early morning twilight

Si Ye has not been back to the so-called "old house" of the Si family for a long time.

That was the first villa that Si Guanqun bought after starting the company.

Make a show for others to see, and decorate home appliances in the direction of luxury.

Over the years, it is like an old lady.

The yellowed wallpaper, the crystal lamp with one or two broken bulbs, and the metal sculptures that are no longer bright, all reveal the vicissitudes of the past and the ridiculousness of extravagance.

"Who is that person?" Si Guanqun growled, pointing his trembling hands in front of Si Ye's eyes, "You're actually messing with a man!"

Si Ye didn't back down, "His name is Jin Chongshan, he is my boyfriend."

As a child, he both feared and hated Si Guanqun.

Every time he was scolded by Si Guanqun, he would subconsciously look away.

But now, the man who was nominally his father was no longer an oppressive deterrent to him.

Fear disappears, hate turns to indifference.

Jin Chongshan's indifference and calm seemed to have infected him.

When he said "it's my boyfriend", he showed stability and firmness.

Si Yu on the side frowned lightly, looking at his younger brother with a little more scrutiny.

This scrutiny is different from the past. There is no tolerance, care and aloofness of the elders, but it is like looking at an equal and independent opponent.

At this moment, Si Yu vaguely realized that his younger brother, who was held in the palm of his hand, seemed to have really grown up.

"You are sick!" Si Guanqun couldn't choose what to say, "You are indeed sick! You said you want to travel for medical treatment, and I think the more you are treated, the worse it gets!"

With that said, Si Guanqun raised his hand and greeted Si Ye's face.

Si Ye didn't hide, but he didn't slap him in the face.

Si Yu strode forward and firmly grasped Si Guanqun's arm.

Si Guanqun shouted: "I will teach my son a lesson, and you are also my son. Are you qualified to stop me?"

Si Guanqun suddenly figured out something, and became even more angry, "You know? You already knew that he was with a man! Beast! Do you want to find a man to piss me off too?"

Si Yu never showed any straightforward emotions that night.

But at this moment, an angry look suddenly appeared on his brows and eyes, and he looked coldly at his father who was no longer as tall as himself, "Think again, should you talk to him like this."

Si Ye looked at Si Yu suddenly.

Since he was a child, Si Yu was the one who managed him the most, but even at a very young age, he was not ignorant of good and evil.

He knew that Si Yu was really for his own good, unlike Si Guanqun who just used him as a symbol and a tool.

Therefore, he understood why Si Yu was so angry at the moment.

Si Guanqun talked about his illness, which was what Si Yu was most worried about this year.

He has recovered, thanks to the efforts of many people and himself.

Being with the same sex is not a disease.Si Yu does not allow anyone to say that about him, even if this person is their father.

Si Guanqun still wanted to get angry, but Si Yu's eyes made him flinch, and his arrogance weakened a bit, "He's just spoiled by you! Now it's like this, don't you care?"

"I'll take care of it." Si Yu threw away Si Guanqun's hand and turned to Si Ye, "Talk about it?"

The two brothers went up to the study on the second floor, Si Yu pointed to the sofa, "Sit."

Si Ye looked around the study room, saw a row of toys in the glass bookcase, and inadvertently curled the corners of his lips.

It was rewarded by Si Yu when he did well in the exam.

This study has many memories belonging to him and his brother.

Si Yu's own grades are not very good, but he stubbornly hopes that he will be a top student.

Sometimes in the middle of the night, he would have a brain convulsion to help him with his homework, but his own level was really limited, and he couldn't solve a problem for a long time, so he simply left the notebook and took him to Hongxing Road to eat Sange snails.

Si Yu grimaced, "What are you laughing at?"

Si Ye took a deep breath, "Thinking of you helping me with my homework before."

Si Yu put on the majesty of a parent, "I'll tell you the business, don't talk about it."

Si Ye sat upright, "Brother, tell me."

Si Yu looked at this younger brother who was brought up by him, and for the first time, he did not use the tone of an older brother to educate his younger brother, but the tone of friends of the same age talking to each other.

"When did it start?"

"When I first arrived in Kashgar, I fell in love with him at first sight."

Si Yu's eyelids twitched, he raised his hand to suppress it, and suppressed his irritability, "What about him?"

Si Ye thought of when he said "the wilderness is running towards the mountains", Jin Chongshan looked at him.

He didn't understand at that time, but later he understood, it was full of surprise, happiness, and ignorant heartbeat.

"He's probably older than me."

Si Yu was half speechless, "Then you two are really a perfect match."

"Brother." Si Ye said seriously: "I really want to be with him."

Si Yu's gaze lingered on Si Ye's face.

If Si Ye had confessed to him that day while eating Japanese food, he would probably be furious like Si Guanqun and never agree with them being together.

