come close to me hold me

An Yi is her younger sister.

Fourteen years ago, the car sank into the water mercilessly. The eight-year-old sister also looked at her in horror, without even crying.

That day was her 17th birthday...

"Xiao Xun, Dad has a very important concert to prepare, can you accompany Mom to go to the review in the afternoon? Dad knows that today is your birthday, but Mom is not in good health recently, look, can you..."

"I know Dad, don't worry, Mom and Yi'er will be handed over to me."

However, she broke her promise.

She broke her promise, self-righteously thinking that trust would help cure her severe depression, and deceived by the woman's smiling eyes, she handed over the car keys to her.

She regretted that she didn't listen to her father's words. She clearly told her to take a taxi and told her to be cautious at all times.If he hadn't acted on his own will, perhaps the tragedy that followed would not have happened.

She regretted that she didn't notice that the violin music playing in the car just hit her mother's sore spot. If she noticed that her mother was crying silently and turned off the sound in time, the last string would not be there. broken.

"Mom, isn't the speed too fast? Yi'er is afraid...Mom? Mom!"

"Mom! The front is!"

It was too late, when she saw the woman's eyes full of brokenness and despair from the rearview mirror, it was too late.

In the morning, the woman still touched her face tenderly, telling her that the violin is not as important as her daughter, and that she will cheer up to accompany and make up for her in the days to come.

Before Mingming went out, the woman also said that after returning from the hospital, she would take them to see her father's concert, wait for her father to have dinner at night, and celebrate her 17th birthday.

Obviously, when the woman said this, her eyes were filled with anticipation.

Therefore, she would rather attribute all this to deception, would rather believe that death would be a relief for her mother, and would rather believe that her mother wanted to take her and her sister to die together.

Otherwise, that woman would be too pathetic.

In Fei Leng Cui, a slightly drunk girl in a red dress walks barefoot on the stone road. When she is in high spirits, the violin in her hand will play a graceful melody.

Accidentally, I ran into a romantic pianist, and at a glance, I decided for the rest of my life.

No matter how romantic two people are, after they get married, they are also trivial matters.

The violin is An Lin's dream, but after giving birth to a child, her body is seriously injured, and the new blood in the music circle is constantly surging, but she is afraid that there will be an endless stream of young children. After a few years of cultivation, she can no longer keep up with the rhythm.After the contract with the orchestra was terminated, the dream was also shattered.

After bidding farewell to the stage, An Lin fell asleep on medicine every night. Although facing her husband and children, she was as gentle as ever. She took care of the housework and became a violin teacher, teaching the children to play the piano every day.But occasionally stay out at night, escape from life, and sometimes even stay at Chen Nianci's house for half a month.

An Xun thought that he was the child who shattered his dream, and his younger sister An Yi was the last straw that killed the dreamer.So their names may also mean some of the mother's search and memory.

So she knew from a young age that her mother had sacrificed too much for herself, so she offered to learn the violin, and maybe one day, she could fulfill her mother's dream when she was young.

Seeing her mother gradually regaining her talkative and laughing appearance, she thought she had given her hope again, and she thought she was finally relieved.

However, however...

That day, when holding An Yi and desperately swimming out of the water, An Yi couldn't breathe on her own, so she could only clumsily learn the knowledge from the books and do cardiopulmonary resuscitation, but it was all on paper.

At that moment, she wished there was a doctor in the crowd.

So later, she became a doctor.Just to save that person who can never be saved again.

So, so far in her life, no decision has been made for herself. In her past life, there was no liking and freedom, only responsibility and last resort.

Now, she couldn't watch the same thing happen again.The water had reached her waist, and the car door could not be opened. In order not to hurt the child, she went around to the other side, picked up a brick and smashed the car window.

"Don't be afraid, kids, Auntie is here to save you."

They are so similar, the same safety seat that is difficult to untie, and the same girl who was so frightened that she froze and refused to cooperate. At a certain moment, she became confused, so she prayed in her heart:

Yi'er, don't be afraid.

My sister will definitely save you this time.

The river was surging and the car was swaying, but the child remained motionless, staring at An Xun in a daze, without saying a word.Seeing that the water was not strong and there was no danger for the time being, An Xun calmed down and called the rescue team for help.

Originally, the water level was not deep, so it was enough to control the car body and wait for rescue. Who knew that the siren sounded suddenly and the dam slowly opened.

"Damn!"

