come close to me hold me

At night, a slim and graceful figure came out of the bar, wearing a low-necked black dress, every step she took, her whiteness was faintly visible between the slits of the skirt, and the sequins on the skirt were full of colorful lights under the colorful light of the door, making that Perfection is more and more charming.

The woman's burgundy hair curled in big light waves, her eyeliner outlined the pair of foxy eyebrows, and her red lips were flaming.Such a woman seems to encounter a love that can come and go freely at any time, like a wild horse that most people will be crazy about but can't bring home.

Who would have thought that a woman's profession is a doctor.

This bar job was Su Wen's second part-time job, and it was completely different from the job she taught high school students every weekend night.Fortunately, in this most elegant bar in Qinghuan City, there are not so many fish and dragons mingling, and it is not so noisy. She just needs to sing a few love songs quietly with her guitar in a dark corner, that's all.

With this month's salary in hand, she went to the tobacco shop owner to buy a pack of the most popular women's cigarettes in the shop, the one with double pops, which was a long-awaited pastime for her.

When he arrived at the riverside, Su Wen looked at the splendor on the other side alone, with tears in his eyes, biting his white teeth lightly, and the two explosive pearls left a fragrance between his lips and teeth, which was the sweet and sour taste of grapes and oranges.It was the first time she had tasted such a taste, and she couldn't help but smile wryly, puffing, which was actually a luxury for her.

The headlights flashed past her back, a white Jaguar found a parking space not far under the bridge, another woman got out of the car, and came rushing to the car with a windbreaker in her hand. She wrapped herself in warmth.

"Su asked, don't you know it's the end of October! Is it appropriate to dress like this?! Don't you know how to change clothes before going out?!"

Su Wen pinched the spark in his hand, turned his back to the woman and exhaled her last puff of smoke, indifferent to her scolding.Looking at the other side of the river, there is still a little water in his eyes, and he smiles poignantly.

"Minmin, have you seen the building opposite? It's the busiest business center in Qinghuan City. My dad used to be there, and he had an office by the window. You can see the best view of the river when you turn around..."

"But, it's better up there. Have you seen the restaurant on the roof? It's there..." Su Wen pointed, with a little depression in his charming eyes: "That's the most expensive restaurant in Qinghuan City. Riverview restaurant. When I was a child, after school every Friday, my mother and I would wait there for my father to get off work. At that time, I didn’t think how delicious the steak was, and we ate the roadside stalls all day long. Hmph, how can I expect today... ..."

Li Min looked at the woman in front of him, and for a moment dispelled the anger in his heart, followed her to look at the lights on the other side, feeling endlessly desolate in his heart.

"I ran into Liang Xiaojing in the hospital this afternoon, so I got my number. And I made that fake look, it doesn't have to be disgusting." Su Wen hooked the corners of his mouth and sneered.

"Liang Xiaojing? Is that the friend you grew up with?"

Li Min has a vague impression of this name, and it is because he heard Su Wen dictate it to himself when he was in college.

That year, Su Wen wove a scarf by himself as a birthday present for Liang Xiaojing, but was ridiculed by some girls at the birthday party, and even tore the scarf in a joke.Liang Xiaojing just felt ashamed, and asked her not to bring gifts next time, but put the scarf in a bag indiscriminately, and returned it to her.

That was the last friend she believed she would not lose because of family accidents, so the whole army was wiped out.

That night, Su Wen returned to the dormitory in the rain, covered his head and cried a lot, and became unconscious from the fever the next day.After An Xun knew the reason, he personally repaired the scarf that had been trampled and torn, and put it beside Su Wen's pillow. He also began to let go of his arrogance, and tried to ask Su Wen to go to class and eat together.

When Li Min heard these stories, it was already two years after the incident, Su Wen said it with a smile, she thought she had passed away long ago.Only today did I suddenly understand that some pains are like barbs in the palm of the hand. It doesn’t hurt if you don’t touch it, but it’s still there. The perpetrator may have forgotten it long ago, but for the victim, it’s not so easy to forget.

"Su Wen, stop looking at the other side of the river,"

Li Min pulled back the woman who had been sunk in the past, and met those rippling eyes, affectionately.

"Look at me..."

The fingertips intertwined into the strands of hair, firmly clasped the man's head, caught off guard and kissed the red lips, and then it became more and more intense.

Su Wen's eyes widened in surprise, and he didn't dare to meet him, but the progressive strength, stirring the water color, provocatively restrained, kissed her panicked and weakened, unable to restrain, a few soft sighs overflowed from his lips and teeth.She wanted to push it away, but the hands blocking the man's arms wanted to refuse and return, grasping so tightly, so tightly.

"Min...don't..."

