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After finishing, both of them were quite tired, Qin Yan was dizzy, and he was panting heavily while nestling in He Jiashi's arms.

The wind blows outside the window, wrapped in dry heat, making people itchy.

He Jiashi hugged Qin Yan, looked down at him, kissed his hair first, and then asked, "Yanyan, are you feeling well?"

Qin Yan laid his head on He Jiashi's chest, listening to He Jiashi's heart beating powerfully in his chest, and felt a rare peace and tranquility.

In this unprecedented joy, in the fiery trembling of each other, he forgot the troubles in school and life, his own embarrassment and helplessness, and in his heart and eyes, only He Jiashi was left.

There was a rare, innocent and happy smile on his face, and although his eyes were still unnaturally blurred, his whole person looked radiant.

He looked at He Jiashi, played with He Jiashi's fingers, and said, "I didn't know before that it would be so comfortable to do this."

After finishing speaking, Qin Yan's face suddenly turned red, and he buried his head in He Jiashi's arms, not daring to look at him again.

He Jiashi kissed his hair, "Yanyan, you are so kind, so kind."

Qin Yan didn't raise his head, but said sullenly, "Why didn't we try it before?"

They have been together for so long, and they have watched over each other day and night. It is not that they have never comforted each other. When hugging and kissing can't satisfy the desire and urgency that emerge from the body, happiness is in each other's fingers and lips once. flowed again.

But after so many nights and so many temptations, they never really took this step.

until today.

He Jiashi smiled and said, "Because we have to wait for you to grow up, we agreed, we have to wait for you."

Qin Yan let out a "huh", and then remembered the promise between them, he hesitated for a moment, and said, "If I knew...if I knew it would be so wonderful, I..."

Reason and emotion were at war, and Qin Yan failed to express his "regret". He bit He Jiashi's chest muscle and said, "Now, it's not too late."

He Jiashi got up and closed the window, then grabbed Qin Yan who was on the bed into his arms, and took him to the bathroom.

Standing under the shower, Qin Yan didn't seem to have recovered from the intense and majestic happiness just now, he looked dazed, letting the sticky white liquid mixed with lubrication flow down the gap to his thighs.

He Jiashi couldn't help swallowing, he let out a long breath, turned on the faucet, and kissed Qin Yan's lips while helping Qin Yan take a bath.

Qin Yan smiled and pushed him, the mist in his eyes finally faded, revealing a crystal light, he wrapped his arms around He Jiashi's neck, "Stop kissing, it's not enough yet."

He Jiashi lowered his head, bit his lips lightly, and after rubbing his lips and teeth, he said, "Well, I didn't kiss enough."

"I can't kiss enough."

They were all fresh-blooded young people, and they almost misfired in this heated bathroom, but He Jiashi reluctantly persisted and did not press this person to do it again.

It's late at night, and the whole world is peaceful, only the sound of each other's breathing is lingering in our ears.

Qin Yan's whole body seemed to be falling apart, his eyelids could hardly be opened, but he didn't want to fall asleep too quickly, everything tonight was too beautiful for him, the hazy moonlight, the gentle wind , a warm embrace, and the most extreme happiness of human beings that I have experienced for the first time.

He closed his eyes and raised the corners of his mouth, as if he was still thinking about it.

He Jia also smiled, kissing his forehead for a while, and stroking his hair for a while, but he was afraid that he would react again, so he decided not to kiss him again.

Qin Yan forced his eyes to look at He Jiashi.

He Jiashi put his hands on his glasses and whispered, "Sleep when you're sleepy, Yan Yan."

Qin Yan shook his head, waved He Jiashi's hand away, still stared at him, and said, "I don't want to sleep, let's talk."

He Jia was taken aback for a moment, kissed Qin Yan's forehead, and said, "Okay, tell me, I'll listen."

Qin Yan seemed a little shy, and put his hands on his face, "Jiashi, you know, I'm very worried...I'm worried that you will disappoint me."

Qin Yan originally wanted to say that he was worried that you would look down on me, but he didn't say it out of his mouth.That hurts so much.

He Jiashi seemed to understand Qin Yan's subtext, and seemed to remember what Qin Yan blurted out in anger just now on the road.He frowned, looked at Qin Yan for a long time, and finally slowly put his hand on the back of Qin Yan's, rubbing it lightly, "Yanyan, if mom is still here, do you think she will laugh at you?"

Qin Yan shook his head and said nothing.

He Jiashi pulled Qin Yan's hand off his face, looked into his eyes, and said seriously, "I am the same."

"We grew up together. To me, you are not only a couple, but also a family member. I always only hope that you can live comfortably and happily, and that your wishes come true...how can I look down on you and see your jokes? "

Qin Yan's eyes were red, "I..."

He told everything in a broken jar, "Jiashi, I'm so scared, I'm afraid I won't be able to grasp anything."

The outside world is wonderful and bizarre, he has heard of it, seen it, but never comprehended it.He imagined the world that didn't belong to him thousands and hundreds of times in his mind, but he couldn't copy one tenth of it.

He didn't know what kind of trials and setbacks would be waiting for him in the future, even his imagination was floating and naive.He has no parents to rely on, and even his feelings may become a joke in others' mouths.

He was too scared.Fear of those foreseeable difficulties, and worry about the mediocrity that I will inevitably enter.

He has seen too little, too little, a small mining area, a small school, and a lackluster provincial capital.Like every student who is used to the top ranks, he once thought that his future must be bright and smooth, but he has seen too much business, worldly boring, the taste of power, and the decay of money. He finally realized that his It is just the smallest and dull grain of sand in the vastness of this galaxy.

And this is just a rare occurrence in real society.

He is afraid of such a future, and he dare not face such a mediocre self.

He desperately wanted to grab something, but everything went downhill in his near-collapse and neurotic stubbornness.

So he can only suffer more, and so on.

He Jiashi looked at him quietly, and finally asked, "Yanyan, what exactly do you want to catch? What do you want to get?"

Qin Yan let out a long sigh of relief.

He is too clear and sober, knowing that no matter how hard he tries, nothing can guarantee his future, but he is just not reconciled.

Not reconciled to being a dull ordinary person, like sardines in a can, each one is the same.

So what exactly is he trying to catch?What can he catch?

He Jiashi looked at Qin Yan, "Yanyan, no matter what, I will be with you. No matter how hard it is in the future, we will get through it together. What do you have to worry about?"

Qin Yan looked at He Jiashi blankly, yes, no matter what happens, even if the road is long and difficult, He Jiashi will always be by his side.What else can he not get through?

"I..." Qin Yan didn't know what to say, those troubles that haunted him for a long time, like mist under the sun, disappeared in a flash, not even a trace could be seen.

He Jiashi kissed his lips, "Yanyan, I will always be with you, even if the sky falls, I will be taller than you, don't be afraid."

"No matter how difficult it is, it will always be better than now."

Qin Yan tilted his head and thought for a while, finally, he smiled, nodded and said, "Well, no matter what, it will always be better than now."

The heart that seemed to be floating finally fell to the ground, he suddenly relaxed, and even the smile on his brows and eyes softened a lot.

He Jiashi was right, no matter what the future holds, it will never be worse than the present.

The author says:

The development of the plot and the psychological description are based on the development of the characters. The characters have their own limitations. The characters are 18-year-old college entrance examination candidates. The limitations of the characters do not represent the limitations of the author who has been an adult for many years. There is no way, I can only whine.