Eat little by little

After a few days, everyone in the class felt that something was wrong with these two people.

But it can't be said that the relationship between the two people is deadlocked.

Yang Fengrui tried his best to get close to Jiaqian, but basically he couldn't see her.Lin Xu didn't say a word, and often helped the other party to cover up, asked for leave for Yang Fengrui, and found that guy in front of the dormitory's door control.

People in the same dormitory are all talking about Yang Fengrui being able to catch Lin Xu, and he even made money from his wife. Where can you find a good wife who even takes care of the back-up work for the affair?

But after all, something is different between the two of them.

Even when everyone was having the most fun, Yang Fengrui habitually went to embrace Lin Xu, but he would not be able to catch Lin Xu. The feeling of being empty made his body a little stiff, and he turned his head to look at Lin Xu.But Lin Xu just turned his body away, lowered his head and didn't look at him.

Yang Fengrui took his hands back, his arms were cold, he was uncomfortable, very uncomfortable.From fingers to heart, they are eagerly shouting to feel Lin Xu's temperature, to actually touch his skin, which is obviously just an all-too-familiar movement, but they can't do it.

Just can't even touch it...

There is like a thick layer of frosted glass between the two people, which cannot be seen clearly or penetrated.

Sensitive as a frightened little animal, there is no room for error at the slightest sign of trouble.

Accidents happened, Yang Fengrui confessed to Jiaqian, and the relationship was completely settled.That evening, the two walked three laps along the campus runway, 200 meters.The wind was a bit chilly, and the girl retracted her entire head into the scarf, occasionally exhaling, looking into her eyes with shyness, looking forward to her love like all girls.

Yang Fengrui remembered that he was laughing at that time, telling some simple jokes, talking about the little things that happened around him, the newly fermented relationship was full of strawberry fragrance, it was green and innocent, as sweet as ice cream in summer.

Even the cold wind gradually warmed up with the girl's silver bell-like laughter.

This is the feeling Yang Fengrui is familiar with. Looking up at your girl slightly, his eyes are shining with excitement, every tone of voice is rising, occasionally puffing up his face and pursing his mouth, with cute little movements and small temper.

The voice is a soft and pleasant younger sister's voice. When calling the name, it seems that there is a piece of chocolate in the mouth, a little soft, but even sweeter.

This is the best way to show yourself in front of the person you like.

Yang Fengrui couldn't help being in a trance: Maybe, he really just thought too much.

The girl has a small face, soft lines, soft long hair, and a smaller body, which is even more delicate because she is wrapped in a thick coat.

Yang Fengrui was stunned, and read: Boys and girls are really very different.

Lin Xu has a thin body and his skeleton has just developed, so he is very uncomfortable in his arms.He's got a flat chest, he's going to grow taller, he's got a deeper voice, he's...

Yang Fengrui couldn't help but compare Lin Xu with all the girls over and over again.

He likes Lin Xu's body that is a little hard to hold but only relaxed in his arms. He likes the comfortable height that can be buried in the other's shoulder when he lowers his head. He likes Lin Xu's gentle voice calling his name in his ear. ...

He has always complained that he is not fat enough to eat, and that he is not comfortable enough to hold him. After two months of feeding before going to bed, there is no change, but there is obviously more meat on his stomach. Yang Fengrui especially likes to pinch that piece of soft meat. Every time, Lin Xu would be so angry that he would rush over in a panic.Squeeze it again, and Lin Xu can fall limply, frantically trying to prevent being further frivolous, and finally the two of them fought into a ball, and he could lock Lin Xu firmly in his arms.

Yang Fengrui unconsciously pinched Lin Xu's face in the air, and after pinching for a while, he became frustrated.

Damn, what was he thinking about on the playground in the cold weather!

It's just that when I regained my senses, when I looked at the empty playground and the girls next to me, the joy I had just now slowly dissipated.

Every time at this time, Yang Fengrui's hands and feet would feel a little cold, as if something was missing in his arms, and he especially wanted to grab something and hug something.

