Actors always say that he is straight [entertainment circle]

After consecutive cloudy days, it ushered in a rare fine weather.

Mother He went to the vegetable market to buy vegetables and came back, and said hello to the old ladies downstairs who were basking in the sun. When she went upstairs, she heard a few old ladies gossiping with surprise and contempt.

"Have you seen the boy from Mrs. Xu's old family? He looks pretty, but there is something wrong with him, and it can't be cured..."

"What's wrong?"

"He doesn't like girls, and he made a boyfriend. It's really a crime. Mrs. Xu loves that precious grandson so much, and the roads are long and short every day. Now she is so angry that she was sent to the hospital."

"How did this happen? Isn't the third child in her family quite normal? She also married a wife and had children. Why does her grandson have such a disease? According to me, this is a kind of... what is it called? Mental illness, you have to see a doctor of."

"That's right……"

The more Mother He listened, the heavier her heart became. She hurried home, closed the door, and took out He Sui's diary from the drawer.

When she saw that diary entry for the first time, Mother He felt weird in her heart.

At first, she thought that He Sui accidentally wrote "he" in the diary wrongly. As for "grandchildren", she didn't take such words to heart, because He Sui couldn't remember the names of relatives since he was a child.

"zxr...zxr...Zhang...Zheng..." Mother He clutched the diary tightly, and the smile that He Sui showed to the boy in front of him while sitting by the bed last night suddenly flashed in front of her eyes. A sense of suffocation enveloped her instantly.

When He Sui came home that night, he didn't smell the aroma of the supper prepared by He's mother, and he didn't turn on the lights at home. He pressed the switch at the door, and the suddenly lit light made the person sitting by the bed raise his hand to cover his eyes .

"Mom, why do you..."

Mother He turned her face, the lines in the corners of her eyes still had watery light, she looked at her son by the door with red eyes, and said nothing for a while.

He Sui had a strong bad feeling, he gently took off his schoolbag, walked to the bed step by step, and asked in a low voice, "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

"He Sui..."

"Mom, you said."

"Mom married the wrong person, and made you suffer for so many years, suffer so many crimes, be excluded by classmates, and have almost no friends. You must blame your mother in your heart, right?"

He Sui grabbed his mother's cold hand and sat down, shook his head firmly and said, "No, I never blamed it, I just blamed myself for not being strong enough to protect you."

"Really?" Tears fell from the corners of Mother He's eyes, "You don't blame Mom, so why do you want to like boys?"

He Sui froze, "...I, Mom—"

"You only like to play with him, right? It must be just an illusion. You are still young, and you probably can't tell what it means to like someone. Just wanting to be with him may not mean liking." To myself, "It doesn't matter if you fall in love early. Look at the girls around you. Can't they attract you? Zheng... You have everything he has. What are you curious about him? What he can give you, your future wife will also can give you-"

"I'm sorry," He Sui interrupted his mother, "Mom, I don't think I will have a wife in the future."

"Snapped--"

Mother He raised her hand and slapped He Sui. Under the eyes of her son who was injured but not blamed at all, she was overwhelmed by boundless pain, and couldn't cry for a moment.

With a hot side face, He Sui quietly reached out and hugged He Mu.

"Can you change it? Ah?" Mother He asked unwillingly.

He Sui let out a breath, hugged the woman in his arms tightly, without saying a word.His mother hadn't enjoyed a day of happiness in the first half of her life. If possible, he didn't want the person he liked not to get married, have children, or be accepted by the world.But he also knew in his heart that even before Zheng Xiuran transferred to another school, he didn't have that kind of interest in the girls around him. It wasn't until Zheng Xiuran appeared that he knew what it was like to be moved and liked.

"Let's talk about it tomorrow, you rest first." After half an hour, Mother He wiped away her tears and forced a very forced smile, "If you can't do it tomorrow, it will be the day after tomorrow. I don't believe that at your age you just like someone All my life, my mother has long been unable to remember what the first person she liked was like."

He Sui didn't refute, he just thought in his heart, how bad life would be without Zheng Xiuran in the future.

That night, both mother and son knew that they were not asleep, but they didn't talk to each other.The next day, when the sun filled the whole room, Mother He got out of bed, why did she cook a bowl of noodles.

The same is true for the third and fourth days.

On the fifth day, He's mother asked He Sui if he wanted to transfer the class, but He Sui didn't respond.

