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The story of "Blind Mind" is set in a second-tier city in the south. Chen Xiaoxiao, an orphan who was born blind, picked up a gangster Xiang Feifan covered in blood outside his house one day. He hid him in his relief room and carefully Take care, in order to avoid enemies, Xiang Feifei can only live in Chen Xiaoxiao's room to recuperate even if he is unwilling.When his injury gradually improved, the two ignorant teenagers also slowly sparked the spark of love while getting along.

That year Chen Xiaoxiao was 19 years old and Xiang Feifan was 17 years old.One is a blind man who no one cares about, and the other is a punk who is looked down upon by others. There have never been people who really value each other in their lives.

After tasting the forbidden fruit for the first time, Xiang Feifei almost believed that Chen Xiaoxiao was his salvation in this life.

At that time, he held Chen Xiaoxiao in his arms, his chest filled with infinite tenderness: From now on, I will be your eyes.

To the Extraordinary lives up to his name, yearning for the Extraordinary all his life.He hates that he was born in a poor family, dropped out of junior high school, and can only live a life of no fixed place with the second class in society.Chen Xiaoxin felt sorry for him and gave him all his savings for him to go back to school. Xiang Feifan also relied on his ruthlessness to skip two grades after entering high school, and finally successfully passed the university of his choice.

As Xiang Feifei entered the university, the life trajectory of the two also changed drastically.

Chen Xiaoxiao is slow, guarding his old house and living an ordinary life day after day.

Xiang Feifei is fast. He has devoted himself to studying various small businesses since he was a student, and he has opened a studio with his classmates before he graduated.Two years after graduating from university, Xiang Fei's small manufacturing company has seized 1/10 of the local market share.

At the same time, he returned less and less to Chen Xiaoxiao's dilapidated and small relief house.

At the age of 28, Xiang Feifei successfully bought a house locally. He took Chen Xiaoxiao to live at home, but he only said that this person was his distant cousin.

Going forward in time, Xiang Feifan was 33 years old. At that year, he had already achieved a successful career. He was engaged to the daughter of a local real estate owner.

That year, he celebrated Chen Xiaoxiao's 35th birthday. After the meal, he sent her back to the door of the cheap relief house and said, "Wait, I'll buy a pack of cigarettes."

——Since then, there has been no turning back.

There are three separations in the movie.The first one was that Xiang Feifan planned to leave after recovering from his injury. He used the excuse that he was addicted to cigarettes, so he went to buy a pack of cigarettes with Chen Xiaoxiao and asked him to wait at the door.As a result, within two steps, he heard footsteps behind him, and Chen Xiaoxiao followed step by step with his blind cane.

Xiang Feifan's heart moved, he suddenly refused to give up, turned around and hugged Chen Xiaoxiao, and said with a smile: "Fool, you are still afraid that I will not be able to escape."

The second time was that Chen Xiaoxiao had already moved into Xiang Feifan's house, and Xiang Feifei brought his lover back at night. Chen Xiaoxiao ordered two bowls of noodles, and he and his lover ate one bowl each.Chen Xiaoxiao said, "I haven't eaten dinner yet" when she was about to put away the bowl. Signaling to his lover to stop talking, he said to Chen Xiaoxiao, "I'm so hungry, I couldn't hold back and ate two bowls."

Chen Xiaoxiao fumbled back to her room, packed her luggage and left the next day.He had already smelled the stranger in the room, but Xiang Feifan lied to him as a matter of course.

The third time was also the end of the movie, as if time and space were reversed. The 17-year-old Xiang Feifan said to him, "You wait, I will buy a pack of cigarettes." The 35-year-old Chen Xiaoxiao stopped in place, as if doing Had a long dream.

The car whistled sharply, and he woke up suddenly. He threw his blind stick and ran forward recklessly, knocking on obstacles along the way and smashing his head. 17-year-old Xiang Feihui turned around and hugged him. , but 33-year-old Xiang Feifan will never come to him again.

Chen Xiaoxiao stopped in a daze, and suddenly knelt down and cried loudly.The love he had when he was young was no match for the tricks of reality. He should have known earlier that the man he loved was gone.

At the end of the movie, there is a monologue by Xiang Feifan.

"When I love you, sensitive, paranoid, neurotic, all are lovely."

"I don't love you anymore, everything about you is unbearable."

"You used to be my salvation, but now you have become my burden."

"I just chose to get rid of the burden and live a normal life."

Director Huang Chi wrote in the biography of the extraordinary characters that blindness is not terrible, but what is terrible is taking the blindness of the heart for granted and losing the original goodness.

