bad derailment

After get off work, Gu Mingsheng came to pick me up.

The temperature in Yancheng has dropped drastically recently, and the news says that snow is likely to fall on New Year's Eve.As a southern city that doesn't often snow, just such an uncertain news is enough to make people excited.I have been listening to my colleagues discussing the New Year's Eve activities all day long, and when I saw Gu Mingsheng, I asked about it.

"What are your plans for New Year's Eve?"

"Are you asking me out?" Gu Mingsheng turned the steering wheel with a slight smile, "I haven't made up my mind yet. If you want to come over, I will definitely make time."

It's not the first time I've experienced his ability to distort the facts, and I dismissed it: "You think too much, I just see that you are too idle recently, so I asked casually."

"Have I been free recently?"

"What do you think?" I threw the question back to him, "If I hadn't just gone to ETERNAL for an interview, I would have wondered if you were fired."

Gu Mingsheng's work has always been busy. He is not like a white-collar worker who can work from [-] to [-]. It is not uncommon for him to meet a difficult Party A and shoot in the studio until the early hours of the morning.Occasionally, I am not surprised that the news is out of contact. It is particularly abnormal for me to come to eat and chat with me when I have nothing to do.

It's just that he hid it so well that he couldn't see what happened at all. I asked half jokingly, not knowing how he would answer.

Unexpectedly, Gu Mingsheng pondered seriously for a while: "Almost."

This caught the words I had just prepared caught in my throat unexpectedly.

Until I arrived at the destination, I still haven't recovered from Gu Mingsheng's words.He naturally leaned over and unbuckled my seat belt. I subconsciously leaned back, stared at his overly good-looking side face and asked, "Are you going to resign, are you serious?"

He didn't answer directly, but rolled his eyes with a smile, and said, "Go to dinner first, I've already made a reservation, and I'll explain to you slowly after I go in."

My eyebrows twitched, and I could only hold my breath and follow Gu Mingsheng into the box.I don't know if it's a coincidence, but this is the restaurant that Jiang Qiushi and I have been to before. I quickly ordered a few dishes that tasted good, and waited for Gu Mingsheng to order, so I could take a good look at him.

"Now it's time to say, are you really planning to stop being a model?"

Under my eager gaze, Gu Mingsheng poured a cup of tea leisurely, opened his lips and said two words: "Really."

From that sound alone, I knew he wasn't joking.

"When did you make that decision?"

"Two years ago to be precise, but it's only now that it's confirmed."

The air conditioner in the private room was slightly high, Gu Mingsheng stretched out his hands to undo the top two buttons, his voice was always lazy and serious.

"Why?" I was really puzzled, so I asked, "Your current job is very stable, once you resign, you will have to start from scratch again, the gain outweighs the loss."

Gu Mingsheng raised his lips calmly, and put the full cup of tea in front of me, "It's not necessarily a bad thing to start from scratch, if I have to say why, it's probably because I don't want to be a vase in the eyes of others anymore. "

I looked at him unexpectedly for a while, drank tea to moisten my throat, "I thought you enjoyed the life of being a vase."

After all, not everyone has the capital to do this business. People like Gu Mingsheng should belong to God chasing and feeding.

"But there will always be a boring day," Gu Mingsheng propped his chin and smiled, noncommittal, "I have been slowly reducing the shooting invitations, and I will completely terminate the contract after a while. The contract with ETERNAL will expire in three months, it is best The result is that I can find my next family within these three months, otherwise I will really become a vagrant, relying on you, Xiao Yao, to support me."

This is of course a joke, the savings he has accumulated in the past few years alone are enough for ordinary people to squander most of their lives.But this didn't prevent him from blinking his eyes pitifully, acting realistically without losing his handsomeness.

He is obviously a man in his late thirties, but his actions are not at all disobedient and greasy.Maybe this is the prerogative of good-looking people. If I did this, I might be regarded as eyelid cramp.

It took half a minute to digest the news, and I thought of the most critical question: "What are you going to do after the contract is terminated? Do you want to go back to painting?"

He didn't answer yet, but I was a step ahead.

After so many years, I can hardly remember Gu Mingsheng sitting in the studio and concentrating on painting. I can only vaguely remember his charm that was stronger than any moment when he was concentrating.He graduated from Yancheng Academy of Fine Arts, and painting is the only hobby he admits in my impression.It's just that art is too expensive, and Gu Mingsheng needs money, and the expenditure is not proportional to the return. The practical problem made him finally choose to put down his brush and continue to be a model.

There is nothing wrong with this result. Everyone has to make money to make a living. He chose the path that was more suitable for him at the time, but I feel sorry for him occasionally giving up.

If Gu Mingsheng really wants to take the road of art again, I will definitely raise my hands and support him a hundred times.