An Xun knew what it would mean if the upstream water broke the embankment. Seeing that the rescuers hadn't arrived yet, he had no choice but to ignore the broken glass and lean forward, stretched out his hand to unbuckle the seat belt, and tried hard to take the child out.

"I want my mother! I want my mother!"

The girl was still crying suddenly, and waved at An Xun, but she didn't cooperate anyway. An Xun's movements were limited, and he couldn't use his strength at all. The child was rescued, and the consequences were disastrous.

The rescue team rushed to the dam immediately after hearing the siren and tried to contact relevant personnel to close the dam. The situation was extremely urgent.

The medical team didn't know about this, and An Xun himself was not a gregarious person, and no one thought something was wrong if he didn't come after the meal.Su Wen had just finished eating his boxed lunch, and took a copy to send to An Xun.Before he reached the medical tent, he received a call from Jiang Yien.

"Hello?! Dr. Su, why can't Dr. An's phone get through? She hasn't heard from her for an hour and a half. Are you together?" There was a crying voice on the other end of the phone.

Su Wen smiled disapprovingly: "Isn't it normal that An Xun can't reply to the news? People are busy saving people, so how can they have time to chat? Don't worry, we are all together, the signal here is not good."

"Can you get Dr. An to say something? I'm worried about her..." Jiang Yien's voice choked up several times, and he couldn't feel at ease if he didn't hear An Xun's voice.

"Your child is really good, okay, just wait, I'm going to find her." He quickened his pace and went to the tent, opened the curtain, but An Xun was nowhere to be seen, and his smile turned into doubt: "Doctor An is a doctor. Woolen cloth?"

"I don't know, did you go to eat?" A little doctor replied.

"I just came over from there..." Su Wen realized that something was wrong, and his expression changed instantly.

"Hello? Where's Dr. An? Didn't you find her?! Talk!" Jiang Yien jumped up anxiously when he heard their conversation.

"Don't worry, there may be somewhere nearby to rescue the wounded, I'll look for it, and I'll call you back later."

"Wait!" Before finishing speaking, Su Wen had already hung up the phone.

The dam was not closed in time, and the river was rushing in. The rescuers had no way to enter the water. The car was once again driven by the rushing water and gradually sank to the bottom.

"Let go! Do you hear me!" Seeing An Xun desperately clutching the car window and not letting go, the rescue captain shouted anxiously. For many years in the industry, he has seen too many cases where saving lives was not enough.

But An Xun is as stubborn as a rock.

No, you can't give up.

Under that cold and relaxed face, only she knew how much pain was hidden.If she is given another chance, if she cannot save her sister, she would rather sink together.

It's easier to die than to live.

Fortunately, she still has the rationality to be a doctor, saving people is always the first step.Seeing that after a large amount of water was poured into the car, the door could be opened after the pressure was balanced, and the rescue finally had a breakthrough.

Later, she no longer knew how she opened the door, sneaked into the car, snapped the seat belt, and hugged the child in the back seat.

At a certain moment, her consciousness has sunk along with her body.Deep in my heart, is the only concern.

If she died like this, that kiss would be her last memory.

But, no, you can't just die like this, if you die like this, the child will be saved in vain, and she will also leave the person who can't be left behind, how can she just stir up the storm and leave quietly.

Her little friend is still waiting for her to come home.

"An Xun!"

Su Wen brought a group of medical staff to hear the sound, and saw the rescuers jumping into the water from a long distance away, bringing An Xun and the little girl ashore.The little girl choked on the water and suffocated. An Xun snatched the child away as soon as she got ashore. Her consciousness was not clear yet, but she instinctively rescued her.

"Come to life, you must come to life..."

She begged and prayed over and over in her heart.

Su Wen hesitated, and couldn't intervene.For the first time, she saw An Xun in such a state of distress, covered in mud and water residues, with a few scars on his arms, the river washed his hair into a mess, and it seemed that his eyes were also affected, otherwise, why would his eyes be so broken.

Finally, the child coughed a few times and spit out water.An Xun also collapsed on the ground at that moment, gasping for breath.In a daze, she let Su Wen take off her coat to wrap herself, and let the rescuers carry her back to the camp.

Let yourself be broken.

At sunset, when the day's rescue was over, Su Wen remembered his cell phone, and when he opened it, there were more than forty missed calls, all of which were from Jiang Yi'en.