"Why don't you talk anymore? Are you going back?" The girl next to her uttered a voice, tilting her head slightly, and her hair also tilted along with her body's slanting movements.

"It's nothing." Yang Fengrui lost his mood suddenly, reached out to help the girl pull her hair back, looked at the girl's face flushed by this action, and smiled.

He has always liked the way girls blush, and now he finds it cute when he sees it.

Yang Fengrui stretched out his hand from his pocket and grabbed the girl's hand pretentiously and unintentionally. The girl was a little stiff, but he still opened his hand obediently.

The sweetness of falling in love for the first time, even holding hands makes people happy.Girls let boys hold hands because they like each other.

What about Lin Xu?

Yang Fengrui didn't realize that he was distracted again.

And why do you keep bullying yourself over and over again?Do so many things that are much more than holding hands.

He hasn't had a girlfriend since the third year of junior high school, which means that he hasn't touched a girl's hand for almost a year.Although I have caught Jiaqian a few times before, they are all shy and have no special feeling.

Thinking about it now, girls' hands are really much softer, and just holding such hands gives people the desire to protect.

But even in this situation, what kept flashing in his mind, what he desperately wanted to remember was the feeling of holding Lin Xu's hand.The feeling of holding it in your hand is thick, warm and reassuring.He suddenly realized that he couldn't remember.

That feeling is like a floating leaf floating in the subconscious, desperately trying to pick it up but keeps sinking and floating without a trace.

He wanted to recall that feeling like crazy, the more he wanted to remember, the more he couldn't catch it, it was as if a piece of his mind was suddenly erased, leaving only a hopeless blank, only faintly remaining intoxicating. of good taste.

The feeling made him restless, and he could barely contain his anger.

This hand is so soft that it seems that it will break if you use force, it is not at all, it is too small, it seems to be empty in the next second, the temperature is wrong, the shape of the hand is wrong, and even the strength of the grip is wrong...

"Ah, it hurts!" the girl screamed.

Yang Fengrui snapped back to his senses and let go of his hand, looking at Jiaqian beside him in a daze.For a moment, even the appearance of the other party felt strange.

"Yes, sorry."

……

***

When he came back from evening self-study, Lin Xu asked him how he was. Yang Fengrui looked at Lin Xu for a while, then looked down at Lin Xu's hand, and turned his head after a while, "It's okay."

Seeing that Yang Fengrui was not in a positive mood, Lin Xu encouraged, "It's okay, the other party is a girl, I heard that she has never been in a relationship before, take your time and don't scare her."

Yang Fengrui propped up his chin and turned his head to look at Lin Xu. He has become more and more fond of doing this action recently. Seeing the soft hair on Lin Xu's forehead brushing his eyelashes, it grows so long that it kind of blocks his eyes, he casually said, "Still Don't you want to cut your hair? That dead old man is going to catch this again."

Lin Xu pinched the hair in front of his forehead with his hands, and muttered, "It's time to cut it. It's becoming more and more troublesome to wash my hair recently. It takes a long time to rinse."

Follow that finger to look at Lin Xu's face, but find it blocked.Yang Fengrui suddenly wanted to grab Lin Xu's hand, lifted his hair from his forehead, looked into his eyes, and wanted to know what he was thinking.

Last week, Lin Xu asked him if he really had feelings for the man?what was that like?

He was a little flustered at the time, so he discussed it with Lin Xu foolishly.

When will it start?It seems that the night when I watched the movie, I was very excited.

Lin Xu said that there is no problem, you are looking at the impulsiveness, then you are normal.Then he looked at him gloomyly and said, so you jumped on me?If you have feelings for men, it is purely because you are dissatisfied with your desires, and you will vent it.Dare to feel that I was going to smash your head and knock you unconscious at that time.

Yang Fengrui thinks about it, it seems to be the same, he and Lin Xu have been together for a year and have not seen any negative reactions, could it be that night that his head was in a daze?Or is his potential bent, and he can't help it when he sees a man next to him?

