Looking for Cheyenne

the man.

It was a good-looking man, similar to the man Xiao Feng described before who came to the villa to see Xia An.

I clenched my hands and finally left.

Thinking that it has been a long time since I had a good meal with Xia An.

When he went back, he made his favorite mousse cake.In the past, he would always clamor for others to buy this for him, but at that time, I thought it was ridiculous for a man to like sweets.

But now, unconsciously, this view has changed.

But when he opened the door and saw that I was at home, he said that he had something to go out, and he was avoiding me.

Learn to quibble, this guy.

When he got to the table, he didn't eat the cake specially made for him at his table, he would rather eat the leftovers from yesterday.

【An~ stop making trouble. ] I dumped the leftovers into the trash can.

[Don't you love mousse cake the most? 】

He asked me if the cake was for him and I said yes.

He asked so cautiously, he said he was not sure, he didn't dare to eat, he was afraid of making me angry if he ate something that shouldn't be eaten, and threw the cake all over his face.

I……

At that time, I was speechless, speechless.

Because I did, in front of everyone.

So now he is scared, he dare not move what he wants to eat, he is afraid that I will get angry.

[No, no, no more, you can eat whatever you eat first, it's all for you. 】I hugged him tightly and comforted him.

The Xia An in the past was never like this. If it wasn't his thing, he would try every means to get it, and destroy it if he couldn't get it. How could he be so mischievous and domineering as he is now, being cautious and obedient.

I feel my sin, because that is the knife mark I carved on his heart with my own hands, but now it is biting my heart back.

Under my suggestion, Xia An finally agreed to cooperate with Ning's, and a signing ceremony will be held when the two parties cooperate.

As representatives of both parties, Xia An and Ning Shu will meet formally.

I never told Xia An about Ning Shu before, so he didn't know from the beginning that I went to see Ning Shu and didn't know about taking him back to China.

I don't know how to tell him about this matter, and I don't want to tell him, I'm afraid of the past.

Ning Shu's mental outlook that day looked pretty good.

The entire press conference was also going smoothly, but I didn't expect that someone would blatantly bring up the old case of the car accident three years ago and make a fuss about it. The murderer who was fired by the company three years ago is now back as the company's general manager. This is a good gimmick, and tomorrow's headlines seem to have come to fruition.

The scene was extremely chaotic at that time, and all the shots were aimed at Xia An. He was caught off guard and became a lamb at the mercy of others.

I was careless.

I didn't think through all the possibilities of the show.

Although under the cover of other people, I successfully brought him back to the apartment, but I caused him to be hurt, both physically and mentally.

Because of my selfishness and carelessness, until now I have not been able to clear him up. He is still a murderer in people's eyes.

He is innocent. He was just a little willful and mischievous at first, but he was treated like this. So after three years, he will not dare to be willful or mischievous. He will only watch his words carefully.

Like now he's covered in bruises and he's still he's still he's fine and he's fine.

He was the one who used to cry all day when his finger was pinched by the door, but now he doesn't cry no matter how painful it is.

He'll smile and tell you it doesn't hurt at all, he's fine and he's fine.

fraud!Little liar!Always lie to me!Don't tell the truth!Also pretend to be strong!

I bowed my head and kissed his always deceitful mouth.

At that time, I kissed him for the first time.

Such pretending strength, such vulnerable vulnerability, made me kiss it uncontrollably.

I think something is wrong.

Maybe what Xiao Feng said is right, I am not redeeming my sins now, I am...

I feel panic, that familiar feeling, is called...

My thinking started to get confused, and I think I need to sort it out.

There was such a big commotion at the press conference, and I didn't show any sympathy. The self-righteous reporter who broke out the riot and caused the commotion was the first to bear the brunt, and even the entire newspaper office must pay the price for it.

Because they touched my bottom line.

I think this can win the attention of the public, but in my eyes, it is no different from a frog at the bottom of a well. Since they want to hurt Xia An in this way for a short-term gain, then I will let them have a lifetime of future as compensation.

Later I went to find Ning Shu.

I told him to stop in moderation, because all the collected information that Xiao Feng put on my desk this morning told me that Ning Shu was the mastermind behind the scenes this time.

In front of me, he seems weak and innocent every day, but now he still doesn't know how to repent and refuses to stop. Instead, it gets worse. The patient can't be a shield for him to do whatever he wants.

I told Ning Shu, if I know what you did to Xia An again, you will never want to see me again.

His life is counting down. Not sending him to prison is the only kindness I can do to him, but I will not forgive him.

