Eat little by little

With the arrival of December, the weather that was already hot and cold has completely turned cold.

Yang Fengrui, who was afraid of the cold, took out his long scarf early on, rolled it up and down, and hopped around like a puppy with the scarf.

Lin Xu couldn't see it, so he straightened the scarf and made a loose knot so that it wouldn't shake.

Yang Fengrui lowered his head and looked at Lin Xu's drooping eyebrows, waves of waves arose in his heart, slowly but clearly swaying away bit by bit.

For the first time, he discovered that he would look at Lin Xu, this immature young man, with such eyes.

I want to stop now, I want to just keep looking at him like this.

"All right."

Before Lin Xu finished speaking, Yang Fengrui lowered his head and buried it in his neck, sniffing the pleasant smell, rubbing against the other's soft hair, and rubbing the scarf around Lin Xu's exposed neck against Lin Xu's.

Lin Xu's body froze, and he realized that he really couldn't treat Yang Fengrui like before.He wanted to move away a little, but Yang Fengrui saw through his intentions and half hugged him.

Lin Xu couldn't help laughing when he saw Yang Fengrui clinging to him like a canine creature for favor.After a long while, he patted his back with stiff hands, "Okay, get better, you're dead again."

"Yeah." Although Yang Fengrui agreed, he didn't move in the end.

The two stayed silent for a while without making a sound.

Lin Xu saw the withered branches outside the dormitory window, pointing abruptly into the air, looking stubborn and lonely.

"How are you doing with that girl?"

Both Lin Xu and Yang Fengrui hope that this emotional fluctuation beyond their control can return to its place as soon as possible.

"That's it." Yang Feng was stunned.

Lin Xu suddenly felt that he was actually quite afraid of Yang Fengrui, especially now, any movement of the other party could make him flustered for a long time.

Sure enough, it was difficult.

Lin Xu smiled wryly.

When he went downstairs, Yang Fengrui looked at the few people, so he desperately wanted to hold Lin Xu's hand, hooked it back and forth a few times, and finally managed to hold it in his hand, but interlocked his fingertips worriedly.

Both of them bumped up and down the stairs with unsteady steps.

"Hey Xiaoxu..." Yang Fengrui pretended to look away unintentionally.

"Ok?"

"Let's start...holding hands." Yang Fengrui's face was slightly hot, and his eyes were far away.

Lin Xu froze for a moment, then turned his head away, "Yes."

They have held hands many times on weekdays, but this time both of them knew that the meaning was different.

Lin Xu felt that his palms were about to sweat, and the place where he was grasping was about to burn, making him uncomfortable. He didn't dare to look at Yang Fengrui, and frequently looked upstairs and downstairs.

On the contrary, Yang Fengrui didn't know what mood he was in at the moment, he knew he was a little nervous, but also very happy, his whole heart was full.

What he holds tightly in his hands is not a good brother, not a fight, but a real... like?

During breakfast time, after going downstairs, Lin Xu frequently wanted to withdraw his hand, but Yang Fengrui held it firmly.Even in the cold weather, the palms of both of them were full of sweat.

Lin Xu looked at Yang Fengrui, and had no choice but to get closer, hiding the tightly bound hands behind his back.

"It's okay, no one saw it." Yang Fengrui said as if by accident.

Lin Xu suddenly felt that his heart was sore and numb again.

He opened his eyes and looked at the scattered teaching buildings in the distance and the sparse students walking hurriedly with breakfast.

There is a kind of confusion: what is he doing?What is this for?

After the senses all over his body were gradually numb by the cold wind, only the heat connected between his palms made him feel like he had a fever.

When there were more people, the hands of the two gradually loosened, and the distance between the bodies also widened.

When the heat between the palms was blown by the cold wind, both of them couldn't help curling up their fingers.

Soon, the people in the class discovered something was wrong again.Obviously, they have fought and fought before, and the two who are the most joyful are both like meeting for the first time. They get along with trepidation, but it doesn't look like they have a falling out.

Yang Fengrui usually stays with Jiaqian in the ninth class in the afternoon, but every time he insists on going back to the classroom to find Lin Xu for dinner.

Everyone thought Yang Fengrui was blind.

Yang Fengrui usually took two boxes of lunch and took Lin Xu to find a hidden place on campus to eat together.

