Eat little by little

Yang Fengrui didn't know what happened afterwards. When he woke up, it was already the fourth class in the morning.He groaned, feeling that his head was going to split open, propped his head up and looked to the side, Lin Xu was concentrating on listening to the class, when he saw that he woke up, he turned his head and glanced at him before going back.

Yang Fengrui felt his head was a little heavy, but it was obviously better. He scratched the table with his hands, as if he wanted to pick up a pen, but after grabbing for a while, he couldn't remember what he wanted to pick up.

A faint sigh sounded from the side, and he straightened his crooked head with one hand, and handed over his water glass with the other hand, "Drink the water first, it should still be hot."

Yang Fengrui also has a water cup, but he doesn't like to drink water, and has never taken the initiative to fetch water. According to him, I am just a dry person, why do I need water?The water cup has been left unused for a long time, and I don't know how many layers of dust it has, and I don't know where it is now.But in winter, the water loss is serious. Yang Fengrui always dangles in front of himself with a dry mouth. What's more, he rubs two pieces of scabs on his face and neck...

I don't know when, Lin Xu began to order Yang Fengrui to drink three glasses of water a day, and nothing could stop him.

Although Yang Fengrui was still dazed, he had already consciously brought the water glass over, and drank gulp, the water overflowed from the corner of his mouth, leaving a stain on his chin and neck.The water temperature was comfortable, and Yang Fengrui took a long breath, completely relieved.

A paper towel was handed over, "Wipe dry."

Yang Fengrui slumped on the stool, looking like a satisfied uncle, his voice was hoarse when he hummed, "I don't want to move."

I'm used to such petty willfulness. Normally, Lin Xu would have wiped it with a tissue, but now, after waiting for a while, there was no movement.

Yang Fengrui finally felt something was wrong, turned his head, only to find that Lin Xu had turned back to continue his lecture.Paper towels were left unused on the table.

"Xiao Xu?" Yang Fengrui put his hand on his lips, which were cold and wet, and there seemed to be something wrong faintly.

Lin Xu didn't answer him.

"You sent me back? Hehe, thank you for your hard work." Yang Fengrui wiped his chin with his hand again, it was still cold.

Lin Xu suddenly turned his head and glanced at Yang Fengrui, his expression was unclear, "I didn't give it to you, your sister gave it to me."

Yang Fengrui was suddenly speechless.For a moment, Yang Fengrui felt that something had returned to its original position. He was still Yang Fengrui, and Lin Xu was still Lin Xu.

During the time when Yang Fengrui fell asleep for these two classes, Lin Xu kept thinking half-absorbed.I forgot about that incident because I was sick and confused. What incident do you mean?You, a male creature, was pressed on the bed by another male creature and kissed forcibly.

Now that I think about it, it feels unreal, it feels like a joke, it's fake.

He still remembers the scorching temperature when Yang Fengrui pressed on him, as if his limbs were firmly locked by something, and every inch of his body was lingering, that was not a joke between good brothers, he was panting heavily Rubbing his lips, the surroundings are dark and cool, but the hot air between the lips blends with each other, making the teeth start to tremble.

He looked at him eagerly, and shouted hoarsely, "Xiao Xu..."

Wake up instantly!

Lin Xu shivered suddenly, and shrank his body uncontrollably, as if this moment overlapped with that moment, his lips felt numb and hot like being bitten.He wiped his mouth fiercely with some fear.

Yes, this is not right.

Lin Xu didn't listen to the rest of the class, he just felt that his breathing was suffocated, his whole body seemed to be soaked in hot water, and his head was in chaos.

That class passed inexplicably. When the get out of class was over, Yang Fengrui wanted to play with Lin Xu, but no matter how much he teased him, Lin Xu remained unmoved.Yang Fengrui was flustered by this, he leaned his head close to want the other person to look at him, and pulled the boy's face with his hand, before opening his mouth, Lin Xu bounced away as if frightened, and stood up.

Yang Fengrui's hands froze in mid-air, and he opened his mouth, "What's wrong?"

"fine."

Lin Xu looked at him strangely, and Yang Fengrui was stabbed by a needle in his heart, which pierced straight into the softest place.

"Just don't touch me." Lin Xu sat down, tidied up the things on the table, picked up the tissue that had been lying there all the time, paused and threw it into the garbage bag hanging beside the table.

Yang Fengrui understood instantly, the absurd thing last night nailed him in place like a spell.

