[fgo] Idiosyncratic Shura Field

Am I still alive in this world?

Which side is real?

Is there anything else I haven't thought of?

Standing in the ward with tears in her eyes, Ye Chu could not hear her parents' conversation at all, she walked to the bed with difficulty to see herself clearly on the ward, she wanted to find her missing memory.

"Ye Chu! Ye Chu! Ye Chu, talk! Open the door and let me in! Is there something uncomfortable?"

"Bang bang bang!"

As if having a nightmare and being suddenly awakened by the sounds of the real world, Ye Chu gasped for breath, and suddenly found himself standing in the bathroom of Chaldea.

Facing her eyes was a mirror. The self in the mirror was pale and lifeless, no different from the self she saw on the hospital bed just now.

"Ye Chu! Chu Jiang, please open the door!"

Someone was knocking on the door vigorously, the voice was familiar and anxious, but Ye Chu seemed to have lost his soul, and did not give any response.

She just turned on the faucet stiffly, watched the water in the pool fill up, turned off the faucet, and then plunged in.When I was about to suffocate and drown, I raised my head, took a few deep breaths, then plunged in, raised it again, and so on.

Feeling that he was almost awake, Ye Chu stopped.Putting her hands on the edge of the sink, she looked at herself in the mirror and muttered to herself: "There are still three months."

Before she woke up, she saw that the final deadline on the notice was three months later.

Three months.

"Chu Jiang!"

After wiping his face with a towel, Ye Chu opened the door calmly, and the person standing outside was indeed anxiously thinking about whether to smash the door open.

Restraining his emotions as much as possible, Ye Chu smiled and shook his head and explained: "I'm fine, it's just that I feel a little uncomfortable just now, the kind that happens every month."

To be honest, Ye Chu's complexion was really bad, even though she was already trying to hide it, but this kind of serious psychological discomfort can't be hidden so easily.Roman found this place because he saw her wandering spirit-like behavior on the monitor, so he rushed over anxiously.

"Come with me to the infirmary first." Without giving Ye Chu a chance to resist, Luo Man forcefully pulled her towards the infirmary.

Without struggling or resisting, she let him drag her.

"Roman..."

Ye Chu's voice was very soft, if not for Roman's full attention on her, he would not have heard her call him.

It didn't stop, but Roman still slowed down and asked worriedly: "What's wrong?"

After being silent for dozens of seconds, maybe a few minutes, Ye Chu spoke again: "Am I dreaming now, or am I awake?"

This question did not get an answer, not because Roman refused to answer, but because Ye Chu refused Roman to answer, because she knew that the answer could only be found by herself.Whether it was a butterfly dreaming that he was Zhuang Zhou, or Zhuang Zhou dreaming that he was a butterfly, is an unsolvable question in the final analysis.

Sitting on the hospital bed in the infirmary, Ye Chu held a cup of hot water and watched the slowly rising heat and fell into silence again.

"What are you thinking?" Wiping Ye Chu's half-wet hair with a dry towel, Roman asked cautiously, for fear of irritating her by saying the wrong thing.

After a while, the sound seemed to reach her ears.

"I'm thinking about Zhuang Zhou's dream of a butterfly." She whispered back, "Is the boundary between fantasy and reality really that clear? Is dreaming not actually dreaming, but that you are living in another world?"

While talking, Ye Chu suddenly laughed.

"Based on my experience, isn't this nonsense? Otherwise, how could I have known you before coming to Chaldea?"

After talking with a smile, she took a sip of the water that was not too hot, and then she let out a long sigh as if she had finally recovered.

Putting down the dry towel and combing Ye Chu's hair again, Roman saw that her mood had finally returned to normal, and finally she was no longer as before, as if her soul had stayed in a place he didn't know, and sighed in relief: "You're fine." Just do it."

Without responding directly to Roman's exclamation, Ye Chu changed the subject and asked, "Has the party already started?"

"here we go."

"I'm really sorry, but I, the party initiator, couldn't be there. I hope they can have a good time."

"Aren't you planning to go, Chuchan? It's too late to go now."

Shaking his head, Ye Chu explained: "When I am in such a state, it will make people worry. Tell them that I just feel unwell every month, and let them have fun. Also, The cake with the dragon painted on it was specially made for Miss Heizhen."

