After the rain

I saw her twice, on the bench beside the flower bed in the community.

The woman was wearing loose home clothes, her loose long hair was slightly disheveled, staring blankly at the sunset on the horizon, her eyes were filled with nothingness.

The afterglow shrouded her, and the long shadow behind her gradually dissipated with the hidden light, and finally she was the only one left.

"We didn't talk about it, we were just friends." Song Qikun followed the agreement and kept his mouth shut.

"I like him, but he only regards me as a friend." Shen Yan explained this to the girl who came to seek the truth.

Having said so much, the wind direction of the rumors has changed unconsciously.

The scene where the two were in love but separated under pressure turned into Shen Yan's one-way crush. After the relationship was broken, Song Qikun couldn't accept it, thus alienating him.

Obviously most people believed in the latter, because it was admitted by one of the parties, and combined with Song Qikun's performance, the truth seemed to be the case.

Shen Yan still attends class normally, but becomes more and more taciturn, more repulsive than when he first arrived, and even Duan Zheng doesn't know how to get along with him.

Because of his excellent grades, his transfer procedures were not smooth, and the school refused to let him go easily, and has been working hard to keep him.

After Shen Xin came forward, the matter was finally settled.

Moving is also a big project, and it took two days to pack and mail it. The day Shen Yan left Wenheng was May 27th, Thursday, and the weather was sunny and sunny.

While waiting for the elevator, the door of 602 suddenly opened, and the little girl ran out crying, with bare feet, messy clothes, and a few inconspicuous fingerprints on her arms.

She rushed over and hugged Shen Yan tightly, raised her tear-stained face, and tried to hold him back anxiously: "Brother, don't go! Don't go! I went to ask the teacher, and I also asked the uncles and aunts in the hospital, They, they all said that boys can also like boys, my mother was wrong, my mother was wrong! Don't go...brother, don't go..."

By the end, she was crying uncontrollably, loud and clear, echoing in the hallway.

Zhou Hui supported the door frame and looked at her daughter in bewilderment.

With a gentle expression, Shen Yan knelt down and hugged the little girl's trembling body, patted her back to comfort her, and said sincerely, "Thank you."

as well as--

"Goodbye."

June is approaching, and the cicadas are gradually singing in the forest.

The temperature has risen sharply, and the fans in the classroom start running at noon. The grass is green outside the window, and a few wild flowers at the base of the wall are dancing with the wind.

"Song Qikun, someone is looking for him!" The classmate sitting by the back door shouted.

Song Qikun turned his head and glanced, slightly surprised.

He got up and went out and asked, "What's the matter?"

Although Song Qikun and Xie Junwen knew each other, they didn't communicate much, and they were curious about his reason for coming.

Unlike Duan Zheng, who is enthusiastic and cheerful, Xie Junwen has a more introverted and calm personality, and he is more willing to listen quietly than to share.

Panting heavily, he obviously ran all the way over, "Shen Yan... seems to have changed schools."

"Ah?" Song Qikun's heart skipped a beat.

"He didn't come to class this morning, and now even the seat is empty. Two days ago, there were rumors that he might transfer to another school... He didn't tell us anything, he didn't reply to the message, the phone was turned off, and we couldn't be reached at all."

Song Qikun's pupils trembled violently, his limbs were so stiff that they went numb, and he almost fell when he moved his feet.

Xie Junwen quickly reached out to help, but he was knocked away before he touched it.

Song Qikun flew out, as fast as a gust of wind.

By the time the doorman reacted, he was no longer in sight.

Everything around him was retreating rapidly, the wind roared in his ears, and the car's horn sounded like an alarm bell, urging him to go faster and faster, or it would be too late.

The oxygen and blood in the chest cavity were about to be exhausted, and the burning pain spread. Every breath was torture, and his body was getting heavier and heavier, but he didn't dare to slow down.

This road was unprecedentedly long, Song Qikun felt that he was going to die, only Shen Yan could save his life, but no matter how he called, the door at the end of the road never opened, cruelly isolating him.

There was a colic in his stomach, and he couldn't straighten up in pain. He shivered and curled up by the door, his red hands still patting the door panel stubbornly, and the sound became softer and softer until it completely disappeared.

Like announcing his loss.

"why why why……"

Why did you leave, why did you leave me behind, why can't you be together.

Who will tell him the answer.

52. Diary

Song Qikun sprained his foot in the ball game on May 28. The lack of key players caused the class to stop in the semi-finals, and their Spring Festival Games ended.

The No. [-] Middle School was used as the test center for the college entrance examination. On June [-]th, the first and second graders were given a holiday.

Song Qikun took the time to go to the stationery store, carefully selected and bought a very thick notebook, and wanted to use it to write a diary.

