The white moonlight is my vest

"how can that be?"

Tsushima Fuki returned to the table and sat down, tapping the table with his knuckles quickly and rhythmically.Florian blinked and looked over curiously.

Emiya Kiritsugu frowned, realizing that something happened beyond Fusuki Tsushima's expectation.

As far as he knew, the cause of Tsushima Onki's death was a fire.His room burst into such a raging fire that it seemed to burn to the sky.Under such a fire, it is impossible for anyone to survive.And at that time, Tsushima Fuki told the servants that he would stay alone in the room for a while so that they don't have to disturb them.

Emiya Kiritsugu hesitated for a moment, and decided to continue asking: "...What is the way you planned to die?"

"This has already involved my personal privacy, right?" Tsushima Fuki finally showed a little impatience, exhaustion on his too pale face.He held his forehead and asked, "... If that's the case, hasn't he looked for it?"

Any idiot knows who the "he" Wen Shu Tsushima is talking about.

No matter how stubborn this stone is, it still has the most fragile side after all.

Tsushima Fuki put his hand on his forehead, and his iris-colored bangs fell down because of his movements, slightly blocking his eyes.I could only see his eyelashes moving slightly, and he opened his mouth as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't say it.

——This is probably their only chance.

Emiya Kiritsugu made a decisive decision: "As far as we know," he noticed Fuki Tsushima slightly raised his eyes, "Dazai-kun never gave up looking for you, no matter when."

Tsushima Fusuki was silent for a moment: "...he has never been able to listen to other people's words."

It seemed that there was a lot of worry on his brows, he sighed softly, his eyes turned around in this room, and finally stayed on the moon-shaped chandelier.

It took a long time before Tsushima Onuki spoke.

"I have thought many times what he will be like after I leave. No matter how many times I make assumptions, there will only be one result-he will be a better person than me, he will have more things than me. A good future," Tsushima Onuki's tone was finally no longer so calm, "People like me are only suitable to be buried in the dark past and never be mentioned again."

Emiya Kiritsugu said: "But he has been looking for you."

"yes……"

Tsushima Wenshu's voice became very helpless: "Xiuzhi has always been a very stubborn child. He should still be arguing about committing suicide every day, right? On this point, he will never listen to me. But I have never I just don’t know how to listen to him, and I know after thinking about it, my sudden disappearance will bring him a lot of trouble, right?”

"Actually, you guys can't help me at all," Shuji Tsushima said bluntly, "What you do can't change the future, nor can I change my choice, so I have never been interested in what you say. Take out Your chips come—" His eyes became sharper, "What can you give me?"

He finally started formally negotiating terms with Emiya Kiritsugu.

Emiya Kiritsugu was dumbfounded: "...I told you so much information before."

I have to say that Tsushima Onuki is really very similar to his younger brother-Tsushima Onuki is also a rogue with a gentle skin.He nodded calmly: "I thought that was just showing your sincerity?"

The air seemed to be frozen, and the room fell into a long silence.

It was Emiya Kiritsugu who spoke first: "You need me to do something, and you can't let Osamu Dazai know about it, otherwise you can find him directly and tell him yourself. The only person you can ask me now is me," He thought of something, and frowned in disbelief, "Wait...I told you that you are also a player in the future, so you will naturally come to the conclusion that he is here too."

Emiya Kiritsugu felt that he couldn't understand Tsushima Fusuki more and more, so he took a deep breath.He didn't relax because Tsushima Wenshu was finally willing to start negotiating terms with him. On the contrary, he became vigilant: "Don't you even believe in your future self?"

A person who doesn't even believe in himself, making a deal with this kind of person... It's unreliable to think about it.

Regarding this, Tsushima Fuki readily admitted: "I don't believe it."

He put his hands on his knees, revealing a delicate and thin side face.No matter how the people present stared at him, he remained motionless.After a long time, like a programmed robot finally started the program, his voice sounded very difficult:

"...what is there to believe?"

"Are you afraid that your future self will give up Osamu Dazai? Why?" Florian was confused by the relationship between the Tsushima brothers.

Gilgamesh sneered and reminded him: "This person has given up on his brother now... Of course he will choose to give up his brother in the future and choose himself, so of course he can't trust his future self."

Florian: "...Oh."

"I didn't say that what I asked you to do was related to Xiuzhi." Tsushima Fuki held the cup of tea that was no longer steaming, and said flatly, "Xiuzhi is much smarter than me, he can protect himself .As this... Mr. said, of course I will give up on him. Originally, he and I are separated by yin and yang, so we should have nothing to do with each other, even if we are brothers—"

When he said the last sentence, his tone rose slightly, as if trying to persuade someone.

