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Jiang Yien didn't know how to face her uncle and aunt, she said frankly that she hated their despicable behavior, hated them for making her grandma leave in a cold hospital on New Year's Eve, when the family should celebrate the festive season.

She also hated herself for being too weak and incompetent, and she was still worrying her grandma in the end.

There was still arguing outside the door, and she heard her uncle and aunt talking about her so badly in order to shirk responsibility, such as white-eyed wolf, such a burden, such as "raised so hard to fight for inheritance with myself today".Every word and every word wiped away the last bit of family affection that she had warmed up in her heart so hard that blood was thicker than water.

She escaped the explosion and drowned, but she couldn't resist the coldness of human nature.

She also heard the senior doctors and nurses fighting for her, and felt the unconditional trust and protection.For a moment, she couldn't tell which side was her family.

She just felt like she was about to be torn apart.

"Don't be afraid, I'm here."

Beside her ears, there was a voice that seemed like gossamer, and a pair of gentle hands slid across her cheeks, covering her ears, as if they had firmly blocked her slap just now, these hands comforted her softly and firmly again .

Under the palms, the quarrel went away, and it was replaced by the sound of peaceful waves.She also wanted to follow this tenderness and escape, but she had grown up, she shouldn't escape, besides, grandma definitely didn't want to see her and uncle quarreling like this.

So, she abandoned An Xun's embrace, leaned over the hospital bed, and covered her grandmother's ears.

"Grandma, can't you hear me? Don't worry if you can't hear me."

An Xun was in so much pain that she didn't dare to look at this scene again, turned her back to wipe away her tears, and went out to deal with everything behind the girl.

"Stop arguing, this is a hospital. The old man has just left, and you are making noise like this, what does it look like?"

Sun Meifeng was furious, and when she saw a junior in An Xun talking like this, she became even more irritable: "You don't pretend to be a good person here, how did the old lady enter the hospital? Do you think you are innocent? If it weren't for your leadership style, bring Wrecking our family Xiao En, causing rumors in the school, the old lady will suddenly get angry and get sick?!"

Su Wen glared, and took a step forward: "Hey, why are you crazy dogs biting people?"

An Xun stopped Su from asking, and his brows frowned: "Can you speak clearly? What do you mean making a fuss in the school?"

Sun Meifeng rolled her eyes: "My son has told me that in the school's post bar, they are talking about our Xiaoen, saying that she flattered the leader for the sake of internship targets, so don't mention those words. It's a girl who is innocent and innocent. It was ruined by you, why do you have the face to pretend to be innocent here? Last time the old lady got angry and beat Jiang Yien, and this time she fell ill when she received a call from the school, what else could it be if it wasn't because of this?"

The man on the side tugged her: "Okay, don't talk about it, you can't expose your family ugliness."

"What can't be said, our Xiao En is a victim! She just came out of society, what can she understand?" Sun Meifeng, as always, acted like a good aunt in front of people, and looked at An Xun contemptuously: "She keeps saying that she is lying to the old man. The wife said that you two are true love. We Xiao En got together during the internship. Isn’t it a trick or something? You can feel your conscience. If you have any relationship problems, can you avenge your private revenge unfairly? Don’t let her internship grade go? "

An Xun was stunned, and explained with a downcast face: "We only got together after the internship relationship ended, and it's not as bad as you said."

"Not together? You brought them home during the internship and are you still together?"

An Xun was extremely helpless, it was like a scholar who met a soldier and was stunned speechless.

She suddenly realized how the injury on the girl's calf came about, and also suddenly realized how ignorant and ridiculous it was for her to go to school to support the girl.

The initial concerns were allayed by Chen Nianci's warmth and love, and she also found support in the attitudes of her colleagues, but she forgot that Renzhuo's doctors and nurses treated Jiang Yien with the filter of "children of martyrs", outside of this utopia Where there is still a dark side, there are still these vulgar and narrow visions.