He cried and told me he didn't mean it, he told me not to do that, he couldn't accept life without me.

not on purpose?

Every time he said, he didn't mean to.

He always justifies himself in this way.So I didn't go to see him again in those few days, and I didn't answer his calls, because he passed out during the meeting like this.

I still sent him to the hospital for treatment as before, but this time no matter how much he begged, I didn't stay with him.

Compassion also has a bottom line.

Tomorrow is New Year's Eve.

In the evening, I went to pick Xia An up and go home.Since I kissed him last time, when I saw him, I was so inexplicably nervous and my heart beat faster.

When I helped him fasten his seat belt, he clung to the car door in fright, as if afraid of being molested by me, very cute.

In fact, I almost couldn't bear it at the time...

But I didn't do that, I thought, it takes time, and we have plenty of time in the future, so we can develop it slowly.

I will take him to watch the fireworks by the river tomorrow.Tomorrow night at the important moment of welcoming the New Year, I have something to say to him.

But Xia An asked me to accompany Ning Shu, he calmly said no, you can go and accompany Ning Shu.

Why should I accompany Ning Shu?

That person was obviously your rival in love, and that person has been plotting against you in every possible way from before to now, why do you still think about him and ask me to accompany him?

Why do you have such a nonchalant expression on my face when I said I will accompany you to watch the fireworks?Still trying to hide from me?

【Ning Shu's matter, you don't need to worry about it. ] I said.

He asked me to stop the car and wanted to walk back by myself. I ignored his request, and he wanted to open the door and go down by himself. I pulled him back and locked the car door.

Does he know how dangerous it is to do this? It's just nonsense!

But he didn't give up, insisted on getting out of the car, and kept beating the glass with his hands. He would rather go down for a walk than go home with me.

He avoided me, he alienated me, he deliberately kept his distance from me.

Why did Xia An, who cried when the snow was falling and said she loved me, want to run away from me now?

After he came back, he didn't want to stay with me. When he was on vacation in the mountains, he would rather freeze outside all night than go back to his room to sleep.

If I hadn't unscrupulously sent someone to guard him, would he have left me now?

I feel lost and helpless.

He beat the car window desperately, so hard that even with bruises on his hands, he wanted to get out of the car.

【Now Xia An is always so disobedient, what should I do with you? ] I endured the colic in my heart and hugged him in my arms to comfort him.

[I want to get off. 】 He said.

[Stop making trouble, okay? 】 I said softly.

【I want to get off...】 He said again.

[Stop making trouble, be obedient, Xia An be good...] I comforted him.But I know that something seems to be getting farther and farther away from me. I have no way to stop his determination to get out of the car, so I can only lock the car door so unreasonably and lock him by my side. All I want is time.

After returning home, he was also very unhappy, Xiao Ran went to comfort him.

As soon as I entered the room, Xiao Feng called and said that he planned to take Xiao Ran back for the New Year.I want to ask for a period of leave, I say yes.

Xiao Feng has always been a person who does whatever he thinks, he doesn't have too many scruples, so he likes Xiao Ran, so he tells Xiao Ran, and then he takes Xiao Ran home.

But I can't do it.

Xiao Feng, I said to the other end of the phone, it seems that I was really hit by what you said at the beginning, I am no longer a simple atonement for Xia An.

He was shocked to hear that on the other end of the phone, and then there was a moment of silence.After a long time, he asked what are you going to do?

I said I don't know, now that I have nothing and he is so indifferent to me, I don't know what to do.

Ling Cang, the current you is not like you at all.Xiao Feng said on the other side.

Hehe~ I couldn't help but smile wryly, he is not that Xia An anymore, how could I be the original Ling Cang.I lost the original Xia An.

I hung up the phone and stayed up all night.

Today is New Year's Eve, when I got up, Xia An had already left, and this guy didn't wait for me.

I ran into him at work, and he asked me what I wanted to eat. He would cook tonight and asked me to go back early.

In the afternoon, I packed my things and went back early. As soon as I left the company, Ning Shu called and asked me to go over to accompany him. I didn't agree. I told him to recuperate well. I'll visit him when I have time.

Before I got home, I saw Xia An busy in the kitchen, running around wearing an apron, catching shrimps crawling all over the floor while muttering something alone.

The picture looked a little funny, but it was very warm.

【Ann, that apron suits you very well. 】I teased him.

He didn't understand at first, but when he understood, his face immediately blushed, and he picked up the bowl and pressed the rice to his face, eating it all over his face.