"I'm going to tell your head teacher—"

"Mom," He Sui said in a low voice, "I have been gradually alienating him these few days, and I feel very uncomfortable, and so does he... Just because you liked him at the beginning, you feel sorry for him, and you should feel sorry for him. It hurts me. We haven't even started, but give us some time to get used to it, right?"

When He Sui grew up, he seldom cried. Seeing his son's tears falling on the dining table with a "slap", He's mother felt a severe pain in her heart.

But long-term pain is worse than short-term pain.

She has thought a lot these days, but even if she can accept that her son likes men, what He Sui will face in the future is far more terrifying than he imagined. Let her be an outsider to listen to the words of those old ladies that day It's already harsh enough, how will He Sui deal with those bad words and hurts in the future?He Sui is still too young, a middle-aged person finds it unbearable just thinking about it, what should He Sui do?

So she had to be the villain and help him cut through the mess.

He Sui's deliberate alienation was too obvious, Zheng Xiuran took the initiative to look for him a few times, seeing the impatience in his eyes became more and more obvious, and then he stopped approaching him.

Zheng Xiuran was a bit depressed these days, his parents felt it, they didn't ask anything, they just invited a few friends' children over on the weekend, they were the same age as Zheng Xiuran, and finally persuaded him to go out to play basketball.

Sweating profusely, Zheng Xiuran was walking out of the basketball court with several people on his shoulders, and happened to bump into He Sui who came out of the bookstore, and the smile on his face disappeared in an instant.

He Sui glanced at him from a distance, glanced at the friends around him, then lowered his head, and walked away quickly like a stranger holding the newly bought test paper.

When He Sui returned home, he thought of Zheng Xiuran standing with a few good-looking boys, looking radiant, and suddenly felt that all the pain in the world could not be compared with him.

Mother He soon noticed something strange about her son. During these days, He Sui's eyes had lost light, and he never smiled happily. Like an inextricable knot.She wasn't sure if what she did was right, and how long her son's state would last.Every day, there seemed to be a huge dark cloud covering the room for a long time, and she never saw a sunny day again.

This year's winter came early, and it seemed to be extremely cold.

The cold wind blew through this small room, He Sui huddled under the quilt, knowing that it was the same night, neither he nor his mother fell asleep.Mother He seemed to have aged ten years in one month, and He Sui's mind was getting heavier and heavier.

He did not let go of his liking and obsession with Zheng Xiuran, on the contrary, this relationship that died before it blossomed made him physically and mentally exhausted.Sometimes I can barely fall asleep for half an hour, and my dreams are full of pain.Unable to bear the torture, he took the initiative to find the class teacher and said that he wanted to go to another class.

Zheng Xiuran found out about this from other students, and let out a soft "Oh", "Actually, I'm going to transfer to another school."

"Ah?! Why is it so sudden?!"

"...My dad's business is not here, and flying around is also very hard, so my mother and I decided to go back to accompany him. Grandpa also made sense and will go with us."

"Then will you come back?" the classmate asked.

Although he knew he would not be back, Zheng Xiuran couldn't help but lied, "It's winter and summer vacation, I will come back to see you all when I have time."

Zheng Xiuran thought that he would never see He Sui again.

But I didn't expect that it was already the best situation.

Before the transfer procedure was completed, He Sui's mother hanged herself in their original home.

Some students accidentally heard a teacher talking about this matter, and they spread the word about it when they came back, and almost everyone in the school knew about it.

The moment Zheng Xiuran heard the news, he grabbed his mobile phone and rushed out of the classroom. He called He Sui, but the other party turned off his phone. Shaking, "... Where is He Sui? Where is he now?"

When Zheng Xiuran rushed to the hospital, He Sui had just been informed by the doctor of the time of his mother's death. The tall and thin boy stood there with his waist bowed. The stomach squatted down, and was tortured by the stomach pain and vomited it out.

"He Sui..." Zheng Xiuran took a few steps forward, afraid to scare him, and only called out. When the other party raised his head and barely recognized him, Zheng Xiuran strode forward, half-kneeling on the ground, and stretched out his hand to hold the person in front of him. into his arms.

The scene of He Sui's mother committing suicide and being discovered by He Sui was filmed yesterday. Liang Xiao lingered in Chu Yun's room for a long time the night before yesterday, but finally did not persuade Chu Yun, who had no part in the scene, to go to the scene the next day.

Chu Yun knew in his heart that he still couldn't face a person dying in front of him, even if it was acting.

At this moment, he was holding "He Sui", his soul seemed to leave his body in an instant, and the roles of the two were reversed. Chu Yun seemed to see that the little boy who cried so hard that he was guarding his mother's body 13 years ago was also held tightly by a person. Hugged tightly.