Su asked where he was willing to swallow his anger, sneered and said sarcastically: "Yo! You haven't read a lot of books, but you have heard a lot of gossips? My gossip sister is about to bow down! She even flattered the leader to get her internship results... toilet paper None of you can pull it off!"

"You!" Sun Meifeng was at a loss for words, and there were ridicules from all around.

An Xun couldn't laugh at all, he just felt a headache, and just when he felt that the end was hard to come by, the girl opened the door, protected her behind her, and forced Sun Meifeng back step by step.

Seeing the fierce look on the girl's face, Sun Meifeng couldn't help but lose her momentum: "You...what do you want to do? I'm your aunt!"

"Xiao En..." An Xun has never seen a girl like this before. The once soft and cute milk doll seems to be covered with hard thorns, and her heart aches and her heart aches.

It turns out that heartache and heartache are two emotions.Let her eyes be filled with tears of tenderness and pity, and her hands clenched hard and forbearing fists again.

Jiang Yien just bowed deeply.

"It's An Xun who I actively pursued. Those rumors are not true."

"Uncle, aunt. I'm sorry for causing you trouble these days. I don't want the house or money. You have worked hard to raise me for so many years. In the future, I will honor you well. Let me be with you to send grandma well Is it the last ride?"

Everyone, seeing the girl's repayment of kindness with kindness, had relief and kindness in their eyes.

Only An Xun was weeping, the girl she cared for had grown up, she had to bear the burden of humiliation, and she didn't even softly call her Sister An anymore.That calm and steady "An Xun" hurt her so much.

It hurt so much that she hugged the girl into her arms, but she couldn't feel any relief.

The old man left suddenly, and there are still many funeral affairs to be taken care of. Jiang Yien still needs to be hospitalized for observation, and An Xun is too injured to work hard. Fortunately, after hearing the news, the doctors and nurses who are on vacation came to help take care of the old man. out of the hospital.

The first seven, burial.

In gloomy, snowy and rainy days, there are not many "relatives and friends" coming. It's no wonder that no one wants to come to this unlucky place during the Chinese New Year.However, many doctors and nurses came from Renzhuo, and there were many unknown faces among them. The scene was not deserted.

Jiang Yien hugged the urn and waited for the final farewell ceremony to end. The grandfather in front of the tomb was chanting words she couldn't understand, while dirge music was played around her, and the hypocritical wailing of her uncles and aunts filled her ears.

She was silent for a long, long time, and stopped crying. She just couldn't believe that her grandma, who was so big, could be hidden in this small square box in her arms.

"Grandma, you've become so small."

She didn't cry, only tears kept falling.

A bloody storm, in the pious mourning of everyone, finally ended.Jiang Yien's 23rd birthday was also missed in a hurry.

Without blowing out the candles, my heart has grown old for many years.

There was also good news after the bombing incident, because there were no stranded people in the hot pot restaurant at that time, so no one died. The last seriously injured patient was also discharged from the hospital three months later.

Jiang Yien's drowning did not leave any sequelae because of the timely rescue, so it was considered safe and sound.Under the careful care of the girl, An Xun's injury recovered as before.

It's just that in the past three months, An Xun saw the little girl as a different person, she seldom smiled or spoke.I will never hug her and act like a baby and call her sister An again.

She has always wanted to find a chance to make up for the little girl's birthday, and she also wanted to talk about the knots left over from New Year's Eve, but the little girl has been very busy since she was discharged from the hospital, leaving early and returning late every day, classrooms and libraries. , When I came back, I was almost too tired to fall asleep, and there were very few opportunities to talk, let alone birthday.

The prepared surprise has been hidden in the trunk of the car for too long.

Today, An Xun waited for the little girl to come home as usual on the sofa. He didn't turn on the TV or open the book, but wrapped in a blanket, curled up in the corner of the sofa, waiting silently.

These days, she always had nightmares and felt suffocated repeatedly.She dreamed that the little girl was crying heartbreakingly in the cemetery, dreamed of the terrifying river, dreamed that the darkness and chaos were always full of insults and slanders, and her girl, curled up in a corner alone, refused to ask her again. One step closer.