In fact, Xia An also has a very cute side, but sometimes he is as naughty and willful as a rabbit. It's just that I never noticed him before, only noticed his arrogance and unreasonableness.

After eating, I took him to the river.

There are many people who watch the fireworks gathered here. The gorgeous fireworks rise up, bloom to the fullest in the night, and send rumbling blessings. The people under the fireworks are full of happy smiles.The fireworks reflected in Xia An's eyes, looking dazzling.

I asked Xia An to make a wish, and he said yes, the moment he closed his eyes, I also silently made a wish in my heart.

I wanted to say to him, Xia An... I...

This is the phone ringing, it's Xiao Feng's call.

But it was Xiao Ran's voice that came from the other end. He said, Young Master Ling, I am Xiao Ran. I have thought about something for a long time. I think it is necessary to tell you, it is related to the young master.He's not by your side, is he?

I looked at Xia An, and I pointed to a quieter place not far away, and said, don't run around.I went to a place with few people to answer the phone.

Maybe I should have turned off my phone that day or maybe I shouldn't have answered that call at all.

Xiao Ran talked to me over there for a long time, and I said it was impossible. If Xiao Ran didn't believe me, I could go home and verify what he said.

When it was almost zero o'clock, I rushed back and found Xia An in the crowd. He slightly raised his head and watched the countdown on the big screen in the square with everyone.His slender bangs covered the corners of his eyes, brilliant fireworks were reflected in the eyes under the delicate eyebrows, and the two lips under the bridge of the handsome nose were slightly upturned, hiding a happy and faint smile there.

I've never looked at him carefully, but I didn't expect him to be so quiet and beautiful.

But how could such a Xia An do what Xiao Ran said.

I clenched my hands and calmed myself down, looking as if nothing had happened.

[Happy New Year, Ann~] I leaned over and whispered in his ear.

【Happy New Year. 】He tapped his toes and replied to me with a very gentle voice.

On the way back, I was thinking, maybe I should give me a chance, give him a chance, even if it is really like what Xiao Ran said.

[Ann~ I just want you to be well. ] Before returning to the room, I said to him.

He said he would.

I said that you are not allowed to lie to me again in the future, and keep it from me. If there is, it is too late to tell me now, otherwise...

Xia An, if you tell me your secret now, I'll pretend nothing happened.

Say it now, it's too late.

【Otherwise, what are you going to do...】 He asked.

[Otherwise, I will punish you for copying the articles of association of the company five hundred times, how about that? 】

[Hehe~ Then remember to buy paper and pens for me. 】He opened the door with a smile and entered the room.

[It's better not to, I won't be so kind.Alright, go to bed early, good night~] I said.The moment he returned to his room, my heart sank.

He would not say.

I gave him a chance, but he still wanted to hide it.

Why would he do this?

Looking at the white powder, powder and syringes found under his bed on the table, I felt a chill in my heart.

Xia An, why?

I turned off the lights and waited quietly.

People who use drugs are prone to drug addiction in the middle of the night.

So, I'm waiting, Cheyenne's addiction kicks in.

I still can't believe what Xiao Ran said, unless I see it with my own eyes, unless he admits it with his own mouth.

At two o'clock in the morning, there was movement in his room, the sound of rummaging through boxes.

Drug addict, isn't it?

When I opened the door to his room and turned on the light, I could hardly believe what I saw.

He was rummaging through things in panic and pain, his whole body was trembling all the time, his fingers were in his mouth and he was trying to restrain himself, struggling with himself.

【Are you looking for this? ] When he heard the voice and saw that it was me, he was even more terrified.

Xia An, is this really you?

[Ling Cang, don't come here! 】He panicked and buried his head in his arms, not daring to look at me.

Scared of being discovered?

So why are you touching the damn thing?

[Why, don't you dare to watch it now? 】 I said angrily.

【Ling Cang, don't come near me, please. 】I covered my face tightly, not daring to look up, and begged.

Why is this, Xia An?If Xiao Ran hadn't told me, would you have planned to keep hiding it like this?

When facing me, he pretended to be strong and indifferent to make people hurt, but behind my back, he touched the dirtiest and darkest things in the world?

【What's this? ] I asked.

I don't know, Ling Cang, stop asking, he kept saying, I really don't know...

He refused to say, he refused to admit, he was escaping.

Why do you dare to do it but dare not admit it?It was obviously found from under your bed, look at the needle holes in your own hands, and look at the way you are struggling now, how could you not know what it is?