Facing the question, Gu Mingsheng slowly rubbed the cup wall, after a moment of silence, he said flatly: "I want to be an actor."

This is undoubtedly a blockbuster. The sound of the flat ground made my ears ring for a while, and it lasted for a long time.

No matter how I think about it, I never thought it would be the answer.The book that Gu Mingsheng put on the bed that night suddenly appeared in his mind, which seemed to be about acting. This result may not be without warning.

The tea has no effect on moisturising, so I asked with a tight throat, "Are you going to act?"

"This is my best choice after weighing."

Gu Mingsheng seemed to exhale a long breath, he met my eyes, and after a moment of hesitation, he returned to his usual indifference, as if the momentary bleakness never appeared.

"If I meet an employer who is willing to support me, act in a few dramas, and accept a few commercials, even if I have to be taken away by the company, the money I get will still be several times that of the model. I have accumulated a lot in the past few years. With fewer fans, switching to an actor can maximize the existing capital. Compared with those inexperienced newcomers, my foundation is more solid. If everything goes well, I can earn enough retirement money in at most ten years, what do you think?"

He enumerates so well that it is hard not to agree.However, I felt an inexplicable sense of irritability, and it was densely coiled in my heart. It was not only because of Gu Mingsheng's words about treating himself as a commodity, but also because he had concealed nothing from me.

The most obvious change in him over the years is that he has learned to hide everything with a smile.The muscles at the corners of the mouth pulled upwards, and the eyelids drooped slightly, as if gentle and harmless, which made me often ignore his indifferent nature to the bone.

I couldn't say anything I agreed with, and I couldn't think of a point to refute. I took a sip of tea silently, "Since you have made a decision, don't be swayed by other people's ideas."

The air was silent, and Gu Mingsheng's smile faded a little, "Don't you want me to enter the entertainment industry?"

"It's your cause, and I'm sure I'll support it."

"Xiao Yao, I just want to know what you think."

While the atmosphere was frozen, I looked at him complicatedly, with an inexplicable and inescapable emotion clogged in my chest, which finally turned into a dull sentence: "You should know that the entertainment industry is very chaotic."

"Modeling is not very clean. I always know how to say no, and I know what to do so that I don't hurt myself."

Gu Mingsheng's brows gradually loosened, revealing a trace of rare tenderness, "Xiao Yao, are you worried about me?"

He rarely showed such an expression, and the amber pupils rendered an absurd and untimely affection.My heart beat two beats faster, I hurriedly looked away, and after a vague 'hmm', the door of the box was pushed open by the waiter, and Gu Mingsheng and I silently stopped talking, and didn't say any more.

He pushed the two dishes I ordered in front of him, smiled slightly, "Let's eat first."

I picked up the chopsticks and did not refuse his overtures.

Unknowingly, Gu Mingsheng changed a lot.

For example, in the past, he would never analyze the pros and cons calmly, let alone put a price on his future, but sometimes I feel that he is still the same as before. Still harboring the blood of a young man.

Sometimes he lives too ostentatiously and casually, and sometimes he lives too cautiously, like walking on the two extremes of a tightrope, passing the balance point countless times.

There are so many ways to live in the world, but he has to choose the most tiring one.

"I think you should think about it again."

Seeing Gu Mingsheng's hand holding the food slightly paused, I heard my voice echoing in the small box: "You are not short of money now, why don't you do what you like? When you were in college, you said you wanted to hold an art exhibition, and you wanted to do it after graduation. When you went abroad to study, you didn’t have enough conditions at that time, but now you have everything, why do you force yourself to do a job you don’t like?”

I clearly know that Gu Mingsheng doesn't like acting at all, just like he didn't like being a model called a 'vase' back then.

He just needs money and needs to give him and his mother a better life, so he has no choice but to choose this path.Ever since I met Gu Mingsheng, he has never let go of his burden. If washing dishes can earn more money than being a model, I think he would do it without hesitation.

It has nothing to do with likes and dreams, but a compromise of life after being desperate.

I have never experienced that kind of life, I can't understand his feelings, and I can't empathize with the importance of money to him.I just selfishly don't want him to get farther and farther away from me, so far away that I can't catch up.

Silence spread, and Gu Mingsheng rarely responded with jokes.He flattened the corners of his lips, and his expressionless facial features were indifferent and indifferent. After shedding that careless shell, he suddenly made me feel strange.

"Xiao Yao, you shouldn't expect extravagant things from the very beginning. This is the truth I learned later." He looked at me quietly and pulled out an extremely inferior smile, "There is nothing like money. That brings a realistic temperature, and maybe you'll understand these things later on."

I don't think I'll ever understand it in my life.

But I didn't try to expose his blatant lies, I just nodded slowly and heavily, the mood under the calm shell seemed to have fallen from a high place to the bottom, it was terrible.