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Xie Xinghe didn't sleep much for nearly two days, and when he got on the plane, he was not energetic and the air pressure was low.

Pei Yan looked at the bruises under his eyes, and said distressedly, "Why have I suffered from insomnia so badly these two days?"

Xie Xinghe didn't make a sound, just nestled into the seat, turned his head to his side, looking haggard.

Pei Yan pulled down his mask a little bit, "Honey, you're not in good shape, or stop following me."

Xie Xinghe lowered his eyes, pressed his hand to the middle armrest, then held his own hand on it, closed his eyes and ignored people.

Pei Yan clicked his tongue and squeezed his hand, "The temper is getting worse."

The words were obviously complaining, but there was no trace of blame in the tone, but there was also a hint of joy and doting.

Maybe it was because he used to catch up on sleep on the plane, but Xie Xinghe actually fell asleep after the plane took off, and he still held Pei Yan's hand the whole time.

The stewardess carefully looked at the two of them several times, then walked up to them and asked in a low voice, "Sir, do you need a blanket?"

Pei Yan made a silent gesture with the other hand, hesitated for a moment or shook his head, Xie Xinghe was dressed a lot, so he shouldn't be cold, and covering him with a blanket would easily wake him up.

After the stewardess left, Pei Yan turned his head to look again. Xie Xing and his eyes were moving, obviously not sleeping soundly.

Pei Yan didn't dare to move, until Xie Xinghe fell asleep a little, then slowly leaned back on the back of the chair, twisted his neck and stared at his sleeping profile.

He is familiar enough with Xie Xinghe that even if the mask covers half of his face, he can naturally figure out what the face under the mask should look like.

Many people will open their mouths slightly when they sleep, but Xie Xinghe is just the opposite. His lips will be tightly closed, and it feels like he is also exerting force in his sleep, and he has not drank water for a long time. His lips should be closed now. Some dry.

Pei Yan stared blankly for a while, then set his gaze on his eyes again. He used to think that Xie Xinghe was docile only when he closed his eyes and went to sleep, but now he wanted to find the past from his demeanor when he was asleep. shadow.

Pei Yan silently said Xie Xinghe's name several times in his heart, and finally thought very helplessly, little ancestor, did you really give me ecstasy soup, otherwise I would be willing to be played around by you.

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After landing, Pei Yan was going to take someone to a meeting. Xie Xinghe originally wanted to go with him, but he really suffered from a severe headache. Pei Yan asked him to go to the hotel to rest first, but he was worried and left the assistant to him.

The assistant followed Xie Xinghe into the room, and Xie Xinghe fell directly on the sofa with an ugly expression.

The assistant has only been Pei Yan's assistant, and Pei Yan often assigns him work and rarely takes care of him personally, so he can only stand at one side at a loss and say softly: "Mr. Xie, let me help you to bed, can you Get comfortable."

Xie Xinghe closed his eyes and remained motionless, "No, you... go out first."

The assistant didn't move, "Mr. Pei asked me to take good care of you. Do you need medicine now? I'll get it for you."

"Um……"

Xie Xinghe didn't say a word after taking the medicine, cold sweat broke out on his back and forehead, he could only hold his hand tightly.

During the period, Pei Yan sent some messages to his assistant asking about Xie Xinghe's situation, but the assistant could only reply that Mr. Xie was resting with his eyes closed.

When it was time for dinner, Pei Yan couldn't come back because of the dinner, so he told him to let the hotel prepare dinner, but Xie Xinghe didn't have the slightest intention to eat.

Pei Yan could only helplessly talk to his assistant, "Let Xinghe answer."

The assistant lowered his voice, "Mr. Xie has kept his eyes closed and hasn't moved..."

"He didn't sleep," Pei Yan said, "Just let him pick it up."

The assistant handed the phone to Xie Xinghe. Xie Xinghe opened his eyes and reached out to pick it up. He cleared his throat and said, "It's okay..."

The assistant couldn't hear what Pei Yan said, but could only see that Xie Xinghe kept responding.

"okay……"

"Yeah. I know……"

"It really doesn't hurt much."

"Well, don't drink too much."

"No……"

"it is good."

Xie Xinghe hung up the phone and returned the phone to him. The assistant froze for a moment, touched the sweat on the back of the phone case, and realized that it seemed to be the cold sweat from Xie Xinghe's palm.

Xie Xinghe lowered his voice, "Let's eat."

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When Pei Yan found a way to get back, Xie Xinghe seemed to be fine. He hugged Pei Yan and smelled it, and said with a frown, "What do they smell like?"

Pei Yan smiled and pushed him away, "I know it doesn't smell good, wait until I take a shower."

Xie Xinghe sat on the bed and waited for him. Pei Yan's hair was shorter and came out after washing without blowing it.

He hugged Xie Xinghe, who was playing Landlords with his head down, into his arms, rubbed the back of his head, "Are you really all right?"

"Well," Xie Xinghe looked up after playing the cards, "I just miss you a little bit."

Pei Yan looked into Xie Xinghe's eyes, and felt his heart melt for a moment. He was only willing to pretend to be the only one in these beautiful eyes.