[Xia An, how can you not watch it if you enjoy it so much? 】I sneered, forcing him to look at the evidence I left behind.

He struggled and refused to look.

You said don't lie to me again, why don't you want to tell the truth?Why are you lying to me?

[Give it back to me, give it back to me! 】He stretched out his hand to snatch the things in my hand, and his crazy appearance stabbed my eyes.

why?Cheyenne.

[Don't even think about it! ] I threw the damn thing in my hand hard.

【No! 】He screamed, and rushed towards the window desperately.

[Don't die? ! ! ! ] I grabbed him.

[Why throw them away, give them back, give them back! 】He grabbed my clothes and tore them vigorously, the anger in his eyes was more dazzling than the fireworks by the river just now 【You give them back to me! 】

Xia An, do you know what that is!

That's white and pink!

Drugs then!

Do you even know?

I yelled at him, his current demented appearance makes me sad, Xia An, wake up, do you know how ugly your decadent and depraved appearance is now, how did you become like this! ! ! ! ! !

I grabbed him tightly, trying to get his sanity back.

【Go, I'll take you to see a doctor. 】I pulled him up.

But he refused, he said, Ling Cang, you hurt me.Go yourself, I won't go!

【Xia An, don't force me. 】I can't stand him like this now, Xia An, how could it be like this?

Ling Cang, you don't know how wonderful the taste of taking drugs is, he leaned forward and said in my ear, with a greedy and excited light in his eyes.

say no more!I stopped him from continuing.

You know what I felt the first time I took drugs, I thought I was going to die of happiness!He licked his lips eagerly.

【shut up! ] I shouted angrily [How could Xia An be like this before, look at what you have become now! 】

But he laughed, and said with a nonchalant expression that the former Xia An had died long ago.He couldn't stop laughing, and continued with a crazy face, when he was forced to take drugs for the first time in prison, he was already dead! ! !

Forced to use drugs in prison?

My heart trembled violently. He was in prison, forced to take drugs? ! ! !

How could this be? !

【Haha~ What are you sad about? 】He fell to the ground 【The one who should really be sad is me. 】

I saw his tears fall to the ground, he reached out and wiped them casually [I don't want to be like this at all.You don't know, that night I cried and broke the wall to no avail, no one came to save me, what can I do?You don't know how nasty that guy in Qigui is. He injected too much that day and almost killed me. 】

My heart is about to stop!

[Ling Cang, I have always been afraid of pain the most. That time I was in so much pain that I begged him, scolded him, and beat him, but it was useless. He insisted on dragging me to hell, and I was powerless to resist.Every day and night since then, I have been tortured endlessly.Lin Lingcang, you are so cruel, how can you let others treat me like this?This game is not fun at all, it hurts so much, it has to be private.I admit that I used to be quite annoying, always pestering you, but you can't let others treat me so hard. 】

He wept badly, wiping his face with his hands.

These words shocked me so much that I couldn't think normally.

Why is he being treated this way in prison? ! ! ! !

Before he said this just now, I always thought he was living a prison life in prison.

But I never expected that he had suffered such inhuman treatment in prison!

I have to suffer this torture every day!

Why do you do this to him? ! ! !

And I don't even know.

At that time, I thought that I could finally get rid of the endless entanglement and live a quiet life.

At that time, I thought that the murderer was handed over to the judiciary to handle the case impartially, and I thought I upheld the so-called justice.

At that time, I thought that I had protected the innocent Ning Shu, and finally let this person who had been doing whatever he wanted was punished as he should.

In fact, I pushed the most innocent person into the abyss of crime. I even cruelly sentenced him to life imprisonment, intending to let him spend the rest of his life in prison in repentance!

God, what have I done? ! ! !

[How, how could this be? ! ] I hugged him tightly, 【I didn't know you would experience such a terrible thing inside! 】Who instigated the seven tracks in his mouth? !

Never have I acquiesced in such a cruel act, so vicious!

It's all my fault, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have thrown him in at the beginning, how wrong I was, I was the one who was guilty.

Sorry, Cheyenne.

Ling Cang, you are so unfeeling, you actually ignored me in these three years, he said, even if you come to see me, then you will find that my life is not good at all and full of pain.But I waited for three years, and you didn't come to visit me.Ling Cang, how disgusting are you with me?

What he said made my heart throbbing, as if it was about to be torn apart.

Yes, Ling Cang, how could you be so cruel?

