bad derailment

It may be that the cheeks are too painful, and even the ears are hallucinating.

I understood every word she said, 'Jiang Qiushi', 'wife', 'legal meaning', 'partner'.When they are strung together like beads, they take on new and unfamiliar meanings.

Don't understand exactly what it means.

There was noisy movement in the ward, and I heard a familiar voice from Jiang Qiushi.A little weaker than usual, slightly cold, not as blissful as when facing me.

"Shao Qin, what are you doing?"

'Shao', I captured this word sensitively.

It seemed that in an instant, all the memories buried in my heart grew wildly like vines, and the seed called doubt finally became a towering tree.

The woman named Shao Qin turned around, her long black hair was disheveled with her movements, her eyes were almost as red as her lips, "What am I doing? Jiang Qiushi, do you want to come out and see yourself, who is here to see you?"

My feet were frozen in place, and I tried to walk, but I couldn't move.Jiang Qiushi's stiff, bewildered face was reflected in his eyes, as if it was the final judgment.I know that all explanations lose their effect.

"...Lin Yao?"

His bloodless lips moved, and he uttered a trembling sentence.The first time I saw Jiang Qiu like this, he was pale, weak, his clothes were wrinkled, and his eyes were no longer calm.Containing endless powerlessness and burnout, he seemed to want to say something, but eventually fell silent.

Silence is the greatest cruelty.

The pain on the cheek dissipated and turned into a burst of numbness.I raised the corner of my unconscious mouth, "Jiang Qiushi, is this the truth?"

Surprisingly, I can't bring up sadness, surprise, or any other emotion.It was as if a pool of stagnant water was turbulent, but I could only hear my own voice ringing in my ears.Jiang Qiushi's thin figure swayed, and the grief that penetrated into his bones was transmitted here almost without any language assistance.

He said a word to me: "Lin Yao, I'm sorry."

sorry.It turned out that these three words fell on my ears like this, and I felt ridiculous, absurd, and breathless.

"What are you guys doing standing here? The patient can't get out of bed yet, help him onto the bed quickly."

The doctor hurried over, followed by two nurses.With the report in his hand, he turned to Shao Qin and said, "Ms. Shao, let's go outside and talk about the situation. Let your husband rest for a while."

husband.These two words made me feel sick from my stomach, and I couldn't stand it for a moment.Jiang Qiushi grabbed my arm tightly from behind, disregarding his gentle and elegant image in the eyes of outsiders for the first time, he said in embarrassment: "Lin Yao, I can explain."

Shao Qin took two steps back, looked at this scene and laughed a few times, almost bursting into tears, "Jiang Qiushi, would you rather explain to him than to me? We've been married for four years anyway, how can you make me cry?" where to put?"

I heard his weary voice sound out after the silence: "Shao Qin, I have already signed the divorce agreement."

"Do you think you can scare me like this? As long as I don't sign it and get the divorce certificate, I'm still your legal wife. Your surgery consent form needs my signature, and you call him, even if When the Heavenly King Lao Tzu comes, he can’t help you with any formalities. Jiang Qiushi, do you want to die or choose me?”

There was so much information in a few sentences that my brain went into a long blackout.Jiang Qiushi pursed his pale lips, his expression turned extremely ugly, "I choose to die."

His voice is not heavy, and his frail body has long been unable to support any large-scale words or movements.

Shao Qin's eyes were filled with stubborn tears, and the moment they fell, there was a silent determination.Before she had time to say anything, Jiang Qiushi suddenly covered his lips with his hand, and walked towards the bathroom precariously. Before everyone could react, he held onto the wall, squatted down and vomited a mouthful of blood.

As if to verify the sentence I just said, I watched Jiang Qiushi fall to the ground amidst the chaos.The doctor reprimanded Shao Qin for his provocative language just now, and two nurses helped Jiang Qiushi to the hospital bed, and inserted various instruments and long tubes for him who was unconscious.This kind of scene is not as beautiful as the lighting and scenery in TV dramas, but cold and heavy.My hands and feet were cold for a while, sadly, my first reaction on Sweeping was still worried and scared for Jiang Qiushi.

The doctor brought Shao Qin and me to the consultation room, feeling very complicated. He cleared his throat and asked in a business-like manner, "Which of you can make a decision?"

I moved the hand by my side, but there was no answer.Shao Qin had already wiped away the tears, and tried her best to put on the calmest state, "I can, I am his wife. What happened? Why did he suddenly vomit blood?"

"You have also seen his current situation, which is not optimistic. I have already taken a CT scan, and it is judged to be gastric bleeding. After his vital signs are stabilized, he will have to arrange an operation. We will discuss the specific plan later, but we still have to There is one thing I need to ask you."

The doctor's tone paused, as if he was considering his next words, "Do you know that he came to the hospital for an examination at the end of August this year?"

A moment of sarcasm flashed across Shao Qin's eyes, she didn't look at me, she turned her head and said coldly: "At that time, I had already separated from him."