He can be coquettish, lose his temper, and it can be said that it is just a joke, but at this moment he just feels like he has fallen into the ice cellar, and his brain has stopped thinking.

There's nothing he can do because he can't explain.

What if Lin Xu is really angry?He couldn't explain, could he call Lao Tzu to kiss a man because he thought he was crazy?

He felt that he was insane, and he was sick of himself like this, and Lin Xu couldn't tell what he was thinking.

The worst result is nothing more than losing such a good-tempered brother like Lin Xu.

Yang Fengrui has always felt that he has no conscience, otherwise junior high school would not be as rigid as in the class, nor would he be almost expelled from school because of a fight with a puppy love.He does not feel that anyone is obligated to him, let alone himself.

People don't offend me, I don't offend others. It's said that people are more angry than people. Yang Fengrui is the kind of sarcastic words that can make you jump up in anger, and you can fight in two or three strokes.

Fortunately, Yang Fengrui's puppy love is a bit rampant, and he usually does his own thing and doesn't provoke others. As long as you don't talk to him, he won't talk to you.The grades were good, but it passed without incident.

Later, I got used to getting along with Lin Xu, and I couldn't bear that good-natured manner, and I always worked hard without saying a word, and I was so angry that my face was bloodshot, but I could still hold my face and talk to myself.Why is this guy so patient?This is a tiring life.

Yang Fengrui likes to make that guy lose his temper, and it's best to make him lose his temper in the end.

That guy simply let go, and he didn't show softness when he cursed and beat others. When he got angry, he would do it directly... Tsk tsk, his body is weak and weak, and he is too easily overwhelmed.Generally, when you are overwhelmed, you lose your temper.

Thinking about Yang Fengrui got a little annoyed, and scratched his hair.

Just thinking about it like this makes me want to hug him, to see him panting, to bury him in his shoulders for warmth, to rub my face against his fluffy hair...

Yang Fengrui glanced at Lin Xu next to him, almost unable to restrain himself from wanting to throw him down.

damn it.

Yang Fengrui suddenly became frightened. This kind of panic was more turbulent and rapid than ever before, and it was also clearer. He realized it, and Lin Xu also realized it.

The seeds planted at some unknown time germinated and grew in the bottom of my heart, entangled the whole heart little by little, and even my breathing became tight when I came back to my senses.

At noon that day, Yang Fengrui didn't have dinner with Lin Xu. Before leaving, Lin Xu glanced at him, wanted to say something but didn't say anything, and went to the cafeteria with his classmates.

Yang Fengrui didn't even glance at Lin Xu's back, he just sat there and listened to the bell for the end of get out of class quietly.

In an instant, the entire class was empty.

Just like every noon in the past, when he woke up too lazy to attend class, the surrounding was empty, no one called him, let alone someone called him to eat.

Obviously, this should be the most correct way. If you rush forward for a while, and then get cold, maybe it will be fine.

Yang Fengrui slowly lay down on the table, resting his head on his arms, unwilling to think about anything.It's best to go away!Isn't it just Lin Xu!What the hell are you talking about!Isn't it just a bite, what is the connotation?I just suddenly had a sperm rush into my brain to vent, what's wrong with borrowing you to use it!

The more you give up on yourself, the more uncomfortable you will be.It was so uncomfortable that my whole heart was pulled into a ball, but I just didn't know why it was uncomfortable.

"Xiao Xu..."

***

after lunch.

Lin Xu walked back to the teaching building with his lunch box in his hand, stepping on the stairs, every step seemed to be well-pressed, and the closer he was to a step, the more he couldn't lift his feet.

Lin Xu suddenly felt that this scene was very familiar, as if he had done this for a long time.Carrying the lunch box, against the direction of the crowd, morning, noon and night, I went to find that guy.

Who are you looking for?Still him.

Yang Fengrui lost his meal card and didn't even have the money to make up for it, so he slept in the classroom hungry every noon.

Every time he came back to pick up his homework at noon, Lin Xu could see him.A person is lying on the table, quietly, as if living in another world.

Until one day, Lin Xu put the lunch box on his desk, "Hey, get up."

……

All the scenes are similar. As soon as Lin Xu walked to the door of the classroom, he saw a large dog huddled in a corner, probably abandoned and with its ears drooping pitifully.

Lin Xu smiled wryly. He really felt like a duck escaped from the dinner plate with great difficulty, but plucked it by himself, cleaned it up and sent it up.

When he opened the door, Lin Xu saw Yang Fengrui's shoulder move, but he didn't look up.The appearance of that little animal made Lin Xu want to laugh, but his eyes were dry and sore, as if he couldn't see clearly if he squinted his eyes.

