she's fine and so am I

! "Tears flowed like this, wetting Cao Yuxuan's clothes.

"So, we all think that we are doing the best for each other, don't we?" Cao Yuxuan helped He Ling to stand up.Holding He Ling's shoulders with both hands, looked at He Ling, and said to He Ling with pleading eyes, "Let's let each other go!" As soon as these words came out, Cao Yuxuan's tears did not stop, and they flowed naturally!It flowed out of control!

He Ling couldn't believe what Cao Yuxuan said, she never thought that Cao Yuxuan would say let each other go.She stared at Cao Yuxuan in a daze, her eyes were wide open, tears flowed from her eyes, so clear, so clear...

The author has something to say:

There were a few things that affected the update before the break.In fact, it can be regarded as competing with myself!We often do not let ourselves go.When you learn to let go of yourself, life will be much easier!I hope everyone learns to let go of themselves!

31. I will pick you up

"The station ahead is Suzhou Station..." The conductor's announcement sounded in the carriage.The Suzhou station has arrived, and Cao Yuxuan is about to get off.The two people standing at the junction of the carriages looked at each other with tears in their eyes and did not speak.Cao Yuxuan stretched out her hand and said in a hoarse voice, "Give it back to me! I'm getting out of the car!"

He Ling held the ID card tightly.She didn't want Cao Yuxuan to leave, she didn't want to return her ID card.Just staring at Cao Yuxuan like this, hoping to find a trace of reluctance in Cao Yuxuan's eyes, so that He Ling can take Cao Yuxuan's hand as it should and never let go.But Cao Yuxuan saw nothing in her eyes.

The conductor came and the doors opened.The two stood at the door like this, without speaking, the conductor said in a low voice, "The stop here is very short, don't get off!" After speaking, the conductor got off the car and stood by the door. Because of this carriage, no one got on or off the train at this position.

Cao Yuxuan and He Ling were in a stalemate like this. Just as the conductor was about to get on the train and close the door, He Ling put the ID card in Cao Yuxuan's hand and gently pushed Cao Yuxuan out of the carriage.

The conductor was frightened and said quickly, "The door will be closed immediately, come up quickly!"

He Ling smiled wryly and said, "She was supposed to get off at this stop."

The surprised expression of the conductor is beyond your imagination.Maybe the conductor himself has his own guesses!

The car door closed, He Ling burst into tears again, she squatted down again, crying with her head in her arms, but she still let go of Cao Yuxuan's hand.

Cao Yuxuan who was standing on the platform seemed to have already guessed the result, He Ling would choose to let her go in the end!Cao Yuxuan watched the train leaving, and stood there quietly!Seeing off my former lover...

Time seems to have returned to calm again, everything is normal...

Cao Yuxuan returned to Sichuan and was with her parents, because she felt that only when she was with her parents could she feel gentle and safe.Mother boils two eggs for Cao Yuxuan every morning, because it needs nutrition, even though eggs are the least favorite of Cao Yuxuan, but thinking of the child in her stomach, Cao Yuxuan accepts them all!She eats whatever the mother does, as long as the mother says eating is good for the child, she will eat whatever it is.I don't know if it's really for the good of the child, or just want to eat more and forget about the troubles......

"Xuan! You give birth to the child! Let's raise it together!" This is what He Ling said to Cao Yuxuan in her sleep...

Opening her eyes, Cao Yuxuan knew that this was just a dream again!Turn around and pick up the phone beside the bed, there is a message!Cao Yuxuan opened it and saw that it was He Ling!She didn't know why He Ling still contacted her again. After the last time, shouldn't they just die and never communicate with each other and no longer appear in each other's lives?

"Cao Yuxuan, give birth to the child! I will raise it with you!"

He Ling's words woke up Cao Yuxuan again like a stick!Tears welled up again!Cao Yuxuan didn't know whether what He Ling said was true or not!She didn't reply!Just cover your head and cry again!She thought maybe this time, it was her own hallucination again!

He Ling knew it was so late, Cao Yuxuan must have fallen asleep.But how could she fall asleep after tossing and turning? !She has been waiting for Cao Yuxuan's reply!She wanted to see Cao Yuxuan's reply as soon as possible!Either reject or accept!She wants to see it for the first time.I don't know how long it took, He Ling opened her eyes again, it was already dawn!She hurriedly took the phone, afraid of missing the message.However, there was no news she wanted to see.He Ling put down the phone in disappointment.Pack everything up and drive to work as usual.

