After the rain

The body is very close, but the heart is still far away.

"You lied to me too." Shen Yan said.

No rancor, no blame, just a tired statement of facts.

He seems to have resigned himself to his fate.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Song Qikun felt a dull pain in his heart, and hugged him tightly with both arms, tears streaming into his mouth, "I don't want to...I don't want to break up with you..."

The desperately suppressed emotions finally collapsed. He explained and confided incoherently, his words were slurred, and there was stagnant panting in his throat, and tears wet Shen Yan's shoulders.

"My mother, my mother won't let me be with you...Forcing me to break up...She also took my mobile phone...Locked me at home, threatened me...I can't, I can't help it...Baby, I Don't break up, I won't break up with you..."

The night was filled with smog, and the teaching building not far away was brightly lit. Through the windows, the figures of students playing in the classroom could be vaguely seen. It seemed that everyone was bright, but they were in the dark.

Shen Yan blinked, tears rolled down his eyes, the world blurred in front of his eyes, the carefully drawn drawings met water, the ink stains scattered into mottled patches, everything was messy, and he could no longer see the future clearly.

It took Song Qikun a long time to calm down, but the strength of the hug did not decrease at all, his lips pressed against his ears, and he asked in a soft crying voice, "Are you still angry with me?"

"Why do you ask that?" Shen Yan raised his hand to caress the back of his neck, his fingertips were cold.

"I broke your heart... I'm sorry."

"It's okay, it's okay."

Song Qikun sniffed, and begged in a low voice: "We are secretly together, and I will try to convince my mother, wait for me, okay? Do you trust me?"

Shen Yan actually wanted to ask, what if she never agrees?

But he didn't ask anything, just said, "Okay, I believe you."

From this moment on, he was ready to be given up at any time.

That night, just after Shen Yan washed up and was about to go to bed, he received a message from Song Qikun, with only one simple and clear sentence.

[let's break up. ]

Shen Yan's first reaction was that he thought Song Qikun was joking, but after thinking about it, he realized that he couldn't be joking with this, so he frowned and replied with a question mark. As a result, a dazzling red exclamation mark appeared in front of the message, and a paragraph popped out below. A reminder that he is not yet the other party's friend.

The friend application has never been approved, and the phone is always busy. Shen Yan stared at the phone screen in a daze, his mind was confused, and his hands and feet gradually became cold.

Obviously not long ago, they kissed each other on the sofa and said goodnight to each other intimately, why did it suddenly become like this?

Shen Yan repeatedly recalled all the things that happened today, wondering if he did something wrong.

There is no answer.

He has suffered from insomnia for a long time.

The room was empty, even with all the lights turned on, it still felt dark, and no matter how tightly wrapped the quilt was, it still felt cold.

In the early morning of the next day, Song Qikun was not waiting for him at the door. He knocked on the door for a long time but no one responded, and he was nowhere to be found in the school. He seemed to have disappeared from his world suddenly, and all this happened without warning.

Shen Yan also visited Song Ye.

The man's expression was extremely complicated, he hesitated to speak several times, and finally heaved a deep sigh and said, "Your Auntie Wang knows about the two of you, she cannot accept it."

Shen Yan was stunned.

Song Ye said again: "You are still young, and the school strictly prohibits puppy love, so... Can you focus on your studies first? Other things can be discussed later."

"Is it just because of puppy love?" Shen Yan asked in a harsh voice.

Looking at each other, Song Ye remained silent, with hidden embarrassment and apology hidden in his eyes.

Shen Yan understood everything, and lost the courage to ask the bottom line.

This relationship had not encountered any obstacles before, and it was so smooth that he almost forgot that they were aliens in the eyes of most people and could not be seen.

They have been secretly together all the time.

After Song Qikun became a boarding student, the time they spent together was greatly shortened.He didn't dare to run to the first grade between classes as frequently as before, for fear of bumping into Song Ye. If Shen Yan didn't look for him, they could only meet at the playground at night.

Shen Yan began to go back and forth between school and home alone. Without a bicycle to pick him up, he had to go out earlier than before. Passers-by were all in a hurry, and the trees on the street were green again. Those who would slow down for him may no longer be able to accompany him This is the way to go.

He would occasionally go to the cafeteria to eat with Song Qikun. After the meal, he would buy an ice cream or a bag of snacks to watch the games of other classes. The sidelines were crowded, and Song Qikun could openly hug him from behind.

Shen Yan originally wanted to give Song Qikun the mobile phone Shen Xin gave him on his birthday for daily communication, but he didn't do it after thinking for a long time.

The Spring Festival Games was proceeding step by step. On May [-]th, Song Qikun and the others lost to the [-]th class of Science, which had many special students, and suffered their first defeat since the start of the competition.