With his temperament, he must have gone too far than Si Guanqun, and he might lock Si Ye up.

Then wait for the anger to subside, and then talk to Siye bitterly.

But on the last day of the exhibition, he saw with his own eyes how Jin Chongshan protected Si Ye.

He raised Siye and acted as a protector in Siye's past life.

He knows too well what it's like to protect someone sincerely.

Jin Chongshan is like another him.

No, Jin Zhongshan did better than him, as if telling him - you can give your brother to me.

"But have you considered the problems you will face?" Siyu had to think about the future for his younger brother, "Your career can't be in the northwest, I heard from Xiaoxing that 'wilderness' will develop to the east next year, and signed a An international project. He...Jin Zhongshan is a Tajik, will stay with you in Chengdu? By the way, what is he doing in Kashgar?"

Si Ye couldn't help scratching the fabric of his trousers, like a student facing a final exam.

"Brother, I've already thought about this. I won't let him come with me to Chengdu. I'm going to Kashgar to open a new studio."

Si Yu frowned, obviously disapproving, but still suppressed his temper, "Kashgar is suitable for the development of tourism, humanities and history, but you are engaged in fashion design."

"I understand, but I want to try to combine fashion and ethnicity. Brother, I opened a clothing store in Kashi, you know, and the clothes I design are very popular. 'Wildness' sometimes does not allow me to do what I want completely The design I wanted, but it was available in Kashgar."

As soon as he talked about his major, Si Ye was eloquent, with bright eyes, "Brother, in fact, you have never been to Kashgar, and there are many misunderstandings about it. The acceptance there is beyond imagination. All my extraordinary works can be accepted. Meet people there who love it."

Si Yu was silent for a while, "Is Jin Chongshan unwilling to stay in Chengdu with you?"

Si Ye shook his head, "I want him to go back to southern Xinjiang. He is the eagle of the Pamirs and the mountain god of Karakorum. There are many people in Ta County who need him."

Si Yu clicked his tongue, "What Eagle Mountain God, you are so fascinated."

"He is!" Si Ye couldn't hide the love in his eyes, "Brother, he is a very nice, gentle, and reliable person!"

The first three are special, and it is difficult for Si Yu to empathize with them.

But the latter, he reluctantly agrees with.

"What about the 'wilderness'? You went to Kashgar, who will you give the 'wilderness' to?"

When Si Ye heard this, he knew that he had already passed the test of being a parent.

He didn't care what Si Guanqun said, but he didn't want Si Yu to be sad and disappointed.

Si Yu understood him, and his tense strings suddenly relaxed, "Brother, I just went to Kashgar to open a store, and it's not like I won't come back. I'm still in charge of 'wilderness'."

"Will you go back to Chengdu often?"

"Of course! I'm still waiting for you to be merciful and treat me to a big meal from time to time!"

Si Yu gave a gracious smile, "I just miss eating."

Si Ye checked the time, if he didn't go back, he would miss the New Year's Eve.

This is the first year he and Jin Zhongshan have been together, and it is also the first time that they have crossed the new year together.

He was looking forward to it.

"Brother, I want to go back."

Si Yu nodded and sent Si Ye to the garage.

When passing the living room, Si Guanqun glared at them angrily and helplessly, and just about to scold something, Si Yu glanced at him, "Old guy, I didn't bother him before, so don't come here to put on airs as a father now. "

Si Ye sat in the driver's seat, Si Yu helped him close the door, the corners of his lips twitched, hesitant to speak.

Si Ye could see that although Si Yu agreed, he was still worried.

Fireworks had already started to go off in the square not far away, and the splendor of the blast fell into his eyes, and he pulled out a particularly bright smile, "Brother, don't worry, Jin Zhongshan and I will always be together, we will definitely be special" happiness."

Si Yu sighed, "Let's go."

As soon as Si Ye got out of the garage, he couldn't wait to call Jin Chongshan.

Probably because he was too happy, he didn't hear the different depression in Jin Zhongshan's tone.

Jin Chongshan told him to drive carefully and wait for him when he gets home.

Si Ye thinks the word "wait" is very sweet.

On New Year's Eve, his lover was waiting for him to go home and take him to the distant Pamirs.

Orange light poured out from the loft window, Si Ye parked the car, walked quickly towards home, and took the last few steps to run.

The door opened, and he said loudly: "Brother——"

Before he finished speaking, his eyes suddenly became blank.

Jin Chongshan changed into the clothes he had just arrived in Chengdu, and a bulging travel bag was placed by the dining table.

The room was cleaned very clean, his littered clothes and confiscated packing bags were sorted out.

The windows are bright and clean to welcome the New Year.

But he wants to spend the New Year's Eve with people, it seems that he is not ready to welcome the New Year with him.

Jin Chongshan was indeed waiting for him at home, but he just waited for him to come back and say goodbye to him.

