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On the day Wanchen was discharged from the hospital, Sibao came to pick him up in his little golden cup.

After getting in the car, Wan Chen asked Shen Xu about it.

Sibao: "The shop hasn't been open for the past few days. When I called him, he said that he was traveling in another place and hadn't seen anyone."

Wan Chen didn't speak any more after hearing this, and leaned on the seat with his eyes closed.

Shen Xu came back two days later.

As soon as he entered the house with his front foot, Sibao followed him in with his back foot.

"You also know that Brother Wan has been in the hospital for so many days, so it's fine if you don't help take care of him. Anyway, you should go to the hospital to see him, and make the old couple busy every day. You are really sorry to go."

"Brother Wan, you didn't see me like that. Every time I passed by, his eyes always glanced behind me. You don't know who he is looking at, right! It made me feel embarrassed to pass by again."

"I said, brother, are you so interesting?! Don't tell me that you don't have feelings for him, and you don't feel that you are awkward. Anyway, you have a relationship for decades, and people are chasing you here and plan to spend the rest of your life with you , it's so boring to be hypocritical!"

"You think I'm annoying, okay, I'll get out. I'm out of the hospital now, and you're not here for two days, so I'll come here every day to see, brother, no one in this world can treat you like this again, let's be content!"

After dismissing the nagging ghosts, Shen Xu closed the door and lay down on the sofa.

Hungry, too lazy to get up and do it.

Sleepy, how can not sleep.

Open your eyes and look at the empty ceiling.

I don't want to think about anything.

At noon, someone knocked on the door of the house.

The man didn't speak, Shen Xu slowly closed his eyes.

That person has been knocking, neither light nor heavy, knocking on and off, refusing to give up.

Shen Xu knew that he couldn't exhaust him, and compared his patience with a person who had been persistent for 20 years, he was destined to lose.

Opening the door, the man stood at the door, holding an insulated lunch box in his arms, with a faint smile on his face.

"come in!"

Shen Xu turned and entered the room, and the man closed the door casually.

The lunch box contained two dishes, one meat and one vegetarian, and a bowl of steaming rice.

Shen Xu was really hungry, so he took a big bite of the rice.

"Eat some food." The man picked up a chopstick of vegetables and put them into his bowl.

Shen Xu's action of grilling the rice paused for a moment, then he picked up the vegetables and mixed them with the rice and ate them.

After eating, Wan Chen packed the lunch box and looked at him, "I'm going back first, you should have a good rest."

Shen Xu thought for a while, then shouted, "Wan Chen."

Wan Chen stopped.

Shen Xu: "Let's talk about it!"

Sibao next door put his ears on the wall, listening carefully to the movement on the other side of the wall.

His wife came over and slapped him on the back, "A big man likes to gossip so much, go and change the baby's diaper."

Sibao walked away resentfully, and after making sure that he left, Lorraine put her ear to the wall.

There was silence in the room, and for a long time, they just sat opposite each other.

Until Aunt Li called, Wan Chen answered and said a few words before hanging up.

He got up and walked in front of Shen Xu, squatted halfway, and took his hand, "Shen Xu, I said before, I won't force you, and you don't need to put pressure on yourself, just let it come naturally."

The warmth of the man's palm comforted his heart and made him not want to break free.

Shen Xu opened his mouth, and it took him a long time to say thank you.

"Since you came back, I have never said these two words to you. After knowing what you did for me, I just want to escape, and even pretend that I don't know anything. Only in this way can I live easier Wanchen, I'm sorry."

A word of apology, he owed it for so long.

It seems that to say it is to tear away all the peace.

He can no longer live in the world he pretended to be, and what he has to face is not only Wan Chen's heart.

Wan Chen clenched his hand tightly and looked at him tenderly.

"20 years, Wan Chen, we have been estranged for too long, we no longer understand each other. I am not Shen Xu, and you are not the Wan Chen who is chasing dreams wholeheartedly. Do you still remember the feeling when we fell in love? How much do you like me? Do you still remember? It’s been 20 years, and everything has faded away. Now I’m just an inconspicuous middle-aged man, just because my name is Shen Xu, and because the name Wanchen remains in your memory , don't be stupid, the Shen Xu you thought was gone long ago."

