fall in love with ex-husband

When I entered the house, I suddenly remembered that I swore in front of my parents a few days ago that it was absolutely impossible to remarry Zhang Kaiji. After a while, I slapped myself in the face and brought him home.I kind of regret it.No matter what, I should pave the way for my mental journey in front of them in advance, and show my entanglements, so as not to make them feel that I am taking the marriage as a joke, leaving as soon as I want, and getting married as soon as I want.

It turns out that I was overthinking.

My parents didn't think I would hold on for a long time, so after Zhang Kaiji stayed at home for the first time, they had already pinned their hearts to their waistbands.

This time, after I went out, the couple went to the mahjong parlor for the festival.

When I found my parents in the mahjong parlor, my mother was talking about Zhang Kaiji with her mahjong friends, she was full of satisfaction between the lines, when those people asked if Zhang Kaiji and I were divorced?My mother even said directly, no leave, the children were just playing around.

I, who didn't want to be the center of the topic, stepped back decisively after hearing what they were talking about, and dragged Zhang Kaiji away from the mahjong parlor where the main force of gossip gathered in the entire compound.

And when they came back slowly at night and saw Zhang Kaiji who was preparing dinner in the kitchen, they didn't show any surprise or surprise. My mother even took off her coat very naturally and went into the kitchen to help Zhang Kaiji.

In the evening, a family of four was sitting at the dinner table. I looked at the other three who were having a good time talking, and I couldn't help frowning. Then I kicked Zhang Kaiji and asked him what was going on with my mouth.

Zhang Kaiji shook his head with a smile, probably wanting to express that he didn't know, but his attention was quickly shifted to the topic my mother raised, he didn't have the extra energy to care about me who was left out in the cold.

I really don't know how the two who are more than two rounds behind Zhang Kaiji have so many things to discuss with him.I curled my lips and coughed lightly, motioning to speak.

"what happened?"

"what's up?"

Facing my parents' questions, I pretended to be calm and put a chopstick dish into Zhang Kaiji's bowl, and said, "Well, cough cough, Zhang Kaiji and I, cough cough, are going to remarry."

One second, two seconds...

I waited for the surprise reaction of my parents, and even thought of how to answer their doubts about my attitude in advance.However, none of the scenes I imagined happened. My parents just gave an understatement "oh", and then looked away, as if what I just said was a very ordinary sentence.

I looked at them in disbelief, and said it again without giving up: "Zhang Kaiji and I are going to remarry."

"Understood." My mother said calmly, then turned to ask Zhang Kaiji when he planned to go through the formalities.

Zhang Kaiji held down the confused me, and took the initiative to answer: "It's a bit late today, I will accompany Xixi to the hospital tomorrow and see the situation."

Zhang Kaiji's words instantly brought me back to reality.I just remembered that tomorrow I will go to the hospital to check in and wait for the operation.

As soon as these words came out, the lively dining table fell silent for a second. Although the three of them quickly realized that they were trying to change the subject, my emotions still fell uncontrollably.

Distraught and unable to concentrate on listening to their speech, I simply put down my chopsticks, got up and walked towards the bedroom alone.

Duoduo, who was lying at my feet, seemed to feel my low air pressure. He put the prepared meal aside and followed me into the house wagging his tail. After I lay down, he even curled up next to me , trying to cheer me up by licking my face.

Reluctantly holding up Duoduo's face, looking at his ignorant eyes, I suddenly felt a bitterness in my throat, sucked my nose, and called him hoarsely: "Duoduo."

"If the operation fails, I forget you and your father, what should I do?"

Perhaps only in the face of Duoduo who can't answer my questions, can I express all my concerns.

I believe in the development of modern medical technology, but I still can't help but prepare for the worst in my heart.

What if?

Hearing footsteps on the stairs, I knew it was Zhang Kaiji who had come up.

Although the bedroom door was open, Zhang Kaiji didn't push the door directly, but stood outside and knocked on the door, asking for my opinion: "Xixi, can I come in?"

I buried my face in the pillow and said in a buzzing voice, "What if I say I can't?"

"Then I can only stand outside the door and talk to you, can you hear me clearly?"

I looked up and saw Zhang Kaiji leaning on the door frame, he really didn't come in half a step.

I turned sideways and admitted to this man who was too rigid and serious, "Come in, if my mother sees it, she should say that I bullied you."

Zhang Kaiji entered the room and sat at the end of the bed.

"Why did you come up here?" I asked knowingly, deliberately not looking at him.

"Our mother and the others have gone out." Zhang Kaiji replied.

"Oh." I said awkwardly, "Then why don't you go out together, didn't you have a lot to talk about during the meal just now?"

I didn't even realize that there was a hint of vinegar in my words.

Zhang Kaiji sat closer, straightened my deliberately messy hair, pinned it behind my ear, and said slowly: "Xixi, don't worry about tomorrow, I'm right here."

I really hate my emotionally sensitive self, who managed to sort out his emotions with great difficulty. Zhang Kaiji only needs one sentence to make me collapse again.

I tightly grasped Zhang Kaiji's hand on the back of my head, and waited for a long time before speaking, but the first word was still broken.

"Zhang Kaiji, I don't want to forget you. I'm so scared." I felt a burst of panic, and my grandpa couldn't recognize her at all, "I don't want to leave you to suffer alone, I don't want you to stand alone I can't recognize you in front of me. I'm really scared. Although the doctor said that there is only a certain possibility, as long as it exists, it is possible. In case the operation is really unsuccessful, or my physical fitness is not good enough, I wake up and can't remember anyone or anything, what should I do?"

"Xixi." Zhang Kaiji pushed aside the broken hair on my forehead, rubbed my aching temple and said, "I'm not afraid."

He put his hand on my chest and patted it lightly twice, "It's enough for you to remember me here."

"You don't have to worry so much. Even if you really can't succeed in the operation 100%, I don't care if you forget me. You see, grandpa forgot grandma at the time, didn't grandma stay by his side all the time? Xixi, you really didn't You must think of me too fragile. I am much stronger than the Zhang Kaiji you imagined. Ever since I found out that you were sick, I have been looking up information, and I have done psychological work long ago, and I have thought about how to take care of you in the future You. For me, as long as you can live by my side, I am satisfied. I don't dare to ask for so much now. "

"You have to know, for me, loving you is not torture, not being able to love you is torture."

"So Sisi, you can trust me a little more. You trust me, and you will definitely recover well. OK?"

Zhang Kaiji's words virtually became my strength to support me, and I couldn't help asking him for an affirmative answer again: "Will you really recover?"

"Well," Zhang Kaiji nodded without hesitation, "I will definitely."