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As soon as An Xun drove the car out of the underground parking lot of the unit building, the aunt at the courier station stopped her: "Doctor An, there is a courier from your little sister, do you want to help her get it? We are going to close the door."

She got out of the car politely, took the courier with both hands, nodded and said softly, "Thank you."

I checked the information and the package was complete. It seems that it should be something like a document. I was about to sign for confirmation when I suddenly noticed the blue palm print of the embassy on the outside of the yellow leather envelope. sink.

Jiang Yien never mentioned to her about going abroad to study, and she also wanted to ask the girl how her preparations were going several times, but she still had more than a year to go, as long as the school got in touch, there was no need to worry about other things .

An Xun didn't know why the embassy sent the courier at this time.I wanted to see what was going on, but after some hesitation, I still didn't open it.

No matter what it is, she would rather hear the girl take the initiative to tell her than to know it behind her back.

"No problem?" The aunt at the courier station held a small book and waited for her to sign. Seeing that she hadn't confirmed it for a long time, she couldn't help asking.

An Xun regained his senses, and replied hastily: "Well, no problem, thanks for your hard work."

Afterwards, he hurriedly signed and drove to the school.

Meanwhile, at the barbecue stall, Ji Xiaoyu jokingly responded to Jiang Yien's question.

"Worthy! You are not as beautiful as the goddess, not as big as the goddess, not as good as the goddess, and not as good as the goddess..." Seeing Jiang Yien bursting into tears in a daze, he waved his hand: "Oh, I was joking! Why don't you deserve it?" Come on, you are the best match in the whole world!"

"Actually, I've seen what my classmates said. Sister An was posting every day during the few nights in the hospital, and secretly created a small account to scold them. Hehe... Isn't my sister An cute?"

Jiang Yien had fun in the midst of bitterness, and absently put the ham sausage in his hand into the beer mug and twirled it around.

Two days ago, a classmate sent her the post that slandered her by name and surname, and told her that someone was speaking for her. She just clicked on it and realized that it was still a long-winded post.

She read the content carefully, and first posted the published SCI medical papers as evidence of her strength, analyzed the gold content in the papers in an orderly manner, and explained the basis for insurance research, and why Renzhuo Hospital was willing to accept her. practice.

Second, it is to teach those students who spread rumors and make trouble.It is better to say that it is teaching than teaching.Seeing that convincing attitude and persuasive tone, Jiang Yien knew that apart from An Xun, no one would say such words again, and no one would help her deal with such a naive little matter with such clear logic.

What's more, that id is too easy to recognize, it is the password for the door control at home.She also saw many students' guesses under the post, and some people guessed that this reply was sent by An Xun, and someone even picked up the meaning of the id number, and she suddenly realized it at that time.

It turns out that "292593" is "An Xunai Jiang Yien".

It turned out that Sister An had been expressing her heart implicitly since the time she made an appointment with her lover.

As a friend, Ji Xiaoyu, of course, understands and defends Jiang Yien, and she does not seldom fight back against those remarks. As a little devil in the world, she is most afraid of seeing teachers and leaders. For Jiang Yien, she even went to the Student Affairs Office to complain. The school severely punishes those who spread rumors.

"Don't be influenced by those dogs, they are just jealous of you!"

"I know, but the emotion of jealousy itself comes from seeing people with similar abilities as you achieve higher results than you, right? They think in their hearts that I am not worthy of Sister An, so they say those nasty things. "

Ji Xiaoyu was speechless.

Jiang Yien smiled wryly. In fact, she had realized a long time ago that all An Xun's worries and timidity before were not unfounded worries.She could have been fearless of people's words, and she could ignore the voices that questioned her misconduct, said that her graduate insurance and internship quotas were all obtained through improper means, and she was not afraid of shadows.

It's just that the recent dire situation made her deeply trapped in her grandmother's words and she couldn't get out. She also reflected over and over again, why is she worthy of An Xun?What can she bring to An Xun?

Every time I think of these two questions, my heart hurts like a knife.

"Do you know? Just because I jumped into the river stupidly, Sister An has nightmares every day. She calls my name in the dream, then wakes up crying, looks for me, hugs me and trembles..."

Jiang Yien's words were gradually interrupted by sobs:

"I know she must be very angry when she sees me taking risks, but she didn't scold me fiercely, nor blame me. She hides all her emotions by herself... I have been avoiding her for the past three months, pretending to be asleep, Just afraid, afraid that she...will push me away again for my own good..."

