Sick roommate observation notes

Sometimes, if a person's attitude in the face of pain is too indifferent, it shows that there are potential dangerous factors in the person's heart.

Shen Lu really felt that Qin Qiu's thinking was extremely dangerous, not to mention that the other party had already killed someone, no matter how he looked at it, it was impossible for him to be a person who looked down on everything and was detached from the world without desires and desires.

He was silent for a moment, and Qin Qiu's complex emotions gave him the desire to continue to explore: "Why do you say you are lucky enough?"

"Before my mother passed away, she gave me all the love she could give me, and that man killed my mother, but for some reason he didn't kill me too." The man's eyebrows curved, "I have received my mother's love, and it is still intact Am I not lucky to have survived to this day?"

The other party's answer was really positive.

Because of this, Shen Lu always had deep uneasiness lingering in his heart.

"You don't have to worry, I really think so, I didn't lie to you," Qin Qiu reached out and stroked Shen Lu's forehead lightly, "Don't frown, now you look like a little old man who is prematurely aging. "

Shen Lu realized and avoided the man's touch, subconsciously retorted: "Even if I am an old man, then I am the most handsome among them."

Qin Qiu laughed suddenly: "Well, I agree, you are the most handsome."

The sincerity in the man's words made Shen Lu inexplicably embarrassed, he coughed lightly and looked away, "How is your father's situation, have you tried to understand it?"

"No," Qin Qiu said indifferently, "he was sentenced to life imprisonment. It stands to reason that he spent all these years in prison, but he might have died there long ago."

Shen Lu twirled the teacup in his hand anxiously: "Then, do you hate him?"

"I hated it. It's fine if he is irresponsible to the family. After all, I didn't have any expectations for him in my heart. What I can't forgive is that he took my mother away from me."

The sunlight cast a shadow on the man's side face through the gauze curtain, and the man's eyelashes trembled, as if light and shadow danced together on his eyelashes: "But it's been so long, I realize that hate It is one of the most useless emotions in the world. He is kept out of my reach. Always thinking of revenge on him is just adding pain to myself. Besides, even if I revenge on him, my mother will never come back. Come to me."

Hating what you can't change is just adding to the pain.

Shen Lu felt as if his heart was soaked in some liquid, and he felt a little depressed: "I don't think you should be so depressed, even if you hate him a little bit, it doesn't matter."

Qin Qiu looked over in surprise, and a moment later his eyes were tinged with a smile: "But didn't you say before that you hope everyone can use reason to control negative emotions?"

The room was silent for a while, and Shen Lu's voice, as thin as a mosquito's gnat, finally reached the man's ears: "But I don't want to see you go on the road of self-destruction in order to control your emotions."

After saying this, the young man lowered his eyes and pursed his lips, just in time to miss Qin Qiu's suddenly deepening gaze: "Besides, I think the essence of controlling negative emotions is to not hurt others. If you just think about it in your heart, But if you never implement what you think in your heart, this is actually not too much, but if you keep holding back yourself, and you have to bear it until you explode, that is the worst, you say yes ?”

After waiting for a while without getting the desired answer, the alarm bell in Shen Lu's mind suddenly rang, and he quickly raised his head to look at the silent man: "Wait, you must have done something to him, right? !"

Qin Qiu shook his head: "You think too much, I have no chance to attack him."

The young man was keenly aware that what the people around him said was "no chance to make a move" instead of "not planning to make a move". He bit his lips anxiously, racking his brains to say something to comfort the other party, but suddenly heard the person say: " You obviously like me, Sean, otherwise why would you worry about my self-destruction?"

Shen Lu: "..."

He was so robbed by the man that his brain froze for a moment, and the roots of his ears almost turned red: "Don't you keep adding drama to yourself, it's reasonable, even if I meet someone on the road, I don't want him to walk away. Misguided."

"You are kind-hearted, but this does not conflict with your liking for me," Qin Qiu bluntly praised his little roommate, giving each other sweets and at the same time using logic that is beneficial to him, "Maybe you meet A vicious murderer will try to pull him to the right path, but will you sit on the sofa with him calmly and talk about the past?"

Shen Lu was surprised that this man really didn't know how to position himself, he thought to himself, this man is no better than a vicious murderer?

After a long while, he couldn't help rolling his eyes, reluctantly admitting in his heart that a man is slightly better than a vicious guy: "Okay, maybe, but I'm more likely not to be at all." I'll talk to them about it."