Yang Fengrui also thought about if there was another boy in the same dormitory sitting next to him at that time, he immediately got goosebumps, and he was a little thankful that it was Lin Xu at that time.Anyway, I'm used to touching it, and I can eat tofu almost as well, and there is no adverse reaction at all.

But this doesn't prove that there is nothing wrong with him at all, even if he kissed Lin Xu forcefully, it still can't prove that it is entirely possible that his head was congested and impulsive at that time.

A man's brain is sometimes a tofu dregs, the body moves faster than the brain, and once the eyes are closed and opened, it is a foregone conclusion.

After arguing for a long time, both of them felt that this matter was a bit unreliable.

Lin Xu said, "I think it's just that you are too busy to worry about. You are not a woman, why do you think so much? Don't tell me you were so awkward those days because of this?"

"Damn! Don't babble, then why are you so moaning today, didn't you just get bitten? I didn't take your virginity away, and you reacted so badly, it made me feel like I raped a good woman." ..."

Lin Xu blushed a lot, and almost punched Yang Fengrui under the table, "Don't talk about this with me! You are a lot of girls of all kinds, and you have been notified continuously since junior high school, and everyone in the grade knows You're right and wrong. Can I be an asshole like you?"

Yang Fengrui stared at Lin Xu for a while, nodded and said, "That's right, you're just like a chicken? You're so good that a girl even pushes a snack when you give her a snack, and you're almost set up a chastity archway. Hey, you won't You really haven't even talked about a relationship before. Could it be your first kiss?"

Lin Xu exploded completely, "Isn't it normal that I haven't been in a relationship since I was a freshman in high school? What happened to my first kiss? You bastard! You are the one who is abnormal!" Regardless of whether Yang Fengrui was still chewing rice, He took the pen case and threw it on him.

Yang Fengrui wrestled with Lin Xu with a smirk, and suddenly he was in a very happy mood, and he kept teasing verbally, "Oh, if this is the case, it's a bit unreasonable for me not to be responsible?"

The two of them tossed a lot, Yang Fengrui couldn't bear it at first, and Lin Xu couldn't bear it when he leaned on him, his hands wanted to rub the skin around his cheeks, and he wanted to hold him still in his arms. Seriously, I really want to take a bite.

Yang Fengrui quickly kicked Lin Xu away, panting, "Don't touch me first, I feel something is wrong."

Lin Xu didn't think about that at first, but seeing Yang Fengrui's scorching eyes shooting at him, the familiar eyes immediately brought back a series of memories, and he jumped back two or three times Stepping forward, he said tremblingly, "Hey, don't tell me you really feel that way?"

Yang Fengrui thinks about it, what does it feel like? If a girl pounces and rubs on him, he might be so excited.

How is this scene different from the present scene?Pooh!The problem is that Lin Xu is a man!

Thinking of this, Yang Fengrui became depressed again, and said sullenly: "Am I really a little abnormal?"

Lin Xu's eyes were wider than Yang Fengrui's. Don't look at the two of them, they seemed to be talking again, but they really didn't dare to talk about it.

After a while, Lin Xu was the first to be overwhelmed by the gloomy atmosphere. He leaned over and asked cautiously, "What's that like? Is it the same as someone who likes women? What kind?"

Yang Fengrui didn't know either, there was only Lin Xu who was the closest around him, and he foolishly approached him.

"Maybe." Yang Fengrui looked at Lin Xu's face, which was a little closer, and looked at him very purely and cleanly. He felt a little impulsive, wanting to see those eyes stained with embarrassment and mist, looking at him His expression changed because of himself.

I don't know if this bastard is real or fake, so far, all the subjects of his strange feeling are him!

Yang Fengrui slapped Lin Xu's face away, "You better stay away from me, otherwise I will really do something."

"It's okay, even if you like a man, I will support you." Lin Xu patted Yang Fengrui's head generously and comforted him.

Yang Fengrui just stared at Lin Xu so stubbornly, Lin Xu gradually stopped laughing, put his hands down, turned away his face, "Anyway, take your time. Who knows if it's true or not."