Putting the lunch box in front of Yang Fengrui's head, just like putting the lunch box in front of him for the first time, he said, "Eat it while it's hot." As soon as he opened his mouth, Lin Xu realized that his voice was very hoarse.

His fingers trembled when he let go of the bag, but Lin Xu couldn't explain why he was so flustered at the moment.

Yang Fengrui didn't look up.

Like a wounded beast, it stubbornly guards its territory, preventing anyone from invading it.

But that person is none other than Lin Xu.

After a long time, Yang Fengrui heard Lin Xu's trembling voice, "When did it happen?" The voice was so soft that he almost thought he had heard it wrong.But every word is very clear, like a sharp hammer, bit by bit smashing the inexplicable wall in the middle.

When did it happen, when did it start to go off the rails?

When did you start hugging his shoulders, biting his earlobe, and kissing his face?When did you like to see his blushing, and couldn't help reaching into his clothes to touch his skin?When did you want to kiss him, grab his air, want him to tremble under you...

When do you have other thoughts about a guy?

The smell of the food makes people feel hungry. Yang Fengrui only felt chills all over his body, his whole stomach was sore, and he even wanted to vomit.

Yang Fengrui raised his head slowly, with red threads in his eyes, he looked straight at Lin Xu, "I don't know."

He'd rather he didn't realize it, if possible.

"Is it still disgusting to you? If you can't stand it, you can ignore me, and you don't have to come back to me. I have always been annoyed by your fake good person. It has been from before, with a good face, obviously You are so annoyed that you can still laugh like that, are you mentally okay?" Yang Fengrui sneered.

"What are you doing back here? Damn don't make me swear, or I'll think you're a fucking..." Gay?The voice stopped abruptly, and one hand suddenly covered his mouth, with too much force, Yang Fengrui had no choice but to look up at Lin Xu, but was stunned for a moment when he touched the other's blank eyes.

"No, no..." Lin Xu almost subconsciously denied Yang Fengrui's words, the painful eyes of the other party made his whole body stiff.

Everyone is afraid, as if, once the word is spoken, something will fall into the abyss and be lost forever.

"Yang Fengrui, calm down and think about it. You have had a girlfriend since junior high school, and you hang out with girls all day long. How can you do that?"

Yang Fengrui looked into Lin Xu's eyes, wanted to speak out but found that his mouth was covered, his mouth and nose were full of Lin Xu's breath, the familiar smell of food, the intimacy made him slightly distracted.

With a voice stuck in his throat, he murmured: Yes, how is it possible?

"You have to understand that this thing is not a joke, it's for a lifetime. Don't mess around just because of a momentary interest."

A moment of confusion and fascination can't last long, once you wake up, what should you do?Does he have feelings for men?Still have feelings for Lin Xu?Can this feeling last longer than falling in love with a girl?

Yang Fengrui felt that he seemed to understand something, but felt that his eyes were so sore, as if someone had covered his eyes with sand, which was painful and uncomfortable.

Lin Xu took a deep breath and tried to calm down his voice, "Yang Fengrui, don't think about it." Until now, he belatedly let go of the hand covering Yang Fengrui, and the palm was hot and humid.

The scalding heat spread from the palm, and the arms were numb and weak along with it.

Don't think about it.

You may have been confused for a while just because everyone joined in the fun recently.

How could he have feelings for boys?His sexuality has always been normal, it was, it is, and it always will be.

Even if he was confused for a while, the fact that he had a girlfriend will not change.

He gets hot just like watching porn, and he can't help but take a second look when he sees a beautiful girl. He still likes to make jokes with the boys in the dormitory...

He tried hard to open his eyes wide to see Lin Xu clearly, but the pain became more and more sore, his voice choked up, and he could hardly speak out in pain, "Really?"

"Yes." Lin Xu took his hand.

Yang Fengrui held the opponent's hand and covered his face, wanting to seek some comfort, as if he could be sure of something as long as he held Lin Xu, "Can you really change back?"

Lin Xu frowned in pain because his palms were grasped too tightly, and felt anxious and uncomfortable because of Yang Fengrui's uneasiness.

"Ah."

Whoever was young was never distracted by love, whose youth was never cranky, confused for a while, and thought it was liking, which was his most cherished emotion.As everyone knows, when everything returns to the original place, it is nothing more than that when I recall it again, and I was too young to smile.

But Xiao Xu, I feel bad.

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