bad derailment

There are four dishes and one soup on the wooden dining table. Gu Mingsheng and Aunt Gu are chatting and laughing while eating, and I also smile, occasionally answering a sentence, but my thoughts drift back to that meal uncontrollably, playing frame by frame in my mind Du Yuchen looked at Gu Mingsheng with deep meaning and interest in his eyes.

Does Gu Mingsheng know?

I couldn't help laughing, this is simply nonsense, how could a person like him, who has lived among thousands of flowers, not understand what those eyes represent?

Since he was a child, he had an overly superior face. He just sat there doing nothing while countless bees and butterflies pounced on him. He was harassed countless times after work. back.

Such behaviors include but are not limited to pretending to be close to the arm, calling unauthorized nicknames, or not knowing where to find his mobile phone number, and sending sexually explicit text messages every day...too many , so much that my aversion from the beginning has become indifferent today.

Gu Mingsheng's refusal was often done quietly.He would never embarrass others in face, but what he said and what he did, he was resolute and cruel again and again, leaving no room for it.

He dislikes these people who do not hide their covetousness on the basis of their convenience, and I never think that he will develop any deviant relationship with these people, but when I see Du Yuchen alone, I feel a crisis that I have never had before.

He has the strength, condition and absolute ambition to take Gu Mingsheng away.

I think I shouldn't use the word 'take away', Gu Mingsheng is not my property, we are friends, and we can only be friends.But subconsciously, I always unconsciously draw the behavior of others closer to these two words, as if his preference and connivance will no longer be a privilege for me alone.

That feeling was originally very faint, invisible and intangible like air, only for a moment when he first learned that he had a girlfriend, and every time after that, that feeling seemed to disappear and never reappeared.

But now, it wraps around my heart like a shadow, like a weightless weight suspended in the air, wrapping me more and more tightly, sinking deeper and deeper.

It should have disappeared for a lifetime, but maybe it was because of those two unexplainable kisses, out of the selfishness deep in my soul, or maybe it was just because it wanted to appear, so it appeared willfully against my will.

With complicated emotions, I said goodbye to Aunt Gu and got in the car back.

The sky in the winter evening is smeared on the drawing board with dark-toned paints, thick and drowsy, each layer is divided and merged and divided, casting a dangling unreal sinking into the window glass.

The halo blurred Gu Mingsheng's well-defined profile, or just blurred my eyes.I was a little dazed, even though the car had already parked at the destination, my feet didn't have the slightest intention of leaving.

Gu Mingsheng didn't make a sound to urge him. He seemed to have predicted what I hadn't said in advance, so he reached out and turned off the music that was playing in the car.

I opened my mouth and called him: "Gu Mingsheng."

He turned his head and looked at me with a hint of doubt in his amber pupils, as if he let out a lazy 'Huh? '.

After a short while of silence, I heard my own voice slowly sounding in the car, perhaps mixed with a sway that was so small that it was hard to detect.

"What did you mean by what you said last time?"

There was no gaffe or stagnation in his expression, it was perfect almost as if he was wearing a mask, only his hands on the steering wheel were slightly tightened, as fast as a hallucination.

"What?"

I ignored his stupidity and looked straight into his eyes, "I'll just ask you, are you serious?"

After a long while, an inaudible chuckle came into my eardrums, and I heard Gu Mingsheng say: "Is it possible that I won't tell the truth except when I'm joking?"

These words made the stagnant atmosphere flow for a moment, but it was only for a moment.He lowered his eyes and said slowly: "Xiao Yao, many words come out naturally in a specific environment, at a specific time and when facing a specific person. If you want to ask me what I was thinking at the time What, I can't answer."

The voice fell on my ears, and I almost laughed, "Gu Mingsheng, do you know that your speech looks like a scumbag?"

He raised his lips and smiled, and didn't care about the mocking question. He looked at me with a glimmer of light in his eyes, "Really, do you like it?"

