[Comprehensive] Misfortune

All the gifts, such as talent, luck, and good opportunities, are piled up at the judging table, just like the prizes placed on the stage when awards are awarded.The difference is that these gifts are not intended to reward one's efforts, but on the contrary, it is a reward for those who have not yet lived.This reward can determine their fate and be the source of their happiness or misfortune.

— Baudelaire, The Melancholy of Paris

When Sakurai Yuko said that she was the protagonist, the pain she had accumulated in the decades since she was born-the pain she should have felt and was tortured by it-all condensed into bile and rushed to her mouth, so bitter Makes her want to throw up.

When she learned that the red sand scorpion had killed Gaara, Sakurai Yuko's first reaction was that she should get angry with him.

How much she likes and misses Gaara, and the red sand scorpion actually killed her Gaara, of course she is going to be angry.

You have to teach Mr. Scorpion a lesson.

But Sakurai Yuko soon realized a more important problem.

There are many places in Sakata Gintoki's description that do not match her memory. The strangest thing is that Sakata Gintoki did not mention the existence of "Sakurai Tamako".

How can this be?

Why doesn't she exist in this manga?

Does Sakurai Yuko not exist?

The protagonist is Uzumaki-kun?

That Uzumaki-kun?

The Uzumaki Naruto who pushed her away?

Do not joke!

I was also in Konoha Village during the Chunin exam!

Where am I? !

Who in that world doesn't know "Sakurai Yuko"?If she is also a person who has traveled through time... no, the manga has been serialized for a long time, and even the red sand scorpion only appeared in this world after she died in the manga... just like her.

Sakurai Yuko, who realized this, was not so much calm as she was pulled out of her body during that time, putting all known information on the table like a machine, clearly It was clearly displayed in her reason.

Sakurai Yuko had a guess, which reminded her of the words of the god of death, gave her an epiphany, and made her qualified for "pain".

Under normal circumstances, such a thing as "enlightenment" would not happen to Sakurai Yuko, but it is obviously not the case now.

Death swung his scythe and exiled her.

——You are a creature rejected by this world.

Fear of beings stronger than oneself is a biological instinct, and Sakurai Yuko is not exempt from this.However, compared to Yoshida Shoyo, who was murderous towards her at the beginning, Sakurai Yuko's view of the legendary gods and monsters still stays on the "she is a more powerful existence than gods" that was instilled in her childhood.

After all, even the ruthless god of death is shaken by her, and even a powerful being like Yoshida Shoyo fears humans more than gods.

Isn't it natural for her to have this kind of cognition?

But what stands at the top of the pyramid is not the god who created human beings, let alone the weak and powerful human beings that Yoshida Shoyo said, but the whole world.

The so-called "world" is an existence stronger than gods and humans.

She can make gods captivate human beings, but she cannot conquer the world, because the existence of "Sakurai Yuko" is also a part of the world.

The "world" is a terrifying and powerful existence that Sakurai Yuko can't even see its whole picture. She exists in the "world", the humans she likes, the humans she hates, the humans she cherishes, and even the humans she kills They are all part of the "world".

Whether it's that person, Oizumi, Uzumaki Naruto, or even Gaara...they are all part of the "world".

Sakurai Yuko was rejected by the world, rejected by the world that she always thought was her own.

"Rejected by the world", means "rejected by everything".

Sakurai Yuko is only now realizing this.

She couldn't stand this, she couldn't accept this, she couldn't believe it.

She was so painful that she wanted to vomit, she insisted that she was the protagonist, and she firmly believed that her existence could not be denied and could not be erased...

"Hey! Yuzi! Are you okay?!"

Sakata Gintoki looked puzzled at Sakurai Yuko after she finished that inexplicable sentence, and then fell silent for two seconds, hugging her head and falling to the ground, uttering a hoarse and weak howl.

He stretched out his hand worriedly, wanting to hold the woman in his arms.

He didn't do it.

When Sakurai Yuko pushed Sakata Gin away, she raised her head, her face was ferocious, her eyes were filled with shattered madness, and the blood flowed continuously.

"Yuzi..."

Sakata Gintoki opened his eyes wide, staring at Sakurai Tamako in disbelief.

Sakurai Yuko didn't hear Sakata Gintoki's call, her remaining rationality prompted her to crawl to Katsura Kotaro's side and draw out the samurai sword from Katsura Kotaro's waist.

Every cell in Sakurai Yuko's body was clamoring "go back" frantically.

go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!go back!

go back!

go back! !

go back! ! !

I'm Yuko Sakurai!

That's my world!

I want to go back!

immediately!

immediately!

immediately!

How should I go back?

stupid question.

You can go back when you die.

The tip of the knife is out of the sheath, its sound is piercing, and its shape is like snow.

The white light reflected from the blade of the sword flashed across Sakurai Yuko's eyes, illuminating the ecstasy that sprouted in those red to black pupils.

immediately……

I can go back soon...

I……

I'm Yuko Sakurai...

I want to go back……

I……

The blood line is like a flower.

The blood is like dew.

Sakurai Yuko's pupils shrank suddenly, and the murderous intent was like the sky enveloped Katsura Kotaro.

"Let go!"