He suddenly thought very greedily, Xie Xinghe, who is so obedient now, is also very good, can he want both.

Xie Xinghe was obviously waiting for his kiss. Pei Yan bent down and heard Xie Xinghe say, "Brother Yan."

Pei Yan stopped his movements, and after a few seconds, he pressed his lips lightly again, and said affectionately, "Well, what's the matter?"

Xie Xinghe asked softly: "What were you thinking just now?"

Pei Yan became stiff for a moment, panic flashed through his mind, as if someone had seen through the greedy delusion in his heart.

But it took only a moment for him to return to normal, and he said calmly, "I want to kiss you, what else can I think about..."

He directly kissed Xie Xinghe's lips, sticking out the tip of his tongue, for fear that he would ask any more questions.

After a while, Xie Xinghe stroked his wet hair and offered to say, "Dry your hair for you."

"No, I'll do it right away," Pei Yan said, "I'll give you a massage. You must be feeling uncomfortable, so don't tell me."

He asked Xie Xinghe to lie on his lap, and massaged his scalp. Xie Xinghe closed his eyes and said, "It's basically fine. I'm used to the little pain left."

Pei Yan sighed, "Xinghe, you don't need to do anything now, don't think about so many things every day, just relax."

Xie Xinghe said softly, "Boss Pei raised me, what do I need to think about? I don't need anything, at most I can think about how to make Boss Pei love me more..."

Pei Yan smiled softly, pinched his nose, "You don't even have to think about this, Mr. Pei already loves you to death."

"Really," Xie Xinghe kept his eyes closed, his tone became lighter and lighter, as if he was about to fall asleep, "Mr. Pei loves me so much?"

"That's right, it's not like you can't feel it, and you're still acting good when you get a bargain."

"Then Boss Pei loves the me before or the me now?"

What should come is still coming, Pei Yan knew he couldn't avoid it, but Xie Xinghe asked the most deadly question in the most relaxed tone, which caught Pei Yan off guard, and many thoughts turned in his mind.

The whole room was terribly silent for a moment, Pei Yan could only clear his throat first, and said with a smile: "Honey, why do you always ask some strange questions recently..."

Xie Xinghe didn't respond, and didn't answer his words. Pei Yan fell silent. Even if Xie Xinghe closed his eyes, he didn't dare to look over and could only look at the corner of the bed.

After a while, he said thoughtfully: "Actually, you haven't changed much from before. I loved you in the past, and I love you in the present."

This answer was perfect, Pei Yan was secretly relieved, Xie Xinghe still kept his eyes closed, but suddenly asked: "Then why do you want to watch my previous videos?"

Pei Yan couldn't come up with a perfect answer, because he didn't want to lie to Xie Xinghe again. He lowered his eyes and looked at his lover sadly. He had already prepared in silence that Xie Xinghe might explode.

Xie Xinghe slowly opened his eyes, but his eyes were extremely calm.

Pei Yan didn't know if this was the harbinger of the coming storm, he stretched out his hand to caress Xie Xinghe's face, and said with great difficulty, "Xinghe...I..."

"You still love him more." Xie Xinghe said affirmatively.

Pei Yan felt that his heart was forcibly broken in two, and his internal organs were in severe pain. He trembled with guilt that he didn't even want to admit: "I love you very much, Xinghe, you believe me, I really really love you."

He has no way to refute Xie Xinghe's words, he can only keep repeating his love, not only to Xie Xinghe, but also to himself.

Xie Xinghe stared at him right and wrong, Pei Yan forced himself to look at him, the distress and guilt in his eyes almost overflowed.

Xie Xinghe sat up, turned his back to him, and said in a tone of no emotion, "Didn't you want me to be good?"

"Didn't you tell me not to go crazy?"

"Don't you want me to become a normal person?"

"Don't you like me the way I am now?"

Every calm question was like a sharp knife piercing Pei Yan's heart, piercing his heart full of holes and dripping with blood.

Pei Yan looked at Xie Xinghe's back, his lips trembled but he couldn't make a sound, Xie Xinghe turned around, his face was blank, "Pei Yan, why don't you like me anymore?"

Pei Yan's eyes became more and more red, and he knelt and moved in front of Xie Xinghe, hugged him tightly, and said brokenly: "Xinghe, I beg you, stop talking, it's all my fault, it's my fault , don't say any more..."

Xie Xinghe didn't resist, and let him hold him like a puppet.

Pei Yan's voice became hoarse, "I don't like it, no, I love you very much, Xie Xing and I love you very much, please don't think about me like that..."

Pei Yan was speechless, his throat seemed to be clogged with a ball of cotton soaked in water, he could only keep exerting force, tightening his arms, and holding Xie Xinghe firmly in his arms, his body kept moving trembling.

Xie Xinghe suddenly tilted his head and kissed him, on his earring.

Pei Yan's whole body froze, and the next second he grabbed Xie Xinghe's shoulder in ecstasy, looked at him and said, "Xinghe, you believe me, right? I really love you, really..."