Ji Xiaoyu was so drunk that he didn't hear the first half of the paragraph, and suddenly he slapped the table excitedly: "Yes, yes, yes! It's for your own good to push you away, and the one in our family is still talking, what... I don't want you to do it for me and my family. The chaos is turned upside down... Heh! They are older, they like to think too much! They are self-righteous! Hey! Or we can make do with each other, and let her two old people tangle themselves!"

Jiang Yien smiled through tears, and threw the ham sausage into the opposite bowl: "Fuck you! You are not allowed to speak ill of Sister An!"

"Ah, I got it, I'm talking about that idiot Wen Jing, right?" Ji Xiaoyu picked up the wine-smelling ham sausage and took a bite: "When you talk about love, what you need is bravery? You're all cowering, If you are cowardly and timid when encountering a little thing, then what is love?!"

Jiang Yien shook his head: "No, love requires bravery, but not blind bravery. It is said in the biography of celebrities, 'Detachment without suffering is frivolous.' We are fearless because we are ignorant. They They have experienced more than us, always see more hidden dangers and uncertainties than we do, bear more responsibilities and even infamy, so they step back again and again in order to protect us. If we blame them for cowardice in turn, That's too much."

Ji Xiaoyu paused, and let out a "tss": "You are really more and more like a goddess, and you are reasonable... Then what do you think I should do! Really give up? My mother is now every day Talking about me, saying that I know how to play games all day long, I haven't passed the exam, and I haven't read well, saying that I hang out with the nurse all day long, and I don't want to make progress. What's wrong with the nurse? Our family is quiet and serious How about a double first-class undergraduate degree?!"

Jiang Yien thought for a moment, drank the beer in the glass, turned it upside down on the table, took another beer bottle and put it next to the glass, and gestured: "Look, the glass is like a hill, I am now, Just on this mountain, the beer bottle is the higher mountain on the opposite side, what should I do if I want to climb the higher mountain?"

Drunk, Ji Xiaoyu squinted her eyes and thought for a moment, then grinned, stretched out her hand like a villain, and jumped from the glass to the sky above the beer bottle: "Jump over, hahahaha..."

Jiang Yien frowned, knocked down that hand, and scolded her ferociously: "I'll kill you!" Then, her eyebrows and eyes lowered for a moment, and she whispered solemnly:

"If you want to climb the higher mountain on the opposite side, you must first go down the mountain."

Ji Xiaoyu was silent for at least five seconds, and finally couldn't help but snort, stood up and slapped Jiang Yien on the head: "Why are you pretending to be an old professor! You speak too profoundly, I don't understand!"

Jiang Yien pressed her down and explained: "Your mother objects to you being together, the more you slam her, the more she objects, you might as well take a step back, obediently listen to your mother, finish your studies well first, pass all the exams that need to be taken, let She knows that you have the ability to do your own thing well, including the choice of a partner. You just need to convince your mother that you are not a kid who only knows how to play games, and that you can make progress together with Wen Jing, so it will be convincing .”

"You speak like an adult now."

Ji Xiaoyu underestimated her lips, and continued:

"Oh, it's annoying you the most. I just want to be a salted fish, isn't it okay? I'm not born to study. If my mother didn't force me since I was a child, I wouldn't be able to get into Renzhuo Medical University. I Knowing that society needs you people to build, those who have no ambition deserve to die?"

Jiang Yien was amazed, she suddenly realized that the joys and sorrows of human beings are not interlinked, it turns out that having a mother in charge is also a kind of distress.It turned out that when I was annoyed that I couldn't bear to just be a child by Sister An's side, there were also people who were dreaming of being a salted fish.

She understands the mentality of wanting to be a salted fish. People without ambition also have a way of life without ambition. Kekou keeps calling for independence and freedom, while reaching out for the financial support and network resources of the family. How can she really get rid of the shackles of the family.

It is not difficult to be a salted fish quietly, and it is not difficult to give up the greenhouse where you can be a child. What is difficult is self-consistency.Can't escape, is not reconciled.

She struggled a bit, but still swallowed these words, she saw that Ji Xiaoyu was most annoyed by preaching, and people who wanted to make their own lives a mess, how could they be qualified to preach to others.Just because of the drunkenness, she also rebelled for a while, the words changed, and the sword took a slant.

"How old are you, and how old is your mother. If you really persevere to the end, can she consume more energy than you?"

Ji Xiaoyu was dumbfounded.

He slapped the table again and stood up.Jiang Yi'en thought she was going to yell at her, but she didn't expect that a not-so-polite remark hit Ji Xiaoyu's heart.

"Listening to your words is better than reading ten years of books!"

Jiang Yien couldn't laugh or cry.

Unknowingly, late at night, Jiang Yien looked at the time and felt that it was almost time to go back.After paying the bill, he helped Ji Xiaoyu to deliver it to the door of the graduate student's apartment.

