want to die in winter [be]

Recently, Lu Changfeng was on a business trip, and the company has no inheritance rights. He is going to start his own business, and he is discussing several projects recently.

I didn't understand what I was doing, so I didn't ask much, and continued to do my job in the bar.

But in the morning, I received several calls from strangers. He forced Lai Lai to talk for a long time. After I hung up, he kept calling me. It was so annoying.

After I blocked the number, I stopped.

In the afternoon, Bai Qiaohe came to the bar suddenly, brought me a medicine, said it was good for my condition, and asked me to take it once a day.

In fact, I didn't take the medicine I got in the hospital before. I feel that I am already cured. Although I still have some headaches, I don't want to take the medicine.

I kept this matter from Lu Changfeng, so he didn't know that I didn't take any medicine.

Recently, my headaches have been getting worse and worse, so I accepted his kindness, squeezed the medicine box and put it in my pocket. I asked him curiously, "How do you know I'm sick?"

He probably wasn't at the bar when I got into the accident.

Bai Qiaohe chuckled: "Huh? Did you forget? You told me yourself."

Yeah?Probably I forgot.

"Okay, I guess I forgot, thanks."

Bai Qiaohe nodded: "Then I'll go first, there is another surgery, I'm going to help."

It was rare for him to take the time to see me.

"it is good."

I stood at the bar and took out the box of medicine from my pocket. I wondered if the light was too dim, and I couldn't read the words on the box at all.

The boss came over and saw that I was not working hard, so he came over, looked at me, and then at the medicine box.

He glared at me and left.

I pursed my lips, put the medicine box in my pocket, and continued to work.

After I got home from get off work, I threw the medicine box into the trash can and drank the medicine along with the water.

After drinking it, the headache was really less.

After taking a shower, I sat on the bed and sent messages to Lu Changfeng as usual.

There was water on my finger, and my phone suddenly froze. After I reacted, I took my finger away, wiped the phone with a tissue, and suddenly realized that I had deleted Lu Changfeng’s WeChat message!

Hey!

One of the worst functions of WeChat, as long as you delete him from the chat interface, you will lose his chat information.

I clicked in from the chat interface and found that all the chat records were gone.

I gritted my teeth and cried to him: [I made a mistake just now, and the chat history is gone. 】

[It's gone, it's gone, it's not that I won't chat in the future. 】

【no!Send me screenshots and ask for all of them. 】

After he was with me, he really responded to every request. After I sent it, it was followed by a bombardment of several messages.

Every screenshot is our past.

I hooked my lips and sent him an emoji: [/hum. 】

[Not angry? 】

【can we talk on video? 】

The other side waited for a while before sending it over.

I called him, my eyes fell on him, and I found that he was sitting in the office, looking at something, and waited until the video was connected to look at me.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

He chuckled softly: "I'm in a meeting, baby."

I opened my eyes wide in surprise, and hung up on him instantly.

【you!how!Don't tell me sooner! 】

Lu Changfeng: [I don't want to reject you. 】

I pouted my lips.

Damn, I was coaxed.

【Then... did they see me just now?Did you hear what I said? 】

【No, I turned off the microphone, and they can't see you in that direction. 】

I let out a breath.

[Forget it, wait until tomorrow for the video, you work hard. 】

【Well, good night, go to bed early. 】

After finishing the chat with him, I looked at the date, and suddenly I looked at today's date. Today is November 2025, 11, and tomorrow is the winter solstice.

I looked back at the past few days in a daze, this autumn seemed to pass quickly, obviously I met Lu Changfeng in early autumn, but this season has passed before long.

I always feel like I am missing a few days.

I shook my head and fell asleep.

In the morning, I ate a meal and took a Baiqiao and the medicine he gave me. I have to say that the medicine he gave me is really effective. After taking it, my headache really improved a lot.

But I have thrown away the medicine box, and I can't remember the name of the medicine.

Forget it, let him buy another box for me when I finish eating next time.

Lu Changfeng came back after a week's business trip. That afternoon I asked for leave and went to the airport to pick him up. The two of us went back to the apartment together. When we walked into the room, he started kissing me.

I felt dizzy and almost suffocated by the hot kiss.

When I was pressed down on the bed and my clothes were about to leave my body, I tried to open my eyes, trying to see Lu Changfeng's face clearly.

His lips were raging on my neck, but my eyes were filled with white light, as long as the clear touch and panting sound, I couldn't see anything at all.

I was in a hurry and pushed him a bit: "Wait... wait a minute."

Lu Changfeng was a little confused, but he still buried his head on my neck and rubbed lightly.

"what happened?"

I opened my eyes wide, but I couldn't see Lu Changfeng's face at all. I was so anxious that I was about to cry.

what happened?

What's wrong with me?

I... why can't I see it.

The next second, my pants were taken off.

"Uh... road..."

I close my eyes and stop dwelling on the problem.

I have become more and more strange these days. I feel that everything is in a trance. I don't know if it is because I am too tired from work.

My salary in the bar has been good recently, probably because I am not bad and proficient in business, and the salary has been increasing, so I quit my job in the restaurant.

I also work in the bar from [-]:[-] pm to [-]:[-] pm, and the morning time becomes boring.

