fall in love with ex-husband

The day before, I could still sit at a table talking and laughing, but on the day of departure to the hospital, everyone's faces were full of unresolved worries and melancholy.

The first person who couldn't hold back was my mother.

This time I went to the hospital to say at least half a month.The large and small bags my mother packed for me filled the entire trunk.They didn't let me lift a finger, and Zhang Kaiji and my dad were responsible for carrying the luggage throughout the process.The hospital is not thousands of miles away from home, and it is difficult to turn back, but mothers all over the world have one thing in common, love to worry, and my mother is the same, always worried, so even if the car can’t fit, my mother still insists on going again Check to see if you have forgotten anything important.

It took more than half an hour to go there. The three of us waited for a long time in the car with the engine turned off, but my mother came downstairs. I didn't say anything, but I was the most patient with my mother. Dad frowned and complained, saying that my mother was slow and couldn't tell the time.

Seeing this, Zhang Kaiji hurriedly reassured my dad, telling him not to worry, it was still early, and then sent me upstairs to have a look.

I put away my phone and walked upstairs, and I heard sobs coming from my bedroom at the top of the stairs.

I gently opened the bedroom door and found that my mother was sitting on my bed looking down at the photo album.I clearly remember that photo album as a coming-of-age gift from my mother.I was ignorant at the time, and felt that only things that cost money were meaningful, and I was a little unhappy if I didn’t receive an expensive gift, so I opened it and put it in the corner. I haven’t thought of taking a look these years.

"Mom." I walked behind my mother and asked her intentionally, "What are you doing?"

My mother turned her back when she heard my voice, wiped away her tears, and raised her head again. She is still the queen who is not afraid of the sky falling at home.

"Look at your childhood photos." My mother closed the half-turned photo album again, and said, "I haven't taken it out for a long time, and it's all dusty." She wore a pair of black suit pants today, and the photo album was on her On the legs, the trouser legs were full of dust when I picked it up.

"Why put it away? Let me take a look too." I completely forgot the task of going upstairs, and sat on the bed together.

I don't know if I don't turn it over. I could use real leather when I was a child.There are so many photos, none of which were taken seriously standing in front of the camera.Most of them are snapshots. In the photos, I either grimace or have a reluctant face, and there are often scars that symbolize honor on my body.The photo album is thicker than the Oxford dictionary, and it is full, recording every bit of me from birth to adulthood.

There are also some inexplicable photos interspersed in it. My mother said that they were all gifts from me to her and my father when I was young.Whether it's a birthday card written like an earthworm, or I picked up unwanted garbage on the side of the road and gave it to them, she and my dad have not been willing to throw it away all these years, and even took it out when I was away from home for school. Seen.

I remember when I was a child, because my dad could take pictures, as long as he was at home on vacation, he would always take pictures of me and my mother.At that time, I was quite cooperative, and even if I was reluctant, I would pose when the shutter was pressed, so there are many photos of me and my parents interspersed in the first half of the album.Most of the time I lie in my mother's arms, or ride on my father's neck.But since I started going to school, photos of me in school uniform started appearing, and the photos of me with them became less and less.

Especially when I was in junior high school and had my own little world and secrets, the rebelliousness of adolescence made me disobedient to discipline, I didn’t want to listen to their lessons, I thought they were nagging, when my dad said he would take a camera to take pictures of the family, I'm always the first to say no, or just avoid the camera and say they're annoying and disrespecting me.

In the three years of junior high school, the only group photo was taken secretly by my dad while I was asleep.

Later, there was an extra Zhang Kaiji in the album, and I no longer hated the world, and became much more obedient in front of him. Unlike my naughty, Zhang Kaiji always has a restrained and awkward face to the camera, but even if he is not used to it, Always smile and try to keep the best side.

The last photo in the album is the admission letter from my university. I can still remember the day when I received the admission letter. My mother called and the phone turned off automatically when it ran out of battery, and my dad even went out for a walk. Going around showing off to the neighbors that his son is also in school.Those were all memories that I shouldn't forget, but I was only busy sharing this joy with Zhang Kaiji at that time, completely forgetting that two other people who were happier than me were waiting for my hug not far away.

After looking through the photo album, I couldn't calm down for a long time.

I asked my mother with an ugly expression, I have been so ignorant all these years, and I have been angry with her and my father every day, causing them trouble, has she ever regretted giving birth to me.

My mother scolded me in her native dialect, and then said with tears, "From the time I was pregnant with you, I never expected you to be sensible and successful."

"You little devil, when you are in my stomach, you are restless. Every day, your mother and I can't eat or sleep. It hurts everywhere. You say, you look like this, I can count on you Will you be born to be filial to me like other good babies?"

"Don't talk about filial piety, your father and I are only one child of you. We have no other requirements for you since we were young. We only hope that you will live happily and at least be healthy. Your father always said that I don't care about you and spoil you. Yes, but I am also a first-time mother, thinking about boys, it’s good to be mischievous, and the family is more energetic.”

"Although you are always making troubles outside, you have grown up safely and have been admitted to college. Your dad and I didn't worry too much. Originally, the child should let go when he is an adult. Your dad and I also thought that you would Like everyone else, we will get married and have children at that time, and then start our own small family. When the two of us retire, we can help you take care of the children. But I didn’t expect you to come back and tell us that you like men and you want to spend the rest of your life with Zhang Kaiji .Although your dad and I have been psychologically prepared, when we actually heard it, we still couldn’t accept it for a while. It’s not that your parents are backward in thinking and traditional, but you are a child. I can’t help but think that if one day Your dad and I are old, unable to move, or have passed away, and there is no way to support the sky anymore. You are all alone, and there is no one around you who can take care of you. How can your dad and I close our eyes? ah."

"Don't blame mom for being naughty. Mom has been worrying about you all her life. Just thinking that if you are really entrusted to a heartless man, they will leave you to marry other women and have children, and you will be alone I don't even have anyone to cry to, so my tears can't stop flowing. Fortunately, Kai Ji is a good boy. Meeting him in this life is also a blessing for our family in the past life. I will give you to Kai Ji, your father and I can leave in the future with peace of mind."

"It's hard to accept the fact that you and Kaiji are together. Seeing that life is gradually getting better, who would have thought that you would suffer from this kind of disease? You know what your father and I are most worried about, but you still Self-assessment, without any thought of discussing with us, we divorced Kaiji. Do you know how long your dad and I hugged each other and cried on the day you two divorced? Yaoer, you are really ignorant , took the knife and stabbed it in our heart without even thinking about it."

"I never believed in Buddhism before, but after you got sick, I went to various temples almost every day to pray to God and worship Buddha for you, hoping that they would give you my life and your father's life. Mom really doesn't have you Thinking so hard, I never thought that I would have a day when a white-haired person would send a black-haired person. You clearly saw that your father and I were so worried, and you were not obedient and did not cooperate with the treatment. I really miss it every day in the hospital. I have the heart to die. But seeing you so desperate, how dare I fall down, if we all fall down, what will you do?"

"Silly child, how could a mother regret giving birth to her own child, it's all the flesh that fell from her own heart."

"Mom..." I cried with snot and tears, and hugged my mother to stop her from saying, "I was wrong, I will never be so ignorant in the future, I will take good medical treatment, take good medicine, what did the doctor say I'll just do what I want, don't be sad, when I'm done with the surgery, I'll take you and Dad on a trip, we'll travel all over the world, okay. No one will die, we'll all live a long life together One hundred years old."

My mother laughed while crying, and slapped me on the back loudly but it didn't hurt at all.

"Fool, do you know how to count? You live to be a hundred years old, and your father and I are both over 100 years old..."