He was getting more and more confused about his own feelings, but his body was always one step ahead of his brain. He wanted to stay with Lin Xu, and even faintly indulged in the feeling that Lin Xu should belong to him.

"Don't always eat meat, I won't help you eat vegetables." Lin Xu ordered habitually.

Yang Fengrui was stunned for a moment, couldn't help but smiled and lowered his head to eat the vegetables, and seeing that there were not many pieces of meat in Lin Xu's bowl, he put some meat in it.

"Don't give it to me! Your meat is what I just gave you!" Lin Xu kept dodging and finally fell silent.Because Yang Fengrui directly fed the meat into Lin Xu's mouth, Lin Xu's face was stiff, he couldn't spit it out, could he?Finally bit and finished.

The two are like two children, moving cautiously, one probing and the other dodging, but they don't know how far they are from the bottom line that cannot be crossed.

It's a strange way of getting along, but it's surprisingly comfortable.

Yang Fengrui fell in love with the way Lin Xu blushed, the way he was dodging so stiffly that he wanted to hide it.

Lin Xu has always been such a simple person. Before you start, he always looks like an ice princess no matter how you play around.But once it was revealed, he expressed his youthfulness and anxiety more bluntly than anyone else.

Lin Xu has habitually accommodated many people, and is willing to wrong himself to help others.

But never once, like this.

"Go back, study by yourself last night. It's getting dark." Lin Xu stood up from the cold floor, and within two steps, he was suddenly grabbed by Yang Fengrui behind him.

At the corner of the building, it was so dark that Lin Xu couldn't see Yang Fengrui's expression clearly.

After a while, Lin Xu heard Yang Fengrui's trembling voice, "Xiao Xu, would you like to give me a kiss?"

Lin Xu froze, unable to react from his brain to his body.He felt that he should stop it, or say something... However, he felt Yang Fengrui approaching slowly, until the breath of the other party enveloped his whole body.

"Hey, Yang Feng..."

Yang Fengrui groped and touched Lin Xu's face with his hands, and raised it slightly, his voice was as low as an elf's seductive voice, "very lightly."

Lin Xu's body tensed up, and he restrained himself not to dodge.

Eh?

Lin Xu felt a cold hand brushing over the broken hair on his forehead, followed by a cold and soft kiss on his forehead.

This second passed for a long time, so long that Lin Xu almost thought it was an illusion.

"Xiao Xu is indeed shorter than me... Are you back to your senses?" Yang Fengrui pretended to be relaxed.

Lin Xu didn't want to speak, but he clenched his fists uncontrollably and restrained the trembling of his body. He felt that he was so hot that he was going to smoke right now.

"You don't think I'm going to kiss you... Uh, what's wrong with you, Xiao Xu?" Yang Fengrui leaned over to see Lin Xu's expression, "You won't blush?"

"Really blushing?" Even though his eyes could barely see, Yang Fengrui greedily captured every expression of Lin Xu.

"Xiao Xu, look at me... look at me..." Yang Feng hooked Lin Xu's chin sharply, leaned over and kissed Lin Xu's cheek fiercely, and muttered, "It's terrible."

Xiaoxu, I'm dead.

what to do?I think you are so cute...

Holding hands for the first time, hugging for the first time, kissing for the first time... I want to take every first time of you in the present and future as my own.

Lin Xu felt the wet licks on his cheeks, surrounded by a strong smell that belonged to Yang Fengrui, so strong that he suffocated.He shrank his shoulders, opened his eyes slightly, and suddenly saw Yang Fengrui's eyes full of himself, focused and persistent.

Those eyes reflected his panic, embarrassment, and shy blushing.

In the darkness of the evening, Yang Fengrui hugged Lin Xu tremblingly, and whispered in his ear: "Xiaoxu...Xiaoxu..."

Lin Xu thought he knew how dangerous the step he took was, but he still underestimated the depth of the pit.

He forgot, the name of this pit is: Yang Fengrui.

This is wrong... This is so wrong...

Both Yang Fengrui and Lin Xu felt that some things were too far ahead of what they had thought before. They tried it step by step, like eating sour plums in summer. One after another.

***

In the days that followed, Yang Fengrui was dealing with his so-called girlfriend while holding on to Lin Xu and not letting go.

Holding hands, kissing faces, cuddling to sleep, scratching itch... All the fights that have been tried before are now given different meanings.