His gaze stayed on Ye Chu's pale face for a few seconds even though he had recovered a little, Roman nodded without hesitation in agreement: "I will convey it."

"Take a good rest and wait for me to come back."

In the empty infirmary, Ye Chu got up and put the water cup on the table, then lay flat on the hospital bed, using the same posture as the one he saw on the hospital bed before.

As far as the eye can see, there are white ceilings. It seems that every hospital looks the same, but she doesn't like white at all.

"Am I a butterfly or Zhuang Zhou?"

"Which side is the dream?"

"Or neither is a dream..."

"It's a pity that I can't go to the New Year's Eve party in Chaldea..."

Lying flat on the hospital bed like this, Ye Chu was like a nervous patient, babbling on and on, as if something bad would happen if he stopped, talking to himself non-stop.

"It's a little lonely alone..."

And her words were like a flag, as soon as she finished speaking, someone pushed open the door of the infirmary.

"I've brought everything you want to say—" Roman stood by the bed and said in a tone of praise.

"Why don't you stay and play with them?"

"Because it's happier to be with Chu-chan."

The man on the bed fell silent again after Roman finished speaking.Did I say something wrong again?Roman, caught up in tension and self-reflection, saw Ye Chu pull the quilt and move to the other side of the bed.

"Chu-chan?" Roman didn't quite understand this.

"Can you rest with me?"

His face turned red suddenly, and Roman, who was inevitably a little confused, didn't know how to answer for a while: "That...is it really okay...I...you... ...."

Luo Man's performance made Ye Chu feel better. She smiled helplessly and said, "Because the pillow is not here, I can't sleep. Where are you going, Roman?"

"I, I, I didn't think of where to go!" He breathed a sigh of relief and retorted with some inexplicable loss, Roman sat down on the edge of the bed and began to take off his shoes, "I really didn't think about anything else!"

"Hahahahahaha."

Uncontrollably laughing, Ye Chu couldn't stop laughing on the bed while clutching his stomach.

"Roman, why are you so cute?"

The latter sentence successfully made Roman's face red again, lying on the bed with a distance from Ye Chu, he didn't know how to put his hands and feet.

What about Ye Chu?how to say?She is attacked when she is attacked, and attacked when she is attacked, so in the entire Chaldea, she will only take the initiative in front of Roman, because other men are carnivores, except Roman.

Taking the initiative to approach Roman, Ye Chu buried his head in his heart.

"Roman, if the dream wakes up one day, I must choose between Zhuang Zhou and Butterfly, you..."

"Just make the choice you think is right. No matter what choice you make, I will support you." Stretching out his hand to hold Ye Chu tightly in his arms, Roman's eyes showed some struggles, but in the end he put the right to choose back. In Ye Chu's own hands, "Just do what you think is right..."

"Did you hesitate when making that choice?"

Roman knew that Ye Chu asked about the time when he chose to disappear completely to save humanity.

"I just know that I don't regret that choice at all now, that's the most important thing, isn't it?"

Grabbing Roman's clothes, Ye Chu held his clothes tightly, and said with a choked voice, half crying and laughing: "It's a good thing you're alive now, listen to what they said, I still like you more than Solomon One thing, it's a good thing you appeared in my dream instead of Solomon."

This makes people wonder whether to be happy or helpless. For Roman, Solomon is also his past after all.

But Ye Chu's confession was more of a joy to him, because it was a romantic love story of Romani Akiman, which was exclusive to human beings, and it was what he had always yearned for. Of course, it would be perfect if there were not so many rivals in love. .

"I will choose carefully." Ye Chu raised his head and kissed Roman's chin lightly, "No matter what, you must live happily this time."

Seeing that his entire face including his ears turned crimson in amusing, Ye Chu lowered his head again and put his ears on his heart.

"Can you keep things a secret for me today?"

"it is good."

"You swore you wouldn't tell anyone else?"

"I swear."

When Ye Chu gradually fell asleep in his arms, Roman bent back and kissed her lips little by little.

Whether it is Zhuang Zhou or Die, she is the one she loves.No matter what choice she made, he would support her, just like Da Vinci back then supported his choice.

On weekdays, he would be angry because she did something wrong, and would restrict her actions for her health.But this time is different, it is precisely because I love her that even though I may have to endure pain, I have to support her choice this time.

"I love you."