grandfather's daughter-in-law

I dropped out of school, in the summer when I was about to enter the third year of junior high school.

When my mother was summoned to the school, I had the first opportunity to observe her aboveboard.She was so busy laying mud and grass for her golden birdcage that she had already forgotten about me, a young bird that fell off the cliff.

That day, she was wearing a white shirt with small lace and hand-embroidered patterns on it, which set off her graceful waist and full breasts.Below is a long skirt, which looks very tall.Wearing white high-heeled sandals on the feet, showing small toes.When she walked in, the white high-heeled sandals made a slight thud on the floor, as if she was trying to restrain herself, fearing that the loud noise would disturb others.Her long hair, which was permed in big waves, fell from her shoulders, and she flicked it lightly, with an indescribable style.Perhaps what the charm still exists is what she said.Compared with Xu Zhen's mother, who was wearing a large T-shirt and knee-length floral pants next to her, she was just like a mortal Nine-Heaven Profound Maid and a compassionate Virgin Mother. No wonder the principal's eyes wandered back and forth between the two and finally fell on on the mother.

The reason why I observed so carefully was because I was standing idly by while she was listening to the principal.Her face was slightly flushed because of embarrassment, and her upper body was slightly bowed, as if she was the one who did the wrong thing, and she was the one who asked for forgiveness, and I was just a bystander.

In fact, the matter did not need to alarm the parents so seriously, but it was a coincidence that I met a teacher who was exercising on the mountain that day.Xu Zhen hugged his broken leg and told him the fact that I hurt others.A boy of fifteen or sixteen was crying and accusing me, while still calling me a son of a bitch, so I sternly cut at him while Jiang, Fu Wei and that teacher were watching. The legs replaced the two feet.If he hadn't been transferred to the small gazebo by then, maybe I would have rolled down the hill with him in my arms.Later, Jiang sent me to the hospital for stitches and then left.She said I was horrible.The corners of his eyes were bleeding, his face was bright red, and his clothes were stained with blood, like a blood rakshasa from hell.I smiled, maybe I'm from hell.

"Student Ji Mingfeng's crime is very serious and hurts others. According to the school's regulations, in addition to being responsible for the other party's medical expenses, you have to be punished according to the severity of the circumstances. If the circumstances are serious, you will be expelled from school." The principal Lifting the heavy glasses, the small eyes stared at the mother closely from behind the lenses, licked his lips unnaturally, and added: "You know, parents are very worried about the safety of their children, and I I heard that Ji Mingfeng has been a bit surly since she was a child, and some parents are worried that this will affect the safety of their children."

I couldn't help sneering, I think I won't be able to wash this shit bowl in my life.

"The child is still young and not sensible, principal, please give her a chance." The mother bowed and begged.

"Staying in school may have a bad influence on other students." The principal raised his glasses in embarrassment, his small eyes shining brightly.He licked his lips unnaturally again.He only said two words!

I felt an unknown anger in my heart. To this pious man, he kept saying that he was good for the students, but what did he do that was really good for the students.Those artful corporal punishments, those euphemistic tricks, which one is not hypocritical and artificial, it is simply useless to be a teacher; there is also my mother, who seeks perfection for power, and is good for people in the world; A slovenly woman in the market, if she agrees to reconcile, how can she speak up.But there is nothing I can do.I don't know where the courage came from, and I opened my mouth and replied, "You don't have to be sorry." I pushed my mother away and ran out.

Mother was stunned for a while, and then she complained secretly and chased after her.The sun outside is bright and dazzling.The sound of reading aloud came from my ears.I have stayed in this place for nearly two years, and now that I am about to leave, I suddenly feel a sense of reluctance.I leaned on the railing, looking out at the bright blue sky.

My mother thought I was going to do something stupid, so she scolded angrily, "You're crazy!"

But she dared not go in.I look back at her, this woman, my mother.Standing in the shadow of the corridor, she exuded a soft light against the bright sunlight outside.I can clearly see her face, her eyes, her lips, and her pink and translucent ears.This woman, she gave birth to me and raised me.

"Come down now!" she ordered.

"Student Ji Mingfeng, we still have room to discuss your question." The principal stood beside his mother and explained.

snort!I smiled lightly. People say that the soft is afraid of the hard, and the hard is afraid of death. It is true what I said.I know that he is just concerned about the school's reputation. If some students really jump off the building here, it will damage the school's reputation, affect the school's enrollment rate, and affect his status.So you see, no matter whether you advance or retreat, people always put their own interests first.