Yes, even if it is true, it can become false.

As long as he still has feelings for girls, he's fine.

"Don't you still have Jiaqian?" Lin Xu said.

Yang Fengrui chewed the rice, his eyes drifted, and he continued, "Yes."

Later, Yang Fengrui kept thinking that maybe Lin Xu also felt something was wrong, otherwise he wouldn't have started to shy away from him the next day.

But even so, he still stupidly came up to ask questions, more nervous than him.At this time, I don't know the reason to leave early, so as not to get burned.

Only Lin Xu was reluctant to abandon him.

Lin Xu is even more of a jerk than him.

This kind of relationship is a little deeper than that of friends, and a little shallower than that of liking. It is as hazy as a layer of sticky window paper, which cannot withstand a little touch and blow.

So the next night after having dinner with Jiaqian and returning to the classroom, he confessed to Lin Xu.

"Hey Lin Xu, I confessed to Jiaqian."

The bell for evening self-study had just rang, and there was some confusion in the class for a while. After the silence, Lin Xu seemed to have waited for a while before recovering, and turned his head and said, "So fast?"

"Ah."

Lin Xu thought of something, "That's fine."

Yang Fengrui suddenly felt uncomfortable, and said in a muffled voice, "Xiao Xu."

"Ok?"

"I'm still not sure..."

Lin Xu turned his head and looked at Yang Fengrui with his head half lowered and his face half buried in the darkness. The corners of his mouth were pressed into parallel lines, as if he was gritting his teeth and holding back something.

Lin Xu knew he shouldn't ask, those things had nothing to do with him.But……

"What's the matter?" Lin Xu still asked, and after some consideration, he added in a low voice, "I will always be here." After speaking, he felt a little empty in his heart.I don't know if the other party understands what I mean by this sentence?

I won't laugh at you, I won't look down on you, and I won't leave you.

If Yang Fengrui feels dark, uneasy, and confused, he will spend this time with him.

Lin Xu knew from the first time he handed the lunch box to him in the third year of junior high school that he couldn't see Yang Fengrui suffering, and he couldn't see him alone as if he was abandoned by the whole world.

This is the heaviest promise and guarantee he can make.

"En." Yang Fengrui looked into Lin Xu's eyes, and his throat felt dry for a while.I can't tell what I'm feeling at this moment, I just feel so uncomfortable that even my heart is clenched together, as if I was crazy to grab something in my mind when I was holding a girl's hand in the evening, my voice was suppressed and distorted, "Xiao Xu... ..."

"Ok?"

"Let me touch it, just one touch."

"..."

"Grab your hand, okay?" Yang Fengrui looked at Lin Xu, his voice trembling so that even Lin Xu felt sad.

How scared is this guy?That's why even such a sentence is said like a request.

Lin Xu slowly stretched out his left hand, and handed it to Yang Fengrui. His clean and slender fingers were spread out flat, and the lines were somewhat angular but stretched smoothly, just as imagined.

Yang Fengrui grabbed it almost subconsciously, and pulled it forward slightly. Lin Xu was startled and leaned forward, and his eyes quickly passed Yang Fengrui's hand, the corner of the table, and the color of the floor. ... was soon supported, and his head was hit by Yang Fengrui's shoulder, causing Lin Xu to frown in pain.

"Fool." With a soft sigh, his head was pushed up by the palm of his hand, and he slightly lifted his bangs and rubbed them. The heat gradually gathered in that area, and Lin Xu was so hot that he was a little dazed before his eyes, but his hands were leave soon.

Lin Xu looked at Yang Fengrui in a daze, but Yang Fengrui stared blankly at the connected hands of the two. He couldn't help but squeeze it hard, let it go, couldn't help pinching it hard again, and then let go...

Obviously he should laugh at this guy's actions, but Lin Xu closed his eyes in discomfort.His fingers were sore and numb, and his heart felt as if he had fallen into orange soda, bubbling and gurgling, and gradually sank to the bottom.

It was so sour that it made me want to cry.