grandfather's daughter-in-law

This incident is like a weird thread, connecting me with Jiang Caiwei.We didn't speak, but made more eye contact.Then one day when I was reviewing the math test papers, I got the test papers of her group, and naturally took out her test papers from the pile of test papers, and quietly corrected all the wrong questions.I did it so naturally, as if it had been planned for a long time.When she got the test paper, she looked back at me in shock but naturally, and I smiled back, like a good friend with a good heart.

Then one day we naturally stood together and started talking.She called me Mingfeng, and she was holding a half-eaten lunch box in her hand.I couldn't stop the corners of my mouth from flying upwards.

After a few pleasantries, she carefully checked her surroundings before asking in a low voice, "Did you make my test paper?"

I nodded slightly.She lightly slapped me on the arm, half offending and praising, "How dare you, if you are caught, you will be severely punished."

"I know," I smiled, "Don't worry, I will try my best to imitate your handwriting, so I won't be found out." I was careful, as if I did something bad and didn't want to implicate her.At that time, I finally realized that I seemed to have planned it for a long time.

She lowered her head and nodded lightly, as if agreeing, but didn't say anything.Straight hair hung from her ears, swaying with her movements.I seemed to smell a faint fragrance in the air, and I was a little carried away.I followed the fragrance and approached her hairline, "Next time you don't know how to do it, I'll make it easier for you."

A blush suddenly rose on her face, but she didn't know whether it was because of the sudden approach, or because of the embarrassment of not being good at learning, she just pressed her soft and rosy lips tightly, as if she had made up her mind, and said: "Then I will make up my mind." Do you want to help you correct your test paper the first time you get it?"

I don't expect anything in return for someone's contribution, not to mention that I was originally repaying her, so I said grandly: "No need, I can pass most of the exams."

She let out a long breath as if she had received an amnesty, "If I were really asked to do this, I wouldn't really dare."

I nodded in understanding, such a well-behaved girl must have lived under the careful care of her parents since she was a child, how dare she do such a rebellious thing.

After that, we became very good friends.In order to reduce the number of beatings, we started doing homework together.Later, because the amount of test questions was too large, we plagiarized and cheated each other.I started to become a regular visitor to Jiang's house.By cutting the test questions in half, we have extra time.Jiang would happily play the piano for me.In Jiang's room, there is a shiny piano.Her hands are beautiful, with white and smooth skin, long knuckles, pink nails, and a curved crescent on them.Her hands danced on those black and white keys, and the lively notes floated in the room.

Sometimes Jiang's mother would grind a cup of fragrant coffee for us, and would smile dotingly while watching Jiang hold my hand and teach me how to play the piano. She would praise me for being beautiful and smart, and joke that I was like her second daughter.I think I have fallen madly in love with everything about the Jiang family, not because of their wealth, but because here, I have experienced the dignity of being a human being.Jiang's father and Jiang's mother treated me as a guest and respected my preferences.In this small town, I don't know if the Jiang family knows about my family and my mother. I never mentioned it, and they never asked.This kind of life lasted until [-], when our country fell to the second.

It was a sweltering summer, and we were faced with the pressure of class placement again. The tense study atmosphere made everyone grumpy, and it was as if their bodies were covered with dynamite, which would explode if they were not careful.After the morning exam, Jiang mysteriously dragged me out of the corridor.

The sun was shining brightly, making Jiang's soft lips glisten.Jiang Deluo became even more charming.Perhaps I was infected by her, and my heart also jumped for joy.

"What's so mysterious?" I asked.

"Shh!" Jiang nervously raised his middle finger to his lips, and then looked around mysteriously, "Don't let others see. I didn't tell my mother about this."

Hearing her words, I felt a sweetness in my heart - I was sharing a secret that even Jiang's mother didn't know!It turned out that I held such a heavy weight in Jiang's heart.I hurriedly asked again: "What's the matter?"

Jiang smiled sweetly, and gently pulled out a letter paper folded into a heart shape from the pocket of his uniform, and handed it to me, "I'll show you!"

I took the letter paper, and a faint fragrance rushed into my nostrils. It could be seen that it was carefully folded along the original line after being torn apart.I opened it carefully, and against the backdrop of pink, red hearts were flying.

"How is it? He is a boy in the upper class. He is white and clean. He is not very tall, but he is very handsome. I often meet him after school. Yesterday he suddenly ran over and handed this letter to me. I was very nervous It's about to pop out of your mouth."

love letter?This was my first reaction. The blood rushed to my head, and I completely lost the ability to think.I held the paper tightly, only feeling my slightly trembling hands.

"I'm telling you secretly. In fact, I've been paying attention to him for a long time. I dreamed about him last night. Don't tell others. I didn't expect him to write a love letter to me." Jiang has been immersed in the joy of happiness, chattering endlessly. Talk about him with a smile.

