grandfather's daughter-in-law

Most people with strong sexual desire are not picky about their partner. The reason for their pickiness is probably their lack of sexual desire. So in order to cover up the lack of sexual desire, they have to use a reason to make up for it. This reason is called love.

I think I'm probably a person with a strong desire.

Because on that day, I actually had such a beautiful and real dream in the midst of illness, as if all the sexual desire cells in my body were awakened.How my hands longed to caress her perfect body and full breasts, how my lips longed to kiss her soft lips, her cheeks, her slender hands, every part of her body; and I How much he longed to be one with her and inherit the joy of fish and water.I even touched my private parts without shame, watching my body arouse imagining her pleasure.This has never happened in the past 17 years.I thought about this hidden feeling, and actually hid it for 17 years, it's really... cunning!I must be hopeless.I'm probably really a slutty woman.What's even more hopeless is that I was actually excited by such lewdness.But then I thought that as a woman, I didn't deserve happiness or sex.This made me extremely desperate.

I thought a lot in a trance, and then I had a half-night fever and that charming dream. The heavy body got up.I thought she must be at the training ground.She loves Gezai opera so much, I thought she would get up early, wave the spear in her hand awkwardly, and say good morning to me with two dimples in the corner of her mouth, just like the day before.

But no!Dozens of people bustling around, I looked one by one, but did not find her figure.The gap in my heart seemed to be torn open bit by bit.I thought she might be in the kitchen, and during the short few dozen steps from the training ground to the kitchen, every step I took was like stepping on a tear in my heart, and I walked with difficulty.Not in the kitchen either, I couldn't find her anywhere, she just disappeared out of nowhere, even Ding Jianguo disappeared.I was in a trance, as if I was in a dream, and my arm was scratched by my long gun while practicing.Bright red blood soaked my clothes.Ding Jianye exclaimed before calling my soul back.I watched quietly as the blood flowed down my arm into a dark trail.

"What are you doing!" He blamed slightly angrily.After that day, we hardly spoke again, and when we met we just smiled and expressed goodwill.

"It's okay." I said, "It doesn't hurt."

"It's all bleeding and you still say it's okay. Sit over there and I'll bandage it for you." He pulled me to sit next to me, and I let him pull me.He ran to the house to get the gauze and came back still complaining, "You are such a big person, why don't you know how to take good care of yourself."

The blood from the wound gradually stopped, and the blood stain at the far end became darker, like an earthworm sticking to the surface of the skin.Thinking of this, I was so sick that I retched.

Ding Jianye asked again: "What's wrong with you?"

"It's okay." I still said the same.He is such a person who will always only ask what's wrong with you, but never see how much pain you have.I also felt that I was really ridiculous. Regarding him, I was hoping that he would know something.It's none of his business at all.In the end, I still asked anxiously, "Axiu and the others, where did they go?"

He was taken aback, and said, "They went to the town to get a marriage certificate."

Yes, how could I forget about this.They were originally going to come back to get a marriage certificate, so why did I forget all about it.I heard that Ding Jianguo runs a building materials company in Taipei, and his business is thriving.She will be very happy after marriage.Which onion am I?I seemed to see the gap in my heart tear open a few more inches, and the pain made me gasp.I even forgot about Ding Jianye, I just turned around and left numbly.

I sat alone all day.Ding Yongchang went out to look for a show again.Except for the afternoon show, no one approached me.The blood on my arm was wiped off by me.The rest of the time, I just sit on top of the wooden box.I think of Yu Minxiu.I have known her for only three short days, three short and long days, my heart fluctuates from sadness to joy, ups and downs.When I see her, I will forget all my troubles, and when I don’t see her, I feel like the sky is falling, and she doesn’t know anything, even I don’t know.

In the evening, they came back with a big bag of things in their hands.I'm still sitting on top of the crate, my face still fresh from the afternoon show.The night show is about to start again.I didn't know how to greet her, should I smile as if nothing had happened, or be silent, or cry secretly, I just sat there quietly.

