Like a crystal ball that hugs tightly again after the crack is broken, he can turn a blind eye to the crack that day.

The beautiful deeds are short-lived, maybe it is the blessings given by the husband and wife for the encouragement and coronation of the child's education, or maybe it is the intimate appearance that the two made an appointment to make the son feel relieved.But it didn't last long, the other party said that they were very busy, and they didn't need to stay together often when they were old couples.When grandpa came to see him, he couldn't find the obvious displeasure on his father's face, so he brought some fruits or pastries from Siji special to Jiang Ran to taste, and had a word with his nephew.Then at night, one of the father and father was doing the test papers in the room, and the other was quietly watching TV in the living room, waiting for the couple to come back.

Sometimes when mother cooked the rice, it was estimated that father would not come back to eat tonight, so the rice would only be steamed for the old man and his wife.The cold man came back, and there was not enough rice. "Zhiqing, you didn't call to say you came back for dinner, so I didn't steam it too much. Maybe the rice isn't enough. You eat more vegetables and soup, if you don't have enough rice, I'll steam some buns for you."

Zhiqing was embarrassed, and shouted: "Father-in-law is good. Sorry for being late." He changed his shoes, put down his briefcase, washed his hands, sat down to eat.Then he said to the woman: "I'm sorry, Li Fang."

Jiang Ran could see the doubt in his grandfather's expression, and he was a little concerned about the alienated politeness of the two couples.It seemed that it was just a gloomy cloud again, and it passed away in a blink of an eye.I don't know if grandpa has noticed the silence between the parents. Other couples will always be noisy when they get old, but this family is quiet and seemingly harmonious.

Jiang Ran brought food for his grandfather, and his grandfather praised Jiang Ran for his filial piety.Li Fang also had a pleasant face, and chatted with the smiling old man about the child's hard work and understanding, and felt very relieved.Grandpa just talked about it, "My girl Li Fang, don't look at her gentle and calm girl now, she was so naughty when she was a child! She can play with the little boys in the neighbor's house, and she almost becomes a big sister ...I was so worried at the time. Later, when I went to college, I had to be a policewoman, but I was so anxious. Fortunately, I am now a traffic policeman, which is safer than a policeman. I almost thought our daughter I can't get married! Fortunately, now that I live with you, Zhiqing, I have such a sensible nephew as Jiang Ran. I..."

Listening to the old man's sudden sentimental words, Zhiqing and Li Fang reached out to comfort the old man almost at the same time.It's just that the woman stood up and put her arm around the old man to appease the old man's emotions.Said in his ear: "Dad! I'm fine. You Jiang Ran, You Zhiqing... Don't worry, I'm fine. Dad..." The woman's voice trembled slightly as she spoke down.

The man approached with worried expression and changed his sad face into a happy family face. He said to the woman and the old man: "I will take care of Li Fang. Don't think about those sad things." Facing the old man's tears and his wife Frowning, Zhiqing suddenly felt that he seemed to think too little about marrying a woman at the beginning, and he thought too much about the future, so that now there are people at home and abroad that he worries about, and his heart is tired up.

He probably knew that the woman choked up later because she suddenly stopped when she said that she and him were very good...that's right.Only the two of them know that this marriage has become more and more shaky recently.

Jiang Ran, who couldn't get in the words, had no choice but to grab the paper and hand it to his grandfather and mother respectively, and wiped his grandfather's tears with his own hands.Li Fang pursed her lips and said to her son: "No need, mom didn't cry, just wipe it for grandpa." Then she wiped away the tears that hadn't yet dripped from the corners of her eyes.

Later, a table of four people had dim sum after dinner. The small steamed buns with various fillings sold in the supermarket freezer were steamed and steamed, and the aroma attracted the taste buds.A table of people is quiet and laughs from time to time to mention anything and no longer mention sad things, and the meal is considered to be over safely.

Grandpa refused to stay in Jiang Ran's place to sleep no matter what, saying that he would go back to live in the previous courtyard, and it would be fine to have a wife of the same age with him.Let Li Fang take his son to sleep first.Just ask Zhiqing to send it back.Jiang Ran said from behind: "Grandpa, slow down, be careful on the road."

Before leading him away, the old man touched his nephews who were about the same height as him, and looked at them gently with pain in his heart.Then I greeted Li Fang and went downstairs.The old man's back is fairly straight, except that the stairs are a bit dark, and Zhiqing watched and helped him walk.

Out of the community behind.Two men of different ages walked quietly and alone.The old man didn't let him help either.Said he was going well.It's not embarrassing to say nothing all the way.Because that's what men are.

After sending the old man to the door, Zhiqing said: "...Old man, if you need anything, just say it, and I will send it to you. Don't keep saving the money Li Fang gave you to buy food for Jiang Ran." Yes, spend it yourself. Jiang Ran has Li Fang and me."

The old man said lightly: "You take good care of Li Fang. I understand my daughter." He shook his hand and turned to enter the yard.

After Jiang Ran fell asleep, Li Fang waited for Zhiqing to come back, and asked the old man if he was worried or if he needed anything.Jiang Ran heard something before going to bed in the room, and when he was about to enter the nightmare, he muttered, "Grandpa is worried about you...".

So far, Jiang Ran's grades from junior high school to high school are good, and his temper is also sensible, but there is a certain distance to socialize with others; no matter how happy he is with classmates and friends, he also maintains reason and restraint.Occasionally, when he received a love letter from a girl, Jiang Ran would lightly say, I'm sorry.

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