beg for chivalry

Looking around at the crowd, there was no one he was looking for among the familiar faces.

Jin Wu saw those faces in his eyes, hurriedly took steps, sprinted left and right in the crowd, and said in a daze:

"...Wang Xiaoyuan? Where are you?"

There was a bit of anxiety in his eyes, so that he unintentionally pushed the people around him away.Everyone shouted "Ouch", "Ouch", but the joy that was still on their faces before seemed to be swept away in an instant.Jin Wu became more impatient, he didn't see Wang Xiaoyuan, not anywhere.

Hui Lanwu also frowned, and said anxiously: "Jinwu, who are you looking for?"

"I'm looking for Wang Xiaoyuan." Jin Wu pushed aside the shoulders of the people beside him, looked around, and said, "Mother, don't you remember him? He is a rough envoy of our family, a lazy fool and follower." He said Although he scolded him like this, the tense look on his face relaxed a little.

A Pan lowered his eyes and said in a low voice, "He...he can't get in."

Jin Wu's gaze was almost fixed, and he swept over: "What did you say? What do you mean?"

Under this sharp stare, the child shrank his neck in fear, and whispered: "He can't come into our place, he is outside." He stretched out his hand and pointed behind Jinwu, "Here, he is far behind you Far away, neither can we enter this courtyard, nor can we have wine with us."

"Why can't you come in?" Jinwu felt strange, but when he wanted to look back, Hui Lanwu suddenly changed his expression, rushed forward, held his face, and said, "You can't look back! Jinwu, you must, be determined not to look back."

She looked anxious, but her face was indeed full of concern for herself.Although Jin Wu had a lot of doubts in his heart, he couldn't help but feel sour.

Aunt Yue came up with a worried face, and said, "Master, why are you still looking for someone? Could it be that being with us doesn't make you happy enough?"

Jin Wu said disappointedly: "But if he is not here, I will never be happy."

Everyone was silent, as if they had something to say to him, but suddenly they kept silent.The previous scene of hilarity dissipated, and they all fidgeted.Jin Wu's gaze suddenly met Ning Yuanhou's, and hesitantly called out: "...Father." His tone seemed to be begging, and he wanted to beg Ning Yuanhou to let him go to Wang Xiaoyuan.

Ning Yuanhou pondered for a moment, his face solemn.After a long time, he raised his head and sighed, "Drink that glass of wine, Jinwu."

The wine looked mellow and fragrant, and it seemed to be fragrant.If in the past, according to his greedy temperament, he would definitely drink it up impatiently, but at this moment, Jin Wu stared at the liquid in the glass in his hand, and suddenly an astonishing thought came to his mind.He raised his eyes, looked straight at Ning Yuanhou, and said with a mournful look:

"Father, is this place on Huangquan Road?"

There was a dead silence, no one making a sound.Jin Wu looked at them, his expression turning cold little by little.

Ning Yuanhou was silent for a long time and did not speak.

Jin Wu slightly raised the wine glass in his hand, and said coldly:

"Then this glass of wine is also Mengpo soup?"

As soon as this question came out of his mouth, Ning Yuanhou had a rare look on his face, and shouted: "Jinwu, don't ask too much, drink it!" Then he took a quick step forward, grabbed his wrist, and pressed the back of his head , handed the wine to his mouth.

"After drinking this wine, will you forget everything?" Jin Wu pushed the wine glass away slowly, and shook his head stubbornly. "I do not want it."

Hui Lanwu also turned pale, and immediately said in a low voice: "Silly boy, you have experienced so much suffering in this world, why don't you still remember it? Naturally, it's better to forget everything. From now on, Father and mother will be with you forever."

"But I don't want to forget Wang Xiaoyuan." Jin Wu lowered his eyes and said, "If I can remember him, even if I also remember the uncomfortable things, it doesn't matter."

Regardless of Hui Lanwuye and the crowd's obstruction, he looked back.I saw the trail behind me, but I couldn't see the lush trees before.The end of the path is dark and deep, and there seems to be whimpering wind coming from it.

Jin Wu stared at the secluded exit, from where he saw the flames in the sky.The scorched black wooden pillars were swaying here and there, and the pedestrians' skin was scorched, and the screams of crying resounded through the streets and alleys.There is the world of the living, hot and cold.

"I'm leaving." He stood up blankly, "Wang Xiaoyuan is still waiting for me outside."

Sadness appeared on the faces of the people, they came up to grab the hem of his clothes one after another, and said in seven or eight words: "Don't go!"

"Master Jin, don't go there!"

Apan almost pleaded: "Young master, don't go, if you go out from here, you will be burned and hacked, and when the poison occurs, you will be in pain, like being hacked into pieces!"

Hui Lanwu also raised his willow eyebrows, blocked his way, and said sharply: "Mother won't let you go. Didn't you just say that? Our family should be here happily and happily, and ignore the people outside. Everything!"

Even Marquis Ningyuan closed his eyes and sighed, and stood with his hands behind his back: "Stay here, Jinwu. Don't go outside to suffer anymore."

Amidst the noise, Jin Wu looked straight at Ning Yuanhou, and said: "Father, you told me in the past that I want to learn from Mr. Wei Shi's poem: 'I wish to kill evil and sycophants with Zhu Yun, but I am willing to bury Yanpingjin." If I don’t deal with the left-handedness, more people will die. No matter how bad I am, I can be regarded as a general.” He lowered his head and looked away, “When I was studying with you in the past, there was a sentence that I kept on my mind all the time. heart."

Ning Yuanhou looked solemn and asked, "What are you talking about?"

Jin Wu said slowly: "Even though he died nine times, he has never regretted it."

After saying this, he suddenly bent his knees, knelt down on the ground, and solemnly kowtowed three times to everyone.Immediately stood up, turned around and left under the astonished eyes of everyone.