Gui Xiaotaro not only didn't let go, but even clenched even tighter.As if he couldn't feel the pain, he looked directly at Sakurai Yuko's dying eyes, his voice was lower and colder than usual, and his tone was not restrained like he should have.

"What are you doing?"

Sakurai Yuko was in a daze for a moment, and finally understood why she thought Katsura Kotaro's voice was so familiar before.

I love Lo...

Sakurai Yuko squeezed out a sob from her throat, she began to tremble, first her pupils, then her heart, and finally her whole body.

Her soul was trembling.

Sakata Gintoki walked over quickly, and as soon as he stopped behind Sakurai Yuko, he saw Sakurai Yuko put down the hilt of his sword and huddled himself into a ball, with his face buried in his arms, shivering as if eroded by the cold.

"Tamako...Tamako! Hey! Sakurai Tamako!"

Sakata Gintoki didn't know why he was trembling too. He squatted down and placed his palms on top of Sakurai Yuko's head. He didn't dare to implement it. He didn't know what happened to Sakurai Yuko. This shouldn't be Sakurai Yuko...

How could his Yuzi show such a gesture? !

Perhaps Sakata Gintoki yelled too loudly, but Sakurai Yuko finally responded.

The woman in extreme pain raised her head tremblingly. Her movements were very strange, causing people who saw it to have an inexplicable association, thinking that the vitality in this woman's body was being lost, or that it had never existed.

Sakurai Tamako grabbed Sakata Gintoki who instinctively wanted to retreat, her round and hard fingernails ruthlessly dug into Sakata Gintoki's wrist, as if they were embedded in the cliff.

If you don't hold on tight, you will fall to pieces.

"Go back...I want to go back, Yinshi, let me go back...go back...quick...quick, kill me, Yinshi, cut off my head, take out my heart...anything is fine, Kill me quickly!"

Sakurai Yuko looked at Sakata Gintoki with pleading eyes, she even forgot that the person in front of her was "Sakata Gintoki".

Compared with everything that has been brainwashed, the biological instinct now has the upper hand in Yuko Sakurai.

This is unprecedented.

Sakata Gintoki forced himself to calm down, he tried to appease Sakurai Yuko, "What are you talking about, aren't you just being cheated? What's the excitement? Hey... Where are you going? Where are you going? I'll accompany you, okay?" Okay? Take me, don't forget me, where's the promised couple? You..."

Sakurai Yuko left a few deep bloodstains on Sakata Gintoki's wrist, her eyes gradually became colder and gradually boiled, her hateful eyes stabbed Sakata Gintoki, the ridiculous thing is that he didn't even know why!

Sakurai Yuko stood up staggeringly, her eyes of hatred swept across Katsura Kotaro, Sakata Yinshi, and Tokugawa Shigeru, and finally Sakurai Yuko stared at Sakata Yinshi, stepped back two steps, messy hair scattered On the side of the face, a vicious blue glowed on the face as pale as a new ghost.

Sakurai Yuko stared at Sakata Gintoki, she tried hard to control herself to stop hating Sakata Gintoki, she tried to control herself to speak in the correct sentence pattern, "Kill me, Gintoki, I will come back, I Promise you, kill me now."

"Stop making trouble! What's wrong with you?! Have you fainted from starvation without eating?!"

Sakata Gintoki felt a little irritated and a little panicked, feeling distressed and angry at the same time.

Sakurai Yuko's body trembled in fright, but her expression didn't change much. If she had to say it, the hatred in her eyes became stronger.

lonely.

This is loneliness.

Loneliness is penetrating Sakurai Yuko.

Loneliness is repelling Sakurai Yuko.

Sakurai Yuko did not answer Sakata Gintoki's question, she did not appease Sakata Gintoki's heart, she turned and ran out of the room, faster than when Yoshida Shoyo was chasing after her back then.

"Hey Yu...damn it!"

Sakata Gintoki followed without saying a word.

Katsura Kotaro and Tokugawa Momo didn't hesitate for too long, they looked at each other, stood up in unison and chased them out.

Yuko Sakurai wants to find the Red Sand Scorpion, she wants the Red Sand Scorpion to kill her, she wants the Red Sand Scorpion to die with her, she will help him intercede with Death, she wants him to be with her go back.

In the process of Sakurai Yuko running towards the Red Sand Scorpion, many fragments appeared in her mind.

In a cave without a trace of light, a child huddled up and sat on a brocade mat, leaning on the cold and slippery moss, listening to the reptiles in the cracks moving the clods the size of rice grains.

In the shabby hotel room, a haggard man coughed up his last mouthful of blood, but his complexion became even more rosy.He said she was his tool, a monster.

In the magnificent palace, Ji Oizumi, who was as famous as Nero, had creases all over his face, and she smiled like him.He said she was the most beautiful flower in the world, an antique.

In the garden full of flowers, Hana Mamatoo, with dark eyes, put the petals that fell in her hair into her mouth, and bent down.He said she was a miracle that even the gods could not create, a treasure.

Uchiha Sasuke asked her why she didn't blame Gaara.

Gaara asks her why she doesn't care about Hamasin.

Nara Shikamaru asked her why she killed people.

Oizumi asks why she hates him.

Naruto Uzumaki asked her why she did those things.

……

Why why why why why why... why must there be a why? !

Why do you have to come and explore me? !