I retracted my gaze and looked at the bright sunshine everywhere.The jumping sunlight casts little halos on the ground, like naughty elves dancing.I closed my eyes, slowly swallowed the breath of sunlight into my lungs, circulated it in a circle, and then spit it out gently.I don't know what kind of story will happen this summer, how many people can witness its arrival, and how many people leave on the road of waiting.Death may not be scary, what is really scary is the slow and long process in the middle.

Downstairs gathered some troublemakers, looking up at everything upstairs with inquiring eyes.Today's death may be just a joke tomorrow, and how many people really care about it.It was really funny to think about it, so I laughed.I lowered my head and saw Jiang among the crowd.

She was still so quiet, a few people away from the people next to her, standing so alone, like a weak flower standing against the wind.She raised her head slightly, her straight hair brushed past her ears, revealing her pink ears.Such a long distance, in fact, I can't see it, but I have long been familiar with it.Until that moment, I couldn't figure out whether I loved her or not.I am only 15 years old, with a young, restless, strange and restless heart, I can't talk about such a deep word of love.I raised my hand to touch the upper corner of my eye, where the three stitches had not been removed, it felt a little prickly, but it didn't hurt.I remembered Jiang saying that I was like a bloody Rakshasa from hell, and I smiled again.Probably true.But I don't want to go back there, I don't want to do stupid things, I just want to get a closer look at what freedom looks like.

I got off the railing, and my mother grabbed my arm tightly and half pulled and half dragged me back home.The new house in the town has been completed, and it is very different from the original home.That small village, named Belai, is my home.I was poor and rich in that backwater.My luxurious house is a gift from my father; my beautiful face is a gift from my mother.And this home, with bright and clean windows, lived in my unclean mother and my unknown secret.Standing in front of the big mirror in the bathroom, I felt very tired, my chest seemed to be pressed down by a thousand catties of rocks, and I was almost overwhelmed.I suddenly hate it!I hate everything here, I hate my mother, and I hate myself even more!I hate why I am a woman, why should I fall in love with a woman of the same gender as me!I hate how I grew up to be such a freak!

Yes, I am a freak.A freak who likes women.

If I wasn't a freak, I wouldn't approach Jiang Caiwei, I wouldn't be afraid of losing her and promise Xu Zhen that we wouldn't travel, wouldn't see that scene, and I wouldn't hurt him.All this, just because I'm a freak who likes women.Now that even the little false light that once appeared in my life has dimmed, there is no hope for life.To be alive is to relive the suffering of Avici Hell day after day.The culprit is me, my freak.

I tore open the front of the uniform, revealing the white bodice.The cloth, because I was afraid of falling off, afraid of being seen, afraid of not being tight enough, afraid of not being effective, I spent a long time tying it every day, tied it into a knot, and finally tied myself to death.I tried desperately to untie it, but the strap remained motionless as if deliberately against me.I looked up and caught a glimpse of my distorted face. My anger finally made me grab something on the stage and slam it into the mirror. There was a crisp sound, and glass shards splashed everywhere.

My mother came over in response, and was shocked by the bright shards and the glass in my hand.

"What are you doing?" she yelled at me.

I just mechanically cut the white cloth on my chest one by one.It wrapped tightly around my chest, strangling me so hard I couldn't breathe, strangling me almost to suffocate.

"You're crazy!" My mother snatched the piece of glass from my hand, and the sharp edge cut her hand, and the bright red blood dripped onto the floor, like a blooming flower.

"Go away! It's all because of you!" I growled loudly, and pushed her away. My thin body had no strength, and instead, I bumped my elbows on the vanity table full of debris.

"Crack!" A crisp sound rang in my ears. "Are you crazy enough!" Mother roared back even louder.

Strangely, there was no burning pain on the face, but it was warm and sticky.I stared at her blankly, because there was a roar in my ears with that crisp sound.Her mouth was trembling angrily, like a dying fish in a rut, jumping uneasily, looking for a chance of survival.I don't know what I was thinking, and my lips just moved together like that.Her breath has a faint fragrance, and her lips are as soft as petals, exuding a strong floral fragrance.

Mother was stunned for a while before remembering to push me away. She even forgot to reprimand, and just leaned weakly on the door panel, looking at her strange daughter.

I also stared at her blankly, and it took me a long time to realize what I had done.I think I must be crazy, I actually...belittled my mother.I stroked my lips, which seemed to still carry the temperature of my mother's mouth, which scalded my hands.I stumbled out the door.In that night, I finally moved towards another starting point in my life.

[2]Youth seems to start because I love you