After Cao Yuxuan woke up, it was the same as usual, as if she had never received that message.

When He Ling came home from get off work, looking at the empty room, memories flooded back again!The girl named Cao Yuxuan used to live here, and lived here with her... The movie was staged one after another...

"Cao Yuxuan, if you want a child, give birth! I will raise it with you." He Ling sent it anyway!

Sending out the news is an endless wait... This is suffering for He Ling!It's not that she doesn't want to call and ask directly!But she was also afraid of calling, afraid of being rejected in person!To be precise, I am afraid of being rejected again!

Cao Yuxuan did not reply!He Ling couldn't wait any longer, she didn't want to say it sentence by sentence, so she had a long confession letter:

Cao Yuxuan, I have thought it over clearly, I want to be with you, the kind that is really together and never separate.I will pick you up!Pick you up and let's live together.As for children, if you want, we can raise them together!I will treat him like my own child.As long as it is yours, I will always treat him well.He is our child!Cao Yuxuan, I regret everything I did to you back then!It is I who give you hope again and again, and let you down again and again.I'm out of control, that's why I use the worst words on you.Actually I don't think so.I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me.  …

Cao Yuxuan couldn't bear to look at what was left behind, because tears had already wet her eyes, and her contact lenses were washed out by tears.Cao Yuxuan could no longer pretend not to see, she knew that He Ling must have thought it through, otherwise there would not be such a long speech.Cao Yuxuan tremblingly dialed the video...

Seeing Cao Yuxuan's video coming, He Ling immediately sat up and nervously pressed the answer button...

The two people in the camera may not be able to see each other clearly at all!Because tears filled my eyes...

After eating, lying on the bed, my mother sat beside Cao Yuxuan and talked to her.Cao Yuxuan interrupted her mother suddenly, and said anxiously, "Mom, will you be angry if I say I don't want to get married now?"

Mom must have thought that Cao Yuxuan was out of her mind!Obviously, the marriage certificate is all gone, why don't you want to get married all of a sudden!Jokingly said, "You have lost your marriage certificate, why do you say you don't want to get married?"

"Mom, do you remember He Ling?" Cao Yuxuan said in a trembling voice, looking at her mother carefully.

Mom paused, and replied, "I know! The girl you share the rent with." Mom seemed to have some different feelings, and the movements of her hands stopped.Ask "what's the matter?" In fact, my mother should feel it!

"Mom, I like He Ling! We are not good friends, we are lovers!" After saying this, Cao Yuxuan cried again!She didn't know what her mother would think or do.

When my mother heard this, tears flowed silently.But my mother still said calmly, "You are just used to each other." My mother was very calm, as if she knew all these things.No hysteria, no name-calling.

Cao Yuxuan cried even more sadly, "Mom, no. I love her. Just like she loves me. I want to be with her."

At this time, my mother started to sob and blamed herself, "It's my fault, I didn't discipline you well. I gave you too much freedom."

Cao Yuxuan interrupted, "No, Mom. It's not your fault. We're all right. It just so happens that we're all girls."

After her mother calmed down, she asked calmly, "Since you love each other so much, why did you get married and have children?" The words were like a thorn in Cao Yuxuan's heart, which was exactly what she was unsteady about. The place.But when He Ling said that she would come to pick her up no matter what happened, she was full of courage again.I think the future is promising.

"She will pick me up in a few days, and we will raise this child together!" Cao Yuxuan felt a little distressed when she saw the crying mother, but she still didn't want to lose He Ling.So she's going to give it a go.

"You let her come! I'll beat her out with a broom!" Mom said angrily, and left the room.At this moment, only Cao Yuxuan was alone in the room...

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In fact, sometimes coming out seems very simple, although it may not be successful.But speaking your truth is what you should do.Don't be that unreal self.

32. Put it down completely!

It's very quiet at night!Quiet can hear the wind!There is also the sound of leaves rubbing against each other... There is also the sound of mother crying among these sounds, which is very small, but enough for Cao Yuxuan to hear on this quiet night.But Dad acted like he couldn't hear anything, just watching TV in the living room.Everything seems to have nothing to do with him.

Cao Yuxuan knew that her mother was sad, but why wasn't she herself?In the silent night, only the cries of two sad women......

In the next few days, my mother didn't mention that matter again.still as usual