It's the most familiar jokes mixed with love words, which are far-fetched and very affectionate, as if none of them are related, but all of them are related.

I thought for a while and asked him seriously: "Are we friends?"

He replied without hesitation: "Of course."

"Then do you want to try again?"

Gu Mingsheng's smile paused for a rare moment, "What?"

I didn't want to explain, I stretched out my hand and pulled Gu Mingsheng's collar directly, and printed my lips on it.

Counting the previous three times, this is already the fourth time Gu Mingsheng and I have kissed.His upper lip is very thin, as fickle as he is, but it is soft and warm when he sucks it in. I can't help lowering my eyes and sticking my tongue in.

Gu Mingsheng's body froze for a moment, and this cognition made me feel a childish thought similar to revenge success.But before he could be complacent for a while, the breathing in his ears suddenly became heavy.He pressed the back of his head and pushed me against the passenger seat. The low-key scent of heavy wood accompanied by an aggressive kiss shackled me in a narrow corner. Tongue rubbing tongue, lips rubbing lips, it was biting, a game, and a kiss.

This is not like the gentleness and harmlessness he usually shows deliberately, but with a sense of reckless and frightening plunder, like bursting raindrops hitting the bluestone road, every drop is filled with overwhelming ambition.I was gradually out of breath, and my lips felt numb, but when I tried to push him away, the strength in my body didn't move at all.

"Well... Gu, Gu Ming..."

As if to use this as a punishment for provoking him, Gu Mingsheng silently rejected my surrender.

After a while, the thin air was gradually balanced. I pressed my bitten lower lip and slowly calmed down my breathing.Gu Mingsheng's chest heaved up and down, his amber pupils melted into a deeper brown under the drive of desire, his cold white skin and a rich deep red on his lips, like red plums in the snow, are unparalleled in beauty.

"Why are you biting me?" I looked down and frowned as expected, "It's bleeding."

How can I explain this to Chen Feng if I go back?

"Xiao Yao," his voice was hoarse than before, adding a touch of pleasure and sexiness to his bones, "So you like this tone."

...What is 'this tune'?It sounds so unreasonable.

I turned my face away and said emphatically in a clear voice, "Shouldn't you ask me why now?"

He raised his lips kindly and asked, "Okay, then why did you kiss me?"

This is clearly a question, but when Gu Mingsheng said it, I suddenly felt teased and embarrassed, "Are you only allowed to play with me, and I am not allowed to play with you?"

"When did I stop?" He whispered in his ear, and the hot air from his lips and teeth shuddered, "You can play however you want, even if it breaks, it doesn't matter, as long as you prepare me a little next time Time, of course, doesn't feel bad like it did just now."

He didn't say a word out of line, but the heat burned from my earlobe to my cheek.The narrow space is filled with excessive ambiguity, I was the one who kissed him proactively, but now I am also the one who wants to escape quickly.

I got up and closed the car door forcefully, and there was a loud 'bang'. Gu Mingsheng sat in the car and looked at me with a smile, without speaking or making a move to stop it.

After walking three steps, I stopped and turned back the same way. Through the glass that had been lowered by half, I stared into Gu Mingsheng's eyes and asked him again.

"Are we still friends?"

"of course."

He said it calmly without thinking, and the answer to this question seemed to never change.

I don't know what kind of answer I want to hear from Gu Mingsheng, but this is very good, this is also good.

It wasn't until he walked far away that the silent heartbeat finally began to surge like waves, extinguishing the so-called calmness and completely subverting his composure.I stopped at the same place, as if I really said what Gu Mingsheng said, once I left the specific environment, the specific time and the specific person, I couldn't remember the mood when I kissed him just now.

Maybe it was a few seconds, maybe a few minutes, I turned around in a strange way, and it was still Gu Mingsheng's car not far away that caught my eye.

I have always disliked the move of turning back, because there are often only two results, yes or no.And I always habitually think of the worst side of things, and I hate being sentimental.Just thinking about it now, things shouldn't be that bad, at least, not as bad as I thought.