Shen Xu stayed with the one who was left with only pain.

That year, he bid farewell to the person he loved the most.

The figures that once leaned on each other, finally, ran in opposite directions.

"Wan Chen, if those things hadn't happened back then, would we have been able to make it this far?" His smile was bitter and desolate, and the answer was already in his heart, "You got into the ideal university as you wished, but I can't let up in the slightest. Because once I stop, you will be farther away from me. On the same road, you are running with all your strength, and I can only move forward a little bit. Wan Chen, I will never keep up with your rhythm. No matter No matter how hard I try, I will be far away from you. The place you look up to, I don’t even have the courage to look up. You enter a big company and come home exhausted every day. All I can do for you is A cup of tea, a meal, some nagging. The warmth you imagined does not exist at all. It is only because you have lost that you think it is beautiful. After a long time, you will be annoying. I am such a useless person, I can’t give you anything Helping people, how long will you endure the same life, will make those subtle feelings disappear, two years, three years, Wanchen, no matter whether we were separated at the beginning, our ending can only be like this. No, the so-called forever."

He fantasized about growing old together in that non-existent home.

After waking up, he knew how stupid he was.

The person he loved for a long time is like the brightest star hanging in the sky, proud, lonely, unattainable, and out of reach.

Perhaps, those memories of falling in love are the most impossible dream!

Wan Chen's eyes dimmed a bit, but he still refused to let go of his hand.

With a slight smile at the corner of his mouth, he approached his lover, "Maybe what you said is right. If we hadn't been separated at the beginning, we would have become strangers in five, eight or ten years. I should still pursue that dream and keep going up Climb, and you are a petty citizen who is content with the status quo, how can we have forever..."

Shen Xu lowered his eyes slowly, knowing the fact that he knew it well, it would take 20 years before he could figure out what was the point of their entanglement for so long.

"However, if you don't walk around, no one will know where the next step will lead!"

Wan Chen's words rang in his ears, Shen Xu's eyes gradually moved up, and he saw that the man's eyes were filled with firmness.

I firmly believe that there is a way that belongs to them.

"When I am running with all my strength, I just need to know that you are still behind me. You are not the only one who will work hard, I will also try to shorten the distance between us. As long as you don't give up, just let me see you Still willing to work hard, no matter when, I will give you a hand. Shen Xu, from the beginning to the end, what I want is you to move forward with me. Never shrink back, never fall, and go hand in hand. The scenery ahead, only Only those who can persevere can see it. And these efforts will also become the wealth of a lifetime."

The young Shen Xu never thought about fighting hard. Facing the mountains in the distance, he gave up from the very beginning.

He is stupid, he doesn't have the brains of Wanchen, so he put a label on himself, and he will never become a person like Wanchen.

Efforts are meaningless.

"When you enter a large company, you have to compete with countless people every day, colleagues, bosses, customers, and come home exhausted. Maybe I don't need your cup of tea, a meal, and endless nagging, but when I lie in bed at night , but I can sleep well every night. Just because you are here."

Familiar breathing, familiar voice, familiar smell, closing his eyes, he also knows that Shen Xu is by his side.

"Five, eight, or ten years later, maybe it's boredom, exhaustion; or, it's a relationship that will bring the heart closer. With you, it's a habit of dependence. Maybe, I will stop at the status quo , guarding the simple happiness with you. No one knows what will happen in the future. It’s like 20 years ago, I never thought that I would give up my dream for you. But now, I am in front of you. In the future life, guarding You go down."

There is a picture in Wan Chen's eyes, which is the picture he personally painted for Shen Xu. The ordinary life has gone in another direction. In ten or twenty years, they have learned to be tolerant and accommodating.

If you really try to go on, maybe it will be like what he said - another world.

Unfortunately, there will never be ifs in the world.

Shen Xu sighed softly, and pain gradually arose in his heart, "I know how much you sacrificed for me, and I also know what you want. But, I really can't repay this debt. Wan Chen, I will If you can't pass this level, no matter how good you are to me, no matter how many things you do, there will be some hurdles, and you will never get over it. Wan Chen... I'm sorry."

Some wounds, for a lifetime, have no medicine to heal.