Since the moment he was arrested, I have not been to see him in prison. A few months later, I calmly presented my testimony in court. My name [Ling Cang~Ling Cang~~It’s not like this, listen to me, listen to my explanation~~~~Ling Cang, you can’t treat me like this~~~~~Ling Cang~~~]

He struggled to break free from the policeman who was holding him, and ran towards me crying, but he couldn't break free.

In the end, he was taken down until he cried and fainted.

I can still remember his desperate and mournful call [Ling Cang~~~~~~! ! ! 】

I turned a blind eye.

I actually managed to ignore him for three years!

I really planned to let him spend the rest of his wonderful life in prison!

He is so innocent, so weak, so lovable, but I treat him like this!

I clearly promised the old man to keep him safe throughout his life, but now, I personally pushed him into the abyss of eternal doom, leaving him struggling alone in the dark abyss.

Cheyenne!

sorry!

I was the one who broke Xia An into pieces, who dared to speak, dare to love, ignorant of the heights of the sky, self-willed, self-willed, flamboyant, but not good at expressing his passion.

He doesn't dare to love, think, or act now, he doesn't cry out in pain, he doesn't cry or scream, he just suffers in silence and begs me to let him go.

There were bursts of dull pain in my heart, which was about to suffocate me!

He's clutching my clothes, his face is sweaty, he's struggling with his drug addiction.

I said I would call the doctor, but he said no, he told me to turn off the light.

【Ling Cang, what does it feel like to hate someone? 】He grinned and asked【Is it very bad for him to disappear? 】

[No, I don't hate you at all, I seem to have fallen in love with you. ] I finally said this sentence.

He froze, and looked at me with wide eyes.

【You are so stupid, it hurts my heart】I said with pain in my heart 【But I let you suffer like this, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Ann~~】

[Ling Cang,] He smiled weakly and said [I should say I'm sorry, because, it seems, I don't love you anymore. 】

I feel like I don't love you anymore?

Xia An, don't love Ling Cang anymore?

How can it be?

There was a surge of sourness in my heart, and I felt my whole head roaring.

Xia An doesn't love Ling Cang anymore, Xia An doesn't love Ling Cang anymore, Xia An doesn't love Ling Cang anymore...

No, how is it possible?

He had been talking about Ling Cang who was chasing after him all the time, why didn't he love him anymore?

Didn’t he like to follow me the most? Didn’t he like to send me flowers the most? Didn’t he like to confess to me the most before, and even crawled on the bed to peek at me in the middle of the night? Didn’t he...

He has liked it for so long, how could he say that if he doesn't love it, he won't love it anymore?

how could be……

【Ling Cang, don't cry. ] He wiped the tears from my face with his face.

tears?

I didn't cry, where did the tears come from?

Why is Ling Cang crying?He never shed tears.

I must have heard it wrong, right?

I hugged him tightly, and the warmth from his body told me that what I was holding in my arms was Xia An, the one who had pursued me for many years, and now I just fell in love with Xia An.

But now he says he doesn't love me anymore.

The previous Xia An would not say that.

[I seem to have lost Xia An. 】I'm not sad at all now, I just feel like my heart has been hollowed out.

[He didn't lose it, he died. 】

You are not Xia An, I looked at the person in front of me, but tears blurred my eyes, I saw him so unreal, I couldn't see him clearly, I couldn't understand him.He is not my Xia An, so where is my Xia An?

I found that I can't find him, what should I do?

Where's my Cheyenne?

【Ling Cang, don't do this. 】He hugged me and said.

【You made a wish just now, how could you not love me, little liar, you are lying again. ] I clearly saw that he had a happy face when he just made a wish.

【Then do you want to hear my wish? 】 He reached out and wiped the tears from my face.

The relief on his face scares me.No, I don't want to listen, I put my hands over my ears, refusing to hear any of his voices.

Because, I know, that mouth always says things that I don't like to hear, never tells the truth, and always loves to lie.

[I wish, you and I will be strangers from now on. 】He hugged me tightly and whispered word by word in my ear, so cleanly and without leaving any room.

Xia An would not say such a thing, listen, even his voice is not like Xia An.

Xia An has never been willing to make me sad, how could he say such hurtful things in such a calm tone? ! !

But why am I so sad that this person is not my Xia An.

[Liar, you must be lying to me again. ] I hugged him tightly and burst into tears.

My Xia'an is gone, and I can't find it.

Xia An, I don't love Ling Cang anymore.

That idiot Xia An said that he doesn't love Ling Cang anymore.

Lied to me again.

(End of the episode)