Emiya Kiritsugu knew that Fusuki Tsushima was not talking to refute others - it was better to say he was convincing himself.

He was desperately telling himself that the matter of Osamu Dazai had nothing to do with him, that he was about to face death and the liberation of his life, and he didn't need to worry about those things anymore, he was already tired enough to live.

Even if it will be resurrected later, that will be later.

He is like a tortoise, shrunk in his own shell, no matter how others knock on his shell, he will not stick his head out to have a look.

but--

The feeling of caring about Osamu Dazai.

But never false.

"Even though we are an alliance, we have no need to protect your brother. The object of the alliance is Tsushima Fusuki, not his Dazai Osamu. We will not do good deeds to this extent every day," even Emiya Kiritsugu, and Tsushima Onki After negotiating for so long, the tree basically couldn't see any hope, and already felt a little tired, and his patience was almost exhausted.He touched his pocket, and remembered that he couldn't smoke in front of Florian, and couldn't help but feel even heavier, "The relationship between you and Dazai-kun is your own business, and you know the answer very well. If it wasn't about him It just saved us some effort, after all, there can only be one winner in the end, and we may have to worry about this agreement and not be able to attack Osamu Dazai."

Of course this is a lie.

How could Emiya Kiritsugu not turn against the water?

But now Tsushima Wenshu can't think about so much at all.

He didn't give an answer right away, holding the cup in both hands trembling unceasingly, while regulating his too rapid breathing.After a while, he managed to restore himself to his normal state, raised his eyes to look at the clock hanging on the wall, and said something endless: "In another hour, Xiu Zhi will be out of school. .”

Emiya Kiritsugu didn't make a sound, and decided to wait a little longer.

"...Things are out of my control. I didn't intend to be burned to death by fire. It would be very painful. I hate pain." Tsushima Wenshu seemed to have lost all his strength, and the whole person lay on the table, "Yes Something happened that I didn't expect ... I didn't know what to do, I thought I could finish it."

The young man's eyes were full of exhaustion.

"I've been walking alone for years, and I've been waiting for years. I've had enough of this life. What do you want from me? A clue to win the game? But I'm a man who dies tomorrow, you What else can I get here?" He said, "Don't mention my resurrection from the dead, okay? I know that if I don't have something to support me, I will not choose to be resurrected-even if the resurrection will be the first Kill yourself for a while."

Emiya Kiritsugu narrowed his eyes suspiciously: "I really want to get some clues from you, some clues that can help us win. As far as I know, the main characters in the first few levels will feel that something is wrong , it is impossible for you not to know."

"In other words, you need me to help you defeat my brother?" Tsushima Fuki smiled.

Emiya Kiritsugu did not give a positive answer, but only said: "We and Dazai-kun are allies, until we have to fight, we will not..."

"enough."

Tsushima Onuki raised his head, his eyes were dark, but his eyes were burning with flames, like the setting sun in the sky.

"I think you should know the most basic manners, please don't mention Xiu Zhi's matter repeatedly, and don't threaten me with his safety—" He warned, with a cold tone, "If you still want to continue talking about this cooperation. "

Florian thought he was very quiet: "...Didn't he say before that the Dazai matter has nothing to do with him?"

"..."

Tsushima Wenshu paused, and said: "It really doesn't matter, I just entrusted him with something, and I don't want to fall down before he's finished."

His repetition was pale and feeble: "I am for myself."

Florian nodded cooperatively: "You are for yourself."

Emiya Kiritsugu's brain was running non-stop, what exactly stimulated Tsushima Onuki?

Of course he knew that people like Tsushima Fuki were far more vulnerable than ordinary people.But Fusuki Tsushima is too smart, so smart that almost nothing can impress him, and it can make him undergo such a transformation—it started when Emiya Kiritsugu said the phrase "No one found his body".So what does this mean?

... The answer Tsushima Wenshu also told him.

Because things are out of his control.

At the very least, Tsushima Fuki did not intend to let his body disappear out of thin air.Even the way of death was not arranged by Tsushima Fuki himself... So he had to start thinking again, what went wrong in his plan.

...The next thing involves Osamu Dazai, so he has to be cautious.

What will happen in the future, even if he comes back from the dead, there is no plan to prepare for death tomorrow. There may be something wrong. This incident made Tsushima Wenshu flustered.He was not such a strong person in the first place, and the fact that Osamu Dazai had been looking for him gave him a heavy blow.