Just a second later, before he could take a breath, he was swallowed again, and the words could no longer continue.There was a wind blowing on the river, but her body became hot. She knew that if she continued to kiss her, she would fall and be unwilling to do so.

"Li Min! You're crazy!" Su Wen pushed Li Min away with the last ounce of reason.He stared blankly, not knowing what to do next.

"I'm crazy! I've been waiting for you for ten years because I'm crazy! Do you have to wait until I'm old to be satisfied!" Li Min had tears in his eyes, the corners of his lips were stained with the redness of the flames, and his expression was sad, as if he was about to All the grievances in my heart were vented into the surging river.

Her biggest grievance is unwillingness.

I don't want to pass my life like this hastily, I don't want to love so strongly, but hide it so faintly.

She has been a child of other people's family since she was a child, and she is used to being obedient and following the rules. After thirty, she still has no stable relationship, which is already "rebellious" to her. If there is no Su Wen, she will probably obey the family's arrangement , Find a man from IKEA and IKEA to marry.

But seeing the favorite, how can I settle for the second best.Everyone advised her to turn around, but no one told her what to do?How to turn back so that it doesn't hurt.

If she doesn't vent, she might really go crazy.

"Be sober! Do you think the drama of long-term love works for me? An Xun is following this trick because what she desolates is emotion, not material!" Su Wen's voice was tearing, and he looked so pale in the wind of the river Weakness: "Li Min, I can't give you anything, if you stay with me, it will only lower your standard of living, you know that!"

It's hard for An Xun to let go of the past, but she really can't afford the future.

"Su Wen, don't you understand? I've lived to this age and I don't need anything. What I want is love!"

"Love is worth the ass!"

When she was in surplus, she also thought that money was not important.But when she drank milk that was expired for three days and had diarrhea for two days, as long as it didn't change the taste next time, she would still drink it bravely. She knew that poverty can really make a person's life without a bottom line .

But love cannot prevent milk from expiring.

"I have the house and the car. If you want to eat steak, I will take you there. Even if you can't squander it every day, it's no problem spending money on holidays. Those debts will always be paid off. Two people are better than one person. Soon isn't it?"

"But why should I drag you down? Just because I love you, and you just happen to love me? This kind of nonsense, no little girl nowadays will believe it!" Su Wen blurted out in a moment of impatience, and suddenly burst into tears, unstoppable.

"You admit, you love me?"

Was it an illusion caused by the whistling river wind, or the continuous flow of river water washed away the disguise, this was the first time she heard Su Wen say that she loved her.The brain is buzzing, as if the wind and waves are not so important.

She loves me...

If he hadn't met An Xun before coming here, Li Min probably wouldn't have the confidence to believe these words.

It was still in the afternoon, when An Xun came out of Su Wen's office, he happened to see Li Min who turned around and left. Seeing that she was full of desolation, she was still holding a key tightly in her hand.It was only then that he suddenly realized that Li Min's original kindness was cut off by him.In order to make up for it, An Xun took the initiative to reveal the secret that Su Wen had said in his student days:

She said that when she has money in the future, she will find that fool in the student union to fall in love.

People's longing for love has always been beautiful, but she never thought that her father would leave behind a huge debt and run away, making her already struggling life worse.Let "being rich in the future" become an unattainable dream.

"So what about love? When you can't even afford a good meal, you will know that the most useless thing in this world is love." Su Wen snorted, the depression in her eyes got a little bit worse, she no longer knew Are you speaking the truth, or are you speaking insincerely?

"How do you know it's a drag? You never asked me if I was willing or not. Why do you choose for me?! Su Wen, you're right, I'm a fool... I just lost my mind, so I can't help you." I will look forward to the day when you, a bitch, can understand me!"

When Su Wen saw the person in front of him crying and screaming in a panic, his heart skipped a beat. He instinctively wanted to support her and hug her, but his rationality made the hand that hadn't reached out in time retreat completely.

"Do you think I don't know that there is no one in the bathroom of the dormitory? Do you think that An Xun is really good at lying and deceiving people? What do you think I gritted my teeth and worked in the student union for four years? Wasn't it to help a part-time job come home late? Is your fool cheating the world!"

"What did you say?" Su Wen froze with shock in his eyes.

She began to work and study, and often came home late, and every time she checked the bed, it was An Xun who helped to prevaricate.But she didn't know that even if An Xun didn't help her, that idiot from the student union would never give her a demerit.

"You really don't understand at all how difficult ten years is... Su Wen, you are a fool, in the whole world... there is no one more stupid than you, Su Wen..."

The choking has made Li Min almost unable to utter a complete sentence. How could a woman over thirty allow herself to cry so embarrassingly on the side of the road.

Turning around, covering her mouth to suppress her crying, she ran all the way back into the car, lying on the steering wheel, and finally cried out all her unwillingness and regret.