They can't go back in time, they can't verify that maybe.

The trust that was severed in 18, after all, could not be connected.

He no longer has the confidence to enter Wanchen's world again.

Even though I was mentally prepared, I still feel sad when I hear it with my own ears.It is impossible to open the heart door that has been closed for 20 years in an instant, but Wan Chen never thought of giving up.

He held his hand tightly again, raised his eyes, and looked at the person he loved: "Shen Xu, I can wait. It doesn't matter how long. I think, one day you will let go of your knot... Even if you can't, at least , I’ve been by your side all the time. The result, it’s not too bad.”

Shen Xu knew that he could not persuade him, and a few short words could not break the 20-year persistence.

There are a few silver threads hidden in Wan Chen's hair, and many traces of time have been added to his eyebrows and eyes.

Wan Chen is no longer young.

"Wan Chen, do you regret it? Because of me, now that I have reached this point, I will never even have a chance to stand up."

Wan Chen smiled, "Why don't you regret it, there will definitely be times when you regret it. How hard it was for me to climb to that position, and overnight, everything was gone. People's hearts are all fleshy, and they will be sad and regret it."

Shen Xu wanted to laugh with him, but found that this smile was so bitter.

"Then don't be stupid again, you can't wait for any results, and you will regret it even more in the future."

Wan Chen thought for a while, "If you can tell me a better way, I won't wait."

Lowering his head, Wan Chen placed a soft kiss between his folded hands.

"Shen Xu, I fell in love with you first, so I am destined to be the loser in this relationship. After more than 20 years, I still can't let go. I can't think of a better way than to wait for you. Shen Xu, don't force yourself You yourself, don't force me anymore. Even if we are not together, being able to live a simple and ordinary life with you in this way is also happiness."

"Shen Xu, I don't want to go back to living alone."

After Wan Chen left, Shen Xu stayed on the small sofa until midnight.

What Wan Chen said today was all in his messy mind.

If you can't be a lover, then let's be friends first, starting from friends, maybe one day...

A true friend is a friend who will protect you when you are in danger; a friend who will help you when you are in trouble; a friend who can tell me when you are troubled.

Shen Xu, let's be friends first!

Those words buried deep in memory...

Shen Xu closed his eyes and gritted his teeth. The cunning guy will always use his damn brain to attack the opponent's weaknesses.

If he doesn't play tricks, he will die, he will die! ! !

friend……

What should a friend do?

Just like back then, we ate a pot of rice, slept in a small bed, ran together in the mountains, and studied together in front of the small window.

The two most spoken words every day are Wan Chen, and the most people I see every day is Wan Chen.

From birth to , they are friends bound together.

From now to the future, they will be friends again.

What is the duration of a friend?

One year, two years, five years, ten years, 20 years...

Wan Chen, do you still have 20 years to live?

Thinking wildly about the dawn of the day, Shen Xu gradually began to feel sleepy.

If you can only be friends, start with friends!

This result seems to be not bad.

Two hours later, Shen Xu knocked on the door of Wanjia.

Steamed stuffed buns, shrimp cakes, sesame cakes, and soy milk were all on the table, and Aunt Li happily went back to the room to wake Wan Chen up.

Wan Chen came out in pajamas, and frowned at a table of breakfast, "I bought so much, can I finish it?"

Shen Xu: "I've finished eating, I'm so hungry that I can eat a cow."

Wan Chen went to the bathroom, and sat next to Shen Xu when he came out.

"Give me that, no, it's that, tsk, it's that!"

"You don't have long hands, take it yourself!"

"Aren't you by the way, I said, you really can finish eating?! You think you are still a young man in your twenties, hey, hey, take it easy, it's all right, eat less, you won't be afraid of getting fat!"

"What are you talking about, it doesn't make you worry about eating! Give me the shrimp cakes, I bought them, don't eat them!"

When Aunt Li and Uncle Wan came out, they saw them fighting for a share of shrimp cakes.

You ate a mouthful of my steamed stuffed bun, and I drank a mouthful of soy milk from you.

Who grabs whose collar, who bites whose finger.

Aunt Li and Uncle Wan smiled at each other, shook their heads and went back to the house.

Leave time and happiness to those two people first!