Behind is the warm and bright spring, the breeze cuts, green grass and green mulberry.Howling winds, scalding sea of ​​flames, swords, swords and shadows intertwine, as if a group of ferocious ghosts gathered towards him.And every time he took a step forward, there seemed to be dusty debris falling from his body, revealing mottled wounds all over his body.

The blood stained his clothes and fell to his feet, and the severe pain in his stomach suddenly rose.The closer he was to the end of the path, the more his body felt like a knife was being cut, and the pain was unbearable.

He wanted to turn around and return to that warm home, where his father, mother, and everyone from the Jin Mansion were waiting for him.He wants to sleep in the warm and warm wind, listen to the singing of birds and swallows, and smell the light fragrance of flowers in the wind.Song Zhenzong noted in the "42 Chapters": "Those who live seven times and die seven times will stop their troubles at the seven degrees of life and death."

But Jin Wu thought, life and death once made him worry enough, when he was alive, he longed for the warmth of the deceased, and when he died, he still missed Wang Xiaoyuan.If he died, what would Wang Xiaoyuan do?That idiot is extremely blunt, he can't even cook and mend clothes, he found him all the way from Jiading to Tianshan by begging, and wandered around Haijin and Yuyang for two years.Thinking of Wang Xiaoyuan, he walked a lot more briskly, as if the wind was blowing under his feet.

Hui Lanwu also seemed to be weeping behind him, and everyone sobbed in a low voice, as if haunting ghosts.Someone called his name in a low voice, trying to teach him to change his mind and turn around.

But Jinwu didn't look back.When he stepped out of the secluded forest, he was already scarred.When he took another step from the path, he was bleeding all over, and he could only stand still with the knife.

He walked back slowly.The wind in the courtyard was quiet, and the pear blossoms fell quietly, covering the bloody footprints he stepped on.Jinwu suddenly remembered that Jiading's mansion only planted crabapple trees, but no pear blossoms.Probably this is a parting dream, life and death, he must put aside.

In the sea of ​​snowflakes, Jinwu saw that delicate figure again.

Zuo Sanniang sat on the stone bench, looking at him with a smile.

"Are you leaving again, Fifth Brother?"

"Yeah." Jin Wu nodded, "Will you stop me too?"

Sanniang slowly shook her head, "If you want to leave, then go!"

She seemed to be angry, puffed up her cheeks, and put her hands on her cheeks, "Instead of leaving a mournful person here, I might as well let you go back and suffer!"

Jin Wu only felt heavy and sore in his heart, like a lump in his throat.For a while, he said. "I'm sorry, Sanniang. After I kill the person who deserves to be killed, I will come soon... to accompany everyone, and to accompany you."

Zuo Sanniang shook her head and said, "I don't want you to accompany me. Come here slowly, the later the better, at least wait until 50 or 60 years later. It's very good here, but I just want to sit alone , don’t let anyone bother me.”

"I'm sorry..." Jin Wu lowered his head and said, gnashing his teeth suddenly, trembling in pain, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

He looked melancholy and indifferent before, but now he suddenly knelt down on the ground, wiping his eyes indiscriminately, and tears welled up in his red eyes.

Sanniang wondered: "Fifth brother, why are you crying so much today? What's wrong with you, you keep saying 'I'm sorry' to me?"

Jin Wu thumped the ground heavily, choked with sobs and said: "I failed to come...to save you. Obviously I just need to be faster...let the Tubu assassins follow you, and you won't die...you won't be treated like Hou Tianlou !"

He bit his lip and said for a while, "I have harmed many people, father and mother, and everyone in the Jin Mansion died because of me...but I..."

Zuo Sanniang watched him quietly and wept.After a long time, she smiled, "It's so strange, I'm a little happy to see you crying."

Hearing what she said, Jin Wu raised his head in a daze, the corners of his eyes still red.

"Is this the first time you cry for me?" Sanniang said, "I know now, it turns out that the Raksha in black who is not afraid of heaven, earth, and even death can cry."

Jin Wu said: "I am also a human being, and I will also be sad."

Zuo Sanniang tilted her head and pulled him up from the ground.She said softly, "But Fifth Brother, in my heart, you are an omnipotent god who can do anything. That's right, didn't I tell you before that I want you to obey me in three things?"

Only then did Jin Wu realize that this was indeed the case.In the Jin Mansion a long time ago, when the sky was covered with light snow, she sat in front of his sickbed, telling herself with bright eyes.She said that she would buy a lot of medicinal materials to fill the medicine cabinet in the house, and she would go to the town to eat glutinous osmanthus cake, but the third thing was delayed until now.

"What do you want me to do to you?" Jin Wu asked.

Sanniang smiled sweetly: "I want you to forget about me."

Jin Wu was stunned.

"Since you are leaving, don't worry about this place. Anyway, we will see you again when you are seventy or eighty." Sanniang puffed up her chest and said proudly, "By then, you and Xiao Yuan will both be gray-haired Old man, only I'm still a little girl, hee hee, it's my turn to laugh at you two."

She suddenly pushed hard on Jinwu's back and shouted.

"Goodbye, fifth brother! Let's meet again in a long, long time!"

This push seemed to push him away from the courtyard, and the whole person fell into the thick black mist.Jinwu looked back abruptly, only to see pear blossoms as ethereal as snow, and the sun was shining brightly.Under the transparent glazed wall, there seemed to be a group of people looking at him with smiles.Jinwu recognized the faces of his father and mother in it, and this short dream was the longest time he spent with them in ten years.

Jinwu gazed at the bright scene for a long time, until the empty steps were piled up with snow-white pear blossoms, then turned and stepped into the darkness.

This time, he never looked back.