I am miserable by being attacked by the social bully

I don't know how to speak.

I raised my head, leaned back on the sofa, and closed my eyes a little bored.

In the end, it was Liao Muqiu who spoke first.

His voice was deep and calm, and it reached my eardrums word for word.

"I've been waiting for you." He turned his head to look at me, and said every word: "I've been waiting for you."

Unfinished, before I could ask, he continued: "Reet told me, he told you my real identity..."

"Actually, I didn't want to hide it from you at first, but you never asked me..." He looked into my eyes and smiled, "Afterwards, I didn't dare to tell you..."

He let out a breath slowly, as if he had made up his mind, and said, "I don't know what else Reet told you, but if you ask me, I can tell you."

I looked at him, thousands of words came to my mind, and I thought about a hundred euphemistic questions.In the end, he still directly asked the one thing that concerned me the most.

"Reet said, you do drugs, is that true?"

"Ah... I knew...you would ask this..." He chuckled, looked up at the ceiling, and imitated me and fell back on the sofa, as if this would relieve the weight in my heart.

It was a long time before I heard his voice, it was so small that it seemed to be coming from the sky, almost inaudible.

"it is true……"

He turned his head to look at me, his eyes were warm but deep, and there were many emotions in it that I couldn't understand.Like the stars in the night, a little bit of starlight, scorching and shining, intoxicating and indulging, arousing people's daydream.

He was still smiling lightly, the corners of his mouth curled lazily, seemingly carelessly, but his voice was already filled with pain, "What else did he tell you? Or, what else do you want to know, I will tell you you."

I sighed, met Liao Muqiu's eyes, and asked him, "Is there anything you would like to confess to yourself?"

"No," he said, "and I don't want to."

He faced my gaze calmly, and said bluntly: "If possible, I will keep it from you for the rest of my life, and never tell you, no matter whether you are with me or not."

He still smiled, but his mouth choked up, "No criminal would spread out his crimes for his lover to appreciate, because even a criminal has someone who cares. Isn't it? North and South?"

This night, it was the first time that Liao Muqiu didn't pester me to sleep in the same bed with me.

I didn't ask any other questions except that one.

But this one question made me feel a little bit alienated from him.I deeply felt the slight indifference I showed towards him after the problem was confirmed.

I don't want to be like this, but my language, my nerves, and my body are not controlled by me at all, and they become like this involuntarily.

Maybe I'm really angry, maybe I still can't let go of the past.But no matter what, I shouldn't treat him with indifference.

I know, but I can't do it.

Only Liao Muqiu, when he walked into the room, still turned around and said to me with red eyes, "Good night."

The tone was still gentle, tender, lingering, and cautious, with a bit of grievance, and poured out.

Looking at the closed door, I sat in the living room until after two o'clock in the morning, but I never stood up, and I sent him a good night.

When I went to work in the morning, I looked at Liao Muqiu's room, hesitated for a while, and walked to the door.I wanted to knock on the door to say sorry to him, but I stood by the door for a long time, but I didn't raise my hand to knock on his door, let alone compensate him for being late.

For a moment, I was extremely envious of Reet's character, and even hoped that at this moment, I would be Reet.

I sighed, thought for a while in front of the door, and finally took out my mobile phone, went into the toilet and called my colleague, asking him to help with the shift.

After I changed shifts, I went downstairs, planning to buy breakfast and then wake up Liao Muqiu to apologize to him. It was indeed my bad attitude yesterday that made people put a hot face on my cold ass.

I shouldn't be so small-minded. Before I came back, I promised Reet that I couldn't stay away from him because of drug use. After all, he and I are nothing but friends now.

I brought two bowls of beef noodles from downstairs, and I also passed two steamed buns and a deep-fried dough stick to the uncle as usual, and the uncle still kept the three words of thanks. It seems that life has never changed.

When he got home, the door of Liao Muqiu's room was open.

I was stunned, I didn't expect him to wake up so early.

No one was seen in the living room, so I guess he should have stayed in the room and not come out.

I walked into his room with breakfast, and I saw him leaning on the bed in a daze.He looked dazed, as if he hadn't woken up yet.