He couldn't step on his injured foot, so he walked slowly along the street, and happened to find a new milk tea shop opened across the road, with a particularly eye-catching emerald green signboard.

"Baby, look..."

The words came to an abrupt end again, and the smile on Song Qikun's brows froze, he stared at the empty side for a while, then recovered and continued to walk forward.

The weather was gloomy, it seemed to be raining, and he didn't bring an umbrella.

After taking leave on the 610th, the grade used this year's college entrance examination papers to arrange a test, and Song Qikun scored [-] points in the test.

July [-]th was his birthday, and it was the first time to celebrate it in school. His parents bought cakes for him to share with his classmates. Takeaway, clamoring for zero o'clock.

The lights in the dormitory were turned off on time, and the candlelight, which was warmer than the room temperature, melted together. The birthday song fell before the dormitory teacher knocked on the door. Song Qikun closed his eyes and made a wish, and every wish was related to Shen Yan.

He was pushed towards the age of 17 by the torrent of time, and a huge gap appeared between the past and the future. Standing here, he envied and crazily missed his 16-year-old self.

The self who owns Shen Yan seems to remain in the past forever.

The joy will eventually be silent, and the night will fall, and the noisy cicadas outside the window are like a rain that can only be heard but invisible.

Song Qikun hid under the quilt and wrote a diary by the desk lamp. Tears bloomed light gray flowers on the paper, and the handwriting became more messy due to trembling hands.

His stomach began to throb again, he curled up and endured it for a while, his brain gradually went blank, and the narration sentence in his pen was interrupted, leaving an abrupt ink dot.

After a long time, he moved his numb fingers and wrote in another line:

[Baby, we haven't seen the starry sky in midsummer together yet.

In the dead of night, I miss you so much. ]

[July 25, Sunday, overcast.

Baby, I saw a person who looked like you at the school gate today, but I chased him but disappeared. I probably thought you were hallucinating.

Or are you really looking for me?Just won't see me. ]

[July [-]th, Friday, sunny.

Baby, I'm on summer vacation, and the vacation is very short.

Duan Zheng and Xie Junwen were promoted to the second year of high school, and they both studied liberal arts.

I guess you chose science. ]

[August [-]th, Thursday, sunny.

I went to Wenling today, and finally found the community where you live, but the security guards didn't let me in.

I squatted at the door for five hours and almost suffered from heat stroke.

Shen Yan, why don't you take milk tea out for a walk, it can't get fatter. ]

[August [-], Monday, sunny.

Baby, tonight is Rourou's birthday, and I left you a big piece of cake, and started crying without saying anything, which made me want to cry too... I ate the cake for you, don't be angry.

She said she misses you very much.

Me too. ]

[September [-]rd, Friday, overcast]

Xiaobao, do you still remember the time we went to Xijiao Square to watch the fireworks on New Year's Day?Liu Xinrong actually took a picture of us and even made a picture of it.

She gave me all the photos and paintings today, saying that they are for my collection. This may be the last painting in her life.

When she said this, her expression was so sad that she was about to cry.

Autumn is here, will dreams wither in this season like the vegetation? ]

[September 25, Saturday, light rain.

Tang Chen's father was injured on a mission last week and was hospitalized. He passed away last night.

When he called me today, he cried and asked me if it was too late to start studying hard.

I said it was too late. ]

[October [-]nd, Saturday, sunny.

There was only three days off for the National Day holiday, and I was too tired to finish my homework, so I didn't have time to go out to play.

Another person lived in from the opposite door, a brother who was eight years older than me, and a newly recruited physics teacher at the school.

He has a very naughty raccoon cat, one year and two months old, named Penumbra.

He wants to place a bookcase in the bedroom. I helped him move things this afternoon, and I found a bundle of empty pen refills, 64 pieces, in the place where you put the desk.

Shen Xiaobao, how many nights have you stayed up without telling me? ]

[November [-], Sunday, sunny.

Today is Lidong, baby, happy birthday!

Have you grown taller, gained weight or lost weight?How is the study life in the new school?Have you made any good friends?Has milk tea lost weight successfully?Does it have other cats?Pearl still can't forget it.

will you miss Me?

I bought you a birthday present, but I don't know how to get it to you.

I have a lot of things I want to tell you, but after all, I just miss you.

Anyway, happy birthday. ]

[December [-], Wednesday, Xiaoxue.

It's snowing today and it's getting colder.

Baby, keep warm.

Last night I dreamed that the two of us went to the amusement park together, there were too many people and we accidentally got separated. You blamed me for not holding on to you, and said with a cold face that you would never forgive me no matter what, and you wanted to break up with me.

What a nightmare.

I woke up with a start and couldn't get back to sleep.

It's been like this for half a year, I'm afraid