"Brother?" Si Ye couldn't turn the corner for a while, "Why did you pack all your luggage? Aren't we going back after New Year's Day?"

Jin Chongshan looked down at Si Ye, and the orange light completely covered up the struggle and reluctance in his eyes.

Baisha Lake has had a storm that has not been encountered in many years.

But billowing dark clouds pressed down, and even Baisha Mountain couldn't see the turbulence of the lake.

"I'm going back today. You stay in Chengdu."

Si Ye's eyes were red, and he asked dumbly, "Why?"

The fireworks outside the window became more dense, and the mottled light and shadow cast on his face, like tears that could not be wiped away.

Jin Chongshan stared at him, raised his hand, trying to touch his face, but finally retracted it.

"Sino, let's break up."

"boom--"

It's zero o'clock soon, and the sound of fireworks is deafening.

Si Ye felt that his ears were ringing and he was hallucinating, otherwise how could he hear such words?

An hour ago, he was still in high spirits, even complacently describing the future between him and Jin Chongshan to Si Yu.

They will have a store with a unique style in Kashgar, and he has the final say on everything.

When Jin Chongshan is not so busy, he will take Jin Chongshan back to Chengdu, to Shanghai and Beijing, to Europe and Japan, and to all the places where he shows his talent.

The eagle is still an eagle, and he will spread his wings until he soars with the eagle among the white clouds and snow-capped mountains.

He just said that Jin Zhongshan and I will always be together.

Why did Jin Chongshan break up as soon as he got home?

It must be fake.

Doesn't he know Jin Chongshan yet? Ever since he was given a ride, Jin Chongshan has always teased him without changing his face.

He has been fooled countless times, why doesn't he have a long memory?

It's just that the joke isn't really funny.

"Brother..." Si Ye gently grabbed Jin Chongshan's clothes, "Don't tease me like this, it's not funny."

After a few seconds of silence, Jin Zhongshan repeated: "Siye, let's break up."

Si Ye's pupils suddenly contracted.

This doesn't seem like a joke.

His hands trembled uncontrollably.

Unbelief, embarrassment, anger, these emotions erupted before sadness and grievance.

"What are you talking about? Didn't we agree to go back together? Why did we break up?"

"Is it because of my brother and Si Guanqun? I said I would deal with it, and I have already dealt with it! My brother agreed! Do you understand? My brother agreed!"

He broke his voice with excitement, speaking faster and faster, like an angry lion.

Subconsciously, he thought that if he showed his nervous side, Jin Chongshan would hug him.

But no.

Jin Chongshan still looked at him seriously, his eyes didn't wander in the slightest, he was as ruthless as a snow mountain that had never been shaken for thousands of years, "I didn't agree."

"what?"

"Sino, we didn't agree."

"Why not?" Siye became even more excited, "I'll go back to Kashgar with you and open a shop in Kashgar! You come back to Chengdu with me once in a while! Didn't you agree?"

Jin Chongshan shook his head.

The clock struck zero.Dull and long reverberating.

Followed by the sound of more intensive fireworks, there are cheers from people in the distance.

The new year has arrived.

But Si Ye was trapped in the old year, and calmed down strangely in the ringing of the bell.

Jin Chongshan really never agreed.

Every time he talked about this matter, Jin Zhongshan was either silent, or said that Chengdu was more suitable for him.

But he actually ignored it!

Si Ye also tried to persuade Jin Zhongshan, but at this time he couldn't organize a decent language at all, and only uttered a pale sentence: "Brother, the distance is not a problem at all, we can definitely overcome it..."

Jin Chongshan still shook his head, "The price of overcoming is to let you give up half of your career."

Si Ye repeatedly retorted, "But I am willing! I can be responsible for my choice!"

"I don't want to." Jin Chongshan rarely called him by his nickname, "Xiao Ye, stay in Chengdu, don't restrict yourself because of others."

"Are you someone else?"

Jin Chongshan remained silent.

Si Ye grabbed his collar again, "Jin Zhongshan, can you let me go?"

Fireworks have been launched into the sky countless times, and time seems to be frozen.

After an unknown amount of time, Jin Chongshan gently separated Si Ye's hand.

"Let it go."

The cold wind suddenly passed through the hall, blowing the curtains that had just been washed.

It was like a mallet hitting the eardrum hard.

Si Ye stood where he was, not moving.

Jin Chongshan picked up the luggage bag, glanced at him again, and walked to the door.

Si Ye's shoulders trembled, and he almost said to himself: "But I can't let go."

Jin Chongshan didn't look back, "Time will help you let go."

Closing the door, all the movement inside, together with the turbulent half a year, were shut down together.

Jin Chongshan stood for a while, then walked into the night.

Time will help you let go.

Time will help us let go.

The author says:

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