The story of the movie follows the growth history of Xiang Feifan, who is also the absolute protagonist of this work.But basically everyone who has read the script will think that the role of Chen Xiaoxiao is more attractive.Xiang extraordinary yearns for the extraordinary, but in the end he chooses to compromise with reality and return to the ordinary.While Chen Xiaoxiao seems sensitive, lonely and fragile, but she has a stubbornness and stubbornness that does not hit the south wall and does not look back.What's more, he is blind, which is more challenging to act.

No need to ask, Li Ruijing must have taken a fancy to the role of Chen Xiaoxiao.But after the banquet last night, Chen Yi found that director Xiao Huang is quite difficult to deal with. It doesn't matter if you add some insignificant roles to him. Investment will definitely not agree.

This kind of LGBT theme is easy to win awards, but it also has inherent barriers to entry. It is estimated that it will be difficult to have both word-of-mouth and box office.Judging from the current situation, well-known actors are unwilling to cooperate with unknown directors, and popular traffic is more taboo to act in gay films, so Xiang Feifan and Chen Xiaoxiao's choice of actors has been narrowed down again and again.Chen Yi recommended Li Ruijing to audition. Of course everyone is happy after the audition, but it is guaranteed that he can also act as an extraordinary lover.

The audition for "Heart Blind" was scheduled for five days later. In order to fully prepare for this role, Li Ruijing put off all unnecessary work, and even the abortion operation took until the second day after the audition.Chen Yi sent people away on the front foot, and found a new love on the back foot, and went to the cruise ship party for a week.

Li Ruijing returned to the rental house. In order to better experience the life of the blind, he pulled up all the blackout curtains in the room, turned off the lights in the room for 24 hours, and even carried out daily life with blindfolds.

On the first day when he was visually deprived, he had a terrible time. When he walked around, he was hit by the corners of the table and stools, and when he was looking for things on the table, it was difficult to judge the original position of the objects from memory.When receiving water every day, he was scalded by hot water several times before he could barely control the distance between the cup and the water dispenser.Another time when he tripped over an electric wire, he flung himself onto the sofa uncontrollably. If he hadn't protected his stomach reflexively, he didn't know what would have happened.

Li Ruijing was a little nervous after realizing it. The next day, he cleaned up all kinds of plugged wires on the ground, and installed anti-collision corner protectors at the corners of the table to prevent his stomach from being touched by these sharp things.Through this incident, he also realized that the living environment of blind people is far more difficult than he imagined, and a blind person cannot live independently without being cared for.

Before Chen Xiaoxiao and Xiang Feifei got together, he was an indifferent and withdrawn individual. For 19 years, he was used to being alone.Later, an accident broke into his life domineeringly, saying that he wanted to be his eyes.The solitary snail carefully stretched out its tentacles, and delivered the softest part of its body to the man.But after Chen Xiaoxiao completely relied on those "eyes", Xiang Feifei got tired of it.How desperate would a sensitive person like Chen Xiaoxiao be when he found out that Xiang Feifei no longer loved him that much?

Li Ruijing lay in the dark, trying to feel Chen Xiaoxiao's state of mind when Xiang Feifei left at the last moment of the script.He discovered early on that he seemed to be lacking in love. After all, he has been busy with his livelihood since he was sensible. Others' adolescence was gags and love affairs, while his adolescence was endless odd jobs. In his seemingly "rich" life experience, There is no experience that can be called "falling in love", so it is difficult to empathize with Chen Xiaoxiao's heart-wrenching moment.

But just like an actor who plays a murder/person/criminal doesn’t need to personally kill/person, and an actor who plays a lovelorn doesn’t have to let Chen Yi dump himself right now. The emotions of loss, departure, and failure are common. All an actor can do is capture that moment The subtle feelings are infinitely magnified.His body sank continuously in the turbulent thoughts, as if falling into an abyss, the deep tide swept in, enveloping his cold body, surrounded by darkness and boundless emptiness that covered the sky and the sun.All the senses were magnified to the extreme, Li Ruijing slowly felt a slow dull pain in his chest, he gasped unconsciously, and subconsciously curled up to resist the suffocating pain spreading in his body.

It was a very weak movement, and he didn't even have time to distinguish it, it was as fast as an illusion.But in an instant, the tower of depression fell apart, and all negative emotions were withdrawn at this moment. Li Ruijing touched his abdomen with trembling hands... The frail, perhaps not yet fully formed baby gently pressed his palm.