The man nodded, squinted his eyes and continued to ask: "If the murderer you are investigating wants to cook for you, would you dare to eat it?"

Shen Lu: "..."

"Will you allow him to share a room with you?"

Shen Lu: "No, you..."

"Would you put him in the bathroom if he wanted to shower you?"

Shen Lu couldn't help the corners of his eyes twitching, feeling bad in his heart: "That's enough, I probably know what you want to express, and we're all digressing!"

But the man didn't stop talking as he said, and still said with relish: "If he wants to make a bet with you for sex, is it possible that you will agree to him?"

Shen Lu: "..."

He hugged his head in pain in his heart. If possible, he also wanted to go back to the past and kill the self who easily agreed to the bet! ! !

"Look, you don't want to accept them, and although I was included in the list of dangerous people by you, the treatment I receive is completely different from these people," the man concluded with satisfaction, his voice was as gentle as the temptation of a devil, " So, I'm different to you, why don't you just want to admit it?"

"Yes, you are indeed different from them." Shen Lu was almost driven out of his temper by this person, "But I like my relatives, my teachers, my friends, and even my colleagues who I just met not long ago. They are all special people to me, even if there is one more you, it will be different, but what does this mean?"

He couldn't treat this roommate as an enemy, and he couldn't control his instinct to care about him, but that didn't mean he was willing to play emotional games with this dangerous man.

When he said this, Shen Lu's tone was somewhat tit-for-tat, and his hostility also had a clear purpose, which was to hope that men would stop making fun of him about his feelings in the future.

But Qin Qiu didn't even show any displeasure because of his words.

"No need to explain anything, liking has no meaning, and human beings need a word to summarize the most primitive impulse in the heart, so the word 'like' was created."

"What is liking? Is it appreciation? Is it caring? Is it giving? Is it possession?" The man tilted his head in confusion, "For everyone, 'like' means different impulses, so humans give this word It has endless meanings, it seems to cover countless beautiful emotions, and it is even a beautiful symbol in itself...but it is actually nothing, because its essence is just a meaningless general verb."

"So, I don't care about the superficial meaning of 'like'," Qin Qiu said with a smile on his lips, and his eyes were tender. "As long as you have me in your eyes, you are willing to care about me, willing to live with me, willing to Distinguish me as a different object from other people... That way, even if you don't admit that you like me, it won't change the nature of the emotion that has developed between us."

Shen Lu was dizzy from this long paragraph of words, he pursed his lips and savored it carefully, he always felt that what the man said was wrong, but somehow it made sense.

"Similarly, even if you don't admit my feelings, as long as you have the heart to see, everything I've done for you is there and won't change," Qin Qiu put down his teacup, and touched his chest with his right hand almost reverently, just like his When I was in the hotel at night, I did it normally, "I don't care if you send me to prison or not, I only care about the satisfaction and joy you can bring to my soul, as long as you are still the one who wants the world to be better, I still want to know you, I want to touch you, I want you to stay by my side."

"In you, for the first time, I got the happiness that ordinary people would have, and saw the possibility of living like a normal person."

Shen Lu felt that his heartbeat seemed to stop for a moment, and then it immediately resumed beating, but it was beating faster than before, and it made him feel deafened.

"So Sean, open your eyes," the demon that unsettled him is still pouring out seductive words, "Now do you believe that I like you?"

For Shen Lu, today was destined to be another sleepless night. He lay on his back on the bed, staring at the ceiling with some laziness in his eyes, letting his body be buried tightly by the soft quilt.

In a daze, he suddenly remembered his reply to the man.

--I do not believe.

His tone was extremely firm, but only he knew how much he was shaken at that time.

Shen Lu blinked subconsciously, his eyes became clear at this moment, but quickly returned to chaos.

He turned over, took a deep breath, closed his eyes, and began to recite seriously in his heart——

Can't trust him.

Maybe this is just a trap set by a man when he rises up. If he accidentally steps into it, he may be in a situation where he will never recover.

But if this feeling is true, even if all this is true...

A person like him who can't control his own life probably doesn't deserve the desire to grow old hand in hand with others.

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The author has something to say:

Qin Qiu: Changing the subject & a master of sophistry.

Shen Lu: Except for me, who would like to listen to him talking about strange logic there?

Luminous author: I am willing, I am willing to do anything for beauty... huh?Someone's watching me (shudder

Qin Qiu confesses his love to Lu Lu every day, and I also want to confess my love to you!Thank you for being here!Comparing my heart!