"I believe it." Xie Xinghe said softly.

Pei Yan looked into his eyes in a speechless manner, and tears flowed down from the corners of his eyes. Xie Xinghe raised his hand and gently wiped his tears away, "Okay, stop crying, Brother Yan."

Pei Yan hugged him again, even harder than before. He pressed his eyes on Xie Xinghe's shoulders. At first, he still wept silently, but then it turned into crying bitterly.

Xie Xinghe kept stroking his ups and downs. After a long time, Pei Yan calmed down, sniffed and said, "This may be the most embarrassing moment in my life..."

Xie Xinghe actually smiled, "It doesn't matter if I see it."

"Hmm..." Pei Yan nodded muffled, "It's okay."

He cried so hard just now that his voice was already hoarse, and his nasal voice was too heavy.

Xie Xing and Wen Sheng whispered in his ears: "Hey, don't cry anymore, your eyes will be swollen and your voice will be hoarse tomorrow, how can you still work?"

Pei Yan buried his head for a while, finally straightened up, and smiled at Xie Xinghe, "I'm going to wash my face."

Xie Xing sat alone in the middle of the big bed, feeling dazed. He raised his hand and pressed it to his heart, as if it wasn't as painful or sad as he imagined.

When Pei Yan came back, his nose was still a little red, and there was no trace of crying at all. He gently pulled Xie Xinghe into his arms, kissed the top of his hair, "Baby, don't think about it, I will always love you .”

"You miss him very much." Xie Xinghe said softly.

Enduring the severe pain in his heart that could not be ignored, Pei Yan bent down and looked into his eyes and said, "Xinghe, you are the same person now as you were before, and I love everything about you, so I will still love you as you were before, but The past is the past, it’s all gone, whether you have any memories of the past, I love you very much now, I love you very much, I can’t lose you, can you understand?”

"I remember," Xie Xinghe lowered his eyes and stopped looking at him, "Actually... I have already remembered everything related to you."

Pei Yan didn't know how to describe his current mood. He was filled with grief and joy, and all the hard work in his heart collapsed, making him speechless again, and even felt like crying.

Xie Xinghe took the initiative to wrap his arms around his waist, with his face pressed against his stomach, in a very dependent position.

Pei Yan didn't bother to question why he was lying, he touched the back of Xie Xinghe's neck, his Adam's apple twitched, and it took him a long time before he whispered, "Then you...why is your character..."

"I don't know," Xie Xinghe's voice unknowingly cooled down, it was exactly the same as before, "Maybe I want you to like it more."

"So...you don't have a dual personality?" This is what Pei Yan can think of to explain Xie Xing and his abnormal state.

"I don't know." Xie Xinghe said.

Pei Yan also noticed the change in Xie Xinghe's voice. His heartbeat accelerated uncontrollably. He suppressed the joy in his heart and called out cautiously: "Xie Xinghe."

Xie Xinghe raised his head, met Pei Yan's eyes, and watched Pei Yan's eyes change from calm to surprise, and finally almost ecstatic.

Xie Xinghe blinked blankly, and Pei Yan kissed him on the forehead, "Xie Xinghe!"

Xie Xinghe frowned, his tone was no longer so gentle, "What's wrong with you?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he himself was stunned, and he realized the change in himself belatedly. Pei Yan didn't give him time to think, and couldn't wait to kiss her.

He pushed Xie Xinghe down on the bed, and the weight of the two of them smashed the mattress into a sunken shape. Pei Yan almost brutally pried open Xie Xinghe's jaws, bumping and stirring in his mouth.

Xie Xinghe's brain hadn't reacted yet, but he still fought back instinctively. He turned over hard, pressed Pei Yan under him, changed from passive to active, and sucked Pei Yan's lips fiercely.

Pei Yan couldn't help the smile on the corner of his mouth when kissing, he willingly and even excitedly gave up the attack, and indulged Xie Xinghe to kiss him like crazy.

He was almost laughing out loud with joy.

After a long time, their lips parted, and the two gasped and stared at each other, Xie Xinghe's eyes still had the ferocity of the kiss just now, while Pei Yan's eyes were full of smiles.

Xie Xinghe sneered, touched his face and said, "So happy?"

Pei Yan only felt that he experienced countless feelings at this moment. He never knew that he could be so hypocritical.

His eyes were red again without him noticing, Xie Xinghe lowered his head and kissed his eyes, with a low and gentle voice, "Honey, I shouldn't have a dual personality, I'm fine, don't cry."

Pei Yan had already lost someone once, and now he just smashed the jar, put his arms around Xie Xinghe's neck tightly, and said with a sob: "I'll be fucked to death by you sooner or later..."

Xie Xinghe kept patting him on the back, and gently shook him like coaxing a child, "I'm sorry..."

"Don't fucking say sorry," Pei Yan interrupted him, "Hold tight."

Xie Xinghe used [-]% of his strength to hug him, and the two of them pressed tightly together, as if they wanted to put each other into their bodies.

This feeling of being held breathlessly by Xie Xinghe is so good, Pei Yan thought.