Shen Yan brought him water as always, always felt a few uncomfortable eyes falling on him, but he couldn't find the source when he looked up.

The process of spreading gossip is always silent, like a seed buried in the soil, with sufficient nutrients, it will break out of the ground one day.

Fortunately, when Shen Yan realized that something was wrong, the matter had not fermented to the point of irreversibility.

The first thing that alerted him was when he came home from school on the [-]th, and met Rou Rou downstairs who was out shopping with his mother.The little girl cut her hair short and combed a playful ponytail. She happily ran over to hug him and wanted to share the candies in her small bag with him.

Zhou Hui, who was left behind, approached quickly, with a flustered expression. Regardless of her daughter's protest and struggle, she held him in her arms and walked away quickly, as if she was afraid to avoid him, as if he was some dirty thing.

The sun was shining brightly overhead, colorful candies were scattered all over the floor, and the light reflected from the candy wrappers was dazzling.

Shen Yan silently picked it up, peeled off one that looked like an apple flavor, and put it in his mouth. The sweetness was very light, and it was hard to ease the soreness in his heart.

Taking milk tea for a walk in the neighborhood in the afternoon, he saw Wang Zhiyun approaching from a distance, and deliberately lowered his head to avoid it. When she entered the apartment building, before he could breathe a sigh of relief, he heard the three middle-aged women in front of him start chatting. Gossip.

"I heard that her son moved to the school. Isn't this a disaster."

"Forget it, my son lives in a dormitory with her son!"

"Then let Xiaohui change the dormitory quickly! What if he is entangled? Maybe he will be infected, man and man, how disgusting."

"Have you seen the one her son was talking about? I heard that she lives across from her house and is also a student of No. [-] Middle School."

"I've seen it before. That kid has a very fat orange cat. He often walks around here. He is quite tall. He always wears a hat and can't tell what he looks like. And I think his feet seem a little bit Trouble, let's walk..."

The woman looked around as she spoke, and when she turned her head, she suddenly met the eyes of the protagonist in her words—the young man was following them a few steps away, staring at her with a gloomy face, his eyes were a little dark people.

The fat orange cat was also beside him, playing with a white butterfly on its four fat legs.

The woman suddenly fell silent, and quickly pulled her good sister's arm to make way for the boy, but her eyes followed him closely, looking up and down without any hesitation, and looked at each other from time to time, with subtle expressions.

When they were about to pass by each other, Shen Yan paused, and his voice was cold: "Song Qikun is not gay, even if he is, he doesn't like your son."

The woman's face suddenly became very ugly, she stared and asked loudly: "What do you mean?!"

Shen Yan took half a step towards her, frowned slightly, and did not hide his boredom, "You only talk behind your back, what do you mean?"

Looking at it from a close distance, his eyes are even more weird. The iris is a rare pure black, which blurs the boundary with the pupil. It looks empty and lifeless, without a trace of life that belongs to a living person.

The woman was startled, staggered back, opened her mouth but could not utter any syllables.

The boy's expression was too gloomy, and the air around him seemed to be a few degrees colder. The other two women didn't dare to speak, and moved back vigilantly to distance themselves from him.

Shen Yan suppressed the restless hostility in his chest, turned his eyes to the orange cat who had already gone away, and followed it unhurriedly.

"Disgusting," he said.

After all, the rumors spread to the school. Countless pairs of eyes are always watching their every move. After discussing, Shen Yan and Song Qikun reached an agreement not to meet each other for the time being.

Shen Yan also repeatedly emphasized to him that no matter who asks about their relationship, they must insist that they are just friends.

Song Qikun knew the seriousness of this matter, so naturally he had no objection.

Shen Yan would still go to Song Qikun's game, but he no longer delivered water, and no longer stood where he could be seen at a glance. Whenever he searched for his figure in the crowd, he deliberately avoided it, and quietly left when the game was nearing the end. .

They really have no intersection in the eyes of others.

Even so, the rumors did not show any signs of subsiding. They spread wildly in just a few days, even among the teachers. Wang Zhiyun and Song Ye were forced to get involved and endured pressure from all directions.

Every day in various groups, people bring up the topic of building high-rise buildings, speculating and discussing endlessly, and many seemingly ambiguous photos have been released, all of which were taken from candid angles.

Wang Zhiyun was very affected, and his nerves were tense all the time. He frequently gave Song Qikun psychological counseling, and it was difficult to fall asleep at night. After a few days, his body couldn't hold on and fell ill, so he asked for leave from school.

She was always worried about Song Qikun, and she couldn't sleep or eat well during her recuperation period, and she became visibly thinner with the naked eye.

Shen Yan