I went over and put the breakfast on the bedside table.The aroma of beef noodles wafted up and soon filled the whole room.

After he smelled the fragrance, he woke up a lot.It's just that he still looked at me blankly, as if he didn't know me, and he didn't seem to know how to start a conversation with me.

I ignored his blank eyes and asked, "Why did you wake up so early today?"

He shook his head, "I can't sleep well."

He looked at me and said, "I'm afraid you hate me."

When I heard this sentence, I didn't know how to answer it for a while.Only sighed silently, and told him: "Don't think too much, get up, wash up and eat something."

Liao Muqiu obeyed, and after washing up, he sat on the sofa without saying a word, staring at me motionlessly.

I smiled at him, walked over, and sincerely said sorry for being late.

"What happened last night is because I was too extreme." I told him, "Don't take it too seriously, I don't hate you, but it takes time to digest, I hope you can understand me."

After hearing this, he didn't answer me right away. After being silent for a while, he asked me, "Nanbei, do you still like me?"

I was silent, I felt his mind was jumping too fast, I couldn't keep up with him.

Personally, my feelings for Liao Muqiu are a bit complicated.In the past, I definitely refused without hesitation, but now, I can't bear to refuse, and I can't say I like it.

In the past few days, I sincerely feel that I am quite cheap. I clearly know what people want, but I still have to stimulate their appetites while not obviously cutting off their thoughts.

I changed the subject with some guilt, "Let's eat first, we'll talk about these things later."

But he shook his head and asked me, "When will we talk about it in the future? You always say that, and you always push back. Will you really give me an answer?"

I think he seems very impatient about expressing his position to me recently, and he seems to spend every day in anxiety.His brows have been furrowed for the past two days, and he is unwilling to joke with me again, and he looks very preoccupied.

I sighed and told him, "Didn't you say to give me two weeks? You let me sort out my relationship with Jiang Peipei, and I will definitely give you an answer."

Liao Muqiu lowered his eyes and didn't speak.

Suddenly, he raised his head and smiled at me, but the smile was slightly sarcastic, "Wait until you figure out the relationship with her, do I still have a chance? Since you don't know how you feel about her, I want you to talk to her Break up, do you promise?"

As soon as I heard this, I replied to him without thinking, "No."

His smile is getting bigger and bigger, more and more sarcastic, and even his voice has a tinge of determination, "Did you just say it to appease me and lie to me?"

I was stunned for a few seconds when I heard this, I just felt that he was inexplicably deducted from me, and I retorted him, "I didn't lie to you."

"You are just trying to delay my time, so that I gradually feel that my liking for you is just a whim?"

His eyes began to turn red, and his voice trembled imperceptibly, "Did you... never thought of accepting me..."

"No." I said, "I didn't lie to you, I really didn't lie to you."

I scratched my hair irritably, not knowing how to explain to Liao Muqiu, I don't know why he was so sensitive all of a sudden, and suddenly he started to think wildly by himself, constructing false accusations to slander me.

I suppressed the unhappiness in my heart and told him: "I said I will give you an answer in two weeks, and I will definitely give you an answer. I also said that if I don't feel it, I will definitely break up with her."

He looked at me with red eyes.

"Two days," he said.

My breathing stopped for a moment, and all the unpleasant emotions were about to come out like a thunderstorm.

I took a deep breath, silently took out a stick of Hongtashan and lit it, pinched the center of my eyebrows, suppressed the turmoil in my heart, and said with some headache: "You should eat first."

"Two days." Liao Muqiu insisted.

"We'll talk about it later," I said.

"Two days." He insisted, as if if I didn't promise him, he would be able to consume me like this.

I took a few deep puffs of the cigarette, and the thick smoke rose slowly with the air, gradually thinning.

After a long time, I pushed the cooled beef noodles back to Liao Muqiu, compromised and said, "Okay, two days."

He looked up at me, but quickly lowered his eyes.

At this time, I was surprised to find that he was crying.

41. People can never turn back.

I looked at his profile and didn't ask him why he was crying.I can probably guess the reason, but I didn't expect him to show me such a vulnerable side.

This kind of sad, helpless, and insincere feelings almost suffocated me.

Liao Muqiu still didn't eat what I bought for him