Lin Xu felt that the world view of his entire brain was broken up and then put together again, which made him feel difficult and full of panic.He was like a paper boat being led away, aimlessly following Yang Fengrui's direction, but he never cared whether he was about to sink.

Compared with Lin Xu's chaos, Yang Fengrui is more energetic.He gradually recovered the state of getting along with Lin Xu back then.

He threw himself on Lin Xu without looking at anyone else, and teased Lin Xu until his face changed, and he blatantly hugged Lin Xu for comfort...

"Your Majesty, my family is so lonely recently." Yang Fengrui teased Lin Xu with his throat.

"Is the cold palace comfortable?" Lin Xu avoided Xiongpu.

"It's so cold, I miss the emperor's body temperature..." Yang Fengrui was still whimpering.

Lin Xu's face turned pale from this shameless effort, "Get lost."

"If you want to get out, you'll get into the emperor's arms." Yang Feng pulled Lin Xu into his arms with a sharp force, and teased in his ear, "Is it? Wife."

Lin Xu lost his interest in talking, and was distracted by the warm hug.

In the ninth class the day before yesterday, he rarely went out for a walk.

I wanted to blow my mind to relax, but I was stunned when I saw a man and a woman next to the basketball court.

It was a little far away, so I couldn't see clearly. The boy led the girl for a walk. When they came to a tree, the two stopped, and seemed to say something. The girl laughed, and the boy bowed his head.

The boy was wearing an oversized blue-black coat, and a black and white knitted scarf around his neck. When he lowered his head, the scarf would lean forward with his body... The boy hugged her gently.

Lin Xu felt numb in his hands and feet, only to realize that he had stood for a long time.

Yang Fengrui's body is very tall. He was only 1.7 meters in the third grade of junior high school, and now he is close to 1.8 meters. With a small girl in his arms, he feels a little caring.

No matter how long Lin Xu stood, the two hugged each other for as long.That kind of embrace is timid and full of youthful sweetness, as beautiful as the evening red glow that cannot be smeared in youthful memories.

Lin Xu rubbed his cold palms, breathed out a few breaths, and hurried away from this road.

In fact, both he and Yang Fengrui were afraid.

Fear of losing each other one day.

Around this guy, he can lose his temper, he can complain, he can beat people.

The other party also indulged him to make him happy, for him to fight, and to help him fend off numerous instigations.

They always inadvertently indulge each other's bad temper.

But that's all, that's the bottom line.

When Lin Xu returned to the classroom, it was already six o'clock and there was no one there.The scene just now kept replaying in my mind like a demon.

There is a faint feeling that what they say can't be lost is gradually about to be lost.

It is obvious that the other party is getting more and more excessive, getting more and more aggressive, but still letting go.

Admittedly, they were all a little carried away.

Even though being hugged by the other party at this moment, the heat in my heart is gradually cooling down, as uncomfortable as after waking up from a drunk.

"Hey Yang Fengrui, how are you doing recently?"

"Ok?"

"That's what you think is wrong, now?"

"..." In Yang Fengrui's arms was the real Lin Xu.

"How are you doing with your girlfriend?"

Yang Fengrui deflated slowly like a punctured balloon, "It's okay."

"Don't make trouble with me all the time recently, you don't play like this."

Yang Fengrui's hand holding Lin Xu gradually lost his strength, "It's not playing." But he couldn't say anything more.

"Yang Fengrui, we agreed, the extent is only a little bit." Lin Xu slowly pushed Yang Fengrui away, and put his palm against the opponent's, "So much."

Yang Fengrui suddenly became dumb.

It is because I know you that I know how selfish your willfulness is.

In junior high school, you can be demerited for multiple puppy loves, and even when the girl standing on the national flag platform is crying and trembling, your face is expressionless.

"Yang Fengrui, brother for life." He was a momentary farce.

what do you choose

"Xiao Xu..." Yang Fengrui grabbed Lin Xu's hand tightly, opened his mouth but didn't know what to say, but met Lin Xu's clear eyes, and his heart twisted in pain.

It's different, it's different.

It seemed that what he deliberately ignored and tried to erase was mercilessly exposed to the sun at this moment. The sun was so hot that he twitched in pain.

Accidentally got carried away and forgot the original purpose.