An Xun hasn't spoken since he came back from there, he put himself in the middle of a busy day, refused to eat, refused to sleep, and was just persuaded to lie down at this moment.Su Wen had tried to persuade Jiang Yien that he would be able to go back tomorrow if there were no accidents, but Jiang Yien didn't hear An Xun's voice, and couldn't get through to An Xun's phone number, so he refused to give up no matter what, so he had no choice but to hand over the phone.

"An Xun? Are you feeling better? Jiang Yien wants to talk to you."

An Xun hesitated for a moment, but still took it, and stuck it to his ear for a long time before opening his lips and teeth.

"Hey."

Jiang Yien finally heard the voice she had been waiting for all day, the soft voice seemed to loosen the embankment of thousands of miles, causing her to collapse instantly.

"Didn't I always say don't take risks, don't take risks? Why are you so stubborn...why are you going...why do you have to go?"

"What will I do if something happens to you... Don't you know that I only have you? You are the only one..."

An Xun listened to the soft complaint from the other end, and the little girl gradually collapsed to the point of crying, she was silent, she couldn't pull back her thoughts, there was endless emptiness in her downcast eyes.

Why, why she could save so many people, but she couldn't save her own family.

She should be comforting, comforting that the little girl survived, but it is more about the regret and powerlessness of the past. If I knew first aid at that time, if I could meet a doctor at that time, wouldn't it be different?

As the little girl was out of danger, she looked for her brother as soon as she woke up, and the faint feeling in her heart disappeared the confusion of the girl and her sister.

The person she desperately saved wasn't An Yi after all.

The little girl survived, but the younger sister, in her heart, died again.

"Sister An, I'm really scared..."

"I really only have you..."

She was suppressing her emotional collapse, suppressing the surge of memories, but Jiang Yien's voice came in like a gust of wind, she couldn't resist, and surrendered for the first time.

"Xiao En, I'm so tired..."

"Sometimes, I really don't know why people live."

When Jiang Yien heard this broken and helpless voice, his heart suddenly stabbed, as if thousands of glass shards fell into his heart, piercing deeply, deeply.

After stopping the crying, the tears became more torrential.She wished she could run to An Xun immediately, hug her tightly and tell her everything would be fine.

In fact, she went to the hospital in the afternoon and asked to go to the disaster area, but the roads were blocked everywhere, private cars were not allowed to enter, and the hospital refused to disclose the specific address. In desperation, she could only return home and wait for an answer.

She made countless hypotheses and prepared for the worst. In the end, her mind went blank, and she mechanically dialed the numbers of An Xun and Su Wen over and over again.Subconsciously, he scratched bloodstains on his arms, hugged her Tian Tian, ​​and cried until he almost fainted.

Why do people live?she does not know.In the past, she felt that as long as her grandmother was alive and the moon was still in her dream, she was not qualified to die.But at this moment, she felt that as long as An Xun was still alive, she had a reason to live.

So before she knew it, she was already so important in my heart.

"I'm sorry Xiaoen, I shouldn't have said this to you, don't worry, I'm fine, it's just a little skin trauma."

An Xun's collapse was short-lived. Realizing that he might have a negative impact on Jiang Yien, he immediately forced himself to cheer up.

Even in her heart, she wanted to rely on that girl so much, even if it was just for a short time.Even if she really wants to grab the hand stretched out from the dark abyss and say:

Xiao En, help me.

"It's just a skin injury on the hand, what about the heart?" Jiang Yien has already learned the details from Su Wen, and guessing why An Xun's abnormal attitude is, she probably has the answer.

"Your sister drowned, didn't she? That girl today reminds you of your sister, doesn't it?"

She ignored An Xun's bravado, and beat the man's hard-earned disguise to pieces without any consideration.It is better to crush her pain with my own hands than to let her swallow the broken glass alone.

An Xun, I beg you, just let yourself land, let your memories be shattered, let your softness cry...don't be brave anymore.

"Don't force yourself to forget that the dead can only live in the hearts of the living. If even we forget them, then they will be too pitiful."

"You still have me, I will catch you, I will not let you fall. I will wait for you, until the day you open your heart completely, one year is not enough, ten years is not enough, ten years is not enough, it is a lifetime."

"Sister An, Xiao En will be with you forever."

Finally, she heard the trembling breath on the other end of the phone, suppressed sobbing, and occasionally uttered uncontrollably.

She only has heartache, heartache...

It turned out that the man cried so subduedly even when he broke down.

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