This scene was filmed many times, from the high sun hanging high to the rising stars, Chu Yun made up for the regret of crying alone in despair from the comfort he gave to He Sui in the scene again and again.

After work was over, the two of them didn't get out of the scene completely, and they went back to the hotel by car.The bath water in this hotel is not very hot. Chu Yun was adjusting the hot water in the bathroom when the doorbell suddenly rang, followed by the familiar knock on the door, three very compact knocks.

Chu Yun turned off the shower and went to open the door.

Holding two steaming things in his hands, Liang Xiao pushed the door involuntarily.

"The weather is quite cold today. I heard that the Mala Tang tastes good here, so I asked Brother Yu to help me bring two servings back. Let's eat together."

Liang Xiao had already sat down at the small table by the window, Chu Yun smelled the aroma of food instantly filling the room, and finally felt less cold.He sat across from Liang Xiao, and found that the child's emotions came out quickly, and he could no longer see the despair and pain during filming.

Malatang is delicious.

Liang Xiao ate until the tip of his nose was covered with thin sweat. Chu Yun handed him a tissue to wipe his sweat. Liang Xiao took it and asked in a low voice, "What do you think... the reason why He Sui's mother committed suicide? I saw many Readers who have read the original work say that she has come to a dead end step by step since she got married, but why do I feel—”

"What do you think?"

Liang Xiao hesitated for a moment, "If He Sui hadn't fallen in love with Zheng Xiuran, wouldn't his mother have committed suicide?"

Chu Yun lowered his head and said "um", "It should be like this."

"Then do you think it's wrong for He Sui to like Zheng Xiuran?"

Chu Yun slowly raised his eyes. This is a difficult question to answer. If He Sui hadn't met Zheng Xiuran, he would still be excluded by his classmates and have no friends, but it seems to be no big deal. After all, compared with the lost life, a person's What are pleasure and human connection?When I think about it this way, I feel that the people in the whole story are quite sad.

Seeing that Chu Yun didn't answer, Liang Xiao didn't go into the details, but he still minded that Chu Yun didn't go to the filming yesterday, so he couldn't help complaining a few words, and heard Chu Yun's soft laughter from above his head, "That scene It's so important, I'm afraid it will affect your performance, I will watch the movie when it is released, and I will watch it many times."

Zheng Xiuran lives the longest in this work, but He Sui is the center of the story, and the life trajectories of other characters revolve around He Sui, so Liang Xiao believes this sentence.

But Liang Xiao's heart is far from being as free and easy as he seems on the surface, he has never acted in such a depressing scene, and he came to Chu Yun just to find an outlet for his emotions, but he found that Chu Yun didn't seem to be there very much. Status, although he is usually not bluffing, but tonight seems to be very quiet and talkative, and being able to say such a few words seems to be his limit.

In fact, Liang Xiao is very good at observing words and expressions. Although Chu Yun deliberately avoided yesterday's scene, he still couldn't help but be reminded of what happened many years ago.In addition to Chu Xia's reasons for his decision to accept this drama, he also wanted to know whether he had overcome the hurdle in his heart. Now it seems that there is still a long way to go before that day.

"What's wrong with you?" Liang Xiao asked.

Chu Yun came back to his senses, and suddenly realized that Liang Xiao hadn't called him "Brother Yun" since he entered the door. A slight strangeness rose in his heart, and he shook his head, "It's okay."

Liang Xiao wiped his hands and watched him eat quietly.

Chu Yun himself may not have noticed it. When facing Liang Xiao, he rarely concealed his bad and negative emotions, so Liang Xiao saw the loneliness in his eyes and the depression on his face.

Chu Yun scooped up a piece of shrimp balls and ate them. Out of the corner of his eye, he noticed that Liang Xiao's face was getting closer. When he raised his eyes, he saw Liang Xiao's eyes were tightly locked on his lips.

Realizing what Liang Xiao was going to do, Chu Yun raised his hand to reach it.

"Liang Xiao," Chu Yun frowned, "I am not Zheng Xiuran, nor are you He Sui, you—"

The sharp friction between the chair and the floor resounded in the room, and the light in Chu Yun's eyes was blocked by Liang Xiao who got up suddenly.

Liang Xiao didn't know what was wrong with him. When he realized it, he had already hugged the back of Chu Yun's neck forcefully, and lowered his head to catch those lips that looked as lonely as his master.