In a twist of fate, she never expected that Su Wen would love her, but she suddenly learned that the person Su Wen loved was always her.Anyway, she used to think that her secret love was meaningful, she thought that the person Su Wen loved was always An Xun.Secret love is hard, at least, it won't hinder her, at least, it can fulfill her.

But is everything in vain?Ten years of obscurity like a fool?Self-righteous, sacrificing ten years?

Ten years, how many decades a woman can waste, how many unbearable late nights, she can only imagine the face of her sweetheart, playing the voice from her in a loop, stroking her lower back, kissing the back of her hand, In order to exchange for some filling.

Humans are often calm when faced with "Impossible", and what makes people unable to calm down is "It could have been".But when he realized everything, the feeling of regret and powerlessness could no longer be compensated.

They shouldn't have missed these ten years.

Su Wen stood there blankly, the lingering warmth of the kiss still remained at the corner of his mouth, and the domineering nostalgia remained in his arms, and that person ran away without a trace.

"Am I going to drive you away? I'm just acting like a spoiled child..."

Tears rolled down, she really didn't have that much backbone, when she was kissed by that tough kiss, she had already surrendered.

She waited for the man to wake her up with a slap, and told her that no matter what you said, the old lady was going to fix you, and told her what the big deal was, I would raise you.But Li Min wasn't her, that good girl, she couldn't say those words at all.Only one person will run away crying, and one person will feel wronged and uncomfortable.

I have persisted for ten years, can I persist a little longer?

"Hello? An Xun... Do you think I'm really qualified to promise Minmin?" She dialed An Xun's number, which is the only person she can consider a friend now.

The person on the other end of the phone pondered for a moment when he heard the distraught voice: "Didn't you tell me? As long as she loves you, you have the ability to make her feel happy."

Only after hanging up the phone did I know about feelings. The biggest obstacle is the fans of the authorities.

She wanted to protect her, so she refused her, but now she also saw that what she refused to bring to her sweetheart was not protection, but injury.I thought it was nothing to love farts, but when that man was crying and crying in front of his eyes, his heart still hurt.

That's all, let's go by ourselves for the remaining step.

"Fool...just know how to cry..."

The co-pilot's door was opened at some point, and the woman got into the car with a long skirt, and hugged the crying man.

There is no second word, just hit the topic.Li Min didn't even have time to be surprised, the remaining warmth of the red lips spread from the side of his face to his ears, twitched the red earlobe, and sent out a hoarse voice.

"I'm not enough yet, why did I run away?"

"Bastard, why are you looking for me! Get out of the car!" Li Min was angry and annoyed, but joyful in his heart, and lost his temper insincerely.

"I don't. Tell me, what I'm wearing...why doesn't it fit?"

Those fine eyebrows and eyes stared at the woman whose tears were still wet in front of her, and before she could respond, she kissed her again.Be late to cater.With a single hand, she tore off the coat on her body, her fragrant shoulders were slightly exposed, and the hem of the skirt rose to the dangerous limit where it could no longer rise.

"Are you responsible?"

"Heh... who knows?"

Li Min couldn't get an answer, but she also wanted to ignore it. She was fed up with a person's self-pity and self-love, and she wanted a hot feedback and the most perfect end.

but……

"This is my car, don't you think about it..."

She reversed the restraints, lowered the back of the co-pilot, lightly pressed down the ignorant woman, wrapped her in her arms nostalgicly, leaned over and kissed hard.

gentle?Think beautiful.

She kissed the man sweating, kissed until the mist covered the car window, palm prints, turmoil, perfume smell... mixed with the moonlight and the river wind.

It's revenge, revenge for the first spring after ten years of waiting, revenge for that person who actually gave up her, a living person, for the sake of a little life.The person who took revenge hid it so deeply that she mistakenly believed that her feelings were one-way and meaningless, and she was wronged for ten years.

"You...what do you want to do?" Su Wen tugged at the hem of his skirt, but his breathing was disordered, and he was lying messily on the seat, unkempt.The corners of the lips were so painful that they felt a little hot, but the body was still empty.

Originally, Li Min didn't intend to capture her so quickly, but seeing the man's smile becoming more and more cunning, he became more and more unwilling to let her succeed like this.

"There seems to be something wrong with my tires, can you help me get out of the car and have a look?"

"what?"

Interrupted, caught off guard, Su asked, straightened his hair and clothes, put on his coat, and got out of the car naively.

Li Min looked at the rearview mirror and sneered.

"I don't want to be responsible, huh... I have been abused for ten years, but I want you to taste what is a chasing wife crematorium."

With one kick of the accelerator, he walked crisply.

"Eh? Eh! No! I haven't gotten into the car yet! Minmin? Minmin!"

作者有话要说：感谢在2021-07-1110:42:28~2021-07-1201:50:31期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

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