Wang Yugui asked where they went.

"Axiu said she wanted to go to the mountain to watch the sunset. I thought it was a sunny day, so I took her there. Do you remember, Mom, we passed by here when we were acting in a play, and there was a large carambola forest on the mountain. I didn't expect it to be there today. We picked a lot." Ding Jianguo said excitedly, and handed the carambola in the bag to Wang Yugui, "Grandma, try it."

Wang Yugui complained: "You, you are such an adult, you are still so playful, the mountain road is difficult, be careful to hurt Axiu."

Yu Minxiu hastily denied, "No, auntie, the mountain is quite fun, and the sunset seen is very different from Taipei. In Taipei, you can only see steel and concrete, which is not as refreshing and empty as on the mountain."

Wang Yugui smiled dotingly at her and said nothing more.What a harmonious family, the mother is kind and the son is filial, the mother-in-law and daughter-in-law are friendly, just like the old saying, if you are not a family, you will not enter a family.Unlike me, although Wang Yugui often dotes on me, I always feel that doting is too unreal.I often feel that if one day she knows everything and who I am, she will probably poke my finger in the back and scold me loudly like others.In the final analysis, I am still not good.

I picked up the paintbrush and traced the color of the face along the old marks one by one.Yu Minxiu took a carambola for me to eat.She is still thinking about my illness.My nose was a little sore when my heart was hot and cold.

"If you're sick, eat more fruit. It's good for your health. Try it. This carambola is not sour at all. I've eaten two." She put the carambola on the stage, and proudly raised two fingers.

Perhaps it was because she had just descended the mountain, a thin layer of blush appeared on her face, and there were fine beads of sweat on her forehead.What a happy and lively woman!What am I jealous of, and what am I praying for? Do I expect her to fall in love with me?Fall in love with me and endure this endless torment like I do?If you really love her, how can you bear her to endure such suffering?I feel so selfish.

Her lively and spiritual eyes blinked mischievously, and she seduced with a glutinous voice: "Try it, it's not bad."

The little carambola seemed ripe under the orange light.The peel is translucent, with traces of washing.I said softly: "Thank you, I will eat it later." She told me to try it before walking away, as if trying to share the joy of life with me.

Before I put on the lip gloss, I took a small bite and it was so sour, but I ate it in one bite.Carambola is probably the same as love, if you eat it with your loved one, no matter how sour it is, it is as sweet as honey, but if a third person eats it alone, there is nothing else but sourness.

In the later story, they returned to Taipei.I hid in the dark corner under the pillars and looked at her like the first time I saw her. I watched her greet everyone, saw her dragging a small suitcase, and watched her secretly look around in the crowd, as if looking for something. What.I wishfully thought that she might be waiting for me, but I didn't show up. Firstly, I was afraid that I would not be able to help crying, and secondly, I had some regrets. Maybe she would remember me longer.She is still wearing the blue deep V dress and delicate high-heeled sandals.Her skin glowed softly in the sun.Finally, she looked back, pulled the box and left with Ding Jianguo.

I don't know if I will have a chance to meet again in this life, and I don't dare to imagine what it will be like when we meet again.I just stood under the pillars for a long time, and looked away after their backs disappeared at the end of the road.Xiao Huang rubbed against my trouser legs and ran out, bouncing.With a heavy belly and a crippled leg that will never heal, it is about to be a mother in this miserable state.My eyes are full of sourness. A stray dog ​​will always be a stray dog. Even if I find a kind owner to take it in for a while, no matter what it does, one day its owner can no longer afford to support its paparazzi, and it will have to be abandoned again. , At that time, will its paparazzi blame it, and bring it into this world without its consent, and become a homeless stray dog?

I knelt down and touched its big belly, and asked it: "Xiao Huang, can we get rid of this baby?" However, it didn't understand after all, so it just licked its mouth and responded vaguely in its throat.

My tears fell down.