Lu Changfeng just started his business and is very busy with work, so I can't pester him all day.

I was sitting in the cafe that I went to with Bai Qiaohe last time, looking through the chat records with Lu Changfeng boredly, curling my lips and recalling the encounter bit by bit.

There was a girl on the side who was having a temper tantrum with the boy, from a low voice at the beginning to a louder voice.

"You are the minister, why didn't a small member of her ask the person who came with her? Just ask the minister? Don't you know the difference between men and women?"

"Then I'm not responsible. She probably didn't ask, so I can't help but reply."

"I don't care, you deleted her."

"Hey... Our department needs to report a lot of things, so don't be angry, how about I buy you the latest small cake you like?"

"You think I'm perfunctory, don't you?!" The girl stood up and looked at him: "If you don't delete it, then break up, you choose."

The boy had no choice but to squeeze the phone and said, "Delete, delete, delete, I just delete, don't be angry, baby, I was wrong."

The girl was dragged to sit down and burst into tears: "Tell me, is it your fault, and these days, your broken club has been busy every time, and it was you who sent me messages before, you Now look at your WeChat, how many messages did you send to me on your own initiative?"

"It's fine that I sent it to you on my own initiative, but it took you half a day to reply! Why don't you reply in your next life!"

The boy lowered his head and coaxed: "I was wrong, don't cry baby, my heart hurts when I cry, no matter how busy I am these days, I won't do it, okay?"

The girl curled her lips: "You said..."

I smiled, people who are in love are very fussy, lest they give too much in this relationship, but the other party doesn't give so much, it will make people think that you don't love me that much.

I lowered my head with a hooked smile, my eyes fell on the phone screen, and the smile on the corner of my mouth froze.

I stared blankly at the chat records, seeing that I was the one who took the initiative to send messages, and suddenly felt a little cold.

I know I shouldn't be so sensitive and petty, but that's how it is when you're in a relationship.

I sent a message to Lu Changfeng to express my anger.

And gave him the steps to coax me, but he should be in a meeting at this time and didn't reply me.

Sadly, I asked Bai Qiaohe to come out, and asked him if I was being too stingy.

Today is not Saturday and Sunday, but it is a day for Baiqiao and his rest. He sat across from me and scratched the back of his head with a smile: "I don't know, I... I have never been in a relationship."

I was shocked: "What!! You haven't been in love? No! You still..."

Bai Qiaohe's eyes widened, and he directly held my lips: "Hush your voice."

I smiled, as if I had discovered some of his little secrets.

"Then do you have someone you like? Male or female?"

Bai Qiaohe shook his head, "I should like girls, but right now I don't have anyone I like, and I actually don't know what liking is."

Like an experienced teacher, I describe it sentence by sentence: "Like? I like to want to be with him every day. I always feel that I am not good enough for him, that I am not worthy of him, and that he is the best person in the world. , want to kiss him and..."

Bai Qiaohe stirred the coffee in his hand, wondering: "Since you like him so much, why do you still have to worry about who sent the message?"

I frowned: "But, I took the initiative and felt that I liked him more. I know that I like him very much. Only when he likes me more can I be satisfied. Do you understand?"

Bai Qiaohe nodded: "You like him, and if you give him a piece of cake, he will give you a piece of cake, but you think why you gave it to him instead of him, and you are wondering why he gave you a piece of cake. As big as you instead of bigger? It’s just dissatisfaction, right?”

No wonder it is a highly educated person, I nodded in satisfaction: "Yes, that's it."

Bai Qiaohe took a sip of coffee: "Why don't you show me your chat records? Give you some advice?"

"But I really don't know much about falling in love, and the opinions I give are all as a spectator."

I thought it was a good idea, so I handed him the phone.

Aren't people all obsessed with the authorities?I only have Baiqiao and this one friend, so I might not be able to see anything.

"The password is 0218."

It's Lu Xingfeng's birthday.

Bai Qiaohe turned on the phone and raised his eyebrows lightly: "I see your chat records, he won't be angry, right?"

I blinked: "Probably not, besides, he doesn't know, just take a quick look."

I urged him, wanting to solve this problem quickly.

Bai Qiaohe chuckled, opened WeChat, looked up at the interface, and asked, "What's the note you gave him?"

I shyly said, "Baby Lu Changfeng."

Bai Qiaohe stared at me for a moment, sliding his fingers across the screen.

Then he raised his head abruptly and asked me a word.

"Have you taken the medicine I gave you before?"

Why did you say this suddenly?

I chuckled: "Have you eaten? One a day, but I feel that I have recovered recently, and my head doesn't hurt anymore, so I don't need to take it anymore?"

"Headache?" Bai Qiaohe was stunned for a moment, his eyes suddenly changed: "Don't zither... don't you know what kind of medicine it is?"

I saw his expression, blankly: "Isn't it treating...a headache?"

Bai Qiao stood up with a "Ceng" and stared at me with wide eyes.

Then he said word by word: "But... have you forgotten?"

"When we met, you told me that you were mentally ill and asked me to help you buy some medicine."

"It's... psychotropic drugs."

Bai Qiaohe handed me the phone.

The voice was obviously very soft, but it fell into my ears but it was icy cold: "The last chat record between you and Lu Yuanfeng was three months ago."