Compared with proving his death with his own eyes, looking for him in the long world with vain hopes, the latter is undoubtedly more painful, like Lingchi.Tsushima Fuki did not intend to let Tsushima Shuji suffer such pain at all.

"... I'm probably not a very competent brother, I always do badly," Tsushima Fuki's voice seemed to be broken, "I... no one taught me how to do it, how to deal with it he."

Osamu Dazai stood quietly outside the door.

For him now, walking without making a sound is no effort at all.He easily deceived the servant who was guarding the gate, and stood here alone.

I am afraid that except for the hero king, no one will notice his arrival at all.

But that King of Heroes likes to watch the show, Osamu Dazai thought so, he would not have any opinion on his eavesdropping behavior, and he was too lazy to expose him.

There will be many tutors to teach Wenshu Tsushima finance, and some people will teach him tea art, but no one will teach Wenshu Tsushima how to be an older brother.

……but.

Osamu Dazai recalled his childhood memories.

He's clearly done a good job.

Tsushima Fuki's voice continued: "I sometimes ask others how to get along with my younger brother... But those people often don't tell me the truth, they just say 'nothing better than the young master' better man'. I would never believe that, never will."

"I know what people outside say about me...they say that the young master of the Tsushima family is a very good person, a good person," he said after a pause, "but I'm not what they say at all. I'm a hypocrite, I only want to be that 'good guy' for my own purposes. Xiuzhi is very smart, he will see through my true face - so I dare not take off this mask, wear it, just It became a habit."

Emiya Kiritsugu's voice was a bit hesitant: "...Maybe he knows?"

After all, Osamu Dazai himself became a Mafia... He won't reject these things, will he?

"I can't think about that kind of if, I don't want to think about it, and I dare not think about it." Tsushima Fuki said, "Sometimes I don't know what kind of brother he likes, but he will always tolerate him The one from? Or who?"

"In fact, sometimes I also think about what Xiuzhi would be like without me. When I saw the surveillance at the door, I felt relieved. I thought it was great. At least there were many people around him. There are people who can fight with him, he will never be alone." Tsushima Fuki said softly, "I was sure at that time, he can live well without me."

Dazai closed his eyes.

"I hope that many years later, when he thinks of me, it will be some good memories, not how many people his brother killed, what bad things he did, and every day is not happy. I have worked hard to reduce this kind of myself The time appeared before his eyes."

Florian didn't understand: "Why don't you try to find...another fulcrum? I mean, an anchor?"

"I don't need this kind of thing anymore," Tsushima Fuki said very gently, "My life is over, but before it ends, I hope to pave the way for him in the future."

He said: "The game you are participating in is not that simple, and it will involve your lives-then I solemnly request you here, no matter who the final winner is, or who you let die, please let Dazai die." Heal and survive and enjoy his own life."

"...This name is still a little unaccustomed, but it will be called that in the future."

Emiya Kiritsugu stayed where he was, and it was a bit difficult to speak: "...Even at the price of 'your' life?"

Tsushima Fuki said: "Correct me, that 'I' has been dead for a long time, so it can't be regarded as the price of life, just let him go back to where he should go. You have to tell me everything, I will help You calculate everything, including how to deal with 'me' and others, you are not a sincere ally, right? Not only you want to betray, Xiu... Osamu Dazai will also betray. "

"... I shouldn't have taken care of so many things in the first place, but this is just a little compensation for him."

The room fell into silence.Osamu Dazai, who was standing outside the door, leaned against the wall and slowly squatted down, covering his face with his hands.

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A sudden update (?) though a bit late x

Thank you babies for your blessings w every one of me is bobo! !

I don't know what to say, but I want to put some lyrics that I particularly like. The bgm of this chapter is still "snowrain" by Kana Ueda.

Snow(ゆき)が夜(よる)に麻(と)けてきらめく

Yingying snowflakes quietly blend into the night

wind

The winter wind is urging us to set off together

Blessing(しゅくふく)の风(かぜ)望(ねが)いははなれえぬ伤(きずな)へ

Listening to the blessings, Yingfeng condenses wishes into eternal bonds

Who(だれ)もが都(みな)いつか旅立(たびだ)つ

People will go on a journey one day

Sad (かな) しみと scar (きずあと) を carrying (せお) いながら

Even though we all bear countless sorrows and scars

旅(たび)の及方(かなた)に出会(であ)えるanswer(こた)えを探(さが)してる

Seek your own answers to the other side of the journey