Every time after waking up, she would hug the sleeping girl beside her into her arms and kiss gently, but the girl seemed to be too tired to sleep soundly, and she never hugged her like before, stroking the back of her hair Coax her, tell her it's all a dream.

Girls also have nightmares, and every time they wake up from crying, they will keep their voices down, refusing to let her hug them, but desperately covering their ears, begging: "Don't, don't..."

She didn't know what was between them, so that her girl wouldn't smile at her.

It was past nine o'clock, and Jiang Yien hadn't returned home yet. Although he sent a message saying that he would be back before eleven o'clock, An Xun was still worried at night, so he planned to go to school to find her.Unexpectedly, as soon as he went out, he saw Wen Jing standing at the door.

"Doctor An, are you going out?" Wen Jing withdrew her hand from ringing the doorbell.

An Xun responded to her while putting on her shoes: "Xiao En hasn't come back yet, I'll pick her up from school. What's the matter with you?"

"Oh... it's next month, we'll quit the lease, we've already told your father... no, the landlord has already agreed to say hello to you."

An Xun said calmly: "Just talk to my father," and then asked politely: "Are you planning to go home with Xiaoyu?"

Wen Jing mumbled for a long time, then said weakly: "No, we broke up.

A flash of surprise flashed in An Xun's eyes: "Why?"

"Her mother dislikes me as a nurse, not worthy of her daughter..." Wen Jing's explanation made her feel even more ridiculous.

In the past, when she was alone, she didn't understand the style, and didn't know the pain of separation and reunion in love. Now that Jiang Yien has created a storm in her heart, she can empathize with these lovelorn girls even more.

She knew what kind of torment and torture the calm and indifferent little girl was going through in her heart.

I didn't want to comfort others, so I opened my mouth unprecedentedly:

"Wen Jing, you are excellent. Don't belittle yourself because of those stupid prejudices. I believe Ji Xiaoyu will not be shaken by this, and you should not give up easily. I will keep the house for you all the time."

Wen Jing was obviously a little surprised that An Xun would tell her this, and was stunned for a moment, then smiled wryly: "Thank you, Dr. An, but it's over with her."

An Xun looked at Wen Jing's lonely back and sighed weakly.

Emotions are really fragile things.It is too difficult to stick to it, and passers-by are in a hurry. She knows that it is too arrogant to expect to be with her for a lifetime.All along, she only dared to hope that she could love Jiang Yien for the rest of her life.As long as there is someone she can love in her heart, she will not turn back to the ice doll she used to be.

With such a pessimistic attitude, her love for the girl only increased.

At the barbecue stand near Renzhuo Medical University, Ji Xiaoyu was drunk.Jiang Yien sat across from him, sipping mutton skewers and drinking wine, and got very drunk.

On the empty seat next to the table, there are still a lot of professional books and grammar books. These days, Jiang Yien is working hard for her grandmother's last wish, trying to become a person worthy of An Xun.In this way, relieve the pain and anxiety in your heart.

As soon as she left the library, she received a call from Ji Xiaoyu, and only then did she report to An Xun that she would be home before eleven o'clock.Ben was still trying to persuade Ji Xiaoyu, but the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time could no longer be hidden in the heart-piercing cries.

"Is it because she doesn't deserve me? It's because I don't deserve her! Do you know? I dated two girlfriends before..." Ji Xiaoyu raised five fingers and gestured with Jiang Yien: "Two ...No one has ever been able to bring me to the throne!"

Jiang Yien pointed at her and smirked: "The two of you were dumped without holding hands, so that counts?"

"Why not!" Ji Xiaoyu withdrew her slap, shaking her head, "I don't admit that Wen Jing is my first love!"

Jiang Yien took a sip of beer and sneered: "You're a dead duck with a hard mouth," laughing, a translucent drop of water slid down his flushed cheeks.

"Then tell me, am I worthy of Sister An..."

She finally asked what she had been struggling with for a long time.