"Are you sure you don't want to go home?"

"I'll go back after drinking like this, my mother won't beat me to death."

"I mean...Wen Jing's place..." Jiang Yien lost her confidence, she was the only one who regarded the place where her girlfriend was as "home".

Ji Xiaoyu was stunned for a moment, because she had moved back to the dormitory for two or three days because of the breakup, she spoke so decisively when she left, how could she move back with the cheek now.

"Forget it, let me be free for two days." She still waved her hand and went upstairs.

Jiang Yien sighed and stopped persuading her.

It's already the beginning of summer. At this time in the south, some dormitories can't bear to turn on the air conditioner. Standing outside the building, they will inevitably be devastated by the hot air from the external unit of the air conditioner.But the inseparable lovers will still stay outside the door, kissing more passionately than the wind.

In the past, Jiang Yien, like thousands of single youths, didn't like to see such scenes, and didn't even understand such intimate intimacy.But now seeing them again, thinking about An Xun, I felt a little more tolerant in my heart.

As soon as she walked out of the school gate, she immediately noticed the out-of-fit figure next to the barbecue stand, and she couldn't help but pause.

It's the person she always keeps in mind.

In the night breeze, that frivolous and depressed figure seemed isolated and helpless.It seems that she is in a hurry. After all, Sister An, who always pays attention to her image, rarely goes out wearing a white T-shirt and home wide-leg pants.

What's more, from a distance, you can see that there is a slight frown between the brows, looking down at the time repeatedly, and sighing again when looking up, pacing back and forth beside the seat where they just had a drink to relieve their worries.

If someone happens to pass by, their eyes will probably stop at that woman, and they will probably also think about who is such a cold and refined woman willing to fall into the fireworks for, who is she waiting for at this moment?Eyebrows, who are you melancholy for?

"Are you waiting for me?"

Jiang Yien's brain twitched, and the first sentence he asked after approaching was so outrageous.Maybe she was drunk, or maybe deep down in her heart, she still couldn't believe that such a person with clear eyes, who wanted to step forward to care for anyone who saw her, was actually waiting for such an ordinary her.

As everyone knows, coming and going, no one stays, and no one looks back, only her eyes are always staring at that person.

An Xun looked back and turned around, seeing that the little girl was safe and sound, he breathed a sigh of relief: "I saw your books and mobile phone are here, so I guessed that you would come back again, where did you go? How could these belongings be thrown away like this? Woolen cloth?"

Her gentle yet hasty reproach made her eyes gradually turn red.

"I'll send Xiaoyu back to the dormitory. No one will take these here, and I asked the boss to watch for me..." The girl explained in a panic.

Before An Xun could finish speaking, he hugged her into his arms, and smelled the strong smell of alcohol on the girl's body, and the tears in her eyes couldn't contain them.

"Xiao En, don't hide from me anymore, okay?"

She almost begged.

Jiang Yien seemed to be stabbed hard by something hard, his heart was dull and sore: "Sister An, I'm sorry, I made you worry."

The tip of An Xun's nose was sore again. She hadn't heard a girl call her "Sister An" for a long time.She knew that the death of her grandmother was a great blow to the girl, and she knew that once a person was hit, he would either resign himself to depravity or force himself to be strong.She can understand the girl, she is just so distressed and powerless.

"You only call me Sister An when you're drunk?"

"I..." Jiang Yien felt stuck in his throat, pondered for a while, gritted his teeth, and finally said the following words:

"I just don't want you to bear too much for this sister. I know I'm not capable of protecting you yet. Can you wait for me for two years? I will catch up with you as soon as possible. I will work hard to make you return to the old An Xiao Not a good hobby?"

The girl's tone was firm and persistent.

An Xun's brows trembled, and there were mixed feelings in her heart. She said it was heart-warming, but it was like a knife was twisted, and she said it was painful, but it really gave her the tenderness that was cherished in her heart.In the bottom of the eyes, there is a sense of regret, as if seeing a flower bone that has been carefully cared for, withering before it can bloom.

The former An Xiaoai, she couldn't find it herself, it was something she had frozen herself for a long time, probably, since she cried heart-piercingly at the airport for the first time, she can't wait for the day when her mother turns back Since then, it is already dead.

How can a girl do her best, give her all, and work hard for this impossible wish.

She didn't know how to answer, so she could only smile helplessly, rubbed the girl's hair, and sighed softly.

"Silly girl, go home."

The author has something to say: I am getting fat, I have been a little busy recently, and the old problem of irregular work and rest and stomach pain has happened again, and I will try my best to update it in the future!Is this chapter a little bit sweeter? o(≧v≦)o