The doctor could only nod when he heard it, and didn't ask any more questions.My heart trembled, and I was silent for two seconds, "He cut his hand in August, and I have accompanied him to the hospital several times."

"I have also seen this diagnosis case," the doctor took my words, and said in a deep voice, "I have already asked the doctor who performed the suturing operation. According to the time shown in the case, he performed the stomach surgery again during the recovery period of the wound." The result of the examination was not very good, and the diagnosis was advanced gastric cancer. Today’s situation should be gastric bleeding caused by gastric cancer. I hope you should be mentally prepared. The survival rate of advanced gastric cancer is very low. According to his current situation Look, there's only about a year left in the future."

The doctor's words fell on his ears, like a sledgehammer of judgment hitting his exhausted heart.I stayed there, as if living in an absurd dream for a moment, until after a long time, the buzzing sound dissipated, and dryly repeated the doctor's words: "...stomach cancer?"

Isn't it chronic gastritis?Isn't it just a common disease?

Shao Qin fell into a brief blank, clutching the purse tightly with her fingernails, and said word by word: "How is it possible? Are you making a mistake? What does it mean that there is only one year left? He is still so young, how could he Is it late?"

Her voice trembled, mixed with almost submerged powerlessness and confusion.The doctor shook his head. Sometimes silence is more terrifying and effective than any words.In the dead silence, I left a sentence of 'sorry', couldn't bear it any longer, got up and walked out of the consulting room, rubbed my stiff face vigorously, my soul seemed to be numbly emptied, and I couldn't feel despair or any pain.

I have always known that Jiang Qiushi concealed many things, about his family, about himself.He had even guessed whether there would be a woman like Shao Qin, but in the end he was deceived by his superb acting skills.

He is so cruel, counting every step so perfectly.At the end of August, during the recovery period, I remember that I was supposed to accompany Jiang Qiushi for the examination that day, but because Gu Mingsheng missed the appointment.On the same night, he called and took me to the beach, and whispered his deepest thoughts in his ear.At that time, the moment he bowed his head and kissed me, did he already think that such a day would come?

The sound of the door being opened rang in my ears, and the high-heeled shoes slowly stepped on the tiles like a burst of mourning.She stopped beside me, was silent for a long time, and asked in a trembling voice.

"You really don't know?"

I opened my lips with difficulty: "Know what?"

"Jiang Qiushi's situation." Shao Qin turned around and looked at me with sad eyes. "He never mentioned me to you, did he never mention this disease?"

"If I knew he was married, I would never have done such a thing," I couldn't help being dumb, and even the explanation was so pale, "I'm sorry, I really don't know anything, he said... .That's just chronic gastritis."

Chronic gastritis, he even found such good excuses.Gastritis, stomach cancer, one word difference, but like hell.

Shao Qin nodded, seeming to have understood the answer.Let out a sad laugh, looking at a certain point in the void, as if falling into memory, "The end of August, no, it's not August. I noticed something wrong with Jiang Qiushi a long time ago. When talking to me, always It’s because he was distracted and thinking about his own business. Usually he likes to read books, but he often looks at his mobile phone for a while. He came home late several times without saying a word. When I asked him what he was doing, he always said it was work. It’s funny, he is a high school teacher Where do you get so much work? Do you really think I'm an idiot?"

Every word she said was like a sharp thorn in my heart. I wanted to apologize, but the countless "sorry" seemed too powerless.When I was delighted by Jiang Qiushi's reply, I was nervous about asking him out for dinner for the first time, and even when I chose to hide Chen Feng for him, he actually lied to another person about it.

This sick relationship was wrong from the start.The joy and throbbing that I thought were all turning into the sharpest blade at this moment and biting back at me.In a daze, I thought of Chen Feng's words, 'You will suffer retribution'.Now the retribution really came, it came too fast, too caught off guard, it almost really crushed me here.

Shao Qin's voice became lower and lower, mixed with faint trembling and self-mockery.

"At the end of August, I was going to have a showdown, but he came up with the divorce agreement before me. He was terrible, and I couldn't bear it. I found a private detective to follow him and took a photo. Do you know? See the photo At that moment, I was really disgusted. I was disgusted with him, I was disgusted with you, and I was even more disgusted with myself."

My face must have been as pale as the walls of the hospital, Shao Qin seemed unable to speak any more, took out a pair of sunglasses from her purse and put them on her face, covering the embarrassing redness of her eyes.Except for the slightly hoarse voice, it seems that the original indifference has returned, "I'll go see him, you can go. Although you don't know, I have the right not to see you. Those two slaps are not unfair, you If you don't want to leave, don't force me to do it here."

"I'll leave," I pulled out an ugly smile and moved my lips, "I'm sorry, really."

Shao Qin picked up her bag and strode towards the direction of the ward, her back was tall and straight, she didn't answer, and she didn't turn her head.