"Didn't you say that you hate those boys? They are dirty and smelly. Their socks have not been washed for several days. After playing, they are full of sweat. When they take off their shoes, they smell like feet." I counted Seeing the faults of the male classmates that Jiang used to sneer at.

"That's someone else, not him. He is very clean, his school uniform is ironed every day, and although his leather shoes are the same style, I can see that he wears them differently every day." She disagreed He waved his hand, just like that.She also observed so carefully that she even noticed the leather shoes he wore every day.

"What do you think?" Jiang looked at me expectantly.

"We are only 14 years old, we are still young, we should focus on our studies, and the school also stipulates that puppy love is not allowed."

"But don't you think it's good? After class, two people can go to self-study together, and it will be more motivated. You know, I can't learn at all, and I can't always rely on you to cheat."

"It's not that you can't learn, you just didn't study hard. I can go to your house to help you review. We learn today..."

"He said he would wait for me in the library tonight." Jiang hurriedly interrupted me.

I remembered that I went out early and came back late every day just to go to school with her, and I studied until midnight every day just so that I could proudly answer her questions when she asked me. I studied so hard, like a peacock attracting females with high scores. The eyeballs of the peacock, and now, Jiang stripped off the proud feathers on my body with a single sentence, and I instantly changed from a beautiful peacock to a shrunken ostrich. I seemed to see myself standing aside with bruises and blood. , but Jiang didn't notice anything, and continued to ask, "What do you think I should write in my reply?"

"You want to reply?" I was surprised.

"Of course, why don't you come back?" Jiang looked at me innocently.

"Whatever you want." I coldly stuffed the letter into her hand, shrugged, and walked into the classroom meaninglessly.I think she must think that I am very inexplicable, but that is already the greatest grace I can make.

Throughout the afternoon, I watched her secretly, at her soft lips, her hair hanging straight down to her ears, her bright eyes, watching her touch the slightly bulging pocket of her uniform intentionally or unintentionally. , I know that she kept that letter there, the place closest to her heart.Such a happy smile has never appeared in the past two years, I think she is really in love.

I think of the time when we were lying in bed together, the afternoon sun came in from the window, warm and ambiguous.Looking at it from my perspective, Jiang's slightly raised breasts are small and firm, with a hazy and beautiful fruit core that has just taken shape.She played with those long and slender fingers, with small and slender knuckles, and her neatly manicured nails were still pink and pink, covered with a shallow crescent.She said that in the future she would marry a man who would wear a white shirt and have slender fingers.I thought of us walking home all the way with our shoulders hooked, and Jiang's small breasts would rub against my body from time to time, and the numb numbness, intentional or unintentional, made me forget it.At the end of the biography, those two people paid the bullet fee to the country and accepted the death penalty and the trial of the world.

So, am I really gay?

Maybe I realized this a long time ago, but I just let myself go.My constantly protruding breasts were covered with a cloth and I could not see the light. The curly pubic hairs on my lower body were gradually growing, like mung bean sprouts with stuffy hair in summer.In fact, I have been trying to cover up my identity as a woman, I have been trying to cover up the hazy love in my heart, yes, I knew it a long time ago, and I was forced to admit it until now.After a long period of time, that ignorant consciousness finally gradually showed a clear outline, and it grew into the appearance of claws and claws, grabbing, tearing, and gnawing at me.

I thought of Jiang again.What will she think of me?Are you avoiding me like the plague?

I don't care what other people think of me, only Jiang, this beautiful and soft woman, is what I care about in my heart.Will she poke me on the back like others and call me shameless, perverted, and goblin?Jiang didn't know my pain at all, she sat not far from me, went to class as if nothing had happened, her heart was full of happiness.

For several days, Jiang ignored me.She is completely immersed in the honeypot of love, and has long forgotten my good friend who is inseparable.Every day, I secretly watched her walk out of the campus with that boy, watched her secretly return love letters during get out of class time, and watched her face filled with the unique aura of love.I finally realized that I was going to lose her completely, or maybe, I never had her.But even if it is the most ordinary friend, how can I pretend to be indifferent if I return to a stranger one day.

A few days later, I apologized to her.It was a cloudless and sunny day, and we stood in the hallway where we had talked about our hearts countless times, and I said sorry to her.It turns out that love can really make a person humble enough to sink into the dust.

"I don't remember that incident anymore." Jiang replied nonchalantly, but hurt me again.I don't know if this is the step she gave me, or I was just so insignificant in her heart, but I still pretended to be happy, took her hand as before, and said, "Well, something unhappy Don’t forget, we’ll still be good friends in the future.”

"Well." Jiang Ying said, but after all, something was missing, just like a broken vase, no matter how tightly glued it is, it will leave cracks.Is the happiness that is just obtained through compromise, what I want again?