Do not hesitate

Extra Story (Si Luo Chen Yi)

Sometimes I wonder why I was born in the Si family?It's not that I don't like this home, but that this home is too big, so big that I don't know what the warmth of family is, and it's so big that there will be echoes in the room when I say a word.

Days like this, I actually gradually got used to it.

I have a sister who is three years older than me.She likes to read books in the study, I asked her why she is always here.

She said: "There is a golden house in the book, and there is Yan Ruyu in the book."

I asked what Yan Ruyu was.

"It's the most important person in your heart," she said.

I admit, I didn't understand the meaning of this sentence at the time.

When my sister was reading, I would also flip through different books like her.Parents are usually very busy, so busy that they can only pass the time with books, and sometimes I even realize that I haven't seen them for a long time.

Looking at the photos of my parents, I was in a daze. It turned out that my parents looked like this.

I'm terrified of having that thought.

When I was in middle school, I went to an international private school, where every child talked about their own family situation, but I had no interest in it.

I always feel that the people here are fake.

I chatted with my mother at dinner once, and my mother actually agreed to let me go to a public high school after graduating from middle school.

This is the first time I look forward to going to school, but I find that all this is not as smooth as I thought.

Although the students in public schools are innocent and the topic is full of dreams.But the way I look at me is so unnatural, and even a little scared.At first I didn't know the reason why I was afraid of me. I came here just to become friends with ordinary classmates.

In the first half year of high school, I finally understood why. It turned out that the principal told the head teacher of my identity and asked her to take special care of me. After that, no one wanted to be friends with me normally.

I have seen a lot of these since I was a child, and I am naturally used to it.

I thought that the three years of high school would pass so boringly, but I didn't expect that there would be transfer students in the second year of high school.I know that there are certain risks in transferring schools during this period. After all, the college entrance examination is coming soon. If you don’t adapt to the environment, your grades will drop, and the pressure will also be high. I didn’t expect that not only would she not be affected, but her grades would be so good.

I remember my eyes were attracted to her when she took the first step into the classroom.She is tall, about the same size as me, and also very beautiful, with a ponytail and always a smile on her face, very sunny.

It's just that I don't expect anything from her, and she will definitely see me as a different kind, just like them.So in the back, I would rather look out of the window than listen to the teacher's introduction to her.

Later, I knew that she must have heard my identity from others, and I also knew that her eyes were always on me, and she really wanted to say hello to me but was discouraged for some reason.

That conversation was purely accidental. I didn't expect that she would know what the little milk cat likes to eat, and I didn't expect that she would re-introduce herself in front of me a year later and talk to me about her family. His eyes were black and bright and very clear.

She was different from them, that's what I thought then.

In order to thank her, I specially asked her to have lunch. This is the first time I went to this cafeteria. The food was really bad, with a lot of MSG. I don’t understand why the people around me eat delicious food.I just don't like wasting food, so even if it doesn't taste good, I still eat it.

During the exchange, she actually said: "Then we will be good friends from now on."

It turns out that she was the only thing I gained in high school, so I cherish it extra.

The tense college entrance examination made us two friends who can talk about everything. She is bold and confident. She always appreciates things she approves unreservedly, and criticizes things she doesn't like directly.I found that I like to communicate with her very much, and only in front of her can I speak freely.I have never felt this kind of feeling in front of my parents and sister at home.

"Qiantong, what major are you going to apply for in university?" I asked.

"Psychology." She answered casually, but I was surprised.My sister is also majoring in psychology, and I plan to apply for psychology.

"It's a coincidence, so am I."

She wasn't surprised at all, she just responded with a smile: "I know, I just planned to study psychology because I knew you were going to study."

I looked at her with some surprise.

She added: "You have had me as a friend for the past three years in high school. What will happen to your character in college? Is it the same for four years in college? As your good friend, how can I bear to have you alone?"

I really didn't expect that she studied psychology just for me.

"But, isn't it more important to do what you like?" Although I really hope that she can study a major with me and enter a university, this is also what I say from my heart.

"I'm not studying a subject I hate, I like it very much." Her expression was affirmative, but I sat there quietly and continued to listen to her: "I didn't know what psychology was, once I saw you Holding a book on psychology, I went to the bookstore curiously after school to read it. I found out that many people in today’s society suffer from mental illness. I even thought that including my parents who were arguing every day at that time was also a kind of mental illness. , if I had learned earlier, maybe I could have helped them.”

I didn't expect that she would pay so much attention to my affairs, let alone that she had been feeling sorry for her parents' divorce.

"So, I decided to study hard in the future and become an excellent psychologist. Then help treat those family disputes, so that people in this society can understand more and quarrel less."

It's surprising that such words come from such a talented person. Even a person as outstanding as my sister has never told me her purpose and ideal of becoming a psychiatrist.

I admit, at this moment, I was attracted by her ideal and self-confidence.

"Luochen, will you support me?" She asked me with a smile.

I nodded without hesitation.

In my first year of college, I was pursued by a boy in my class.Regarding emotional matters, I knew from the day I was born that I can make decisions about everything, but I cannot make decisions about feelings.

I rejected that boy without hesitation, but I didn't expect that boy to hold my hand and not let go.

Growing up so big, I have never experienced this, let alone expecting boys to have such great strength.

"Bah."

There was a sound behind him.

Before he could react, the black liquid was sprayed on the boy's face.

Turning around, he found that it was Xiang Qiantong who was holding Coke in his hand, and poured it all on him mercilessly, turning his white T-shirt into a brown color.

"Hey, Xiang Qiantong, are you sick?" The boy let go of my hand and said angrily, as if all the anger of my rejection was directed at Xiang Qiantong.

Xiang Qiantong didn't care about the other party's bearded and staring expression, and just pulled me behind her.Facing the boy with a puzzled look on his face, he said, "Strange, what happened? The Coke in my hand was completely uncontrollable just now, and then it fell on you. You said...you can't see what you've done. down, huh?"

Xiang Qiantong was wearing an apple green T-shirt with a pair of suspenders, and a suspender slipped aside, with a high ponytail and a very serious expression, but she could say such shameless words, which made me want to laugh.

The boy might have a ghost in his heart, so he turned and left without saying anything, while Xiang Qiantong looked at me helplessly and said, "I'm still laughing, it's a pity for my Coke."

"Then I will pay you back."

"Can you pay me for an identical bottle?" she said.

I didn't expect to dare to make such unreasonable troubles to me. It's really bold.

I raised my eyebrows and asked, "Then what do you want?"

"What can I do, don't attract others like this in the future, I don't have that much money to buy so many Cokes to help you." The corners of his mouth curled into a smile, he turned around and took two steps before turning around: "Hurry up and go back to the dormitory." , It's too hot here, and this man really doesn't know how to chase people. He confessed under such a scorching sun, no wonder he was rejected." He looked regretful.

But I ignored her words, stepped forward to her side, and said curiously: "Don't say it's like you are very good at chasing people, I haven't seen you chasing anyone before."

She was stunned, looked at me and said with an innocent face: "Hey, I came here after you. You said such irresponsible words to me, so sad..." In the end, she couldn't hold back anymore. She laughed and ran away.

But I stood where I was, my heart seemed to stop beating.I knew it was a joke, but my heart was bent in a subtle direction.

Staring at that figure, for the first time, I actually wanted to be the master of my relationship.